That evening for the first time in
his life, as he pressed through the swing door and
descended the three broad steps to the pavement, old
Mr. Neave felt he was too old for the spring.
Spring-warm, eager, restless-was
there, waiting for him in the golden light, ready in
front of everybody to run up, to blow in his white
beard, to drag sweetly on his arm. And he couldn’t
meet her, no; he couldn’t square up once more
and stride off, jaunty as a young man. He was
tired and, although the late sun was still shining,
curiously cold, with a numbed feeling all over.
Quite suddenly he hadn’t the energy, he hadn’t
the heart to stand this gaiety and bright movement
any longer; it confused him. He wanted to stand
still, to wave it away with his stick, to say, “Be
off with you!” Suddenly it was a terrible effort
to greet as usual-tipping his wide-awake
with his stick-all the people whom he knew,
the friends, acquaintances, shopkeepers, postmen,
drivers. But the gay glance that went with the
gesture, the kindly twinkle that seemed to say, “I’m
a match and more for any of you”-that
old Mr. Neave could not manage at all. He stumped
along, lifting his knees high as if he were walking
through air that had somehow grown heavy and solid
like water. And the homeward-looking crowd hurried
by, the trams clanked, the light carts clattered,
the big swinging cabs bowled along with that reckless,
defiant indifference that one knows only in dreams...
It had been a day like other days
at the office. Nothing special had happened.
Harold hadn’t come back from lunch until close
on four. Where had he been? What had he
been up to? He wasn’t going to let his father
know. Old Mr. Neave had happened to be in the
vestibule, saying good-bye to a caller, when Harold
sauntered in, perfectly turned out as usual, cool,
suave, smiling that peculiar little half-smile that
women found so fascinating.
Ah, Harold was too handsome, too handsome
by far; that had been the trouble all along.
No man had a right to such eyes, such lashes, and
such lips; it was uncanny. As for his mother,
his sisters, and the servants, it was not too much
to say they made a young god of him; they worshipped
Harold, they forgave him everything; and he had needed
some forgiving ever since the time when he was thirteen
and he had stolen his mother’s purse, taken
the money, and hidden the purse in the cook’s
bedroom. Old Mr. Neave struck sharply with his
stick upon the pavement edge. But it wasn’t
only his family who spoiled Harold, he reflected,
it was everybody; he had only to look and to smile,
and down they went before him. So perhaps it
wasn’t to be wondered at that he expected the
office to carry on the tradition. H’m, h’m!
But it couldn’t be done. No business-not
even a successful, established, big paying concern-could
be played with. A man had either to put his whole
heart and soul into it, or it went all to pieces before
his eyes...
And then Charlotte and the girls were
always at him to make the whole thing over to Harold,
to retire, and to spend his time enjoying himself.
Enjoying himself! Old Mr. Neave stopped dead under
a group of ancient cabbage palms outside the Government
buildings! Enjoying himself! The wind of
evening shook the dark leaves to a thin airy cackle.
Sitting at home, twiddling his thumbs, conscious all
the while that his life’s work was slipping
away, dissolving, disappearing through Harold’s
fine fingers, while Harold smiled...
“Why will you be so unreasonable,
father? There’s absolutely no need for
you to go to the office. It only makes it very
awkward for us when people persist in saying how tired
you’re looking. Here’s this huge
house and garden. Surely you could be happy in-in-appreciating
it for a change. Or you could take up some hobby.”
And Lola the baby had chimed in loftily,
“All men ought to have hobbies. It makes
life impossible if they haven’t.”
Well, well! He couldn’t
help a grim smile as painfully he began to climb the
hill that led into Harcourt Avenue. Where would
Lola and her sisters and Charlotte be if he’d
gone in for hobbies, he’d like to know?
Hobbies couldn’t pay for the town house and
the seaside bungalow, and their horses, and their
golf, and the sixty-guinea gramophone in the music-room
for them to dance to. Not that he grudged them
these things. No, they were smart, good-looking
girls, and Charlotte was a remarkable woman; it was
natural for them to be in the swim. As a matter
of fact, no other house in the town was as popular
as theirs; no other family entertained so much.
And how many times old Mr. Neave, pushing the cigar
box across the smoking-room table, had listened to
praises of his wife, his girls, of himself even.
“You’re an ideal family,
sir, an ideal family. It’s like something
one reads about or sees on the stage.”
“That’s all right, my
boy,” old Mr. Neave would reply. “Try
one of those; I think you’ll like them.
And if you care to smoke in the garden, you’ll
find the girls on the lawn, I dare say.”
That was why the girls had never married,
so people said. They could have married anybody.
But they had too good a time at home. They were
too happy together, the girls and Charlotte. H’m,
h’m! Well, well. Perhaps so...
By this time he had walked the length
of fashionable Harcourt Avenue; he had reached the
corner house, their house. The carriage gates
were pushed back; there were fresh marks of wheels
on the drive. And then he faced the big white-painted
house, with its wide-open windows, its tulle curtains
floating outwards, its blue jars of hyacinths on the
broad sills. On either side of the carriage porch
their hydrangeas-famous in the town-were
coming into flower; the pinkish, bluish masses of flower
lay like light among the spreading leaves. And
somehow, it seemed to old Mr. Neave that the house
and the flowers, and even the fresh marks on the drive,
were saying, “There is young life here.
There are girls-
The hall, as always, was dusky with
wraps, parasols, gloves, piled on the oak chests.
From the music-room sounded the piano, quick, loud
and impatient. Through the drawing-room door
that was ajar voices floated.
“And were there ices?”
came from Charlotte. Then the creak, creak of
her rocker.
“Ices!” cried Ethel.
“My dear mother, you never saw such ices.
Only two kinds. And one a common little strawberry
shop ice, in a sopping wet frill.”
“The food altogether was too
appalling,” came from Marion.
“Still, it’s rather early
for ices,” said Charlotte easily.
“But why, if one has them at all... " began
Ethel.
“Oh, quite so, darling,” crooned Charlotte.
Suddenly the music-room door opened
and Lola dashed out. She started, she nearly
screamed, at the sight of old Mr. Neave.
“Gracious, father! What
a fright you gave me! Have you just come home?
Why isn’t Charles here to help you off with your
coat?”
Her cheeks were crimson from playing,
her eyes glittered, the hair fell over her forehead.
And she breathed as though she had come running through
the dark and was frightened. Old Mr. Neave stared
at his youngest daughter; he felt he had never seen
her before. So that was Lola, was it? But
she seemed to have forgotten her father; it was not
for him that she was waiting there. Now she put
the tip of her crumpled handkerchief between her teeth
and tugged at it angrily. The telephone rang.
A-ah! Lola gave a cry like a sob and dashed past
him. The door of the telephone-room slammed,
and at the same moment Charlotte called, “Is
that you, father?”
“You’re tired again,”
said Charlotte reproachfully, and she stopped the
rocker and offered her warm plum-like cheek. Bright-haired
Ethel pecked his beard, Marion’s lips brushed
his ear.
“Did you walk back, father?” asked Charlotte.
“Yes, I walked home,”
said old Mr. Neave, and he sank into one of the immense
drawing-room chairs.
“But why didn’t you take
a cab?” said Ethel. “There are hundred
of cabs about at that time.”
“My dear Ethel,” cried
Marion, “if father prefers to tire himself out,
I really don’t see what business of ours it
is to interfere.”
“Children, children?” coaxed Charlotte.
But Marion wouldn’t be stopped.
“No, mother, you spoil father, and it’s
not right. You ought to be stricter with him.
He’s very naughty.” She laughed her
hard, bright laugh and patted her hair in a mirror.
Strange! When she was a little girl she had such
a soft, hesitating voice; she had even stuttered,
and now, whatever she said-even if it was
only “Jam, please, father”-it
rang out as though she were on the stage.
“Did Harold leave the office
before you, dear?” asked Charlotte, beginning
to rock again.
“I’m not sure,”
said Old Mr. Neave. “I’m not sure.
I didn’t see him after four o’clock.”
“He said-” began Charlotte.
But at that moment Ethel, who was
twitching over the leaves of some paper or other,
ran to her mother and sank down beside her chair.
“There, you see,” she
cried. “That’s what I mean, mummy.
Yellow, with touches of silver. Don’t you
agree?”
“Give it to me, love,”
said Charlotte. She fumbled for her tortoise-shell
spectacles and put them on, gave the page a little
dab with her plump small fingers, and pursed up her
lips. “Very sweet!” she crooned vaguely;
she looked at Ethel over her spectacles. “But
I shouldn’t have the train.”
“Not the train!” wailed
Ethel tragically. “But the train’s
the whole point.”
“Here, mother, let me decide.”
Marion snatched the paper playfully from Charlotte.
“I agree with mother,” she cried triumphantly.
“The train overweights it.”
Old Mr. Neave, forgotten, sank into
the broad lap of his chair, and, dozing, heard them
as though he dreamed. There was no doubt about
it, he was tired out; he had lost his hold. Even
Charlotte and the girls were too much for him to-night.
They were too... too... But all his drowsing
brain could think of was-too rich for him.
And somewhere at the back of everything he was watching
a little withered ancient man climbing up endless
flights of stairs. Who was he?
“I shan’t dress to-night,” he muttered.
“What do you say, father?”
“Eh, what, what?” Old
Mr. Neave woke with a start and stared across at them.
“I shan’t dress to-night,” he repeated.
“But, father, we’ve got
Lucile coming, and Henry Davenport, and Mrs. Teddie
Walker.”
“It will look so very out of the picture.”
“Don’t you feel well, dear?”
“You needn’t make any effort. What
is Charles for?”
“But if you’re really not up to it,”
Charlotte wavered.
“Very well! Very well!”
Old Mr. Neave got up and went to join that little
old climbing fellow just as far as his dressing-room...
There young Charles was waiting for
him. Carefully, as though everything depended
on it, he was tucking a towel round the hot-water can.
Young Charles had been a favourite of his ever since
as a little red-faced boy he had come into the house
to look after the fires. Old Mr. Neave lowered
himself into the cane lounge by the window, stretched
out his legs, and made his little evening joke, “Dress
him up, Charles!” And Charles, breathing intensely
and frowning, bent forward to take the pin out of
his tie.
H’m, h’m! Well, well!
It was pleasant by the open window, very pleasant-a
fine mild evening. They were cutting the grass
on the tennis court below; he heard the soft churr
of the mower. Soon the girls would begin their
tennis parties again. And at the thought he seemed
to hear Marion’s voice ring out, “Good
for you, partner... Oh, played, partner...
Oh, very nice indeed.” Then Charlotte calling
from the veranda, “Where is Harold?” And
Ethel, “He’s certainly not here, mother.”
And Charlotte’s vague, “He said-
Old Mr. Neave sighed, got up, and
putting one hand under his beard, he took the comb
from young Charles, and carefully combed the white
beard over. Charles gave him a folded handkerchief,
his watch and seals, and spectacle case.
“That will do, my lad.”
The door shut, he sank back, he was alone...
And now that little ancient fellow
was climbing down endless flights that led to a glittering,
gay dining-room. What legs he had! They were
like a spider’s-thin, withered.
“You’re an ideal family, sir, an ideal
family.”
But if that were true, why didn’t
Charlotte or the girls stop him? Why was he all
alone, climbing up and down? Where was Harold?
Ah, it was no good expecting anything from Harold.
Down, down went the little old spider, and then, to
his horror, old Mr. Neave saw him slip past the dining-room
and make for the porch, the dark drive, the carriage
gates, the office. Stop him, stop him, somebody!
Old Mr. Neave started up. It
was dark in his dressing-room; the window shone pale.
How long had he been asleep? He listened, and
through the big, airy, darkened house there floated
far-away voices, far-away sounds. Perhaps, he
thought vaguely, he had been asleep for a long time.
He’d been forgotten. What had all this to
do with him-this house and Charlotte, the
girls and Harold-what did he know about
them? They were strangers to him. Life had
passed him by. Charlotte was not his wife.
His wife!
... A dark porch, half hidden
by a passion-vine, that drooped sorrowful, mournful,
as though it understood. Small, warm arms were
round his neck. A face, little and pale, lifted
to his, and a voice breathed, “Good-bye, my
treasure.”
My treasure! “Good-bye,
my treasure!” Which of them had spoken?
Why had they said good-bye? There had been some
terrible mistake. She was his wife, that little
pale girl, and all the rest of his life had been a
dream.
Then the door opened, and young Charles,
standing in the light, put his hands by his side and
shouted like a young soldier, “Dinner is on the
table, sir!”
“I’m coming, I’m coming,”
said old Mr. Neave.