John Sudlow was born of
religious parents, in the county of Middlesex, whose
care was to instill spiritual principles into him as
soon as he was capable of understanding them, whose
endeavours the Lord was pleased to crown with the
desired success.
2. When he was scarce able to
speak plain he seemed to have a very great awe and
reverence of God upon his spirit, and a strange sense
of the things of another world.
3. The first thing that much
affected him, and made him endeavour to escape from
the wrath to come, and to inquire what he should do
to be saved, was the death of a little brother.
When he saw him without breath, and not able to speak
or stir; and when carried out of doors, and put into
the ground, he was greatly concerned, and asked whether
he should die too? Being answered yes it made
so deep an impression on him, that from that time
forward, he was exceedingly serious; and this was
when he was about four years old.
4. He was now desirous to know
what he might do that he might live in another world,
and what to avoid, that he might not die for ever.
And, being instructed by his parents, he soon laboured
to avoid whatsoever might displease God. Now
the apprehensions of God, death and eternity, laid
such a restraint upon him, that he would not, for a
world, have told a lie. He was much taken with
reading the book of martyrs, and would willingly leave
his dinner and go to his book.
5. He went to his father and
mother with great tenderness and compassion, and entreated
them to take more care of his brothers and sisters;
and to take heed lest they should go to hell, and be
ruined for ever.
6. The providences of God
were not passed by without his minute observation.
In the time of the plague he was exceedingly concerned
about his everlasting state, and was very much by himself
upon his knees. The following prayer was found
written in short hand after his death.
7. O Lord God and merciful Father,
take pity upon me, a miserable sinner: and strengthen
me, O Lord, in thy faith, and make me one of thy saints
in heaven. O Lord, keep me from this poisonous
infection; however, not my will, but thy will be done.
O Lord, if thou hast appointed me to die by it, fit
me for death, and give me a good heart to bear up
under my afflictions. O Lord God, and merciful
Father, take pity on me, thy child. Teach me,
O Lord, thy word; make me strong in faith. O
Lord, I have sinned against thee; Lord, pardon my sins.
I had been in hell long ago if it had not been for
thy mercy. But, O Lord, if thou hast appointed
me to die, fit me for death, that I may die with comfort.
And, O Lord, I pray thee to help me to bear up under
my afflictions for Christ’s sake. Amen.
8. He was not a little concerned
for the whole nation, and begged that God would pardon
the sins of this land, and bring it nearer to himself.
9. About the beginning of November,
this child was smote with the distemper, but he behaved
with admirable patience under the hand of God.
10. These were some of his last
expressions. “The Lord shall be my physician,
for he will cure both soul and body. Heaven is
the best hospital. It is the Lord, let him do
what seemeth good in his eyes.” Again,
“It is the Lord that taketh away my health; but
I will say as Job did, ‘Blessed be the name
of the Lord.’ If I should live longer, I
should but sin against God.” Looking upon
his father, he said, “If the Lord will but lend
me the least finger of his hand to lead me through
the dark entry of death, I will rejoice in him.”
11. When a minister came to him,
among other things, he spake something of life.
He answered, “This is a wicked world: it
is better to live in heaven.”
12. An hour and a half before
his death, the same minister came again to visit him,
and asked him, “John, art thou not afraid to
die?” He answered, “No, if the Lord will
comfort me in that hour.” “But,”
said the minister, “how canst thou expect comfort,
seeing we deserve none?” He answered, “No,
if I had my deserts, I had been in hell long ago.”
“But,” replied the minister, “which
way dost thou expect comfort and salvation, seeing
that thou art a sinner?” He answered, “In
Christ alone.” In whom, about an hour and
a half after, he fell asleep.