A brick dower-house of the Fitz-Harolds,
just outside the little seaside town of Nettlefold,
sheltered the tranquil days of Lord Dennis. In
that south-coast air, sanest and most healing in all
England, he raged very slowly, taking little thought
of death, and much quiet pleasure in his life.
Like the tall old house with its high windows and squat
chimneys, he was marvellously self-contained.
His books, for he somewhat passionately examined old
civilizations, and described their habits from time
to time with a dry and not too poignant pen in a certain
old-fashioned magazine; his microscope, for he studied
infusoria; and the fishing boat of his friend John
Bogle, who had long perceived that Lord Dennis was
the biggest fish he ever caught; all these, with occasional
visitors, and little runs to London, to Monkland, and
other country houses, made up the sum of a life which,
if not desperately beneficial, was uniformly kind
and harmless, and, by its notorious simplicity, had
a certain negative influence not only on his own class
but on the relations of that class with the country
at large. It was commonly said in Nettlefold,
that he was a gentleman; if they were all like him
there wasn’t much in all this talk against the
Lords. The shop people and lodging-house keepers
felt that the interests of the country were safer
in his hands: than in the hands of people who
wanted to meddle with everything for the good of those
who were only anxious to be let alone. A man
too who could so completely forget he was the son of
a Duke, that other people never forgot it, was the
man for their money. It was true that he had
never had a say in public affairs; but this was overlooked,
because he could have had it if he liked, and the fact
that he did not like, only showed once more that he
was a gentleman.
Just as he was the one personality
of the little town against whom practically nothing
was ever, said, so was his house the one house which
defied criticism. Time had made it utterly suitable.
The ivied walls, and purplish roof lichened yellow
in places, the quiet meadows harbouring ponies and
kine, reaching from it to the sea all was
mellow. In truth it made all the other houses
of the town seem shoddy standing alone
beyond them, like its master, if anything a little
too esthetically remote from common wants.
He had practically no near neighbours
of whom he saw anything, except once in a way young
Harbinger three miles distant at Whitewater. But
since he had the faculty of not being bored with his
own society, this did not worry him. Of local
charity, especially to the fishers of the town, whose
winter months were nowadays very bare of profit, he
was prodigal to the verge of extravagance, for his
income was not great. But in politics, beyond
acting as the figure-head of certain municipal efforts,
he took little or no part. His Toryism indeed
was of the mild order, that had little belief in the
regeneration of the country by any means but those
of kindly feeling between the classes. When asked
how that was to be brought about, he would answer
with his dry, slightly malicious, suavity, that if
you stirred hornets’ nests with sticks the hornets
would come forth. Having no land, he was shy of
expressing himself on that vexed question; but if
resolutely attacked would give utterance to some such
sentiment as this: “The land’s best
in our hands on the whole, but we want fewer dogs-in-the-manger
among us.”
He had, as became one of his race,
a feeling for land, tender and protective, and could
not bear to think of its being put out to farm with
that cold Mother, the State. He was ironical over
the views of Radicals or Socialists, but disliked
to hear such people personally abused behind their
backs. It must be confessed, however, that if
contradicted he increased considerably the ironical
decision of his sentiments. Withdrawn from all
chance in public life of enforcing his views on others,
the natural aristocrat within him was forced to find
some expression.
Each year, towards the end of July,
he placed his house at the service of Lord Valleys,
who found it a convenient centre for attending Goodwood.
It was on the morning after the Duchess
of Gloucester’s Ball, that he received this
note:
“Valleys house.
“Dearest uncle Dennis,
“May I come down to you a little
before time and rest? London is so terribly hot.
Mother has three functions still to stay for, and I
shall have to come back again for our last evening,
the political one so I don’t want
to go all the way to Monkland; and anywhere else, except
with you, would be rackety. Eustace looks so
seedy. I’ll try and bring him, if I may.
Granny is terribly well.
“Best love, dear, from your
“Babs.”
The same afternoon she came, but without
Miltoun, driving up from the station in a fly.
Lord Dennis met her at the gate; and, having kissed
her, looked at her somewhat anxiously, caressing his
white peaked beard. He had never yet known Babs
sick of anything, except when he took her out in John
Bogle’s boat. She was certainly looking
pale, and her hair was done differently a
fact disturbing to one who did not discover it.
Slipping his arm through hers he led her out into a
meadow still full of buttercups, where an old white
pony, who had carried her in the Row twelve years
ago, came up to them and rubbed his muzzle against
her waist. And suddenly there rose in Lord Dennis
the thoroughly discomforting and strange suspicion
that, though the child was not going to cry, she wanted
time to get over the feeling that she was. Without
appearing to separate himself from her, he walked to
the wall at the end of the field, and stood looking
at the sea.
The tide was nearly up; the South
wind driving over it brought him the scent of the
sea-flowers, and the crisp rustle of little waves swimming
almost to his feet. Far out, where the sunlight
fell, the smiling waters lay white and mysterious
in July haze, giving him a queer feeling. But
Lord Dennis, though he had his moments of poetic sentiment,
was on the whole quite able to keep the sea in its
proper place for after all it was the English
Channel; and like a good Englishman he recognized that
if you once let things get away from their names, they
ceased to be facts, and if they ceased to be facts,
they became the devil! In truth he
was not thinking much of the sea, but of Barbara.
It was plain that she was in trouble of some kind.
And the notion that Babs could find trouble in life
was extraordinarily queer; for he felt, subconsciously,
what a great driving force of disturbance was necessary
to penetrate the hundred folds of the luxurious cloak
enwrapping one so young and fortunate. It was
not Death; therefore it must be Love; and he thought
at once of that fellow with the red moustaches.
Ideas were all very well no one would object
to as many as you liked, in their proper place the
dinner-table, for example. But to fall in love,
if indeed it were so, with a man who not only had
ideas, but an inclination to live up to them, and
on them, and on nothing else, seemed to Lord Dennis
‘outre’.
She had followed him to the wall,
and he looked at her dubiously.
“To rest in the waters of Lethe,
Babs? By the way, seen anything of our friend
Mr. Courtier? Very picturesque that
Quixotic theory of life!”
And in saying that, his voice (like
so many refined voices which have turned their backs
on speculation) was triple-toned-mocking at ideas,
mocking at itself for mocking at ideas, yet showing
plainly that at bottom it only mocked at itself for
mocking at ideas, because it would be, as it were,
crude not to do so.
But Barbara did not answer his question,
and began to speak of other things. And all that
afternoon and evening she talked away so lightly that
Lord Dennis, but for his instinct, would have been
deceived.
That wonderful smiling mask the
inscrutability of Youth was laid aside
by her at night. Sitting at her window, under
the moon, ’a gold-bright moth slow-spinning
up the sky,’ she watched the darkness hungrily,
as though it were a great thought into whose heart
she was trying to see. Now and then she stroked
herself, getting strange comfort out of the presence
of her body. She had that old unhappy feeling
of having two selves within her. And this soft
night full of the quiet stir of the sea, and of dark
immensity, woke in her a terrible longing to be at
one with something, somebody, outside herself.
At the Ball last night the ‘flying feeling’
had seized on her again; and was still there a
queer manifestation of her streak of recklessness.
And this result of her contacts with Courtier, this
‘cacoethes volandi’, and feeling of clipped
wings, hurt her as being forbidden hurts
a child.
She remembered how in the housekeeper’s
room at Monkland there lived a magpie who had once
sought shelter in an orchid-house from some pursuer.
As soon as they thought him wedded to civilization,
they had let him go, to see whether he would come
back. For hours he had sat up in a high tree,
and at last come down again to his cage; whereupon,
fearing lest the rooks should attack him when he next
took this voyage of discovery, they clipped one of
his wings. After that the twilight bird, though
he lived happily enough, hopping about his cage and
the terrace which served him for exercise yard, would
seem at times restive and frightened, moving his wings
as if flying in spirit, and sad that he must stay
on earth.
So, too, at her window Barbara fluttered
her wings; then, getting into bed, lay sighing and
tossing. A clock struck three; and seized by an
intolerable impatience at her own discomfort, she slipped
a motor coat over her night-gown, put on slippers,
and stole out into the passage. The house was
very still. She crept downstairs, smothering her
footsteps. Groping her way through the hall, inhabited
by the thin ghosts of would-be light, she slid back
the chain of the door, and fled towards the sea.
She made no more noise running in the dew, than a bird
following the paths of air; and the two ponies, who
felt her figure pass in the darkness, snuffled, sending
out soft sighs of alarm amongst the closed buttercups.
She climbed the wall over to the beach. While
she was running, she had fully meant to dash into
the sea and cool herself, but it was so black, with
just a thin edging scarf of white, and the sky was
black, bereft of lights, waiting for the day!
She stood, and looked. And all
the leapings and pulsings of flesh and spirit slowly
died in that wide dark loneliness, where the only sound
was the wistful breaking of small waves. She was
well used to these dead hours only last
night, at this very time, Harbinger’s arm had
been round her in a last waltz! But here the
dead hours had such different faces, wide-eyed, solemn,
and there came to Barbara, staring out at them, a
sense that the darkness saw her very soul, so that
it felt little and timid within her. She shivered
in her fur-lined coat, as if almost frightened at
finding herself so marvellously nothing before that
black sky and dark sea, which seemed all one, relentlessly
great.... And crouching down, she waited for
the dawn to break.
It came from over the Downs, sweeping
a rush of cold air on its wings, flighting towards
the sea. With it the daring soon crept back into
her blood. She stripped, and ran down into the
dark water, fast growing pale. It covered her
jealously, and she set to work to swim. The water
was warmer than the air. She lay on her back and
splashed, watching the sky flush. To bathe like
this in the half-dark, with her hair floating out,
and no wet clothes clinging to her limbs, gave her
the joy of a child doing a naughty thing. She
swam out of her depth, then scared at her own adventure,
swam in again as the sun rose.
She dashed into her two garments,
climbed the wall, and scurried back to the house.
All her dejection, and feverish uncertainty were gone;
she felt keen, fresh, terribly hungry, and stealing
into the dark dining-room, began rummaging for food.
She found biscuits, and was still munching, when in
the open doorway she saw Lord Dennis, a pistol in one
hand and a lighted candle in the other. With his
carved features and white beard above an old blue
dressing-gown, he looked impressive, having at the
moment a distinct resemblance to Lady Casterley, as
though danger had armoured him in steel.
“You call this resting!”
he said, dryly; then, looking at her drowned hair,
added: “I see you have already entrusted
your trouble to the waters of Lethe.”
But without answer Barbara vanished
into the dim hall and up the stairs.