Philip sat where Jeanne had left him.
He was powerless to move or to say a word that might
have recalled her. Her own grief, quivering in
that one piteous sob, overwhelmed him. It held
him mute and listening, with the hope that each instant
the tent-flap might open and Jeanne reappear.
And yet if she came he had no words to say. Unwittingly
he had probed deep into one of those wounds that never
heal, and he realized that to ask forgiveness would
be but another blunder. He almost groaned as
he thought of what he had done. In his desire
to understand, to know more about Jeanne, he had driven
her into a corner. What he had forced from her
he might have learned a little later from Pierre or
from the father at Fort o’ God. He thought
that Jeanne must despise him now, for he had taken
advantage of her helplessness and his own position.
He had saved her from her enemies; and in return she
had opened her heart, naked and bleeding, to his eyes.
What she had told him was not a voluntary confidence;
it was a confession wrung from her by the rack of
his questionings the confession that she
was a waif-child, that Pierre was not her brother,
and that the man at Fort o’ God was not her
father. He had gone to the very depths of that
which was sacred to herself and those whom she loved.
He rose and stirred the fire, and
stray ends of birch leaped into flame, lighting his
pale face. He wanted to go to the tent, kneel
there where Jeanne could hear him, and tell her that
it was all a mistake. Yet he knew that this could
not be, neither the next day nor the next, for to
plead extenuation for himself would be to reveal his
love. Two or three times he had been on the point
of revealing that love. Only now, after what
had happened, did it occur to him that to disclose
his heart to Jeanne would be the greatest crime he
could commit. She was alone with him in the heart
of a wilderness, dependent upon him, upon his honor.
He shivered when he thought how narrow had been his
escape, how short a time he had known her, and how
in that brief spell he had given himself up to an
almost insane hope. To him Jeanne was not a stranger.
She was the embodiment, in flesh and blood, of the
spirit which had been his companion for so long.
He loved her more than ever now, for Jeanne the lost
child of the snows was more the earthly revelation
of his beloved spirit than Jeanne the sister of Pierre.
But what was he to Jeanne?
He left the fire and went to the pile
of balsam which he had spread out between two rocks
for his bed. He lay down and pulled Pierre’s
blanket over him, but his fatigue and his desire for
sleep seemed to have left him, and it was a long time
before slumber finally drove from him the thought
of what he had done. After that he did not move.
He heard none of the sounds of the night. A little
owl, the devil-witch, screamed horribly overhead and
awakened Jeanne, who sat up for a few moments in her
balsam bed, white-faced and shivering. But Philip
slept. Long afterward something warm awakened
him, and he opened his eyes, thinking that it was
the glow of the fire in his face. It was the sun.
He heard a sound which brought him quickly into consciousness
of day. It was Jeanne singing softly over beyond
the rocks.
He had dreaded the coming of morning,
when he would have to face Jeanne. His guilt
hung heavily upon him. But the sound of her voice,
low and sweet, filled with the carroling happiness
of a bird, brought a glad smile to his lips.
After all, Jeanne had understood him. She had
forgiven him, if she had not forgotten.
For the first time he noticed the
height of the sun, and he sat bolt upright. Jeanne
saw his head and shoulders pop over the top of the
rocks, and she laughed at him from their stone table.
“I’ve been keeping breakfast
for over an hour, M’sieur Philip,” she
cried. “Hurry down to the creek and wash
yourself, or I shall eat all alone!”
Philip rose stupidly and looked at his watch.
“Eight o’clock!”
he gasped. “We should have been ten miles
on the way by this time!”
Jeanne was still laughing at him.
Like sunlight she dispelled his gloom of the night
before. A glance around the camp showed him that
she must have been awake for at least two hours.
The packs were filled and strapped. The silken
tent was down and folded. She had gathered wood,
built the fire, and cooked breakfast while he slept.
And now she stood a dozen paces from him, blushing
a little at his amazed stare, waiting for him.
“It’s deuced good of you,
Miss Jeanne!” he exclaimed. “I don’t
deserve such kindness from you.”
“Oh!” said Jeanne, and
that was all. She bent over the fire, and Philip
went to the creek.
He was determined now to maintain
a more certain hold upon himself. As he doused
his face in the cold water his resolutions formed themselves.
For the next few days he would forget everything but
the one fact that Jeanne was in his care; he would
not hurt her again or compel her confidence.
It was after nine o’clock before
they were upon the river. They paddled without
a rest until twelve. After lunch Philip confiscated
Jeanne’s paddle and made her sit facing him
in the canoe.
The afternoon passed like a dream
to Philip, He did not refer again to Fort o’
God or the people there; he did not speak again of
Eileen Brokaw, of Lord Fitzhugh, or of Pierre.
He talked of himself and of those things which had
once been his life. He told of his mother and
his father, who had died, and of the little sister,
whom he had worshiped, but who had gone with the others.
He bared his loneliness to her as he would have told
them to the sister, had she lived; and Jeanne’s
soft blue eyes were filled with tenderness and sympathy.
And then he talked of Gregson’s world.
Within himself he called it no longer his own.
It was Jeanne who questioned now.
She asked about cities and great people, about books
and women. Her knowledge amazed Philip.
She might have visited the Louvre. One would
have guessed that she had walked in the streets of
Paris, Berlin, and London. She spoke of Johnson,
of Dickens, and of Balzac as though they had died
but yesterday. She was like one who had been
everywhere and yet saw everything through a veil that
bewildered her. In her simplicity she unfolded
herself to Philip, leaf by leaf, petal by petal, like
the morning apios that surrenders its mysteries
to the sun. She knew the world which he had come
from, its people, its cities, its greatness; and yet
her knowledge was like that of the blind. She
knew, but she had never seen; and in her wistfulness
to see as he could see there was a sweetness and
a pathos which made every fiber in his body sing with
a quiet and thrilling joy. He knew, now, that
the man who was at Fort o’ God must, indeed,
be the most wonderful man in the world. For out
of a child of the snows, of the forest, of a savage
desolation, he had made Jeanne. And Jeanne was
glorious!
The afternoon passed, and they made
thirty miles before they camped for the night.
They traveled the next day, and the one that followed.
On the afternoon of the fourth they were approaching
Big Thunder Rapids, close to the influx of the Little
Churchill, sixty miles from Fort o’ God.
These days, too, passed for Philip
with joyous swiftness; swiftly because they were too
short for him. His life, now, was Jeanne.
Each day she became a more vital part of him.
She crept into his soul until there was no longer
left room for any other thought than of her. And
yet his happiness was tampered by a thing which, if
not grief, depressed and saddened him at times.
Two days more and they would be at Fort o’ God,
and there Jeanne would be no longer his own, as she
was now. Even the wilderness has its conventionality,
and at Fort o’ God their comradeship would end.
A day of rest, two at the most, and he would leave
for the camp on Blind Indian Lake. As the time
drew nearer when they would be but friends and no
longer comrades, Philip could not always hide the
signs of gloom which weighed upon him. He revealed
nothing in words; but now and then Jeanne had caught
him when the fears at his heart betrayed themselves
in his face. Jeanne became happier as their journey
approached its end. She was alive every moment,
joyous, expectant, looking ahead to Fort o’
God; and this in itself was a bitterness to Philip,
though he knew that he was a fool for allowing it
to be so. He reasoned, with dull, masculine wit,
that if Jeanne cared for him at all she would not
be so anxious for their comradeship to end. But
these moods, when they came, passed quickly. And
on this afternoon of the fourth day they passed away
entirely, for in an instant there came a solution
to it all. They had known each other but four
days, yet that brief time had encompassed what might
not have been in as many years. Life, smooth,
uneventful, develops friendship slowly; an hour of
the unusual may lay bare a soul. Philip thought
of Eileen Brokaw, whose heart was still a closed mystery
to him; who was a stranger, in spite of the years
he had known her. In four days he had known Jeanne
a lifetime; in those four days Jeanne had learned more
of him than Eileen Brokaw could ever know. So
he arrived at the resolution which made him, too,
look eagerly ahead to the end of the journey.
At Fort o’ God he would tell Jeanne of his love.
Jeanne was looking at him when the
determination came. She saw the gloom pass, a
flush mount into his face; and when he saw her eyes
upon him he laughed, without knowing why.
“If it is so funny,” she said, “please
tell me.”
It was a temptation, but he resisted it.
“It is a secret,” he said,
“which I shall keep until we reach Fort o’
God.”
Jeanne turned her face up-stream to
listen. A dozen times she had done this during
the last half-hour, and Philip had listened with her.
At first they had heard a distant murmur, rising as
they advanced, like an autumn wind that grows stronger
each moment in the tree-tops. The murmur was
steady now, without the variations of a wind.
It was the distant roaring of the rocks and rushing
floods of Big Thunder Rapids. It grew steadily
from a murmur to a moan, from a moan to rumbling thunder.
The current became so swift that Philip was compelled
to use all his strength to force the canoe ahead.
A few moments later he turned into shore.
From where they landed, a worn trail
led up to one of the precipitous walls of rock and
shut in the Big Thunder Rapids. Everything about
them was rock. The trail was over rock, worn
smooth by the countless feet of centuries clawed
feet, naked feet, moccasined feet, the feet of white
men. It was the Great Portage, for animal as well
as man. Philip went up with the pack, and Jeanne
followed behind him. The thunder increased.
It roared in their ears until they could no longer
hear their own voices. Directly above the rapids
the trail was narrow, scarcely eight feet in width,
shut in on the land side by a mountain wall, on the
other by the precipice. Philip looked behind,
and saw Jeanne hugging close to the wall. Her
face was white, her eyes shone with terror and awe.
He spoke to her, but she saw only the movement of
his lips. Then he put down his pack and went close
to the edge of the precipice.
Sixty feet below him was the Big Thunder,
a chaos of lashing foam, of slippery, black-capped
rocks bobbing and grimacing amid the rushing torrents
like monsters playing at hide-and-seek. Now one
rose high, as though thrust up out of chaos by giant
hands; then it sank back, and milk-white foam swirled
softly over the place where it had been. There
seemed to be life in the chaos a grim, terrible
life whose voice was a thunder that never died.
For a few moments Philip stood fascinated by the scene
below him. Then he felt a touch upon his arm.
It was Jeanne. She stood beside him quivering,
dead-white, Almost daring to take the final step.
Philip caught her hands firmly in his own, and Jeanne
looked over. Then she darted back and hovered,
shuddering, near the wall.
The portage was a short one, scarce
two hundred yards in length, and at the upper end
was a small green meadow in which river voyagers camped.
It still lacked two hours of dusk when Philip carried
over the last of the luggage.
“We will not camp here,”
he said to Jeanne pointing to the remains of numerous
fires and remembering Pierre’s exhortation.
“It is too public, as you might say. Besides,
that noise makes me deaf.”
Jeanne shuddered.
“Let us hurry,” she said. “I’m I’m
afraid of that!”
Philip carried the canoe down to the
river, and Jeanne followed with the bearskins.
The current was soft and sluggish, with tiny maelstroms
gurgling up here and there, like air-bubbles in boiling
syrup. He only half launched the canoe, and Jeanne
remained while he went for another load. The
dip, kept green by the water of a spring, was a pistol-shot
from the river. Philip looked back from the crest
and saw Jeanne leaning over the canoe. Then he
descended into the meadow, whistling. He had
reached the packs when to his ears there seemed to
come a sound that rose faintly above the roar of the
water in the chasm. He straightened himself and
listened.
“Philip! Philip!”
The cry came twice his
own name, piercing, agonizing, rising above the thunder
of the floods. He heard no more, but raced up
the slope of the dip. From the crest he stared
down to where Jeanne had been. She was gone.
The canoe was gone. A terrible fear swept upon
him, and for an instant he turned faint. Jeanne’s
cry came to him again.
“Philip! Philip!”
Like a madman he dashed up the rocky
trail to the chasm, calling to Jeanne, shrieking to
her, telling her that he was coming. He reached
the edge of the precipice and looked down. Below
him was the canoe and Jeanne. She was fighting
futilely against the resistless flood; he saw her
paddle wrenched suddenly from her hands, and as it
went swirling beyond her reach she cried out his name
again. Philip shouted, and the girl’s white
face was turned up to him. Fifty yards ahead of
her were the first of the rocks. In another minute,
even less, Jeanne would be dashed to pieces before
his eyes. Thoughts, swifter than light, flashed
through his mind. He could do nothing for her,
for it seemed impossible that any living creature
could exist amid the maelstroms and rocks ahead.
And yet she was calling to him. She was reaching
up her arms to him. She had faith in him, even
in the face of death.
“Philip! Philip!”
There was no m’sieur to
that cry now, only a moaning, sobbing prayer filled
with his name.
“I’m coming, Jeanne!” he shouted.
“I’m coming! Hold fast to the canoe!”
He ran ahead, stripping off his coat.
A little below the first rocks a stunted banskian
grew out of an earthy fissure in the cliff, with its
lower branches dipping within a dozen feet of the stream.
He climbed out on this with the quickness of a squirrel,
and hung to a limb with both hands, ready to drop
alongside the canoe. There was one chance, and
only one, of saving Jeanne. It was a chance out
of a thousand ten thousand. If he
could drop at the right moment, seize the stern of
the canoe, and make a rudder of himself, he could
keep the craft from turning broadside and might possibly
guide it between the rocks below. This one hope
was destroyed as quickly as it was born. The canoe
crashed against the first rock. A smother of foam
rose about it and he saw Jeanne suddenly engulfed
and lost. Then she reappeared, almost under him,
and he launched himself downward, clutching at her
dress with his hands. By a supreme effort he
caught her around the waist with his left arm, so
that his right was free.
Ahead of them was a boiling sea of
white, even more terrible than when they had looked
down upon it from above. The rocks were hidden
by mist and foam; their roar was deafening. Between
Philip and the awful maelstrom of death there was
a quieter space of water, black, sullen, and swift the
power itself, rushing on to whip itself into ribbons
among the taunting rocks that barred its way to the
sea. In that space Philip looked at Jeanne.
Her face was against his breast. Her eyes met
his own, and In that last moment, face to face with
death, love leaped above all fear. They were
about to die, and Jeanne would die in his arms.
She was his now forever. His hold tightened.
Her face came nearer. He wanted to shout, to
let her know what he had meant to say at Fort o’
God. But his voice would have been like a whisper
in a hurricane. Could Jeanne understand?
The wall of foam was almost in their faces. Suddenly
he bent down, crushed his face to hers, and kissed
her again and again. Then, as the maelstrom engulfed
them, he swung his own body to take the brunt of the
shock.
He no longer reasoned beyond one thing.
He must keep his body between Jeanne and the rocks.
He would be crushed, beaten to pieces, made unrecognizable,
but Jeanne would be only drowned. He fought to
keep himself half under her, with his head and shoulders
in advance. When he felt the floods sucking him
under, he thrust her upward. He fought, and did
not know what happened. Only there was the crashing
of a thousand cannon in his ears, and he seemed to
live through an eternity. They thundered about
him, against him, ahead of him, and then more and more
behind. He felt no pain, no shock. It was
the sound that he seemed to be fighting; in the
buffeting of his body against the rocks there was
the painlessness of a knife-thrust delivered amid the
roar of battle. And the sound receded. It
was thundering in retreat, and a curious thought came
to him. Providence had delivered him through the
maelstrom. He had not struck the rocks. He
was saved. And in his arms he held Jeanne.
It was day when he began the fight,
broad day. And now it was night. He felt
earth, under his feet, and he knew that he had brought
Jeanne ashore. He heard her voice speaking his
name; and he was so glad that he laughed and sobbed
like a babbling idiot. It was dark, and he was
tired. He sank down, and he could feel Jeanne’s
arms striving to hold him up, and he could still hear
her voice. But nothing could keep him from sleeping.
And during that sleep he had visions. Now it was
day, and he saw Jeanne’s face over him; again
it was night, and he heard only the roaring of the
flood. Again he heard voices, Jeanne’s voice
and a man’s, and he wondered who the man could
be. It was a strange sleep filled with strange
dreams. But at last the dreams seemed to go.
He lost himself. He awoke, and the night had turned
into day. He was in a tent, and the sun was gleaming
on the outside. It had been a curious dream,
and he sat up astonished.
There was a man sitting beside him. It was Pierre.
“Thank God, M’sieur!”
he heard. “We have been waiting for this.
You are saved!”
“Pierre!” he gasped.
Memory returned to him. He was
awake. He felt weak, but he knew that what he
saw was not the vision of a dream.
“I came the day after you went
through the rapids,” explained Pierre, seeing
his amazement. “You saved Jeanne. She
was not hurt. But you were badly bruised, M’sieur,
and you have been in a fever.”
“Jeanne was not hurt?”
“No. She cared for you until I came.
She is sleeping now.”
“I have not been this way very long,
have I, Pierre?”
“I came yesterday,” said
Pierre. He bent over Philip, and added: “You
must remain quiet for a little longer, M’sieur.
I have brought you a letter from M’sieur Gregson,
and when you read that I will have some broth made
for you.”
Philip took the letter and opened
it as Pierre went quietly out of the tent. Gregson
had written him but a few lines. He wrote:
My dear Phil, I
hope you’ll forgive me. But I’m tired
of this mess. I was never cut out for the woods,
and so I’m going to dismiss myself, leaving
all best wishes behind for you. Go in and fight.
You’re a devil for fighting, and will surely
win. I’ll only be in the way. So I’m
going back with the ship, which leaves in three or
four days. Was going to tell you this on the
night you disappeared. Am sorry I couldn’t
shake hands with you before I left. Write and
let me know how things come out. As ever,
Tom.
Stunned, Philip dropped the letter.
He lifted his eyes, and a strange cry burst from his
lips. Nothing that Gregson had written could have
wrung that cry from him. It was Jeanne. She
stood in the open door of the tent. But it was
not the Jeanne he had known. A terrible grief
was written in her face. Her lips were bloodless,
her eyes lusterless; deep suffering seemed to have
put hollows in her cheeks. In a moment she had
fallen upon her knees beside him and clasped one of
his hands in both of her own.
“I am so glad,” she whispered, chokingly.
For an instant she pressed his hands to her face.
“I am so glad ”
She rose to her feet, swaying slightly.
She turned to the door, and Philip could hear her
sobbing as she left him.