There is a special providence that
looks over recent veterinary graduates, Kennon reflected
as he checked the monthly reports from the Stations.
Since the time he had laid down the law to Judson and
Blalok, he had had no trouble from the production
staff. And for the past four months there had
been no further trouble with Hepatodirus. That
unwanted visitor had apparently been evicted.
At that, they had been lucky. The parasite had
been concentrated at Hillside Station and had failed
to establish itself in the training area. The
intermediate host, it had turned out, was a small
amphibian that was susceptible to commercial insecticide.
It had been no trouble to eradicate. Systemic
treatment and cooking of all food had cleaned up the
infective cercaria and individual infections, and
after six months of intensive search, quarantine, and
investigation, Kennon was morally certain that the
disease had been eradicated. The last four reports
confirmed his belief.
He sighed as he leaned back in his
chair. Blalok was at last convinced that his
ideas were right. The hospital was operating as
a hospital should, with a staff of twelve Lani kept
busy checking the full wards. Actually, it was
working better than it should, since stationmasters
all over the island were now shipping in sick animals
rather than treating them or requesting outpatient
service.
“Hi, Doc,” Blalok said
as he pushed the door open and looked into the office.
“You doing anything?”
“Not at the moment,” Kennon
said. “Something troubling you?”
“No just thought
I’d drop in for a moment and congratulate you.”
“For what?”
“For surviving the first year.”
“That won’t be for two months yet.”
Blalok shook his head. “This
is Kardon,” he said. “There’s
only three hundred and two days in our year, ten thirty-day
months and two special days at the year’s end.”
Kennon shrugged. “My contract
is Galactic Standard. I still have two months
to go. But how come the ten-month year? Most
other planets have twelve, regardless of the number
of days.”
“Old Alexander liked thirty-day months.”
“I’ve wondered about that.”
“You’ll find a lot more
peculiar things about Flora when you get to know her
better. This year has just been a breaking-in
period.”
Kennon chuckled. “It’s
damn near broken me,” he admitted. “You
know, I thought that the Lani’d be my principal
practice when I came here.”
“You didn’t figure that
right. They’re the easiest part. They’re
intelligent and co-operative.”
“Which is more than one can
say about the others.” Kennon wiped the
sweat from his face. “What with this infernal
heat and their eternal stubbornness, I’ve nearly
been driven crazy.”
“You shouldn’t have laid out that vaccination
program.”
“I had to. Your hog business
was living mostly on luck, and the sheep and shrakes
were almost as bad. You can’t get away from
soil saprophytes no matter how clean you are.
Under a pasture setup there’s always a chance
of contamination. And that old cliche about an
ounce of prevention is truer of livestock raising
than anything else I can think of.”
“I have some more good news
for you,” Blalok said. “That’s
why I came over. We’re going to have another
species to treat and vaccinate.”
Kennon groaned. “Now what?”
“Poultry.” Blalok’s
voice was disgusted. “Personally I think
it’s a mess, but Alexander thinks it’s
profitable. Someone’s told him that pound
for pound chickens are the most efficient feed converters
of all the domestic animals. So we’re getting
a pilot plant: eggs, incubator, and a knocked-down
broiler battery so we can try the idea out. The
Boss-man is always hot on new ideas to increase efficiency
and production. The only trouble is that he fails
to consider the work involved in setting up another
operation.”
“You’re so right.
I’ll have to brush up on pullorum, ornithosis,
coccidosis, leukosis, perosis, and Ochsner knows how
many other-osises and itises. I was
never too strong on fowl practice in school, and I’d
be happier if I never had anything to do with them.”
“So would I,” Blalok agreed.
“I can’t see anything in this but trouble.”
Kennon nodded.
“And he’s forgotten something
else,” Blalok added. “Poultry need
concentrated feed. We’re going to have to
install a feed mill.”
Kennon chuckled. “I hope
he’ll appreciate the bill he gets.”
“He thinks we can use local
labor,” Blalok said gloomily. “I wish
he’d realize that Lani are technological moróns.”
“They could learn.”
“I suppose so but
it isn’t easy. And besides, Allworth is
the only man with feed-mill experience, and he’s
up to his ears with Hillside Station since that expansion
order came in.”
“I never did get the reason
for that. After we complained about the slavery
implications and got the Boss-man’s okay to hold
the line, why do we need more Lani?”
“Didn’t you know?
His sister’s finally decided to try marriage.
Found herself some overmuscled Halsite who looked
good to her but she couldn’t crack
his moral barrier.” Blalok grinned.
“I thought you’d be the first to know.
Wasn’t she interested in you?”
Kennon chuckled. “You could
call it that. Interested like the way
a dog’s interested in a beefsteak. It’s
a good thing we had that fluke problem or I’d
have been chewed up and digested long ago. That
woman frightens me.”
“I could be scared by uglier
things,” Blalok said. “With the Boss-man’s
sister on my side I wouldn’t worry.”
“What makes you think she’d
be on my side? She’s a cannibal.”
“Well, you know her better than I do.”
He did he certainly did.
That first month had been one of the worst he had
ever spent, Kennon reflected. Between Eloise and
the flukes, he had nearly collapsed and
when it had come to the final showdown, he thought
for a while that he’d be looking for another
job. But Alexander had been more than passably
understanding and had refused his sister’s passionate
pleas for a Betan scalp. He owed a debt of gratitude
to the Boss-man.
“You’re lucky you never knew her,”
Kennon said.
“That all depends on what you
mean,” Blalok said as he grinned and walked
to the door. The parting shot missed its mark
entirely as Kennon looked at him with blank incomprehension.
“You should have been a Mystic,” Blalok
said. “A knowledge of the sacred books would
do you no end of good.” And with that cryptic
remark the superintendent vanished.
“That had all the elements of
a snide remark,” Kennon murmured to himself,
“but my education’s been neglected somewhere
along the line. I don’t get it.”
He shrugged and buzzed for Copper. The veterinary
report would have to be added to the pile already
before him, and the Boss-man liked to have his reports
on time.
Copper watched Kennon as he dictated
the covering letter, her slim fingers dancing over
the stenotype. He had been here a full year but
instead of becoming a familiar object, he had grown
so gigantic that he filled her world. And it
wasn’t merely because he was young and beautiful.
He was kind, too.
Yet she couldn’t approach him,
and she wanted to so desperately that it was a physical
pain. Other Lani had told her about men and what
they could do. Even her old preceptress at Hillside
Station had given her some advice when Man Allworth
had tattooed the tiny V on her thigh that meant she
had been selected for the veterinary staff. And
when Old Doc had brought her from the Training Station
to the hospital and removed her tail, she was certain
that she was one of the lucky ones who would know
love.
But love wasn’t a pain in the
chest, an ache in the belly and thighs, an unfulfilled
longing that destroyed sleep and made food tasteless.
Love was supposed to be pleasant and exciting.
She could remember every word her preceptress had
spoken.
“My little one,” the old
Lani had said, “you now wear the doctor’s
mark. And soon no one will be able to tell you
from a human. You will look like our masters.
You will share in their work. And there may be
times when you will find favor in their eyes.
Then you may learn of love.
“Love,” the old voice
was soft in Copper’s ears. “The word
is almost a stranger to us now, known only to the
few who serve our masters. It was not always
so. The Old Ones knew love before Man Alexander
came. And our young were the fruit of love rather
than the product of our masters’ cunning.
But you may know the flower even though you cannot
bear its fruit. You may enter that world of pleasure-pain
the Old Ones knew, that world which is now denied
us.
“But remember always that you
are a Lani. A man may be kind to you. He
may treat you gently. He may show you love.
Yet you never will be his equal. Nor must you
become too attached to him, for you are not human.
You are not his natural mate. You cannot bear
his young. You cannot completely share.
You can only accept.
“So if love should come to you,
take it and enjoy it, but do not try to possess it.
For there lies heartache rather than happiness.
And it is a world of heartache, my little one, to
long for something which you cannot have.”
To long for something which one cannot
have! Copper knew that feeling. It had been
with her ever since Kennon had come into her life that
night a year ago. And it had grown until it had
become gigantic. He was kind yes.
He was harsh occasionally. Yet he had
shown her no more affection than he would have shown
a dog. Less for he would have petted
a dog and he did not touch her.
He laughed, but she was not a part
of his laughter. He needed her, but the need
was that of a builder for a tool. He liked her
and sometimes shared his problems and triumphs with
her, and sometimes his defeats, but he did not love.
There had never been for her the bright fierce look
he had bent upon the Woman Eloise those times when
she had come to him, the look men gave to those who
found favor in their eyes.
Had he looked at her but once with
that expression she would have come to him though
fire barred the way. The Woman Eloise was a fool.
Copper looked at him across the corner
of the desk, the yellow hair, the bronze skin, firm
chin, soft lips and long straight nose, the narrowed
eyes, hooded beneath thick brows, scanning the papers
in his lean-tendoned hands. His nearness was
an ache in her body yet he was far away.
She thought of how his hands would
feel upon her. He had touched her once, and that
touch had burned like hot iron. For hours she
had felt it. He looked up. Her heart choked
her with its beating. She would die for him if
he would but once run his fingers over her tingling
skin, and stroke her hair.
The naked emotion in Copper’s
face was readable enough, Kennon thought. One
didn’t need Sorovkin techniques to interpret
what was in her mind. And it would have been
amusing if it weren’t so sad. For what she
wanted, he couldn’t give. Yet if she were
human it would be easy. A hundred generations
of Betan moral code said “never,” yet when
he looked at her their voices faded. He was a
man a member of the ruling race. She
was an animal a beast a humanoid near
human but not near enough. To like her was easy but
to love her was impossible. It would be bestiality.
Yet his body, less discerning than his mind, responded
to her nearness.
He sighed. It was a pleasant
unpleasantness, a mixed emotion he could not analyze.
In a way it was poetry the fierce, vaguely
disquieting poetry of the sensual Santosian bards the
lyrics that sung of the joys of flesh. He had
never really liked them, yet they filled him with a
vague longing, an odd uneasiness just the
sort that filled him now. There was a deadly
parallel here. He sighed.
“Yes, sir? Do you want something?”
Copper asked.
“I could use a cup of coffee,”
he said. “These reports are getting me
down.” The banality amused him sitting
here thinking of Copper and talking about coffee.
Banality was at once the curse and the saving grace
of mankind. It kept men from the emotional peaks
and valleys that could destroy them. He chuckled
shakily. The only alternative would be to get
rid of her and he couldn’t (or wouldn’t? the
question intruded slyly) do that.
Copper returned with a steaming cup
which she set before him. Truly, this coffee
was a man’s drink. She had tried it once
but the hot bitterness scalded her mouth and flooded
her body with its heat. And she had felt so lightheaded.
Not like herself at all. It wasn’t a drink
for Lani. Of that she was certain.
Yet he enjoyed it. He looked
at her and smiled. He was pleased with her.
Perhaps yet she might find favor
in his eyes. The hope was always there within
her a hope that was at once fear and prayer.
And if she did she would know what to do.
Kennon looked up. Copper’s
face was convulsed with a bright mixture of hope and
pain. Never, he swore, had he saw anything more
beautiful or sad. Involuntarily he placed his
hand upon her arm. She flinched, her muscles
tensing under his finger tips. It was though his
fingers carried a galvanic current that backlashed
up his arm even as it stiffened hers.
“What’s the matter, Copper?” he
asked softly.
“Nothing, Doctor. I’m just upset.”
“Why?”
There it was again, the calm friendly
curiosity that was worse than a bath in ice water.
Her heart sank. She shivered. She would never
find her desire here. He was cold cold cold!
He wouldn’t see. He didn’t care.
All right so that was how it had to be.
But first she would tell him. Then he could do
with her as he wished. “I hoped for
the past year that you would see me. That you
would think of me not as a Lani, but as a beloved.”
The words came faster now, tumbling over one another.
“That you would desire me and take me to those
worlds we cannot know unless you humans show us.
I have hoped so much, but I suppose it’s wrong for
you you are so very human, and I well,
I’m not!” The last three words held all
the sadness and the longing of mankind aspiring to
be God.
“My dear my poor child,” Kennon
murmured.
She looked at him, but her eyes could
not focus on his face, for his hands were on her shoulders
and the nearness of him drove the breath from her
body. From a distance she heard a hard tight voice
that was her own. “Oh, sir oh
please, sir!”
The hands withdrew, leaving emptiness but
her heartbeat slowed and the pink haze cleared and
she could see his face.
And with a surge of terror and triumph
she realized what she saw! That hard bright look
that encompassed and possessed her! The curved
lips drawn over white, white teeth! The flared
nostrils! The hungry demand upon his face that
answered the demand in her heart! And she knew at
last with a knowledge that turned her limbs
to water, that she had found favor in his eyes!