LUCY, ISABEL, AND PIERRE. PIERRE AT HIS BOOK. ENCELADUS.
I.
A day or two after the arrival of
Lucy, when she had quite recovered from any possible
ill-effects of recent events, events conveying
such a shock to both Pierre and Isabel, though
to each in a quite different way, but not,
apparently, at least, moving Lucy so intensely as
they were all three sitting at coffee, Lucy expressed
her intention to practice her crayon art professionally.
It would be so pleasant an employment for her, besides
contributing to their common fund. Pierre well
knew her expertness in catching likenesses, and judiciously
and truthfully beautifying them; not by altering the
features so much, as by steeping them in a beautifying
atmosphere. For even so, said Lucy, thrown into
the Lagoon, and there beheld as I have heard the
roughest stones, without transformation, put on the
softest aspects. If Pierre would only take a
little trouble to bring sitters to her room, she doubted
not a fine harvest of heads might easily be secured.
Certainly, among the numerous inmates of the old Church,
Pierre must know many who would have no objections
to being sketched. Moreover, though as yet she
had had small opportunity to see them; yet among such
a remarkable company of poets, philosophers, and mystics
of all sorts, there must be some striking heads.
In conclusion, she expressed her satisfaction at the
chamber prepared for her, inasmuch as having been formerly
the studio of an artist, one window had been considerably
elevated, while by a singular arrangement of the interior
shutters, the light could in any direction be thrown
about at will.
Already Pierre had anticipated something
of this sort; the first sight of the easel having
suggested it to him. His reply was therefore not
wholly unconsidered. He said, that so far as she
herself was concerned, the systematic practice of
her art at present would certainly be a great advantage
in supplying her with a very delightful occupation.
But since she could hardly hope for any patronage
from her mother’s fashionable and wealthy associates;
indeed, as such a thing must be very far from her
own desires; and as it was only from the Apostles she
could for some time to come, at least reasonably
anticipate sitters; and as those Apostles were almost
universally a very forlorn and penniless set though
in truth there were some wonderfully rich-looking heads
among them therefore, Lucy must not look
for much immediate pecuniary emolument. Ere long
she might indeed do something very handsome; but at
the outset, it was well to be moderate in her expectations.
This admonishment came, modifiedly, from that certain
stoic, dogged mood of Pierre, born of his recent life,
which taught him never to expect any good from any
thing; but always to anticipate ill; however not in
unreadiness to meet the contrary; and then, if good
came, so much the better. He added that he would
that very morning go among the rooms and corridors
of the Apostles, familiarly announcing that his cousin,
a lady-artist in crayons, occupied a room adjoining
his, where she would be very happy to receive any
sitters.
“And now, Lucy, what shall be
the terms? That is a very important point, thou
knowest.”
“I suppose, Pierre, they must
be very low,” said Lucy, looking at him meditatively.
“Very low, Lucy; very low, indeed.”
“Well, ten dollars, then.”
“Ten Banks of England, Lucy!”
exclaimed Pierre. “Why, Lucy, that were
almost a quarter’s income for some of the Apostles!”
“Four dollars, Pierre.”
“I will tell thee now, Lucy but
first, how long does it take to complete one portrait?”
“Two sittings; and two mornings’ work
by myself, Pierre.”
“And let me see; what are thy
materials? They are not very costly, I believe.
’Tis not like cutting glass, thy tools
must not be pointed with diamonds, Lucy?”
“See, Pierre!” said Lucy,
holding out her little palm, “see; this handful
of charcoal, a bit of bread, a crayon or two, and a
square of paper: that is all.”
“Well, then, thou shalt charge
one-seventy-five for a portrait.”
“Only one-seventy-five, Pierre?”
“I am half afraid now we have
set it far too high, Lucy. Thou must not be extravagant.
Look: if thy terms were ten dollars, and thou
didst crayon on trust; then thou wouldst have plenty
of sitters, but small returns. But if thou puttest
thy terms right-down, and also sayest thou must have
thy cash right-down too don’t start
so at that cash then not so many
sitters to be sure, but more returns. Thou understandest.”
“It shall be just as thou say’st, Pierre.”
“Well, then, I will write a
card for thee, stating thy terms; and put it up conspicuously
in thy room, so that every Apostle may know what he
has to expect.”
“Thank thee, thank thee, cousin
Pierre,” said Lucy, rising. “I rejoice
at thy pleasant and not entirely unhopeful view of
my poor little plan. But I must be doing something;
I must be earning money. See, I have eaten ever
so much bread this morning, but have not earned one
penny.”
With a humorous sadness Pierre measured
the large remainder of the one only piece she had
touched, and then would have spoken banteringly to
her; but she had slid away into her own room.
He was presently roused from the strange
revery into which the conclusion of this scene had
thrown him, by the touch of Isabel’s hand upon
his knee, and her large expressive glance upon his
face. During all the foregoing colloquy, she
had remained entirely silent; but an unoccupied observer
would perhaps have noticed, that some new and very
strong emotions were restrainedly stirring within her.
“Pierre!” she said, intently bending over
toward him.
“Well, well, Isabel,”
stammeringly replied Pierre; while a mysterious color
suffused itself over his whole face, neck, and brow;
and involuntarily he started a little back from her
self-proffering form.
Arrested by this movement Isabel eyed
him fixedly; then slowly rose, and with immense mournful
stateliness, drew herself up, and said: “If
thy sister can ever come too nigh to thee, Pierre,
tell thy sister so, beforehand; for the September
sun draws not up the valley-vapor more jealously from
the disdainful earth, than my secret god shall draw
me up from thee, if ever I can come too nigh to thee.”
Thus speaking, one hand was on her
bosom, as if resolutely feeling of something deadly
there concealed; but, riveted by her general manner
more than by her particular gesture, Pierre, at the
instant, did not so particularly note the all-significant
movement of the hand upon her bosom, though afterward
he recalled it, and darkly and thoroughly comprehended
its meaning.
“Too nigh to me, Isabel?
Sun or dew, thou fertilizest me! Can sunbeams
or drops of dew come too nigh the thing they warm and
water? Then sit down by me, Isabel, and sit close;
wind in within my ribs, if so thou canst, that
my one frame may be the continent of two.”
“Fine feathers make fine birds,
so I have heard,” said Isabel, most bitterly “but
do fine sayings always make fine deeds? Pierre,
thou didst but just now draw away from me!”
“When we would most dearly embrace,
we first throw back our arms, Isabel; I but drew away,
to draw so much the closer to thee.”
“Well; all words are arrant
skirmishers; deeds are the army’s self! be it
as thou sayest. I yet trust to thee. Pierre.”
“My breath waits thine; what is it, Isabel?”
“I have been more blockish than
a block; I am mad to think of it! More mad, that
her great sweetness should first remind me of mine
own stupidity. But she shall not get the start
of me! Pierre, some way I must work for thee!
See, I will sell this hair; have these teeth pulled
out; but some way I will earn money for thee!”
Pierre now eyed her startledly.
Touches of a determinate meaning shone in her; some
hidden thing was deeply wounded in her. An affectionate
soothing syllable was on his tongue; his arm was out;
when shifting his expression, he whisperingly and
alarmedly exclaimed “Hark! she is
coming. Be still.”
But rising boldly, Isabel threw open
the connecting door, exclaiming half-hysterically “Look,
Lucy; here is the strangest husband; fearful of being
caught speaking to his wife!”
With an artist’s little box
before her whose rattling, perhaps, had
startled Pierre Lucy was sitting midway
in her room, opposite the opened door; so that at
that moment, both Pierre and Isabel were plainly visible
to her. The singular tone of Isabel’s voice
instantly caused her to look up intently. At
once, a sudden irradiation of some subtile intelligence but
whether welcome to her, or otherwise, could not be
determined shot over her whole aspect.
She murmured some vague random reply; and then bent
low over her box, saying she was very busy.
Isabel closed the door, and sat down
again by Pierre. Her countenance wore a mixed
and writhing, impatient look. She seemed as one
in whom the most powerful emotion of life is caught
in inextricable toils of circumstances, and while
longing to disengage itself, still knows that all
struggles will prove worse than vain; and so, for the
moment, grows madly reckless and defiant of all obstacles.
Pierre trembled as he gazed upon her. But soon
the mood passed from her; her old, sweet mournfulness
returned; again the clear unfathomableness was in her
mystic eye.
“Pierre, ere now, ere
I ever knew thee I have done mad things,
which I have never been conscious of, but in the dim
recalling. I hold such things no things of mine.
What I now remember, as just now done, was one of
them.”
“Thou hast done nothing but
shown thy strength, while I have shown my weakness,
Isabel; yes, to the whole world thou art
my wife to her, too, thou art my wife.
Have I not told her so, myself? I was weaker than
a kitten, Isabel; and thou, strong as those high things
angelical, from which utmost beauty takes not strength.”
“Pierre, once such syllables
from thee, were all refreshing, and bedewing to me;
now, though they drop as warmly and as fluidly from
thee, yet falling through another and an intercepting
zone, they freeze on the way, and clatter on my heart
like hail, Pierre. Thou didst
not speak thus to her!”
“She is not Isabel.”
The girl gazed at him with a quick
and piercing scrutiny; then looked quite calm, and
spoke. “My guitar, Pierre: thou know’st
how complete a mistress I am of it; now, before thou
gettest sitters for the portrait-sketcher, thou shalt
get pupils for the music-teacher. Wilt thou?”
and she looked at him with a persuasiveness and touchingness,
which to Pierre, seemed more than mortal.
“My poor poor, Isabel!”
cried Pierre; “thou art the mistress of the
natural sweetness of the guitar, not of its invented
regulated artifices; and these are all that the silly
pupil will pay for learning. And what thou hast
can not be taught. Ah, thy sweet ignorance is
all transporting to me! my sweet, my sweet! dear,
divine girl!” And impulsively he caught her
in his arms.
While the first fire of his feeling
plainly glowed upon him, but ere he had yet caught
her to him, Isabel had backward glided close to the
connecting door; which, at the instant of his embrace,
suddenly opened, as by its own volition.
Before the eyes of seated Lucy, Pierre
and Isabel stood locked; Pierre’s lips upon
her cheek.
II.
Notwithstanding the maternal visit
of Mrs. Tartan, and the peremptoriness with which
it had been closed by her declared departure never
to return, and her vow to teach all Lucy’s relatives
and friends, and Lucy’s own brothers, and her
suitor, to disown her, and forget her; yet Pierre
fancied that he knew too much in general of the human
heart, and too much in particular of the character
of both Glen and Frederic, to remain entirely untouched
by disquietude, concerning what those two fiery youths
might now be plotting against him, as the imagined
monster, by whose infernal tricks Lucy Tartan was
supposed to have been seduced from every earthly seemliness.
Not happily, but only so much the more gloomily, did
he augur from the fact, that Mrs. Tartan had come to
Lucy unattended; and that Glen and Frederic had let
eight-and-forty hours and more go by, without giving
the slightest hostile or neutral sign. At first
he thought, that bridling their impulsive fierceness,
they were resolved to take the slower, but perhaps
the surer method, to wrest Lucy back to them, by instituting
some legal process. But this idea was repulsed
by more than one consideration.
Not only was Frederic of that sort
of temper, peculiar to military men, which would prompt
him, in so closely personal and intensely private and
family a matter, to scorn the hireling publicity of
the law’s lingering arm; and impel him, as by
the furiousness of fire, to be his own righter and
avenger; for, in him, it was perhaps quite as much
the feeling of an outrageous family affront to himself,
through Lucy, as her own presumed separate wrong,
however black, which stung him to the quick: not
only were these things so respecting Frederic; but
concerning Glen, Pierre well knew, that be Glen heartless
as he might, to do a deed of love, Glen was not heartless
to do a deed of hate; that though, on that memorable
night of his arrival in the city, Glen had heartlessly
closed his door upon him, yet now Glen might heartfully
burst Pierre’s open, if by that he at all believed,
that permanent success would crown the fray.
Besides, Pierre knew this; that
so invincible is the natural, untamable, latent spirit
of a courageous manliness in man, that though now
socially educated for thousands of years in an arbitrary
homage to the Law, as the one only appointed redress
for every injured person; yet immemorially and universally,
among all gentlemen of spirit, once to have uttered
independent personal threats of personal vengeance
against your foe, and then, after that, to fall back
slinking into a court, and hire with sops a pack of
yelping pettifoggers to fight the battle so valiantly
proclaimed; this, on the surface, is ever deemed very
decorous, and very prudent a most wise second
thought; but, at bottom, a miserably ignoble thing.
Frederic was not the watery man for that, Glen
had more grapey blood in him.
Moreover, it seemed quite clear to
Pierre, that only by making out Lucy absolutely mad,
and striving to prove it by a thousand despicable little
particulars, could the law succeed in tearing her from
the refuge she had voluntarily sought; a course equally
abhorrent to all the parties possibly to be concerned
on either side.
What then would those two boiling
bloods do? Perhaps they would patrol the streets;
and at the first glimpse of lonely Lucy, kidnap her
home. Or if Pierre were with her, then, smite
him down by hook or crook, fair play or foul; and
then, away with Lucy! Or if Lucy systematically
kept her room, then fall on Pierre in the most public
way, fell him, and cover him from all decent recognition
beneath heaps on heaps of hate and insult; so that
broken on the wheel of such dishonor, Pierre might
feel himself unstrung, and basely yield the prize.
Not the gibbering of ghosts in any
old haunted house; no sulphurous and portentous sign
at night beheld in heaven, will so make the hair to
stand, as when a proud and honorable man is revolving
in his soul the possibilities of some gross public
and corporeal disgrace. It is not fear; it is
a pride-horror, which is more terrible than any fear.
Then, by tremendous imagery, the murderer’s
mark of Cain is felt burning on the brow, and the
already acquitted knife blood-rusts in the clutch of
the anticipating hand.
Certain that those two youths must
be plotting something furious against him; with the
echoes of their scorning curses on the stairs still
ringing in his ears curses, whose swift
responses from himself, he, at the time, had had much
ado to check; thoroughly alive to the supernaturalism
of that mad frothing hate which a spirited brother
forks forth at the insulter of a sister’s honor beyond
doubt the most uncompromising of all the social passions
known to man and not blind to the anomalous
fact, that if such a brother stab his foe at his own
mother’s table, all people and all juries would
bear him out, accounting every thing allowable to
a noble soul made mad by a sweet sister’s shame
caused by a damned seducer; imagining to
himself his own feelings, if he were actually in the
position which Frederic so vividly fancied to be his;
remembering that in love matters jealousy is as an
adder, and that the jealousy of Glen was double-addered
by the extraordinary malice of the apparent circumstances
under which Lucy had spurned Glen’s arms, and
fled to his always successful and now married rival,
as if wantonly and shamelessly to nestle there; remembering
all these intense incitements of both those foes of
his, Pierre could not but look forward to wild work
very soon to come. Nor was the storm of passion
in his soul unratified by the decision of his coolest
possible hour. Storm and calm both said to him, Look
to thyself, oh Pierre!
Murders are done by maniacs; but the
earnest thoughts of murder, these are the collected
desperadoes. Pierre was such; fate, or what you
will, had made him such. But such he was.
And when these things now swam before him; when he
thought of all the ambiguities which hemmed him in;
the stony walls all round that he could not overleap;
the million aggravations of his most malicious lot;
the last lingering hope of happiness licked up from
him as by flames of fire, and his one only prospect
a black, bottomless gulf of guilt, upon whose verge
he imminently teetered every hour; then
the utmost hate of Glen and Frederic were jubilantly
welcome to him; and murder, done in the act of warding
off their ignominious public blow, seemed the one only
congenial sequel to such a desperate career.
III.
As a statue, planted on a revolving
pedestal, shows now this limb, now that; now front,
now back, now side; continually changing, too, its
general profile; so does the pivoted, statued soul
of man, when turned by the hand of Truth. Lies
only never vary; look for no invariableness in Pierre.
Nor does any canting showman here stand by to announce
his phases as he revolves. Catch his phases as
your insight may.
Another day passed on; Glen and Frederic
still absenting themselves, and Pierre and Isabel
and Lucy all dwelling together. The domestic presence
of Lucy had begun to produce a remarkable effect upon
Pierre. Sometimes, to the covertly watchful eye
of Isabel, he would seem to look upon Lucy with an
expression illy befitting their singular and so-supposed
merely cousinly relation; and yet again, with another
expression still more unaccountable to her, one
of fear and awe, not unmixed with impatience.
But his general detailed manner toward Lucy was that
of the most delicate and affectionate considerateness nothing
more. He was never alone with her; though, as
before, at times alone with Isabel.
Lucy seemed entirely undesirous of
usurping any place about him; manifested no slightest
unwelcome curiosity as to Pierre, and no painful embarrassment
as to Isabel. Nevertheless, more and more did
she seem, hour by hour, to be somehow inexplicably
sliding between them, without touching them.
Pierre felt that some strange heavenly influence was
near him, to keep him from some uttermost harm; Isabel
was alive to some untraceable displacing agency.
Though when all three were together, the marvelous
serenity, and sweetness, and utter unsuspectingness
of Lucy obviated any thing like a common embarrassment:
yet if there was any embarrassment at all beneath
that roof, it was sometimes when Pierre was alone
with Isabel, after Lucy would innocently quit them.
Meantime Pierre was still going on
with his book; every moment becoming still the more
sensible of the intensely inauspicious circumstances
of all sorts under which that labor was proceeding.
And as the now advancing and concentring enterprise
demanded more and more compacted vigor from him, he
felt that he was having less and less to bring to it.
For not only was it the signal misery of Pierre, to
be invisibly though but accidentally goaded,
in the hour of mental immaturity, to the attempt at
a mature work, a circumstance sufficiently
lamentable in itself; but also, in the hour of his
clamorous pennilessness, he was additionally goaded
into an enterprise long and protracted in the execution,
and of all things least calculated for pecuniary profit
in the end. How these things were so, whence they
originated, might be thoroughly and very beneficially
explained; but space and time here forbid.
At length, domestic matters rent
and bread had come to such a pass with
him, that whether or no, the first pages must go to
the printer; and thus was added still another tribulation;
because the printed pages now dictated to the following
manuscript, and said to all subsequent thoughts and
inventions of Pierre Thus and thus;
so and so; else an ill match. Therefore,
was his book already limited, bound over, and committed
to imperfection, even before it had come to any confirmed
form or conclusion at all. Oh, who shall reveal
the horrors of poverty in authorship that is high?
While the silly Millthorpe was railing against his
delay of a few weeks and months; how bitterly did unreplying
Pierre feel in his heart, that to most of the great
works of humanity, their authors had given, not weeks
and months, not years and years, but their wholly
surrendered and dedicated lives. On either hand
clung to by a girl who would have laid down her life
for him; Pierre, nevertheless, in his deepest, highest
part, was utterly without sympathy from any thing
divine, human, brute, or vegetable. One in a city
of hundreds of thousands of human beings, Pierre was
solitary as at the Pole.
And the great woe of all was this:
that all these things were unsuspected without, and
undivulgible from within; the very daggers that stabbed
him were joked at by Imbecility, Ignorance, Blockheadedness,
Self-Complacency, and the universal Blearedness and
Besottedness around him. Now he began to feel
that in him, the thews of a Titan were forestallingly
cut by the scissors of Fate. He felt as a moose,
hamstrung. All things that think, or move, or
lie still, seemed as created to mock and torment him.
He seemed gifted with loftiness, merely that it might
be dragged down to the mud. Still, the profound
willfulness in him would not give up. Against
the breaking heart, and the bursting head; against
all the dismal lassitude, and deathful faintness and
sleeplessness, and whirlingness, and craziness, still
he like a demigod bore up. His soul’s ship
foresaw the inevitable rocks, but resolved to sail
on, and make a courageous wreck. Now he gave jeer
for jeer, and taunted the apes that jibed him.
With the soul of an Atheist, he wrote down the godliest
things; with the feeling of misery and death in him,
he created forms of gladness and life. For the
pangs in his heart, he put down hoots on the paper.
And every thing else he disguised under the so conveniently
adjustable drapery of all-stretchable Philosophy.
For the more and the more that he wrote, and the deeper
and the deeper that he dived, Pierre saw the everlasting
elusiveness of Truth; the universal lurking insincerity
of even the greatest and purest written thoughts.
Like knavish cards, the leaves of all great books
were covertly packed. He was but packing one set
the more; and that a very poor jaded set and pack
indeed. So that there was nothing he more spurned,
than his own aspirations; nothing he more abhorred
than the loftiest part of himself. The brightest
success, now seemed intolerable to him, since he so
plainly saw, that the brightest success could not
be the sole offspring of Merit; but of Merit for the
one thousandth part, and nine hundred and ninety-nine
combining and dove-tailing accidents for the rest.
So beforehand he despised those laurels which in the
very nature of things, can never be impartially bestowed.
But while thus all the earth was depopulated of ambition
for him; still circumstances had put him in the attitude
of an eager contender for renown. So beforehand
he felt the unrevealable sting of receiving either
plaudits or censures, equally unsought for, and equally
loathed ere given. So, beforehand he felt the
pyramidical scorn of the genuine loftiness for the
whole infinite company of infinitesimal critics.
His was the scorn which thinks it not worth the while
to be scornful. Those he most scorned, never
knew it. In that lonely little closet of his,
Pierre foretasted all that this world hath either of
praise or dispraise; and thus foretasting both goblets,
anticipatingly hurled them both in its teeth.
All panegyric, all denunciation, all criticism of
any sort, would come too late for Pierre.
But man does never give himself up
thus, a doorless and shutterless house for the four
loosened winds of heaven to howl through, without
still additional dilapidations. Much oftener
than before, Pierre laid back in his chair with the
deadly feeling of faintness. Much oftener than
before, came staggering home from his evening walk,
and from sheer bodily exhaustion economized the breath
that answered the anxious inquiries as to what might
be done for him. And as if all the leagued spiritual
inveteracies and malices, combined with his general
bodily exhaustion, were not enough, a special corporeal
affliction now descended like a sky-hawk upon him.
His incessant application told upon his eyes.
They became so affected, that some days he wrote with
the lids nearly closed, fearful of opening them wide
to the light. Through the lashes he peered upon
the paper, which so seemed fretted with wires.
Sometimes he blindly wrote with his eyes turned away
from the paper; thus unconsciously symbolizing
the hostile necessity and distaste, the former whereof
made of him this most unwilling states-prisoner of
letters.
As every evening, after his day’s
writing was done, the proofs of the beginning of his
work came home for correction, Isabel would read them
to him. They were replete with errors; but preoccupied
by the thronging, and undiluted, pure imaginings of
things, he became impatient of such minute, gnat-like
torments; he randomly corrected the worst, and let
the rest go; jeering with himself at the rich harvest
thus furnished to the entomological critics.
But at last he received a tremendous
interior intimation, to hold off to be
still from his unnatural struggle.
In the earlier progress of his book,
he had found some relief in making his regular evening
walk through the greatest thoroughfare of the city;
that so, the utter isolation of his soul, might feel
itself the more intensely from the incessant jogglings
of his body against the bodies of the hurrying thousands.
Then he began to be sensible of more fancying stormy
nights, than pleasant ones; for then, the great thoroughfares
were less thronged, and the innumerable shop-awnings
flapped and beat like schooners’ broad
sails in a gale, and the shutters banged like lashed
bulwarks; and the slates fell hurtling like displaced
ship’s blocks from aloft. Stemming such
tempests through the deserted streets, Pierre felt
a dark, triumphant joy; that while others had crawled
in fear to their kennels, he alone defied the storm-admiral,
whose most vindictive peltings of hail-stones, striking
his iron-framed fiery furnace of a body, melted
into soft dew, and so, harmlessly trickled from off
him.
By-and-by, of such howling, pelting
nights, he began to bend his steps down the dark,
narrow side-streets, in quest of the more secluded
and mysterious tap-rooms. There he would feel
a singular satisfaction, in sitting down all dripping
in a chair, ordering his half-pint of ale before him,
and drawing over his cap to protect his eyes from the
light, eye the varied faces of the social castaways,
who here had their haunts from the bitterest midnights.
But at last he began to feel a distaste
for even these; and now nothing but the utter night-desolation
of the obscurest warehousing lanes would content him,
or be at all sufferable to him. Among these he
had now been accustomed to wind in and out every evening;
till one night as he paused a moment previous to turning
about for home, a sudden, unwonted, and all-pervading
sensation seized him. He knew not where he was;
he did not have any ordinary life-feeling at all.
He could not see; though instinctively putting his
hand to his eyes, he seemed to feel that the lids
were open. Then he was sensible of a combined
blindness, and vertigo, and staggering; before his
eyes a million green meteors danced; he felt his foot
tottering upon the curb, he put out his hands, and
knew no more for the time. When he came to himself
he found that he was lying crosswise in the gutter,
dabbled with mud and slime. He raised himself
to try if he could stand; but the fit was entirely
gone. Immediately he quickened his steps homeward,
forbearing to rest or pause at all on the way, lest
that rush of blood to his head, consequent upon his
sudden cessation from walking, should again smite
him down. This circumstance warned him away from
those desolate streets, lest the repetition of the
fit should leave him there to perish by night in unknown
and unsuspected loneliness. But if that terrible
vertigo had been also intended for another and deeper
warning, he regarded such added warning not at all;
but again plied heart and brain as before.
But now at last since the very blood
in his body had in vain rebelled against his Titanic
soul; now the only visible outward symbols of that
soul his eyes did also turn downright
traitors to him, and with more success than the rebellious
blood. He had abused them so recklessly, that
now they absolutely refused to look on paper.
He turned them on paper, and they blinked and shut.
The pupils of his eyes rolled away from him in their
own orbits. He put his hand up to them, and sat
back in his seat. Then, without saying one word,
he continued there for his usual term, suspended,
motionless, blank.
But next morning it was
some few days after the arrival of Lucy still
feeling that a certain downright infatuation, and no
less, is both unavoidable and indispensable in the
composition of any great, deep book, or even any wholly
unsuccessful attempt at any great, deep book; next
morning he returned to the charge. But again the
pupils of his eyes rolled away from him in their orbits:
and now a general and nameless torpor some
horrible foretaste of death itself seemed
stealing upon him.
IV.
During this state of semi-unconsciousness,
or rather trance, a remarkable dream or vision came
to him. The actual artificial objects around
him slid from him, and were replaced by a baseless
yet most imposing spectacle of natural scenery.
But though a baseless vision in itself, this airy
spectacle assumed very familiar features to Pierre.
It was the phantasmagoria of the Mount of the Titans,
a singular height standing quite detached in a wide
solitude not far from the grand range of dark blue
hills encircling his ancestral manor.
Say what some poets will, Nature is
not so much her own ever-sweet interpreter, as the
mere supplier of that cunning alphabet, whereby selecting
and combining as he pleases, each man reads his own
peculiar lesson according to his own peculiar mind
and mood. Thus a high-aspiring, but most moody,
disappointed bard, chancing once to visit the Meadows
and beholding that fine eminence, christened it by
the name it ever after bore; completely extinguishing
its former title The Delectable Mountain one
long ago bestowed by an old Baptist farmer, an hereditary
admirer of Bunyan and his most marvelous book.
From the spell of that name the mountain never afterward
escaped; for now, gazing upon it by the light of those
suggestive syllables, no poetical observer could resist
the apparent felicity of the title. For as if
indeed the immemorial mount would fain adapt itself
to its so recent name, some people said that it had
insensibly changed its pervading aspect within a score
or two of winters. Nor was this strange conceit
entirely without foundation, seeing that the annual
displacements of huge rocks and gigantic trees were
continually modifying its whole front and general
contour.
On the north side, where it fronted
the old Manor-house, some fifteen miles distant, the
height, viewed from the piazza of a soft haze-canopied
summer’s noon, presented a long and beautiful,
but not entirely inaccessible-looking purple precipice,
some two thousand feet in air, and on each hand sideways
sloping down to lofty terraces of pastures.
Those hill-side pastures, be it said,
were thickly sown with a small white amaranthine flower,
which, being irreconcilably distasteful to the cattle,
and wholly rejected by them, and yet, continually multiplying
on every hand, did by no means contribute to the agricultural
value of those elevated lands. Insomuch, that
for this cause, the disheartened dairy tenants of
that part of the Manor, had petitioned their lady-landlord
for some abatement in their annual tribute of upland
grasses, in the Juny-load; rolls of butter in the October
crock; and steers and heifers on the October hoof;
with turkeys in the Christmas sleigh.
“The small white flower, it
is our bane!” the imploring tenants cried.
“The aspiring amaranth, every year it climbs
and adds new terraces to its sway! The immortal
amaranth, it will not die, but last year’s flowers
survive to this! The terraced pastures grow glittering
white, and in warm June still show like banks of snow: fit
token of the sterileness the amaranth begets!
Then free us from the amaranth, good lady, or be pleased
to abate our rent!”
Now, on a somewhat nearer approach,
the precipice did not belie its purple promise from
the manorial piazza that sweet imposing
purple promise, which seemed fully to vindicate the
Bunyanish old title originally bestowed; but
showed the profuse aerial foliage of a hanging forest.
Nevertheless, coming still more nigh, long and frequent
rents among the mass of leaves revealed horrible glimpses
of dark-dripping rocks, and mysterious mouths of wolfish
caves. Struck by this most unanticipated view,
the tourist now quickened his impulsive steps to verify
the change by coming into direct contact with so chameleon
a height. As he would now speed on, the lower
ground, which from the manor-house piazza seemed all
a grassy level, suddenly merged into a very long and
weary acclivity, slowly rising close up to the precipice’s
base; so that the efflorescent grasses rippled against
it, as the efflorescent waves of some great swell
or long rolling billow ripple against the water-line
of a steep gigantic war-ship on the sea. And,
as among the rolling sea-like sands of Egypt, disordered
rows of broken Sphinxes lead to the Cheopian pyramid
itself; so this long acclivity was thickly strewn
with enormous rocky masses, grotesque in shape, and
with wonderful features on them, which seemed to express
that slumbering intelligence visible in some recumbent
beasts beasts whose intelligence seems
struck dumb in them by some sorrowful and inexplicable
spell. Nevertheless, round and round those still
enchanted rocks, hard by their utmost rims, and in
among their cunning crevices, the misanthropic hill-scaling
goat nibbled his sweetest food; for the rocks, so barren
in themselves, distilled a subtile moisture, which
fed with greenness all things that grew about their
igneous marge.
Quitting those recumbent rocks, you
still ascended toward the hanging forest, and piercing
within its lowermost fringe, then suddenly you stood
transfixed, as a marching soldier confounded at the
sight of an impregnable redoubt, where he had fancied
it a practicable vault to his courageous thews.
Cunningly masked hitherto, by the green tapestry of
the interlacing leaves, a terrific towering palisade
of dark mossy massiness confronted you; and, trickling
with unevaporable moisture, distilled upon you from
its beetling brow slow thunder-showers of water-drops,
chill as the last dews of death. Now you stood
and shivered in that twilight, though it were high
noon and burning August down the meads. All round
and round, the grim scarred rocks rallied and re-rallied
themselves; shot up, protruded, stretched, swelled,
and eagerly reached forth; on every side bristlingly
radiating with a hideous repellingness. Tossed,
and piled, and indiscriminate among these, like bridging
rifts of logs up-jammed in alluvial-rushing streams
of far Arkansas: or, like great masts and yards
of overwhelmed fleets hurled high and dashed amain,
all splintering together, on hovering ridges of the
Atlantic sea, you saw the melancholy trophies
which the North Wind, championing the unquenchable
quarrel of the Winter, had wrested from the forests,
and dismembered them on their own chosen battle-ground,
in barbarous disdain. ’Mid this spectacle
of wide and wanton spoil, insular noises of falling
rocks would boomingly explode upon the silence and
fright all the echoes, which ran shrieking in and
out among the caves, as wailing women and children
in some assaulted town.
Stark desolation; ruin, merciless
and ceaseless; chills and gloom, all here
lived a hidden life, curtained by that cunning purpleness,
which, from the piazza of the manor house, so beautifully
invested the mountain once called Delectable, but
now styled Titanic.
Beaten off by such undreamed-of glooms
and steeps, you now sadly retraced your steps, and,
mayhap, went skirting the inferior sideway terraces
of pastures; where the multiple and most sterile inodorous
immortalness of the small, white flower furnished no
aliment for the mild cow’s meditative cud.
But here and there you still might smell from far
the sweet aromaticness of clumps of catnip, that dear
farm-house herb. Soon you would see the modest
verdure of the plant itself; and wheresoever you saw
that sight, old foundation stones and rotting timbers
of log-houses long extinct would also meet your eye;
their desolation illy hid by the green solicitudes
of the unemigrating herb. Most fitly named the
catnip; since, like the unrunagate cat, though all
that’s human forsake the place, that plant will
long abide, long bask and bloom on the abandoned hearth.
Illy hid; for every spring the amaranthine and celestial
flower gained on the mortal household herb; for every
autumn the catnip died, but never an autumn made the
amaranth to wane. The catnip and the amaranth! man’s
earthly household peace, and the ever-encroaching
appetite for God.
No more now you sideways followed
the sad pasture’s skirt, but took your way adown
the long declivity, fronting the mystic height.
In mid field again you paused among the recumbent
sphinx-like shapes thrown off from the rocky steep.
You paused; fixed by a form defiant, a form of awfulness.
You saw Enceladus the Titan, the most potent of all
the giants, writhing from out the imprisoning earth; turbaned
with upborn moss he writhed; still, though armless,
resisting with his whole striving trunk, the Pelion
and the Ossa hurled back at him; turbaned
with upborn moss he writhed; still turning his unconquerable
front toward that majestic mount eternally in vain
assailed by him, and which, when it had stormed him
off, had heaved his undoffable incubus upon him, and
deridingly left him there to bay out his ineffectual
howl.
To Pierre this wondrous shape had
always been a thing of interest, though hitherto all
its latent significance had never fully and intelligibly
smitten him. In his earlier boyhood a strolling
company of young collegian pedestrians had chanced
to light upon the rock; and, struck with its remarkableness,
had brought a score of picks and spades, and dug round
it to unearth it, and find whether indeed it were a
demoniac freak of nature, or some stern thing of antediluvian
art. Accompanying this eager party, Pierre first
beheld that deathless son of Terra. At that time,
in its untouched natural state, the statue presented
nothing but the turbaned head of igneous rock rising
from out the soil, with its unabasable face turned
upward toward the mountain, and the bull-like neck
clearly defined. With distorted features, scarred
and broken, and a black brow mocked by the upborn moss,
Enceladus there subterraneously stood, fast frozen
into the earth at the junction of the neck. Spades
and picks soon heaved part of his Ossa from him, till
at last a circular well was opened round him to the
depth of some thirteen feet. At that point the
wearied young collegians gave over their enterprise
in despair. With all their toil, they had not
yet come to the girdle of Enceladus. But they
had bared good part of his mighty chest, and exposed
his mutilated shoulders, and the stumps of his once
audacious arms. Thus far uncovering his shame,
in that cruel plight they had abandoned him, leaving
stark naked his in vain indignant chest to the defilements
of the birds, which for untold ages had cast their
foulness on his vanquished crest.
Not unworthy to be compared with that
leaden Titan, wherewith the art of Marsy and the broad-flung
pride of Bourbon enriched the enchanted gardens of
Versailles; and from whose still twisted
mouth for sixty feet the waters yet upgush, in elemental
rivalry with those Etna flames, of old asserted to
be the malicious breath of the borne-down giant; not
unworthy to be compared with that leaden demi-god piled
with costly rocks, and with one bent wrenching knee
protruding from the broken bronze; not
unworthy to be compared with that bold trophy of high
art, this American Enceladus, wrought by the vigorous
hand of Nature’s self, it did go further than
compare; it did far surpass that fine figure
molded by the inferior skill of man. Marsy gave
arms to the eternally defenseless; but Nature, more
truthful, performed an amputation, and left the impotent
Titan without one serviceable ball-and-socket above
the thigh.
Such was the wild scenery the
Mount of Titans, and the repulsed group of heaven-assaulters,
with Enceladus in their midst shamefully recumbent
at its base; such was the wild scenery,
which now to Pierre, in his strange vision, displaced
the four blank walls, the desk, and camp-bed, and
domineered upon his trance. But no longer petrified
in all their ignominious attitudes, the herded Titans
now sprung to their feet; flung themselves up the
slope; and anew battered at the precipice’s
unresounding wall. Foremost among them all, he
saw a moss-turbaned, armless giant, who despairing
of any other mode of wreaking his immitigable hate,
turned his vast trunk into a battering-ram, and hurled
his own arched-out ribs again and yet again against
the invulnerable steep.
“Enceladus! it is Enceladus!” Pierre
cried out in his sleep. That moment the phantom
faced him; and Pierre saw Enceladus no more; but on
the Titan’s armless trunk, his own duplicate
face and features magnifiedly gleamed upon him with
prophetic discomfiture and woe. With trembling
frame he started from his chair, and woke from that
ideal horror to all his actual grief.
V.
Nor did Pierre’s random knowledge
of the ancient fables fail still further to elucidate
the vision which so strangely had supplied a tongue
to muteness. But that elucidation was most repulsively
fateful and foreboding; possibly because Pierre did
not leap the final barrier of gloom; possibly because
Pierre did not willfully wrest some final comfort
from the fable; did not flog this stubborn rock as
Moses his, and force even aridity itself to quench
his painful thirst.
Thus smitten, the Mount of Titans
seems to yield this following stream:
Old Titan’s self was the son
of incestuous Coelus and Terra, the son of incestuous
Heaven and Earth. And Titan married his mother
Terra, another and accumulatively incestuous match.
And thereof Enceladus was one issue. So Enceladus
was both the son and grandson of an incest; and even
thus, there had been born from the organic blended
heavenliness and earthliness of Pierre, another mixed,
uncertain, heaven-aspiring, but still not wholly earth-emancipated
mood; which again, by its terrestrial taint held down
to its terrestrial mother, generated there the present
doubly incestuous Enceladus within him; so that the
present mood of Pierre that reckless sky-assaulting
mood of his, was nevertheless on one side the grandson
of the sky. For it is according to eternal fitness,
that the precipitated Titan should still seek to regain
his paternal birthright even by fierce escalade.
Wherefore whoso storms the sky gives best proof he
came from thither! But whatso crawls contented
in the moat before that crystal fort, shows it was
born within that slime, and there forever will abide.
Recovered somewhat from the after-spell
of this wild vision folded in his trance, Pierre composed
his front as best he might, and straightway left his
fatal closet. Concentrating all the remaining
stuff in him, he resolved by an entire and violent
change, and by a willful act against his own most
habitual inclinations, to wrestle with the strange
malady of his eyes, this new death-fiend of the trance,
and this Inferno of his Titanic vision.
And now, just as he crossed the threshold
of the closet, he writhingly strove to assume an expression
intended to be not uncheerful though how
indeed his countenance at all looked, he could not
tell; for dreading some insupportably dark revealments
in his glass, he had of late wholly abstained from
appealing to it and in his mind he rapidly
conned over, what indifferent, disguising, or light-hearted
gamesome things he should say, when proposing to his
companions the little design he cherished.
And even so, to grim Enceladus, the
world the gods had chained for a ball to drag at his
o’erfreighted feet; even so that globe
put forth a thousand flowers, whose fragile smiles
disguised his ponderous load.