Copyright, 1908, By Dodd, Mead & Company
Published, September, 1908
Myself, I do not believe this story.
Six persons are persuaded of its truth; and the hope
of these six is to convince themselves it was an hallucination.
Their difficulty is there are six of them. Each
one alone perceives clearly that it never could have
been. Unfortunately, they are close friends,
and cannot get away from one another; and when they
meet and look into each other’s eyes the thing
takes shape again.
The one who told it to me, and who
immediately wished he had not, was Armitage.
He told it to me one night when he and I were the only
occupants of the Club smoking-room. His telling
me as he explained afterwards was
an impulse of the moment. Sense of the thing had
been pressing upon him all that day with unusual persistence;
and the idea had occurred to him, on my entering the
room, that the flippant scepticism with which an essentially
commonplace mind like my own he used the
words in no offensive sense would be sure
to regard the affair might help to direct his own
attention to its more absurd aspect. I am inclined
to think it did. He thanked me for dismissing
his entire narrative as the delusion of a disordered
brain, and begged me not to mention the matter to
another living soul. I promised; and I may as
well here observe that I do not call this mentioning
the matter. Armitage is not the man’s real
name; it does not even begin with an A. You might
read this story and dine next to him the same evening:
you would know nothing.
Also, of course, I did not consider
myself debarred from speaking about it, discreetly,
to Mrs. Armitage, a charming woman. She burst
into tears at the first mention of the thing.
It took me all I knew to tranquillize her. She
said that when she did not think about the thing she
could be happy. She and Armitage never spoke
of it to one another; and left to themselves her opinion
was that eventually they might put remembrance behind
them. She wished they were not quite so friendly
with the Everetts. Mr. and Mrs. Everett had both
dreamt precisely the same dream; that is, assuming
it was a dream. Mr. Everett was not the sort of
person that a clergyman ought, perhaps, to know; but
as Armitage would always argue: for a teacher
of Christianity to withdraw his friendship from a
man because that man was somewhat of a sinner would
be inconsistent. Rather should he remain his
friend and seek to influence him. They dined
with the Everetts regularly on Tuesdays, and sitting
opposite the Everetts, it seemed impossible to accept
as a fact that all four of them at the same time and
in the same manner had fallen victims to the same
illusion. I think I succeeded in leaving her more
hopeful. She acknowledged that the story, looked
at from the point of common sense, did sound ridiculous;
and threatened me that if I ever breathed a word of
it to anyone, she never would speak to me again.
She is a charming woman, as I have already mentioned.
By a curious coincidence I happened
at the time to be one of Everett’s directors
on a Company he had just promoted for taking over and
developing the Red Sea Coasting trade. I lunched
with him the following Sunday. He is an interesting
talker, and curiosity to discover how so shrewd a
man would account for his connection with so insane so
impossible a fancy, prompted me to hint my knowledge
of the story. The manner both of him and of his
wife changed suddenly. They wanted to know who
it was had told me. I refused the information,
because it was evident they would have been angry
with him. Everett’s theory was that one
of them had dreamt it probably Camelford and
by hypnotic suggestion had conveyed to the rest of
them the impression that they had dreamt it also.
He added that but for one slight incident he should
have ridiculed from the very beginning the argument
that it could have been anything else than a dream.
But what that incident was he would not tell me.
His object, as he explained, was not to dwell upon
the business, but to try and forget it. Speaking
as a friend, he advised me, likewise, not to cackle
about the matter any more than I could help, lest trouble
should arise with regard to my director’s fees.
His way of putting things is occasionally blunt.
It was at the Everetts’, later
on, that I met Mrs. Camelford, one of the handsomest
women I have ever set eyes upon. It was foolish
of me, but my memory for names is weak. I forgot
that Mr. and Mrs. Camelford were the other two concerned,
and mentioned the story as a curious tale I had read
years ago in an old Miscellany. I had reckoned
on it to lead me into a discussion with her on platonic
friendship. She jumped up from her chair and
gave me a look. I remembered then, and could have
bitten out my tongue. It took me a long while
to make my peace, but she came round in the end, consenting
to attribute my blunder to mere stupidity. She
was quite convinced herself, she told me, that the
thing was pure imagination. It was only when
in company with the others that any doubt as to this
crossed her mind. Her own idea was that, if everybody
would agree never to mention the matter again, it would
end in their forgetting it. She supposed it was
her husband who had been my informant: he was
just that sort of ass. She did not say it unkindly.
She said when she was first married, ten years ago,
few people had a more irritating effect upon her than
had Camelford; but that since she had seen more of
other men she had come to respect him. I like
to hear a woman speak well of her husband. It
is a departure which, in my opinion, should be more
encouraged than it is. I assured her Camelford
was not the culprit; and on the understanding that
I might come to see her not too often on
her Thursdays, I agreed with her that the best thing
I could do would be to dismiss the subject from my
mind and occupy myself instead with questions that
concerned myself.
I had never talked much with Camelford
before that time, though I had often seen him at the
Club. He is a strange man, of whom many stories
are told. He writes journalism for a living, and
poetry, which he publishes at his own expense, apparently
for recreation. It occurred to me that his theory
would at all events be interesting; but at first he
would not talk at all, pretending to ignore the whole
affair, as idle nonsense. I had almost despaired
of drawing him out, when one evening, of his own accord,
he asked me if I thought Mrs. Armitage, with whom
he knew I was on terms of friendship, still attached
importance to the thing. On my expressing the
opinion that Mrs. Armitage was the most troubled of
the group, he was irritated; and urged me to leave
the rest of them alone and devote whatever sense I
might possess to persuading her in particular that
the entire thing was and could be nothing but pure
myth. He confessed frankly that to him it was
still a mystery. He could easily regard it as
chimera, but for one slight incident. He would
not for a long while say what that was, but there is
such a thing as perseverance, and in the end I dragged
it out of him. This is what he told me.
“We happened by chance to find
ourselves alone in the conservatory, that night of
the ball we six. Most of the crowd
had already left. The last ‘extra’
was being played: the music came to us faintly.
Stooping to pick up Jessica’s fan, which she
had let fall to the ground, something shining on the
tesselated pavement underneath a group of palms suddenly
caught my eye. We had not said a word to one another;
indeed, it was the first evening we had any of us
met one another that is, unless the thing
was not a dream. I picked it up. The others
gathered round me, and when we looked into one another’s
eyes we understood: it was a broken wine-cup,
a curious goblet of Bavarian glass. It was the
goblet out of which we had all dreamt that we had
drunk.”
I have put the story together as it
seems to me it must have happened. The incidents,
at all events, are facts. Things have since occurred
to those concerned affording me hope that they will
never read it. I should not have troubled to
tell it at all, but that it has a moral.
Six persons sat round the great oak
table in the wainscoted Speise Saal of that
cosy hostelry, the Kneiper Hof at Konigsberg.
It was late into the night. Under ordinary circumstances
they would have been in bed, but having arrived by
the last train from Dantzic, and having supped on
German fare, it had seemed to them discreeter to remain
awhile in talk. The house was strangely silent.
The rotund landlord, leaving their candles ranged
upon the sideboard, had wished them “Güte
Nacht” an hour before. The spirit
of the ancient house enfolded them within its wings.
Here in this very chamber, if rumour
is to be believed, Emmanuel Kant himself had sat discoursing
many a time and oft. The walls, behind which
for more than forty years the little peak-faced man
had thought and worked, rose silvered by the moonlight
just across the narrow way; the three high windows
of the Speise Saal give out upon the old Cathedral
tower beneath which now he rests. Philosophy,
curious concerning human phenomena, eager for experience,
unhampered by the limitation Convention would impose
upon all speculation, was in the smoky air.
“Not into future events,”
remarked the Rev. Nathaniel Armitage, “it is
better they should be hidden from us. But into
the future of ourselves our temperament,
our character I think we ought to be allowed
to see. At twenty we are one individual; at forty,
another person entirely, with other views, with other
interests, a different outlook upon life, attracted
by quite other attributes, repelled by the very qualities
that once attracted us. It is extremely awkward,
for all of us.”
“I am glad to hear somebody
else say that,” observed Mrs. Everett, in her
gentle, sympathetic voice. “I have thought
it all myself so often. Sometimes I have blamed
myself, yet how can one help it: the things that
appeared of importance to us, they become indifferent;
new voices call to us; the idols we once worshipped,
we see their feet of clay.”
“If under the head of idols
you include me,” laughed the jovial Mr. Everett,
“don’t hesitate to say so.”
He was a large red-faced gentleman, with small twinkling
eyes, and a mouth both strong and sensuous. “I
didn’t make my feet myself. I never asked
anybody to take me for a stained-glass saint.
It is not I who have changed.”
“I know, dear, it is I,”
his thin wife answered with a meek smile. “I
was beautiful, there was no doubt about it, when you
married me.”
“You were, my dear,” agreed
her husband: “As a girl few could hold a
candle to you.”
“It was the only thing about
me that you valued, my beauty,” continued his
wife; “and it went so quickly. I feel sometimes
as if I had swindled you.”
“But there is a beauty of the
mind, of the soul,” remarked the Rev. Nathaniel
Armitage, “that to some men is more attractive
than mere physical perfection.”
The soft eyes of the faded lady shone
for a moment with the light of pleasure. “I
am afraid Dick is not of that number,” she sighed.
“Well, as I said just now about
my feet,” answered her husband genially, “I
didn’t make myself. I always have been a
slave to beauty and always shall be. There would
be no sense in pretending among chums that you haven’t
lost your looks, old girl.” He laid his
fine hand with kindly intent upon her bony shoulder.
“But there is no call for you to fret yourself
as if you had done it on purpose. No one but a
lover imagines a woman growing more beautiful as she
grows older.”
“Some women would seem to,” answered his
wife.
Involuntarily she glanced to where
Mrs. Camelford sat with elbows resting on the table;
and involuntarily also the small twinkling eyes of
her husband followed in the same direction. There
is a type that reaches its prime in middle age.
Mrs. Camelford, nee Jessica Dearwood, at twenty
had been an uncanny-looking creature, the only thing
about her appealing to general masculine taste having
been her magnificent eyes, and even these had frightened
more than they had allured. At forty, Mrs. Camelford
might have posed for the entire Juno.
“Yes, he’s a cunning old
joker is Time,” murmured Mr. Everett, almost
inaudibly.
“What ought to have happened,”
said Mrs. Armitage, while with deft fingers rolling
herself a cigarette, “was for you and Nellie
to have married.”
Mrs. Everett’s pale face flushed scarlet.
“My dear,” exclaimed the shocked Nathaniel
Armitage, flushing likewise.
“Oh, why may one not sometimes
speak the truth?” answered his wife petulantly.
“You and I are utterly unsuited to one another everybody
sees it. At nineteen it seemed to me beautiful,
holy, the idea of being a clergyman’s wife,
fighting by his side against evil. Besides, you
have changed since then. You were human, my dear
Nat, in those days, and the best dancer I had ever
met. It was your dancing was your chief attraction
for me as likely as not, if I had only known myself.
At nineteen how can one know oneself?”
“We loved each other,” the Rev. Armitage
reminded her.
“I know we did, passionately then;
but we don’t now.” She laughed a
little bitterly. “Poor Nat! I am only
another trial added to your long list. Your beliefs,
your ideals are meaningless to me mere
narrow-minded dogmas, stifling thought. Nellie
was the wife Nature had intended for you, so soon
as she had lost her beauty and with it all her worldly
ideas. Fate was maturing her for you, if only
we had known. As for me, I ought to have been
the wife of an artist, of a poet.” Unconsciously
a glance from her ever restless eyes flashed across
the table to where Horatio Camelford sat, puffing
clouds of smoke into the air from a huge black meerschaum
pipe. “Bohemia is my country. Its
poverty, its struggle would have been a joy to me.
Breathing its free air, life would have been worth
living.”
Horatio Camelford leant back with
eyes fixed on the oaken ceiling. “It is
a mistake,” said Horatio Camelford, “for
the artist ever to marry.”
The handsome Mrs. Camelford laughed
good-naturedly. “The artist,” remarked
Mrs. Camelford, “from what I have seen of him
would never know the inside of his shirt from the
outside if his wife was not there to take it out of
the drawer and put it over his head.”
“His wearing it inside out would
not make much difference to the world,” argued
her husband. “The sacrifice of his art to
the necessity of keeping his wife and family does.”
“Well, you at all events do
not appear to have sacrificed much, my boy,”
came the breezy voice of Dick Everett. “Why,
all the world is ringing with your name.”
“When I am forty-one, with all
the best years of my life behind me,” answered
the Poet. “Speaking as a man, I have nothing
to regret. No one could have had a better wife;
my children are charming. I have lived the peaceful
existence of the successful citizen. Had I been
true to my trust I should have gone out into the wilderness,
the only possible home of the teacher, the prophet.
The artist is the bridegroom of Art. Marriage
for him is an immorality. Had I my time again
I should remain a bachelor.”
“Time brings its revenges, you
see,” laughed Mrs. Camelford. “At
twenty that fellow threatened to commit suicide if
I would not marry him, and cordially disliking him
I consented. Now twenty years later, when I am
just getting used to him, he calmly turns round and
says he would have been better without me.”
“I heard something about it
at the time,” said Mrs. Armitage. “You
were very much in love with somebody else, were you
not?”
“Is not the conversation assuming
a rather dangerous direction?” laughed Mrs.
Camelford.
“I was thinking the same thing,”
agreed Mrs. Everett. “One would imagine
some strange influence had seized upon us, forcing
us to speak our thoughts aloud.”
“I am afraid I was the original
culprit,” admitted the Reverend Nathaniel.
“This room is becoming quite oppressive.
Had we not better go to bed?”
The ancient lamp suspended from its
smoke-grimed beam uttered a faint, gurgling sob, and
spluttered out. The shadow of the old Cathedral
tower crept in and stretched across the room, now illuminated
only by occasional beams from the cloud-curtained
moon. At the other end of the table sat a peak-faced
little gentleman, clean-shaven, in full-bottomed wig.
“Forgive me,” said the
little gentleman. He spoke in English, with a
strong accent. “But it seems to me here
is a case where two parties might be of service to
one another.”
The six fellow-travellers round the
table looked at one another, but none spoke.
The idea that came to each of them, as they explained
to one another later, was that without remembering
it they had taken their candles and had gone to bed.
This was surely a dream.
“It would greatly assist me,”
continued the little peak-faced gentleman, “in
experiments I am conducting into the phenomena of human
tendencies, if you would allow me to put your lives
back twenty years.”
Still no one of the six replied.
It seemed to them that the little old gentleman must
have been sitting there among them all the time, unnoticed
by them.
“Judging from your talk this
evening,” continued the peak-faced little gentleman,
“you should welcome my offer. You appear
to me to be one and all of exceptional intelligence.
You perceive the mistakes that you have made:
you understand the causes. The future veiled,
you could not help yourselves. What I propose
to do is to put you back twenty years. You will
be boys and girls again, but with this difference:
that the knowledge of the future, so far as it relates
to yourselves, will remain with you.
“Come,” urged the old
gentleman, “the thing is quite simple of accomplishment.
As as a certain philosopher has clearly
proved: the universe is only the result of our
own perceptions. By what may appear to you to
be magic by what in reality will be simply
a chemical operation I remove from your
memory the events of the last twenty years, with the
exception of what immediately concerns your own personalities.
You will retain all knowledge of the changes, physical
and mental, that will be in store for you; all else
will pass from your perception.”
The little old gentleman took a small
phial from his waistcoat pocket, and, filling one
of the massive wine-glasses from a decanter, measured
into it some half-a-dozen drops. Then he placed
the glass in the centre of the table.
“Youth is a good time to go
back to,” said the peak-faced little gentleman,
with a smile. “Twenty years ago, it was
the night of the Hunt Ball. You remember it?”
It was Everett who drank first.
He drank it with his little twinkling eyes fixed hungrily
on the proud handsome face of Mrs. Camelford; and
then handed the glass to his wife. It was she
perhaps who drank from it most eagerly. Her life
with Everett, from the day when she had risen from
a bed of sickness stripped of all her beauty, had been
one bitter wrong. She drank with the wild hope
that the thing might possibly be not a dream; and
thrilled to the touch of the man she loved, as reaching
across the table he took the glass from her hand.
Mrs. Armitage was the fourth to drink. She took
the cup from her husband, drank with a quiet smile,
and passed it on to Camelford. And Camelford drank,
looking at nobody, and replaced the glass upon the
table.
“Come,” said the little
old gentleman to Mrs. Camelford, “you are the
only one left. The whole thing will be incomplete
without you.”
“I have no wish to drink,”
said Mrs. Camelford, and her eyes sought those of
her husband, but he would not look at her.
“Come,” again urged the
Figure. And then Camelford looked at her and
laughed drily.
“You had better drink,” he said.
“It’s only a dream.”
“If you wish it,” she
answered. And it was from his hands she took the
glass.
It is from the narrative as Armitage
told it to me that night in the Club smoking-room
that I am taking most of my material. It seemed
to him that all things began slowly to rise upward,
leaving him stationary, but with a great pain as though
the inside of him were being torn away the
same sensation greatly exaggerated, so he likened it,
as descending in a lift. But around him all the
time was silence and darkness unrelieved. After
a period that might have been minutes, that might have
been years, a faint light crept towards him.
It grew stronger, and into the air which now fanned
his cheek there stole the sound of far-off music.
The light and the music both increased, and one by
one his senses came back to him. He was seated
on a low cushioned bench beneath a group of palms.
A young girl was sitting beside him, but her face was
turned away from him.
“I did not catch your name,”
he was saying. “Would you mind telling it
to me?”
She turned her face towards him.
It was the most spiritually beautiful face he had
ever seen. “I am in the same predicament,”
she laughed. “You had better write yours
on my programme, and I will write mine on yours.”
So they wrote upon each other’s
programme and exchanged again. The name she had
written was Alice Blatchley.
He had never seen her before, that
he could remember. Yet at the back of his mind
there dwelt the haunting knowledge of her. Somewhere
long ago they had met, talked together. Slowly,
as one recalls a dream, it came back to him.
In some other life, vague, shadowy, he had married
this woman. For the first few years they had
loved each other; then the gulf had opened between
them, widened. Stern, strong voices had called
to him to lay aside his selfish dreams, his boyish
ambitions, to take upon his shoulders the yoke of
a great duty. When more than ever he had demanded
sympathy and help, this woman had fallen away from
him. His ideals but irritated her. Only
at the cost of daily bitterness had he been able to
resist her endeavours to draw him from his path.
A face that of a woman with soft eyes,
full of helpfulness, shone through the mist of his
dream the face of a woman who would one
day come to him out of the Future with outstretched
hands that he would yearn to clasp.
“Shall we not dance?”
said the voice beside him. “I really won’t
sit out a waltz.”
They hurried into the ball-room.
With his arm about her form, her wondrous eyes shyly,
at rare moments, seeking his, then vanishing again
behind their drooping lashes, the brain, the mind,
the very soul of the young man passed out of his own
keeping. She complimented him in her bewitching
manner, a delightful blending of condescension and
timidity.
“You dance extremely well,”
she told him. “You may ask me for another,
later on.”
The words flashed out from that dim
haunting future. “Your dancing was your
chief attraction for me, as likely as not, had I but
known?”
All that evening and for many months
to come the Present and the Future fought within him.
And the experience of Nathaniel Armitage, divinity
student, was the experience likewise of Alice Blatchley,
who had fallen in love with him at first sight, having
found him the divinest dancer she had ever whirled
with to the sensuous music of the waltz; of Horatio
Camelford, journalist and minor poet, whose journalism
earned him a bare income, but at whose minor poetry
critics smiled; of Jessica Dearwood, with her glorious
eyes, and muddy complexion, and her wild hopeless
passion for the big, handsome, ruddy-bearded Dick Everett,
who, knowing it, only laughed at her in his kindly,
lordly way, telling her with frank brutalness that
the woman who was not beautiful had missed her vocation
in life; of that scheming, conquering young gentleman
himself, who at twenty-five had already made his mark
in the City, shrewd, clever, cool-headed as a fox,
except where a pretty face and shapely hand or ankle
were concerned; of Nellie Fanshawe, then in the pride
of her ravishing beauty, who loved none but herself,
whose clay-made gods were jewels, and fine dresses
and rich feasts, the envy of other women and the courtship
of all mankind.
That evening of the ball each clung
to the hope that this memory of the future was but
a dream. They had been introduced to one another;
had heard each other’s names for the first time
with a start of recognition; had avoided one another’s
eyes; had hastened to plunge into meaningless talk;
till that moment when young Camelford, stooping to
pick up Jessica’s fan, had found that broken
fragment of the Rhenish wine-glass. Then it was
that conviction refused to be shaken off, that knowledge
of the future had to be sadly accepted.
What they had not foreseen was that
knowledge of the future in no way affected their emotions
of the present. Nathaniel Armitage grew day by
day more hopelessly in love with bewitching Alice Blatchley.
The thought of her marrying anyone else the
long-haired, priggish Camelford in particular sent
the blood boiling through his veins; added to which
sweet Alice, with her arms about his neck, would confess
to him that life without him would be a misery hardly
to be endured, that the thought of him as the husband
of another woman of Nellie Fanshawe in
particular was madness to her. It was
right perhaps, knowing what they did, that they should
say good-bye to one another. She would bring
sorrow into his life. Better far that he should
put her away from him, that she should die of a broken
heart, as she felt sure she would. How could
he, a fond lover, inflict this suffering upon her?
He ought of course to marry Nellie Fanshawe, but he
could not bear the girl. Would it not be the
height of absurdity to marry a girl he strongly disliked
because twenty years hence she might be more suitable
to him than the woman he now loved and who loved him?
Nor could Nellie Fanshawe bring herself
to discuss without laughter the suggestion of marrying
on a hundred-and-fifty a year a curate that she positively
hated. There would come a time when wealth would
be indifferent to her, when her exalted spirit would
ask but for the satisfaction of self-sacrifice.
But that time had not arrived. The emotions it
would bring with it she could not in her present state
even imagine. Her whole present being craved
for the things of this world, the things that were
within her grasp. To ask her to forego them now
because later on she would not care for them! it was
like telling a schoolboy to avoid the tuck-shop because,
when a man, the thought of stick-jaw would be nauseous
to him. If her capacity for enjoyment was to
be short-lived, all the more reason for grasping joy
quickly.
Alice Blatchley, when her lover was
not by, gave herself many a headache trying to think
the thing out logically. Was it not foolish of
her to rush into this marriage with dear Nat?
At forty she would wish she had married somebody else.
But most women at forty she judged from
conversation round about her wished they
had married somebody else. If every girl at twenty
listened to herself at forty there would be no more
marriage. At forty she would be a different person
altogether. That other elderly person did not
interest her. To ask a young girl to spoil her
life purely in the interests of this middle-aged party it
did not seem right. Besides, whom else was she
to marry? Camelford would not have her; he did
not want her then; he was not going to want her at
forty. For practical purposes Camelford was out
of the question. She might marry somebody else
altogether and fare worse. She might
remain a spinster: she hated the mere name of
spinster. The inky-fingered woman journalist
that, if all went well, she might become: it was
not her idea. Was she acting selfishly?
Ought she, in his own interests, to refuse to marry
dear Nat? Nellie the little cat who
would suit him at forty, would not have him.
If he was going to marry anyone but Nellie he might
as well marry her, Alice. A bachelor clergyman!
it sounded almost improper. Nor was dear Nat
the type. If she threw him over it would be into
the arms of some designing minx. What was she
to do?
Camelford at forty, under the influence
of favourable criticism, would have persuaded himself
he was a heaven-sent prophet, his whole life to be
beautifully spent in the saving of mankind. At
twenty he felt he wanted to live. Weird-looking
Jessica, with her magnificent eyes veiling mysteries,
was of more importance to him than the rest of the
species combined. Knowledge of the future in
his ease only spurred desire. The muddy complexion
would grow pink and white, the thin limbs round and
shapely; the now scornful eyes would one day light
with love at his coming. It was what he had once
hoped: it was what he now knew. At forty
the artist is stronger than the man; at twenty the
man is stronger than the artist.
An uncanny creature, so most folks
would have described Jessica Dearwood. Few would
have imagined her developing into the good-natured,
easy-going Mrs. Camelford of middle age. The animal,
so strong within her at twenty, at thirty had burnt
itself out. At eighteen, madly, blindly in love
with red-bearded, deep-voiced Dick Everett she would,
had he whistled to her, have flung herself gratefully
at his feet, and this in spite of the knowledge forewarning
her of the miserable life he would certainly lead
her, at all events until her slowly developing beauty
should give her the whip hand of him by
which time she would have come to despise him.
Fortunately, as she told herself, there was no fear
of his doing so, the future notwithstanding. Nellie
Fanshawe’s beauty held him as with chains of
steel, and Nellie had no intention of allowing her
rich prize to escape her. Her own lover, it was
true, irritated her more than any man she had ever
met, but at least he would afford her refuge from
the bread of charity. Jessica Dearwood, an orphan,
had been brought up by a distant relative. She
had not been the child to win affection. Of silent,
brooding nature, every thoughtless incivility had
been to her an insult, a wrong. Acceptance of
young Camelford seemed her only escape from a life
that had become to her a martyrdom. At forty-one
he would wish he had remained a bachelor; but at thirty-eight
that would not trouble her. She would know herself
he was much better off as he was. Meanwhile,
she would have come to like him, to respect him.
He would be famous, she would be proud of him.
Crying into her pillow she could not help
it for love of handsome Dick, it was still
a comfort to reflect that Nellie Fanshawe, as it were,
was watching over her, protecting her from herself.
Dick, as he muttered to himself a
dozen times a day, ought to marry Jessica. At
thirty-eight she would be his ideal. He looked
at her as she was at eighteen, and shuddered.
Nellie at thirty would be plain and uninteresting.
But when did consideration of the future ever cry halt
to passion: when did a lover ever pause thinking
of the morrow? If her beauty was to quickly pass,
was not that one reason the more urging him to possess
it while it lasted?
Nellie Fanshawe at forty would be
a saint. The prospect did not please her:
she hated saints. She would love the tiresome,
solemn Nathaniel: of what use was that to her
now? He did not desire her; he was in love with
Alice, and Alice was in love with him. What would
be the sense even if they all agreed in
the three of them making themselves miserable for
all their youth that they might be contented in their
old age? Let age fend for itself and leave youth
to its own instincts. Let elderly saints suffer it
was their metier and youth drink
the cup of life. It was a pity Dick was the only
“catch” available, but he was young and
handsome. Other girls had to put up with sixty
and the gout.
Another point, a very serious point,
had been overlooked. All that had arrived to
them in that dim future of the past had happened to
them as the results of their making the marriages
they had made. To what fate other roads would
lead their knowledge could not tell them. Nellie
Fanshawe had become at forty a lovely character.
Might not the hard life she had led with her husband a
life calling for continual sacrifice, for daily self-control have
helped towards this end? As the wife of a poor
curate of high moral principles, would the same result
have been secured? The fever that had robbed
her of her beauty and turned her thoughts inward had
been the result of sitting out on the balcony of the
Paris Opera House with an Italian Count on the occasion
of a fancy dress ball. As the wife of an East
End clergyman the chances are she would have escaped
that fever and its purifying effects. Was there
not danger in the position: a supremely beautiful
young woman, worldly-minded, hungry for pleasure,
condemned to a life of poverty with a man she did
not care for? The influence of Alice upon Nathaniel
Armitage, during those first years when his character
was forming, had been all for good. Could he
be sure that, married to Nellie, he might not have
deteriorated?
Were Alice Blatchley to marry an artist
could she be sure that at forty she would still be
in sympathy with artistic ideals? Even as a child
had not her desire ever been in the opposite direction
to that favoured by her nurse? Did not the reading
of Conservative journals invariably incline her towards
Radicalism, and the steady stream of Radical talk
round her husband’s table invariably set her
seeking arguments in favour of the feudal system?
Might it not have been her husband’s growing
Puritanism that had driven her to crave for Bohemianism?
Suppose that towards middle age, the wife of a wild
artist, she suddenly “took religion,”
as the saying is. Her last state would be worse
than the first.
Camelford was of delicate physique.
As an absent-minded bachelor with no one to give him
his meals, no one to see that his things were aired,
could he have lived till forty? Could he be sure
that home life had not given more to his art than
it had taken from it?
Jessica Dearwood, of a nervous, passionate
nature, married to a bad husband, might at forty have
posed for one of the Furies. Not until her life
had become restful had her good looks shown themselves.
Hers was the type of beauty that for its development
demands tranquillity.
Dick Everett had no delusions concerning
himself. That, had he married Jessica, he could
for ten years have remained the faithful husband of
a singularly plain wife he knew to be impossible.
But Jessica would have been no patient Griselda.
The extreme probability was that having married her
at twenty for the sake of her beauty at thirty, at
twenty-nine at latest she would have divorced him.
Everett was a man of practical ideas.
It was he who took the matter in hand. The refreshment
contractor admitted that curious goblets of German
glass occasionally crept into their stock. One
of the waiters, on the understanding that in no case
should he be called upon to pay for them, admitted
having broken more than one wine-glass on that particular
evening: thought it not unlikely he might have
attempted to hide the fragments under a convenient
palm. The whole thing evidently was a dream.
So youth decided at the time, and the three marriages
took place within three months of one another.
It was some ten years later that Armitage
told me the story that night in the Club smoking-room.
Mrs. Everett had just recovered from a severe attack
of rheumatic fever, contracted the spring before in
Paris. Mrs. Camelford, whom previously I had
not met, certainly seemed to me one of the handsomest
women I have ever seen. Mrs. Armitage I
knew her when she was Alice Blatchley I
found more charming as a woman than she had been as
a girl. What she could have seen in Armitage I
never could understand. Camelford made his mark
some ten years later: poor fellow, he did not
live long to enjoy his fame. Dick Everett has
still another six years to work off; but he is well
behaved, and there is talk of a petition.
It is a curious story altogether,
I admit. As I said at the beginning, I do not
myself believe it.