Elinor now found the difference between
the expectation of an unpleasant event, however certain
the mind may be told to consider it, and certainty
itself. She now found, that in spite of herself,
she had always admitted a hope, while Edward remained
single, that something would occur to prevent his
marrying Lucy; that some resolution of his own, some
mediation of friends, or some more eligible opportunity
of establishment for the lady, would arise to assist
the happiness of all. But he was now married;
and she condemned her heart for the lurking flattery,
which so much heightened the pain of the intelligence.
That he should be married soon, before
(as she imagined) he could be in orders, and consequently
before he could be in possession of the living, surprised
her a little at first. But she soon saw how likely
it was that Lucy, in her self-provident care, in her
haste to secure him, should overlook every thing but
the risk of delay. They were married, married
in town, and now hastening down to her uncle’s.
What had Edward felt on being within four miles from
Barton, on seeing her mother’s servant, on hearing
Lucy’s message!
They would soon, she supposed, be
settled at Delaford; Delaford, that
place in which so much conspired to give her an interest;
which she wished to be acquainted with, and yet desired
to avoid. She saw them in an instant in their
parsonage-house; saw in Lucy, the active, contriving
manager, uniting at once a desire of smart appearance
with the utmost frugality, and ashamed to be suspected
of half her economical practices; pursuing her own
interest in every thought, courting the favour of
Colonel Brandon, of Mrs. Jennings, and of every wealthy
friend. In Edward, she knew not what she saw,
nor what she wished to see. Happy or unhappy,
nothing pleased her; she turned away her head from
every sketch of him.
Elinor flattered herself that some
one of their connections in London would write to
them to announce the event, and give farther particulars, but
day after day passed off, and brought no letter, no
tidings. Though uncertain that any one were to
blame, she found fault with every absent friend.
They were all thoughtless or indolent.
“When do you write to Colonel
Brandon, ma’am?” was an inquiry which
sprung from the impatience of her mind to have something
going on.
“I wrote to him, my love, last
week, and rather expect to see, than to hear from
him again. I earnestly pressed his coming to us,
and should not be surprised to see him walk in today
or tomorrow, or any day.”
This was gaining something, something
to look forward to. Colonel Brandon must have
some information to give.
Scarcely had she so determined it,
when the figure of a man on horseback drew her eyes
to the window. He stopped at their gate.
It was a gentleman, it was Colonel Brandon himself.
Now she could hear more; and she trembled in expectation
of it. But it was not Colonel
Brandon neither his air nor his
height. Were it possible, she must say it must
be Edward. She looked again. He had just
dismounted; she could not be mistaken, it
was Edward. She moved away and sat down.
“He comes from Mr. Pratt’s purposely to
see us. I will be calm, I will
be mistress of myself.”
In a moment she perceived that the
others were likewise aware of the mistake. She
saw her mother and Marianne change colour; saw them
look at herself, and whisper a few sentences to each
other. She would have given the world to be able
to speak and to make them understand that
she hoped no coolness, no slight, would appear in their
behaviour to him; but she had no utterance,
and was obliged to leave all to their own discretion.
Not a syllable passed aloud.
They all waited in silence for the appearance of their
visitor. His footsteps were heard along the gravel
path; in a moment he was in the passage, and in another
he was before them.
His countenance, as he entered the
room, was not too happy, even for Elinor. His
complexion was white with agitation, and he looked
as if fearful of his reception, and conscious that
he merited no kind one. Mrs. Dashwood, however,
conforming, as she trusted, to the wishes of that
daughter, by whom she then meant in the warmth of her
heart to be guided in every thing, met with a look
of forced complacency, gave him her hand, and wished
him joy.
He coloured, and stammered out an
unintelligible reply. Elinor’s lips had
moved with her mother’s, and, when the moment
of action was over, she wished that she had shaken
hands with him too. But it was then too late,
and with a countenance meaning to be open, she sat
down again and talked of the weather.
Marianne had retreated as much as
possible out of sight, to conceal her distress; and
Margaret, understanding some part, but not the whole
of the case, thought it incumbent on her to be dignified,
and therefore took a seat as far from him as she could,
and maintained a strict silence.
When Elinor had ceased to rejoice
in the dryness of the season, a very awful pause took
place. It was put an end to by Mrs. Dashwood,
who felt obliged to hope that he had left Mrs. Ferrars
very well. In a hurried manner, he replied in
the affirmative.
Another pause.
Elinor resolving to exert herself,
though fearing the sound of her own voice, now said
“Is Mrs. Ferrars at Longstaple?”
“At Longstaple!” he replied,
with an air of surprise. “No, my mother
is in town.”
“I meant,” said Elinor,
taking up some work from the table, “to inquire
for Mrs. Edward Ferrars.”
She dared not look up; but
her mother and Marianne both turned their eyes on
him. He coloured, seemed perplexed, looked doubtingly,
and, after some hesitation, said,
“Perhaps you mean my
brother you mean Mrs. Mrs. Robert
Ferrars.”
“Mrs. Robert Ferrars!” was
repeated by Marianne and her mother in an accent of
the utmost amazement; and though Elinor
could not speak, even her eyes were fixed on
him with the same impatient wonder. He rose from
his seat, and walked to the window, apparently from
not knowing what to do; took up a pair of scissors
that lay there, and while spoiling both them and their
sheath by cutting the latter to pieces as he spoke,
said, in a hurried voice
“Perhaps you do not know you
may not have heard that my brother is lately married
to to the youngest to Miss Lucy
Steele.”
His words were echoed with unspeakable
astonishment by all but Elinor, who sat with her head
leaning over her work, in a state of such agitation
as made her hardly know where she was.
“Yes,” said he, “they
were married last week, and are now at Dawlish.”
Elinor could sit it no longer.
She almost ran out of the room, and as soon as the
door was closed, burst into tears of joy, which at
first she thought would never cease. Edward,
who had till then looked any where, rather than at
her, saw her hurry away, and perhaps saw, or even
heard, her emotion; for immediately afterwards he fell
into a reverie, which no remarks, no inquiries, no
affectionate address of Mrs. Dashwood could penetrate,
and at last, without saying a word, quitted the room,
and walked out towards the village, leaving the others
in the greatest astonishment and perplexity on a change
in his situation, so wonderful and so sudden, a
perplexity which they had no means of lessening but
by their own conjectures.