It was exactly nineteen minutes past
five o’clock when Wolf Sheridan walked into
the Grand Central Station that afternoon. He had
stopped outside to send his wife some flowers, and
just a brief line of farewell, and he was thinking
so hard of Norma that it seemed natural that the woman
who was coming toward him, in the great central concourse,
should suggest her. The woman was pretty, too,
and wore the sort of dashing little hat that Norma
often wore, and there was something so familiar about
the belted brown coat and the soft brown furs that
Wolf’s heart gave a great plunge, and began to
ache — ache — ache — hopelessly
again.
The brown coat came nearer — and
nearer. And then he saw that the wearer was indeed
his wife. She had dewy violets in her belt, and
her violet eyes were dewy, too, and her face paled
suddenly as she put her hand on his arm.
What Norma all that tired and panicky
afternoon had planned to say to Wolf on this occasion
was something like this:
“Wolf, if you ever loved me,
and if I ever did anything that made you happy, and
if all these years when I have been your little sister,
and your chum, and your wife, mean anything to you — don’t
push me away now! I am sorrier for my foolishness,
and more ashamed of it, than you can possibly be!
I think it was never anything but weakness and vanity
that made me want to flirt with Chris Liggett.
I think that if he had once stopped flattering me,
and if ever our meetings had been anything but stolen
fruit, as it were, I would have seen how utterly blind
I was! I’m different now, Wolf; I know
that what I felt for him was only shallow vanity,
and that what I feel for you is the deepest and realest
love that any woman ever knew! There’s
nothing — no minute of the day or night when
I don’t need you. There’s nothing
that you think that isn’t what I think!
I want to go West with you, and make a home there,
and when you go to China, or go to India, I want you
to go because your wife has helped you — because
you have had happy years of working and experimenting
and picnicking and planning — with me!
“It’s all over, Wolf,
that Melrose business — that dream! I’ve
said good-bye to them, and they have to me, and they
know I’m never coming back! I’m a
Sheridan now — really and truly — for
ever.”
And in the lonesome and bitter days
in which his great dream had come true, without Norma
to share it, days in which he had been thinking of
her as affiliated more and more with the element he
despised, identified more and more with the man who
had wrecked — or tried to wreck — her
life, Wolf had imagined this meeting, and imagined
her as tentatively holding out the olive branch of
peace; and he had had time to formulate exactly what
he should answer to such an appeal.
“I’m sorry, Norma,”
he had imagined himself saying. “I’m
terribly sorry! But just talking doesn’t
undo these things, just saying that you didn’t
mean it, and that it’s all over. No, married
life can’t be picked up and put down again like
a coat. You were my wife, and God knows
I worshipped you — heart and soul! If
some day these people get tired of you, or you get
tired of them, that’ll be different! But
you’ve cut me too deep — you’ve
killed a part of me, and it won’t come alive
again! I’ve been through hell — wondering
what you were doing, what you were going to do!
I never should have married you; now let’s call
it all quits, and get out of it the best way we can!”
But when he saw her, the familiar,
lovely face that he had loved for so many years, when
he felt the little gloved hand on his arm, and realized
that somehow, out of the utter desolation and loneliness
of the big city, she had come to him again, that she
was here, mistily smiling at him, and he could touch
her and hear her voice, everything else vanished,
as if it had never been, and he put his big arm about
her hungrily, and kissed her, and they were both in
tears.
“Oh, Wolf — !”
Norma faltered, the dry spaces of her soul flooding
with springtime warmth and greenness, and a great
happiness sweeping away all consciousness of the place
in which they stood, and the interested eyes about
them. “Oh, Wolf — !”
She thought that she added, “Would you have
gone away without me!” but as a matter of fact
words were not needed now.
“Nono — you do
love me?” he whispered. Or perhaps he only
thought he enunciated the phrase, for although Norma
answered, it was not audibly. Neither of them
ever remembered anything coherent of that first five
minutes, in which momentous questions were settled
between Norma’s admiring comment upon Wolf’s
new coat, and in which they laughed and cried and
clung together in shameless indifference to the general
public.
But presently they were calm enough
to talk, and Wolf’s first constructive remark,
not even now very steady or clear, was that he must
put off his going, get hold of Voorhies somehow —
But no, Norma said, even while they
were dashing toward the telegraph office. She
had already bought her ticket; she was going, too — to-night — this
very hour — !
Wolf brought her up short, ecstatic
bewilderment in his face.
“But your trunks — ?”
“Regina — I tell you
it’s all settled — Regina sends them
on after me. And I’ve got a new big suit-case,
and my old brown one, that’s plenty for the
present! They’re checked here, in the parcel-room — ”
“But we’ll — ”
They had started automatically to rush toward the
parcel-room, but now he brought her up short again.
“It’s five-thirty now,” he muttered,
turning briskly in still another direction, “let
me have your ticket, we’ll have to try for a
section — it’s pretty late, but there
may be cancellations!”
“Oh, but see, Wolf — !
I’ve been here since half-past four. I’ve
got the A drawing-room in Car 131 — ”
She brought forth an official-looking envelope, and
flashed a flimsy bit of coloured paper. For a
third time Wolf checked his hurried rushing, and they
both broke into delicious laughter. “I’ve
been at it all day, with Aunt Kate,” Norma said,
proudly. “I’ve been to banks and to
Judge Lee’s office, and I’ve seen Annie
and Leslie, and I bought a new wrapper and a suit-case,
and — oh, and I saw Kitty Barry, and I got
you a book for the train, and I got myself one — ”
“Oh, Norma,” Wolf said,
his eyes filling, “you God-blessed little adorable
idiot, do you know how I love you? My darling — my
own wife, do you know that I want to die, to-night,
I’m so happy! Do you realize what it’s
going to mean to us, poking about Chicago, and sending
home little presents to Rose and the kids, and reaching
San Francisco, and going up to the big mine?
Do you realize that I feel like a man out of jail — like
a kid who knows it’s Saturday morning?”
“Well — I feel that
way, too!” Norma smiled. “And now,”
she added, in a businesslike tone, “we’ve
got to look for Aunt Kate and Rose, and get our bags;
and Leslie said to-day that it was a good idea to wire
a Chicago hotel for a room, just for the few hours
before the Overland pulls out, because one feels so
dirty and tired; do you realize that I’ve never
spent a night on a Pullman yet?”
“And I’ll turn in the
ticket for my lower,” Wolf said; “we’ll
have dinner on board, so that’s all right — ”
“Oh, Wolf, and won’t that
be fun?” Norma exulted. And then, joyously:
“Oh, there they are!”
And she fled across the great space
to meet Rose, pretty and matronly, at the foot of
the great stairway, and Harry grinning and proud, with
his little sturdy white-caped boy in his arms, and
Aunt Kate beaming utter happiness upon them all.
And then ensued that thrilling time of incoherencies
and confusions, laughter and tears, to which the big
place is, by nature, dedicated. They were parting
so lightly, but they all knew that there would be
changes before they six met again. To Aunt Kate,
holding close the child whose destinies had been so
strangely entangled with her own, the moment held
a poignant pleasure as well as pain. She was
launched now, their imperious, beloved youngest; she
had been taken to the mountain-tops, and shown the
world at her feet, and she had chosen bravely and
wisely, chosen her part of service and simplicity
and love. Life would go on, changes indeed and
growth everywhere, but she knew that the years would
bring her back a new Norma — a developed,
sweetened, self-reliant woman — and a new
Wolf, his hard childhood all swept away and forgotten
in the richness and beauty of this woman’s love
and companionship. And she was content.
“And, Wolf — she told
you about Kitty! Every month, as long as they
need it,” Rose said, crying heartily, as she
clung to her brother. “Why, it’s
the most wonderful thing I ever heard! Poor Louis
Barry can’t believe it — he broke down
completely! And Kitty was crying, and kissing
the children, and she knelt down, and put her arms
about Norma’s knees; and Norma was crying, too — you
never saw anything like it!”
“She never told me a word about
it,” Wolf said, trying to laugh, and blinking,
as he looked at her, a few feet away. One of her
arms was about his mother, her hand was in Harry’s,
her face close to the rosy baby’s face.
“Wolf,” his sister said,
earnestly, drying her eyes, “it will bring a
blessing on your own children — !”
“Ah, Rose!” he answered,
quickly. “Pray that there is one, some day — one
of our own as sweet as yours are!”
“Ah, you’ll have everything,
you two, never fear!” she said, radiantly.
And then a gate opened, and the bustle about them thickened,
and laughing faces grew pale, and last words faltered.
Harry gave Rose the baby, and put
his arm about Rose’s mother, and they watched
them go, the red-cap leading with the suit-cases, Wolf
carrying another, Norma on his arm, twisting herself
about, at the very last second, to smile an April
smile over her shoulder, and wave the green jade handle
of her slim little umbrella. There was just a
glimpse of Wolf’s old boyish, proud, protecting
smile, and then his head drooped toward his companion,
and the surging crowd shut them out of sight.
Then Rose immediately was concerned
for the little baby. Wouldn’t it be wiser
to go straight home, just for fear that Mrs. Noon might
have fallen asleep — and the house caught
on fire — ? Mrs. Sheridan blew her
nose and dried her eyes, and straightened her widow’s
bonnet, and cleared her throat, and agreed that it
would. And they all went away.
But there was another watcher who
had shared, unseen, all this last half-hour, and who
stood immovable to the last second, until the iron
gates had actually clashed shut. It was a well-built,
keen-eyed man, in an irreproachably fitting fur-collared
overcoat, who finally turned away, fitting his eyeglasses,
on their black ribbon, firmly upon the bridge of his
nose, and sighing just a little as he went back to
the sidewalk, and climbed into a waiting roadster.
Even after he took his seat at the
wheel, he made no effort to start the car, but sat
slowly drawing on his heavy gloves, and staring abstractedly
at the dull, uninteresting stretch of street before
him, where a dismal spring wind was stirring chaff
and papers about the subway entrance, and surface
cars were grinding and ringing on the curve.
It looked dull and empty — dull
and empty, he thought. She had been very happy,
looking up at her man, kissing her people good-bye.
She was a remarkable woman, Norma.
“A remarkable woman — Norma,”
he said, half-aloud. “She will make him
a wonderful wife; she will help him to go a long way.
And she never would have had patience for formal living;
it wasn’t in her!”
But he remembered what was in her,
what eager gaiety, what hunger for new impressions,
what courage in seizing her dilemmas the instant she
saw them. He remembered the flash of her eyes,
and the curve of her proud little mouth.
“Theodore had more charm than
any of them,” he said, “and she is like
him. Well — perhaps I’ll meet somebody
like her, some day, and the story will have a different
ending!”
But he knew in his heart that there
was nobody like her, and that she had gone out of
his life for ever.
They had hung the belted brown coat
over the big new gray one in the drawing-room, and
Norma had brushed her hair, and Wolf had shoved the
suit-cases under the seats, and they had gone straight
into the dining-car, and were at a lighted little
shining table by this time. Wolf had had no lunch;
Norma was, she said, starving. They ordered their
meal just as the train drew out of the underground
arcades and swept over the city, in the twilight of
the dull, sunless day.
Norma looked down, and joy and a vague
heartache struggled within her. The little city
blocks, draped with their frail tangles of fire-escapes,
were as clean-cut as toys. In the streets children
were screaming and racing, at the doorways women loitered
and talked. Great trucks lumbered in and out
among surging pedestrians, and women and children stood
before the green-grocers’ displays of oranges
and cabbages, and trickled in and out of the markets,
where cheap cuts were advertised in great chalk signs
on the windows. Red brick, yellow brick, gray
cement, the streets fled by; the dear, familiar streets
that she and Wolf, and she and Rose, had tramped and
explored, in the burning dry heat of July, in the
flutter of November’s first snows.
“Say good-bye to it, Wolf; it
will be a long time before we see New York again!”
Wolf looked down, grinning. Then,
as they left the city, and the dusk deepened, his
eyes went toward the river, went toward the vague and
waiting West. The Palisades lay, a wide bar of
soft dull gray, against the paler dove-colour of the
sky. Above them, bare trees were etched sharply,
and beneath them was the satiny surface of the full
Hudson.
It was still water, and the river
was smooth enough to give back a clear reflection
of the buildings and the wharves on the opposite shore,
and the floating ice from the north looked like rounded
bunches of foam arrested on the shining waters.
Suddenly the sinking sun evaded the
smother of cloud, and flashed out red and shining,
for only a few brilliant minutes. It caught window
glass like flame, twinkled and smouldered in the mirror
of the river, and lighted the under edges of low clouds
with a crisp touch of apricot and pink. Wet streets
shone joyously, doves rose in a circling whirl from
a near-by roof, and all the world shone and sparkled
in the last breath of the spring day. Then dusk
came indeed, and the villages across the river were
strung with increasing lights, and in the tender opal
softness of the evening sky Norma saw a great star
hanging.
“That’s a good omen — that’s
our own little star!” she said softly to herself.
She looked up to see Wolf smiling at her, and the smile
in her own eyes deepened, and she stretched a warm
and comradely hand to him across the little table.