While Anne Pierson’s wedding
day had dawned with a light snow on the ground, the
weather underwent a considerable change during the
night, and the next morning broke, gray and threatening.
Heavy, sullen clouds dropped low in the sky, and by
four o’clock that afternoon a raw, dispiriting
winter rain had set in, accompanied by a moaning wind
that made the day seem doubly dreary. Promptly
at four o’clock Grace saw Tom swing up the walk
without an umbrella. His black raincoat, buttoned
up to his chin, was infinitely becoming to his fair
Saxon type of good looks, and Grace could not repress
a tiny thrill of satisfaction that this strong, handsome
man cared for her. The next second she dismissed
the thought as unworthy. She welcomed Tom, however,
with a gentle friendliness, partly due to his good
looks, that caused his eyes to flash with new hope.
Perhaps Grace cared a little after all. He had
rarely seen her so kind since their carefree days of
boy and girl friendship, when there had been no barrier
of unrequited love between them.
“Come and sit by the fire, Tom,”
invited Grace. “I love an open fire on
a dark, rainy day like this.” She motioned
him to a chair opposite her own at the other side
of the fireplace. Tom seated himself, and the
two began to talk of the wedding, Oakdale, their friends,
everything in fact that led away from the thoughts
that lay nearest the young man’s heart.
Grace skilfully kept the conversation on impersonal
topics. By doing so she hoped to make Tom understand
that she did not wish to discuss what had long been
a sore subject between them. So the two young
people talked on and on, while outside the rain fell
in torrents, and the dark day began to merge into
an early twilight.
With the coming of the dusk Grace
began to feel the strain. Tom’s pale face
had taken on a set look in the fitful glow of the fire.
Suddenly he leaned far forward in his chair.
“It’s no use, Grace. I know you’ve
tried to keep me from saying what I came here to-day
to say, but I’m going to tell you again.
I love you, Grace, and I need you in my life.
Why can’t you love me as I love you?”
Grace’s clean-cut profile was
turned directly toward Tom. She reached forward
for the poker and began nervously prodding the fire.
Tom caught the hand that held the poker. Unclasping
her limp fingers from about it, he set it impatiently
in place. “Look at me, Grace, not at the
fire,” he commanded.
Grace raised sorrowful eyes to him.
Then she made a little gesture of appeal. “Why
must we talk of this again, Tom? Why can’t
we be friends just as we used to be, back in our high-school
days?”
“Because it’s not in the
nature of things,” returned Tom, his eyes full
of pain. “I am a man now, with a man’s
devoted love for you. The whole trouble lies
in the sad fact that you are just a dreaming child,
without the faintest idea of what life really means.”
“You are mistaken, Tom.”
There was a hint of offended dignity in Grace’s
tones. “I do understand the meaning
of life, only it doesn’t mean love to
me. It means work. The highest pleasure
I have in life is my work.”
“You think so now, but you won’t
always think so. There will come a time in your
life when you’ll realize how great a power for
happiness love is. All our dearest friends have
looked forward to seeing you my wife. Your parents
wish it. Aunt Rose loves you already as a dear
niece. Even Anne, your chum, thinks you are making
a mistake in choosing work instead of love. Of
course I know that what your friends think can make
no difference in what you think. Still
I believe if you would once put the idea away of being
self-supporting you’d see matters in a different
light. You aren’t obliged to work for your
living. Why not give Harlowe House into the care
of some one who is, and marry me?”
“But you don’t understand
me in the least, Tom.” A petulant note crept
into Grace’s voice. “It’s just
because I’m not obliged to support myself that
I’m happy in doing so. I feel so free and
independent. It’s my freedom I love.
I don’t love you. There are times when I’m
sorry that I don’t, and then again there are
times when I’m glad. I shall always be
fond of you, but my feeling toward you is just the
same as it is for Hippy or David or Reddy. There!
I’ve hurt you. Forgive me. Must we
say anything more about it? Please, please don’t
look so hurt, Tom.”
Grace’s eyes were fastened on
Tom with the sorrowing air of one who has inadvertently
hurt a child. Usually so delicate in her respect
for the feelings of others, she seemed fated continually
to wound this loyal friend, whose only fault lay in
the fact that his boyish affection for her had ripened
into a man’s love. Saddest of all, an unrequited
love.
“Of course I forgive you, Grace.”
Tom rose. He looked long and searchingly into
the face of the girl who had just hurt him so cruelly.
“I I think I’d better go now.
I hope you’ll find all the happiness in your
work that you expect to find. I’m only sorry
it had to come first. I don’t know when
I’ll see you again. Not until next summer,
I suppose. I can’t come to Oakdale for
Easter this year. I wish you’d write to
me that is, if you feel you’d like
to. Remember, I am always your old friend Tom.”
“I will write to you,
Tom.” Grace’s gray eyes were heavy
with unshed tears. She winked desperately to
keep them back. She would not cry. Luckily
the dim light of the room prevented Tom from seeing
how near she was to breaking down. It was all
so sad. She had never before realized how much
it hurt her to hurt Tom. She followed him into
the hall and to the door in silence.
“Good-bye, Grace,” he said again, holding
out his hand.
“Good-bye, Tom,” she faltered.
He turned abruptly and hurried down the steps into
the winter darkness. He did not look back.
Grace stood in the open door until
the echo of his footsteps died out. Then she
rushed into the living room and, throwing herself down
on the big leather sofa, burst into bitter tears.