There is no need of going into an
extended recital of our suffering in the small boat
during the many days we were driven and drifted, here
and there, willy-nilly, across the ocean. The
high wind blew from the north-west for twenty-four
hours, when it fell calm, and in the night sprang
up from the south-west. This was dead in our
teeth, but I took in the sea-anchor and set sail,
hauling a course on the wind which took us in a south-south-easterly
direction. It was an even choice between this
and the west-north-westerly course which the wind permitted;
but the warm airs of the south fanned my desire for
a warmer sea and swayed my decision.
In three hours it was midnight,
I well remember, and as dark as I had ever seen it
on the sea the wind, still blowing out of
the south-west, rose furiously, and once again I was
compelled to set the sea-anchor.
Day broke and found me wan-eyed and
the ocean lashed white, the boat pitching, almost
on end, to its drag. We were in imminent danger
of being swamped by the whitecaps. As it was,
spray and spume came aboard in such quantities that
I bailed without cessation. The blankets were
soaking. Everything was wet except Maud, and
she, in oilskins, rubber boots, and sou’wester,
was dry, all but her face and hands and a stray wisp
of hair. She relieved me at the bailing-hole
from time to time, and bravely she threw out the water
and faced the storm. All things are relative.
It was no more than a stiff blow, but to us, fighting
for life in our frail craft, it was indeed a storm.
Cold and cheerless, the wind beating
on our faces, the white seas roaring by, we struggled
through the day. Night came, but neither of us
slept. Day came, and still the wind beat on our
faces and the white seas roared past. By the
second night Maud was falling asleep from exhaustion.
I covered her with oilskins and a tarpaulin.
She was comparatively dry, but she was numb with
the cold. I feared greatly that she might die
in the night; but day broke, cold and cheerless, with
the same clouded sky and beating wind and roaring
seas.
I had had no sleep for forty-eight
hours. I was wet and chilled to the marrow,
till I felt more dead than alive. My body was
stiff from exertion as well as from cold, and my aching
muscles gave me the severest torture whenever I used
them, and I used them continually. And all the
time we were being driven off into the north-east,
directly away from Japan and toward bleak Bering Sea.
And still we lived, and the boat lived,
and the wind blew unabated. In fact, toward
nightfall of the third day it increased a trifle and
something more. The boat’s bow plunged
under a crest, and we came through quarter-full of
water. I bailed like a madman. The liability
of shipping another such sea was enormously increased
by the water that weighed the boat down and robbed
it of its buoyancy. And another such sea meant
the end. When I had the boat empty again I was
forced to take away the tarpaulin which covered Maud,
in order that I might lash it down across the bow.
It was well I did, for it covered the boat fully a
third of the way aft, and three times, in the next
several hours, it flung off the bulk of the down-rushing
water when the bow shoved under the seas.
Maud’s condition was pitiable.
She sat crouched in the bottom of the boat, her lips
blue, her face grey and plainly showing the pain she
suffered. But ever her eyes looked bravely at
me, and ever her lips uttered brave words.
The worst of the storm must have blown
that night, though little I noticed it. I had
succumbed and slept where I sat in the stern-sheets.
The morning of the fourth day found the wind diminished
to a gentle whisper, the sea dying down and the sun
shining upon us. Oh, the blessed sun!
How we bathed our poor bodies in its delicious warmth,
reviving like bugs and crawling things after a storm.
We smiled again, said amusing things, and waxed optimistic
over our situation. Yet it was, if anything,
worse than ever. We were farther from Japan than
the night we left the Ghost. Nor could
I more than roughly guess our latitude and longitude.
At a calculation of a two-mile drift per hour, during
the seventy and odd hours of the storm, we had been
driven at least one hundred and fifty miles to the
north-east. But was such calculated drift correct?
For all I knew, it might have been four miles per
hour instead of two. In which case we were another
hundred and fifty miles to the bad.
Where we were I did not know, though
there was quite a likelihood that we were in the vicinity
of the Ghost. There were seals about us,
and I was prepared to sight a sealing-schooner at
any time. We did sight one, in the afternoon,
when the north-west breeze had sprung up freshly once
more. But the strange schooner lost itself on
the sky-line and we alone occupied the circle of the
sea.
Came days of fog, when even Maud’s
spirit drooped and there were no merry words upon
her lips; days of calm, when we floated on the lonely
immensity of sea, oppressed by its greatness and yet
marvelling at the miracle of tiny life, for we still
lived and struggled to live; days of sleet and wind
and snow-squalls, when nothing could keep us warm;
or days of drizzling rain, when we filled our water-breakers
from the drip of the wet sail.
And ever I loved Maud with an increasing
love. She was so many-sided, so many-mooded “protean-mooded”
I called her. But I called her this, and other
and dearer things, in my thoughts only. Though
the declaration of my love urged and trembled on my
tongue a thousand times, I knew that it was no time
for such a declaration. If for no other reason,
it was no time, when one was protecting and trying
to save a woman, to ask that woman for her love.
Delicate as was the situation, not alone in this but
in other ways, I flattered myself that I was able to
deal delicately with it; and also I flattered myself
that by look or sign I gave no advertisement of the
love I felt for her. We were like good comrades,
and we grew better comrades as the days went by.
One thing about her which surprised
me was her lack of timidity and fear. The terrible
sea, the frail boat, the storms, the suffering, the
strangeness and isolation of the situation, all
that should have frightened a robust woman, seemed
to make no impression upon her who had known life
only in its most sheltered and consummately artificial
aspects, and who was herself all fire and dew and mist,
sublimated spirit, all that was soft and tender and
clinging in woman. And yet I am wrong.
She was timid and afraid, but she possessed
courage. The flesh and the qualms of the flesh
she was heir to, but the flesh bore heavily only on
the flesh. And she was spirit, first and always
spirit, etherealized essence of life, calm as her
calm eyes, and sure of permanence in the changing
order of the universe.
Came days of storm, days and nights
of storm, when the ocean menaced us with its roaring
whiteness, and the wind smote our struggling boat with
a Titan’s buffets. And ever we were flung
off, farther and farther, to the north-east.
It was in such a storm, and the worst that we had
experienced, that I cast a weary glance to leeward,
not in quest of anything, but more from the weariness
of facing the elemental strife, and in mute appeal,
almost, to the wrathful powers to cease and let us
be. What I saw I could not at first believe.
Days and nights of sleeplessness and anxiety had
doubtless turned my head. I looked back at Maud,
to identify myself, as it were, in time and space.
The sight of her dear wet cheeks, her flying hair,
and her brave brown eyes convinced me that my vision
was still healthy. Again I turned my face to
leeward, and again I saw the jutting promontory, black
and high and naked, the raging surf that broke about
its base and beat its front high up with spouting
fountains, the black and forbidden coast-line running
toward the south-east and fringed with a tremendous
scarf of white.
“Maud,” I said. “Maud.”
She turned her head and beheld the sight.
“It cannot be Alaska!” she cried.
“Alas, no,” I answered, and asked, “Can
you swim?”
She shook her head.
“Neither can I,” I said.
“So we must get ashore without swimming, in
some opening between the rocks through which we can
drive the boat and clamber out. But we must
be quick, most quick and sure.”
I spoke with a confidence she knew
I did not feel, for she looked at me with that unfaltering
gaze of hers and said:
“I have not thanked you yet for all you have
done for me but ”
She hesitated, as if in doubt how best to word her
gratitude.
“Well?” I said, brutally,
for I was not quite pleased with her thanking me.
“You might help me,” she smiled.
“To acknowledge your obligations
before you die? Not at all. We are not
going to die. We shall land on that island, and
we shall be snug and sheltered before the day is done.”
I spoke stoutly, but I did not believe
a word. Nor was I prompted to lie through fear.
I felt no fear, though I was sure of death in that
boiling surge amongst the rocks which was rapidly
growing nearer. It was impossible to hoist sail
and claw off that shore. The wind would instantly
capsize the boat; the seas would swamp it the moment
it fell into the trough; and, besides, the sail, lashed
to the spare oars, dragged in the sea ahead of us.
As I say, I was not afraid to meet
my own death, there, a few hundred yards to leeward;
but I was appalled at the thought that Maud must die.
My cursed imagination saw her beaten and mangled against
the rocks, and it was too terrible. I strove
to compel myself to think we would make the landing
safely, and so I spoke, not what I believed, but what
I preferred to believe.
I recoiled before contemplation of
that frightful death, and for a moment I entertained
the wild idea of seizing Maud in my arms and leaping
overboard. Then I resolved to wait, and at the
last moment, when we entered on the final stretch,
to take her in my arms and proclaim my love, and,
with her in my embrace, to make the desperate struggle
and die.
Instinctively we drew closer together
in the bottom of the boat. I felt her mittened
hand come out to mine. And thus, without speech,
we waited the end. We were not far off the line
the wind made with the western edge of the promontory,
and I watched in the hope that some set of the current
or send of the sea would drift us past before we reached
the surf.
“We shall go clear,” I
said, with a confidence which I knew deceived neither
of us.
“By God, we will go clear!” I cried,
five minutes later.
The oath left my lips in my excitement the
first, I do believe, in my life, unless “trouble
it,” an expletive of my youth, be accounted an
oath.
“I beg your pardon,” I said.
“You have convinced me of your
sincerity,” she said, with a faint smile.
“I do know, now, that we shall go clear.”
I had seen a distant headland past
the extreme edge of the promontory, and as we looked
we could see grow the intervening coastline of what
was evidently a deep cove. At the same time
there broke upon our ears a continuous and mighty
bellowing. It partook of the magnitude and volume
of distant thunder, and it came to us directly from
leeward, rising above the crash of the surf and travelling
directly in the teeth of the storm. As we passed
the point the whole cove burst upon our view, a half-moon
of white sandy beach upon which broke a huge surf,
and which was covered with myriads of seals.
It was from them that the great bellowing went up.
“A rookery!” I cried.
“Now are we indeed saved. There must be
men and cruisers to protect them from the seal-hunters.
Possibly there is a station ashore.”
But as I studied the surf which beat
upon the beach, I said, “Still bad, but not
so bad. And now, if the gods be truly kind, we
shall drift by that next headland and come upon a
perfectly sheltered beach, where we may land without
wetting our feet.”
And the gods were kind. The
first and second headlands were directly in line with
the south-west wind; but once around the second, and
we went perilously near, we picked up the
third headland, still in line with the wind and with
the other two. But the cove that intervened!
It penetrated deep into the land, and the tide, setting
in, drifted us under the shelter of the point.
Here the sea was calm, save for a heavy but smooth
ground-swell, and I took in the sea-anchor and began
to row. From the point the shore curved away,
more and more to the south and west, until at last
it disclosed a cove within the cove, a little land-locked
harbour, the water level as a pond, broken only by
tiny ripples where vagrant breaths and wisps of the
storm hurtled down from over the frowning wall of
rock that backed the beach a hundred feet inshore.
Here were no seals whatever.
The boat’s stern touched the hard shingle.
I sprang out, extending my hand to Maud. The
next moment she was beside me. As my fingers
released hers, she clutched for my arm hastily.
At the same moment I swayed, as about to fall to
the sand. This was the startling effect of the
cessation of motion. We had been so long upon
the moving, rocking sea that the stable land was a
shock to us. We expected the beach to lift up
this way and that, and the rocky walls to swing back
and forth like the sides of a ship; and when we braced
ourselves, automatically, for these various expected
movements, their non-occurrence quite overcame our
equilibrium.
“I really must sit down,”
Maud said, with a nervous laugh and a dizzy gesture,
and forthwith she sat down on the sand.
I attended to making the boat secure
and joined her. Thus we landed on Endeavour
Island, as we came to it, land-sick from long custom
of the sea.