The travellers came home the first
week of June. During the weeks that had come
and gone since Easter they had wandered about as the
fancy took them. Rome, Florence, Genoa, Venice.
They followed a path of wonders; but, somewhat to
her father’s dismay, Nelly did not prove the
passionate pilgrim he had expected. She looked
on listlessly at the wonder-world. Now that her
first exaltation had died away it did not seem so simple
a matter to make others happy. There was no royal
road, she discovered, to the happiness of others any
more than to her own.
Her father said to himself that Nell
would be all right as soon as the wedding was over.
He had not come to the point of thinking yet that
marriage with Robin Drummond was not the way the Finger
of God had pointed out to him. It was impossible
not to notice Nelly’s listless step and heavy
eyes. The Dowager put down these things to ordinary
delicacy, something the girl would outgrow.
“She wants a husband’s
care,” she said. “To be sure, my dear
Denis, you have done your best for her. But what,
after all, could you know about girls?”
“As much as Robin Drummond,
ma’am,” the General said, with a growl;
and was not placated by the Dowager’s tolerant
smile.
He was at once glad and sorry when
the weeks were over. He dreaded, for one thing,
going back to London where Nelly might hear news of
Godfrey Langrishe. To be sure, he had acted entirely
for her happiness, yet he had an idea that Nell might
be angry with him for keeping things from her if she
found out that Langrishe’s regiment was engaged
in the deadly frontier war. He had been so used
to being perfectly frank with her that his reservation
galled him.
He had studied with attentiveness
the columns of such papers as had come his way, dreading
to find Langrishe’s name among the casualties.
Hitherto it had not occurred, and for that he was deeply
grateful. If there had been news he must have
betrayed it to Nelly by his eyes and his voice.
“I wish we could have stayed
longer,” she said to him on the eve of their
departure from Italy.
“And I, Nell.”
“Oh,” she looked at him in wonder.
“I thought you were keen to be gone.”
“Is it likely?” he asked
with playful tenderness, “that I should be anxious
to shorten the time in which you are mine and not Robin
Drummond’s?”
They were alone, and she turned and put her head on
his shoulder.
“I shall always be yours,”
she said. “And I think marriage and giving
in marriage a weariness of the spirit.”
“Not really, Nell?” The
General looked at her golden head in alarm, but already
she was reproaching herself.
“Never mind, dear papa,”
she said. “I didn’t altogether mean
it. Poor, kind Robin! What a very ungrateful
girl I am to you all!”
As soon as they got back the Dowager
engaged her in a whirl of shops and dressmakers, and
for that the General was grateful. He resorted
to man[oe]uvres in those days to keep the newspapers
out of Nelly’s way that revealed to himself
hitherto unsuspected depths of cunning. He opened
the papers with a tremor. The orange and green
and pink bills of the evening newspapers stuck up
where Nelly could see them, laid on the pavement almost
under her feet, brought his heart into his mouth.
If they could only tide over the dangerous time, and
Nelly be married and gone off on her leisurely honeymoon!
Langrishe might almost fade out of her mind, become
at least a gentle memory, before anything could happen
to him: or the deadly little dragging war might
be over and Langrishe have carried out a whole skin.
It was the height of the season and
Nelly had her social engagements as well as the preparations
for her wedding. As often as was possible Robin
Drummond put in an appearance, but the House was sitting
and much of his time was taken up. He looked
rather more hatchet-faced than of old. Once,
sitting in the Strangers’ Gallery of the House,
the General heard someone say as Robin was about to
speak: “Who is that careworn-looking young
man?” Careworn, indeed! The General fumed
and fretted over it, the more because it fell in with
a certain secret thought he had had once or twice.
Robin had always been somewhat too much of an old head
on young shoulders to please his uncle. To be
sure, he had fed on Blue Books and slept on statistics,
yet his engagement to a lovely girl like Nelly ought
to have made him look happier. It was indecent
in the circumstances, that’s what it was, that
anybody, with the remotest justification for the epithet,
could call him careworn.
Once Robin on an afternoon when the
House was not sitting called for his cousin and carried
her off in a hansom without saying where he was taking
her to. That was something of which the General
heartily approved. If Robin had done it oftener
his opinion of him would have gone up immensely.
He rubbed his hands while he asked the Dowager what
Mrs. Grundy would say to such doings. “Supposing
they made a runaway match of it, ma’am, where
should we be?” he asked cheerfully. To which
the Dowager replied that Robin would never think of
anything so silly. Why should he, when the wedding
was fixed for the twenty-third and everything ordered,
even the bridesmaids’ dresses and the wedding-cake?
“Perhaps for that reason,” replied the
General. But this was a dark saying to the Dowager.
The visit that afternoon was to Mary
Gray. Even Nelly had heard of the book which
Sir Michael Auberon had praised so highly, which the
newspapers had declared to be more interesting than
any novel. She had roused herself to be interested
in the visit, to talk, to ask questions, to look about
her, as they drove into the east, instead of gazing
inwards with that introspective glance which had given
her eyes of late the beauty of mystery, making them
larger and darker than they had been in the old days.
She was exquisitely dressed, in a
long cloak of cream lace over an Indian muslin frock,
and an airy hat of chiffon and feathers. She had
put on her best for her outing with Robin, her visit
to Robin’s friend. It was one of the sweet
things she was always doing, with an intention in
her own mind to make up for some lack or other which
certainly her lover had not felt. When she alighted
in the busy street people stared as though they had
seen a white bird of Paradise; and coming into Mary
Gray’s room with a basket of roses in her hand
she looked like a bride.
Now, at least, she wore the pilgrim
air. She looked curiously about the unlikely
place which housed the wonderful woman as she set down
her roses, then back at Mary herself. Mary had
come to meet her with outstretched hands. Her
bright look at Robin Drummond was full of sympathetic
admiration, of felicitation. She kissed Nelly
warmly. She was not an effusive person, and nothing
had been further from her thoughts than kissing, but
her heart went out at once to this charming girl.
“How good of you to come
to see me!” she said, pressing Nelly’s
hands in hers. “Into the east, too!
And you must be so busy just now.”
“I have been longing to see
you,” Nelly responded. “Robin has
talked so much about you.” At that moment
Nelly had no doubt that he had talked. “And
I wanted to see you here, in your ordinary life.
Robin says you will not be here much longer that
there will be an official position found for you.
And it was here that ‘Creatures of Burden’
was written!”
“Nearly all here,” Mary
said, smiling down at the young enthusiast.
Robin Drummond stood aside, in one
of his characteristically awkward attitudes, his hat
in his hand, watching them. He was not thinking
sufficiently of himself to feel awkward, although he
looked it. He was thinking of those two dear
women, as he called them to himself, objurgating himself
for his unworthiness to be the kinsman and lover of
one, the friend of the other.
He had never seen Nelly look like
that before. Her air of worship was charming.
Now she let Mary Gray’s hands fall while she
went swiftly to the table on which she had deposited
her beautiful red roses. “I brought them
for you,” she said, offering them to Mary Gray.
“How delicious! How sweet of you!”
The smell of the roses was in the
room. It might have been the aura of the two
exquisite women, he thought. Nelly had come in
carrying a little whiff of scent that went with her,
as much a part of her as the soft rustling of her
garments. He closed his eyes and there came to
his memory, sweet and sharp, the odour of wild thyme.
Not a second of time had passed when he opened them
again. Mary was still praising her roses.
She was holding them to her face, leaning towards Nelly
as she did so. Her expression was more than kind:
it was tender. She put down her basket of roses
and took Nelly’s hands between hers. For
a moment she held them against her breast before she
relinquished them. She spoke with a little tremor
in her voice. Why was it that Robin Drummond
thought suddenly of the nightingale who leans his breast
upon a thorn?
In an instant the thrill in the atmosphere
had passed. She was bustling about to make them
tea, if her soft, quiet movements could be called
bustling. She brought a kettle from the unpainted
deal cupboard which housed her utensils of every day.
She disappeared for a few seconds and returned with
the kettle full of water and set it on the gas-stove.
She pushed the papers away from one end of the table
and covered it with a dainty tea-cloth. She brought
out cups and saucers of thin Japanese porcelain, some
sugar, a loaf and butter, a box of biscuits. While
she set her table she went on talking and smiling
at them. The kettle began to sing on the fire.
“Ah!” she said, with a
sudden thought. “The milkman will not call
for an hour yet. What are we to do?”
“Let me go and forage,” said Drummond
eagerly.
“The nearest dairy is a good bit off.”
“Trust me to find one.”
When he had gone the two girls sat
down and looked at each other. No wonder she
was beloved, Mary thought to herself, gloating over
Nelly’s golden head, her blue eyes with the
dark lashes, her lovely colouring, her innocent mouth.
She had a poor opinion of her own beauty and rarely
looked in a glass, but she was none the less generous
to beauty in others.
“And you are very happy?” she asked.
She had an inclination to put her
arms about Nelly Drummond as though she were a beautiful
child. She was so glad Robin had remembered to
bring her at last. It had been strange and lonely
when he had ceased to come as he had been used to.
It had been so pleasant to look up when his tap came
at the door and to see his plain, pleasant face looking
at her with a friendly smile. She had grown used
to his visits all that winter through; and when they
had ceased abruptly she had missed them more than
she cared to acknowledge to herself. She had an
impulse to take Nelly’s hand to her breast and
hold it there for comfort.
“And you are very happy?” she said again.
She was prepared for a happy girl’s
outpourings. What she was not prepared for was
the sudden shadow that fell on Nelly’s face,
the weariness, as though she had been brought back
to the thought of something disagreeable. A sudden
wintriness went over her charming face. The eyes
drooped, the lips trembled and were steadied with an
effort.
“I ought to be very happy,”
she said. “Everyone is good to me.
I have the dearest old father in the world and Robin
is so kind and good. I ought to be very happy
and to make other people happy.”
But she was not happy! Mary stared
at the golden head with incredulity. For the
moment Nelly’s mask a transparent
one enough at best with which she faced
the world was down. No happy girl had ever spoken
so, looked so. And it wanted only a few weeks
to her marriage!
Mary, no more logical than women less
intellectual than she, felt as her first impulse a
coldness, chilling her heart that had been so warm
towards the girl Robin Drummond had chosen. The
chill must have reached Nelly’s delicate apprehension,
for she looked up in a startled way.
“Robin promised me your friendship,” she
began.
“And, to be sure, it is yours,”
Mary Gray said, still wondering at the inexplicable
thing that Robin Drummond’s promised wife could
have secret cause for unhappiness. She had no
further inclination to caress the girl for whom she
had been passed by. “We are going to be
great friends,” she said with a cold sweetness.
Then the kettle boiled over and created
a diversion. While Mary was still mopping up
the pool it had made on the floor Sir Robin returned.
His voyage of discovery had not been in vain.
He had indeed chartered a hansom to make it, and had
brought back fascinating things in the way of cream
and tea-cakes and other dainties. As he came in
he glanced at the two whom he hoped to see friends.
A shadow rested on Nelly’s face. He saw
nothing amiss with Mary Gray as she went to and fro,
busy with the little meal, and had no fault to find
with her words as they parted.
“We are going to be great friends,
Miss Drummond and I,” she said.
But the note of the nightingale that
leans his breast on the thorn, the note of self-sacrifice
and yearning tenderness had gone out of her voice.