To Emeline, wife of George Page, there
came slowly, in her thirtieth year, a sullen conviction
that life was monstrously unfair. From a resentful
realization that she was not happy in her marriage,
Emeline’s mind went back to the days of her
pert, precocious childhood and her restless and discontented
girlhood, and she felt, with a sort of smouldering
fury, that she had never been happy, had never had
a fair chance, at all!
It took Mrs. Page some years to come
to this conclusion, for, if she was shrewd and sharp
among the women she knew, she was, in essential things,
an unintelligent woman, and mental effort of any sort
was strange to her. Throughout her entire life,
her mind had never been truly awakened. She had
scrambled through Grammar School, and had followed
it with five years as saleswoman in a millinery store,
in that district of San Francisco known as the Mission,
marrying George Page at twenty-three, and up to that
time well enough pleased with herself and her life.
But that was eight years ago.
Now Emeline could see that she had reached — more,
she had passed — her prime. She began
to see that the moods of those early years, however
violent and changing, had been fed upon secret springs
of hope, hope vague and baseless enough, but strong
to colour a girl’s life with all the brightness
of a thousand dawns. There had been rare potentialities
in those days, anything might happen, something would
happen. The little Emeline Cox, moving between
the dreary discomfort of home and the hated routine
of school, might surprise all these dull seniors and
school-mates some day! She might become an actress,
she might become a great singer, she might make a
brilliant marriage.
As she grew older and grew prettier,
these vague, bright dreams strengthened. Emeline’s
mother was an overworked and shrill-voiced woman,
whose personality drove from the Shotwell Street house
whatever small comfort poverty and overcrowding and
dirt left in it. She had no personal message
for Emeline. The older woman had never learned
the care of herself, her children, her husband, or
her house. She had naturally nothing to teach
her daughter. Emeline’s father occasionally
thundered a furious warning to his daughters as to
certain primitive moral laws. He did not tell
Emeline and her sisters why they might some day consent
to abandon the path of virtue, nor when, nor how.
He never dreamed of winning their affection and confidence,
or of selecting their friends, and making home a place
to which these friends might occasionally come.
But he was fond of shouting, when Emeline, May, or
Stella pinned on their flimsy little hats for an evening
walk, that if ever a girl of his made a fool of herself
and got into trouble, she need never come near his
door again! Perhaps Emeline and May and Stella
felt that the virtuous course, as exemplified by their
parents, was not all of roses, either, but they never
said so, and always shuddered dutifully at the paternal
warning.
School also failed with the education
of the inner Emeline, although she moved successfully
from a process known as “diagramming” sentences
to a serious literary analysis of “Snow-Bound”
and “Evangeline,” and passed terrifying
examinations in ancient history, geography, and advanced
problems in arithmetic. By the time she left school
she was a tall, giggling, black-eyed creature, to
be found walking up and down Mission Street, and gossiping
and chewing gum on almost any sunny afternoon.
Between her mother’s whining and her father’s
bullying, home life was not very pleasant, but at
least there was nothing unusual in the situation;
among all the girls that Emeline knew there was not
one who could go back to a clean room, a hospitable
dining-room, a well-cooked and nourishing meal.
All her friends did as she did: wheedled money
for new veils and new shoes from their fathers, helped
their mothers reluctantly and scornfully when they
must, slipped away to the street as often as possible,
and when they were at home, added their complaints
and protests to the general unpleasantness.
Had there been anything different
before her eyes, who knows what plans for domestic
reform might have taken shape in the girl’s plastic
brain? Emeline had never seen one example of
real affection and cooperation between mother and
daughters, of work quickly and skilfully done and
forgotten, of a clean bright house and a blossoming
garden; she had never heard a theory otherwise than
that she was poor, her friends were poor, her parents
were poor, and that born under the wheels of a monstrous
social injustice, she might just as well be dirty and
discouraged and discontented at once and have done
with it, for in the end she must be so. Why should
she question the abiding belief? Emeline knew
that, with her father’s good pay and the excellent
salaries earned by her hard-handed, patient-eyed,
stupid young brothers, the family income ran well
up toward three hundred dollars a month: her father
worked steadily at five dollars a day, George was a
roofer’s assistant and earned eighty dollars
a month, and Chester worked in a plumber’s shop,
and at eighteen was paid sixty-five dollars. Emeline
could only conclude that three hundred dollars a month
was insufficient to prevent dirt, crowding, scolding,
miserable meals, and an incessant atmosphere of warm
soapsuds.
Presently she outraged her father
by going into “Delphine’s” millinery
store. Delphine was really a stout, bleached woman
named Lizzie Clarke, whose reputation was not quite
good, although nobody knew anything definite against
her. She had a double store on Market Street near
Eleventh, a dreary place, with dusty models in the
windows, torn Nottingham curtains draped behind them,
and “Delphine” scrawled in gold across
the dusty windows in front. Emeline used to wonder,
in the days when she and her giggling associates passed
“Delphine’s” window, who ever bought
the dreadful hats in the left-hand window, although
they admitted a certain attraction on the right.
Here would be a sign: “Any Hat in this
Window, Two Dollars,” surrounded by cheap, dust-grained
felts, gaudily trimmed, or coarse straws wreathed with
cotton flowers. Once or twice Emeline and her
friends went in, and one day when a card in the window
informed the passers-by that an experienced saleslady
was wanted, the girl, sick of the situation at home
and longing for novelty, boldly applied for the position.
Miss Clarke engaged her at once.
Emeline met, as she had expected,
a storm at home, but she weathered it, and kept her
position. It was hard work, and poorly paid, but
the girl’s dreams gilded everything, and she
loved the excitement of making sales, came eagerly
to the gossip and joking of her fellow-workers every
morning, and really felt herself to be in the current
of life at last.
Miss Clarke was no better than her
reputation, and would have willingly helped her young
saleswoman into a different sort of life. But
Emeline’s little streak of shrewd selfishness
saved her. Emeline indulged in a hundred little
coarsenesses and indiscretions, but take the final
step toward ruin she would not. Nobody was going
to get the better of her, she boasted. She used
rouge and lip red. She “met fellers”
under flaming gas jets, and went to dance halls with
them, and to the Sunday picnics that were her father’s
especial abomination; she shyly told vile stories
and timidly used strong words, but there it ended.
Perhaps some tattered remnant of the golden dream
still hung before her eyes; perhaps she still clung
to the hope of a dim, wonderful time to come.
More than that, the boys she knew
were not a vicious lot; the Jimmies and Johnnies,
the Dans and Eds, were for the most part neighbours,
no more anxious to antagonize Emeline’s father
than she was. They might kiss her good-night
at her door, they might deliberately try to get the
girls to miss the last train home from the picnic,
but their spirit was of idle mischief rather than
malice, and a stinging slap from Emeline’s hand
afforded them, as it did her, a certain shamed satisfaction.
George Page came into “Delphine’s”
on a windy summer afternoon when Emeline had been
there for nearly five years. He was a salesman
for some lines of tailored hats, a San Franciscan,
but employed by a New York wholesale house. Emeline
chanced to be alone in the place, for Miss Clarke
was sick in bed, and the other saleswoman away on her
vacation. The trimmers, glancing out through
a plush curtain at the rear, saw Miss Cox and the
“drummer” absorbed in a three hours’
conversation. From two to five o’clock
they talked; the drummer watching her in obvious admiration
when an occasional customer interrupted, and when Miss
Cox went home the drummer escorted her. Emeline
had left the parental roof some two years before;
she was rooming, now, with a mild and virtuous girl
named Regina Lynch, in Howard Street. Regina was
the sort of girl frequently selected by a girl of
Emeline’s type for confidante and companion:
timid, conventional, always ready to laugh and admire.
Regina consented to go to dinner with Emeline and
Mr. Page, and as she later refused to go to the theatre,
Emeline would not go either; they all walked out Market
Street from the restaurant, and reached the Howard
Street house at about nine o’clock. Regina
went straight upstairs, but Emeline and George Page
sat on the steps an hour longer, under the bright
summer moon, and when Emeline went upstairs she woke
her roommate up, and announced her engagement.
George came into the store at nine
o’clock the next morning, to radiantly confirm
all that they had said the night before, and with
great simplicity the two began to plan for their future;
from that time they had breakfast, lunch, and dinner
together every day; they were both utterly satisfied;
they never questioned their fate. In October George
had to go to San Diego, and a dozen little cities en
route, for the firm, and Emeline went, too. They
were married in the little church of Saint Charles
in Eighteenth Street, only an hour or two before they
started for San Jose, the first stop in George’s
itinerary. Emeline’s mother and sisters
came to her wedding, but the men of the family were
working on this week-day afternoon. The bride
looked excited and happy, colour burned scarlet in
her cheeks, under her outrageous hat; she wore a brown
travelling gown, and the lemon-coloured gloves that
were popular in that day. Emeline felt that she
was leaving everything unpleasant in life behind her.
George was the husband of her dreams — or
perhaps her dreams had temporarily adapted themselves
to George.
But, indeed, he was an exceptionally
good fellow. He was handsome, big, dashingly
dressed. He was steady and successful in his work,
domestic in his tastes, and tenderly — and
perhaps to-day a little pityingly — devoted
to this pretty, clever girl who loved him so, and had
such faith in him. His life had kept him a good
deal among men, and rather coarse men; he had had
to do more drinking than he cared to do, to play a
good deal of poker, to listen to a good deal of loose
talk. Now, George felt a great relief that this
was over; he wanted a home, a wife, children.
The bride and groom had a cloudless
three weeks of honeymoon among a score of little Southern
towns — and were scarcely less happy during
the first months of settling down. Emeline was
entirely ignorant of what was suitable or desirable
in a home, and George had only the crude ideals of
a travelling man to guide him. They enthusiastically
selected a flat of four handsome, large, dark rooms,
over a corner saloon, on O’Farrell Street.
The building was new, the neighbourhood well built,
and filled with stirring, interesting life. George
said it was conveniently near the restaurant and theatre
district, and to Emeline, after Mission Street, it
seemed the very hub of the world. The suite consisted
of a large front drawing-room, connected by enormous
folding doors with a rear drawing-room, which the
Pages would use as a bedroom, a large dining-room,
and a dark kitchen, equipped with range and “water
back.” There were several enormous closets,
and the stairs and hall, used by the several tenants
of the house, were carpeted richly. The Pages
also carpeted their own rooms, hung the stiff folds
of Nottingham lace curtains at the high narrow windows,
and selected a set of the heavily upholstered furniture
of the period for their drawing-room. When Emeline’s
mother and sisters came to call, Emeline showed them
her gold-framed pictures, her curly-maple bed and
bureau, her glass closet in the dining-room, with
its curved glass front and sides and its shining contents — berry
saucers and almond dishes in pressed glass, and other
luxuries to which the late Miss Cox had been entirely
a stranger. Emeline was intoxicated with the
freedom and the pleasures of her new life; George
was out of town two or three nights a week, but when
he was at home the two slept late of mornings, and
loitered over their breakfast, Emeline in a loose
wrapper, filling and refilling her coffee cup, while
George rattled the paper and filled the room with the
odour of cigarettes.
Then Emeline was left to put her house
in order, and dress herself for the day — her
corsets laced tight at the waist, her black hair crimped
elaborately above her bang, her pleated skirts draped
fashionably over her bustle. George would come
back at one o’clock to take her to lunch, and
after lunch they wandered up and down Kearney and Market
streets, laughing and chatting, glad just to be alive
and together. Sometimes they dined downtown,
too, and afterward went to the “Tivoli”
or “Morosco’s,” or even the Baldwin
Theatre, and sometimes bought and carried home the
materials for a dinner, and invited a few of George’s
men friends to enjoy it with them. These were
happy times; Emeline, flushed and pretty in her improvised
apron, queened it over the three or four adoring males,
and wondered why other women fussed so long over cooking,
when men so obviously enjoyed a steak, baked potatoes,
canned vegetables, and a pie from Swain’s.
After dinner the men always played poker, a mild little
game at first, with Emeline eagerly guarding a little
pile of chips, and gasping over every hand like a happy
child; but later more seriously, when Emeline, contrary
to poker superstition, sat on the arm of her husband’s
chair, to bring him luck.
Luck she certainly seemed to bring
him; the Pages would go yawning to bed, after one
of these evenings, chuckling over the various hands.
“I couldn’t see what you
drew, George,” Emeline would say, “but
I could see that Mack had aces on the roof, and it
made me crazy to have you go on raising that way!
And then your three fish hooks!”
George would shout with pride at her
use of poker terms — would laugh all the
harder if she used them incorrectly. And sometimes,
sinking luxuriously into the depths of the curly-maple
bed, Emeline would think herself the luckiest woman
in the world. No hurry about getting up in the
morning; no one to please but herself; pretty gowns
and an adoring husband and a home beyond her maddest
hopes — the girl’s dreams no longer
followed her, happy reality had blotted out the dream.
She felt a little injured, a little
frightened, when the day came on which she must tell
George of some pretty well-founded suspicions of her
own condition. George might be “mad,”
or he might laugh.
But George was wonderfully soothing
and reassuring; more, was pathetically glad and proud.
He petted Emeline into a sort of reluctant joy, and
the attitude of her mother and sisters and the few
women she knew was likewise flattering. Important,
self-absorbed, she waited her appointed days, and
in the early winter a wizened, mottled little daughter
was born. Julia was the name Emeline had chosen
for a girl, and Julia was the name duly given her
by the radiant and ecstatic George in the very first
hour of her life. Emeline had lost interest in
the name — indeed, in the child and her father
as well — just then; racked, bewildered,
wholly spent, she lay back in the curly-maple bed,
the first little seed of that general resentment against
life that was eventually to envelop her, forming in
her mind.
They had told her that because of
this or that she would not have a “hard time,”
and she had had a very hard time. They had told
her that she would forget the cruel pain the instant
it was over, and she knew she never would forget it.
It made her shudder weakly to think of all the babies
in the world — of the schools packed with
children — at what a cost!
Emeline recovered quickly, and shut
her resentment into her own breast. Julie, as
she was always called, was a cross baby, and nowadays
the two front rooms were usually draped with her damp
undergarments, and odorous of sour bottles and drying
clothes. For the few months that Emeline nursed
the child she wandered about until late in the day
in a loose wrapper, a margin of draggled nightgown
showing under it, her hair in a tumbled knot at the
back of her head. If she had to run out for a
loaf of bread or a pound of coffee, she slipped on
a street skirt, and buttoned her long coat about her;
her lean young throat would show, bare above the lapels
of the coat, but even this costume was not conspicuous
in that particular neighbourhood.
By the time Julia was weaned, Emeline
had formed the wrapper habit; she had also slipped
back to the old viewpoint: they were poor people,
and the poor couldn’t afford to do things decently,
to live comfortably. Emeline scolded and snapped
at George, shook and scolded the crying baby, and
loitered in the hall for long, complaining gossips
with the other women of the house.
Time extricated the young Pages from
these troubled days. Julia grew into a handsome,
precocious little girl of whom both parents could be
proud. Emeline never quite recovered her girlish
good looks, her face was thin now, with prominent
cheek bones; there was a little frowning line drawn
between her eyes, and her expression was sharp and
anxious, but she became more fond of dress than ever.
George’s absences were a little
longer in these days; he had been given a larger territory
to cover — and Emeline naturally turned for
society toward her women neighbours. There were
one or two very congenial married women of her own
type in the same house, pleasure-loving, excitable
young women; one, a Mrs. Carter, with two children
in school, the other, Mrs. Palmer, triumphantly childless.
These introduced her to others; sometimes half a dozen
of them would go to a matinee together, a noisy, chattering
group. During the matinee Julia would sit on her
mother’s lap, a small awed figure in a brief
red silk dress and deep lace collar. Julia always
had several chocolates from the boxes that circulated
among her elders, and usually went to sleep during
the last act, and was dragged home, blinking and whining
and wretched, by one aching little arm.
George was passionately devoted to
his little girl, and no toy was too expensive for
Julia to demand. Emeline loved the baby, too,
although she accepted as a martyrdom the responsibility
of supplying Julia’s needs. But the Pages
themselves rather drifted apart with the years.
Both were selfish, and each accused the other of selfishness,
although, as Emeline said stormily, no one had ever
called her that before she was married, and, as George
sullenly claimed, he himself had always been popularity’s
self among the “fellows.”
In all her life Emeline had never
felt anything but a resentful impatience for whatever
curtailed her liberty or disturbed her comfort in
the slightest degree. She had never settled down
to do cheerfully anything that she did not want to
do. She had shaken off the claims of her own
home as lightly as she had stepped from “Delphine’s”
to the more tempting position of George’s wife.
Now she could not believe that she was destined to
live on with a man who was becoming a confirmed dyspeptic,
who thought she was a poor housekeeper, an extravagant
shopper, a wretched cook, and worse than all, a sloven
about her personal appearance. Emeline really
was all these things at times, and suspected it, but
she had never been shown how to do anything else, and
she denied all charges noisily.
One night when Julia was about four
George stamped out of the house, after a tirade against
the prevailing disorder and some insulting remarks
about “delicatessen food.” Emeline
sent a few furious remarks after him, and then wept
over the sliced ham, the potato salad, and the Saratoga
chips, all of which she had brought home from a nearby
delicacy shop in oily paper bags only an hour ago.
She wandered disconsolately through the four rooms
that had been her home for nearly six years. The
dust lay thick on the polished wood and glass of the
sideboard and glass closet in the dining-room; ashes
and the ends of cigarettes filled half a dozen little
receptacles here and there; a welter of newspapers
had formed a great drift in a corner of the room,
and the thick velour day cover of the table had been
pushed back to make way for a doubled and spotted
tablecloth and the despised meal. The kitchen
was hideous with a confusion of souring bottles of
milk, dirty dishes, hardened ends of loaves, and a
sticky jam jar or two; Emeline’s range was spotted
and rusty, she never fired it now; a three-burner
gas plate sufficed for the family’s needs.
In the bedroom a dozen garments were flung over the
foot of the unmade bed, Julia’s toys and clothing
littered this and the sitting-room, the silk woof
had been worn away on the heavily upholstered furniture,
and the strands of the cotton warp separated to show
the white lining beneath. On the mantel was a
litter of medicine bottles and theatre programs, powder
boxes, gloves and slippers, packages of gum and of
cigarettes, and packs of cards, as well as more ornamental
matters: china statuettes and glass cologne
bottles, a palm-leaf fan with roses painted on it,
a pincushion of redwood bark, and a plush rolling-pin
with brass screws in it, hung by satin ribbons.
Over all lay a thick coat of dust.
Emeline took Julia in her lap, and
sat down in one of the patent rockers. She remained
for a long time staring out of the front window.
George’s words burned angrily in her memory — she
felt sick of life.
A spring twilight was closing down
upon O’Farrell Street. In the row of houses
opposite Emeline could see slits of gaslight behind
lowered shades, and could look straight into the second
floor of the establishment that flourished behind
a large sign bearing the words, “O’Connor,
Modes.” This row of bay-windowed houses
had been occupied as homes by very good families when
the Pages first came to O’Farrell Street, but
six years had seen great changes in the block.
A grocery and bar now occupied the corner, facing
the saloon above which the Pages lived, and the respectable
middle-class families had moved away, one by one,
giving place to all sorts of business enterprises.
Milliners and dressmakers took the first floors, and
rented the upper rooms; one window said “Mme.
Claire, Palmist,” and another “Violin Lessons”;
one basement was occupied by a dealer in plaster statuary,
and another by a little restaurant. Most interesting
of all to the stageloving Emeline was the second floor,
obliquely opposite her own, which bore an immense
sign, “Gottoli, Wigs and Theatrical Supplies.
Costumes of all sorts Designed and on Hand.”
Between Gottoli’s windows were two painted panels
representing respectively a very angular, moustached
young man in a dress suit, and a girl in a Spanish
dancer’s costume, with a tambourine. Gottoli
did not do a very flourishing business, but Emeline
watched his doorway by the hour, and if ever her dreams
came back now, it was at these times.
To-night Julia went to sleep in her
arms; she was an unexacting little girl, accustomed
to being ignored much of the time, and humoured, over-indulged,
and laughed at at long intervals. Emeline sat
on and on, crying now and then, and gradually reducing
herself to a more softened mood, when she longed to
be dear to George again, to please and content him.
She had just made up her mind that this was no neighbourhood
for ideal home life, when George, smelling strongly
of whiskey, but affectionate and repentant, came in.
“What doing?” asked George, stumbling
in the dark room.
“Just watching the cable cars
go up and down,” Emeline said, rousing.
She set the dazed Julia on her feet, and groped for
matches on the mantel. A second later the stifling
odour of block matches drifted through the room, and
Emeline lighted a gas jet.
“Had your supper?” said
she, as George sat down and took the child into his
arms.
“Nope,” he answered, grinning
ashamedly. “Thought maybe you and I’d
go to dinner somewheres, Em.”
Emeline was instantly her better self.
While she flew into her best clothes she told George
that she knew she was a rotten manager, but she was
so darn sick of this darn flat — She had just
been sitting there wondering if they hadn’t
better move into the country, say into Oakland.
Her sister May lived there, they might get a house
near May, with a garden for Julia, and a spare room
where George could put up a friend.
George was clumsily enthusiastic.
Gosh, if she would do that — if she could
stand its being a little quiet —
“I’d get to know the neighbours,
and we’d have real good times,” said Emeline
optimistically, “and it would be grand for Julie!”
Julia had by this time gone off to
sleep in the centre of the large bed. Her mother
removed the child’s shoes and some of her clothing,
without rousing her, loosened her garters, and unbuttoned
whatever buttons she could reach.
“She’ll be all right,”
she said confidently. “She never wakes.”
George lowered the gas, and they tiptoed
out. But Julie did waken half an hour later,
as it happened, and screamed for company for ten hideous
minutes. Then Miss Flossie Miniver, a young woman
who had recently rented the top floor, and of whom
Emeline and the other ladies of the house disapproved,
came downstairs and softly entered the Page flat, and
gathered the sobbing little girl to her warm, soft
breast. Miss Miniver soothed her with a new stick
of gum and a pincushion that looked like a fat little
pink satin leg, with a smart boot at one end and a
ruffle of lace at the other, and left Julia peacefully
settled down to sleep. But Julia did not remember
anything of this in the morning, and the pincushion
had rolled under the bed, so Emeline never knew of
it. She and George had a good dinner, and later
went to the Orpheum, and were happier than they had
been for a long time.
The next Sunday they went to Oakland
to see Emeline’s sister, and possibly to begin
househunting. It was a cold, dark day, with a
raw wind blowing. Gulls dipped and screamed over
the wake of the ferryboat that carried the Pages to
Oakland, and after the warm cabin and the heated train,
they all shivered miserably as they got out at the
appointed corner. Oakland looked bleak and dreary,
the wind was blowing chaff and papers against fences
and steps.
Emeline had rather lost sight of her
sister for a year or two, and had last seen her in
another and better house than the one which they presently
identified by street and number. The sisters had
married at about the same time, but Ed Torney was
a shiftless and unfortunate man, never steadily at
work, and always mildly surprised at the discomfort
of life. May had four children, and was expecting
a fifth. Two of the older children, stupid-looking
little blondes, with colds in their noses, and dirt
showing under the fair hair, were playing in the dooryard
of the shabby cottage now. The gate hung loose,
the ground was worn bare by children’s feet
and dug into holes where children had burrowed, and
littered with cans and ropes and boxes.
Emeline was genuinely shocked by the
evidences of actual want inside. May was a thin,
bent, sickly looking woman now, her graying hair hanging
in a loose coil over her cotton wrapper. Floors
everywhere were bare, a few chairs were here and there,
a few beds running over with thin bedding, a table
in the kitchen was covered with scattered dishes, some
dirty and some clean. Ashes drifted out of the
kitchen stove, and in the sink was a great tin dish-pan
full of cool, greasy water. The oldest child,
a five-year-old girl, had followed these dazzling visitors
in, and now mounted a box and attacked this dish-pan
with pathetic energy. The two younger children
sat on the floor, apathetically staring. May
made only a few smiling apologies. They “could
see how she was,” she said, limping to a chair
into which she dropped with a sigh of relief.
They had had a “fierce” time since Ed — Ed
was the husband and father — had lost his
job a year ago. He had not been able to get anything
permanent since. Ed had been there just a minute
ago, she said — and indeed the odour of tobacco
was still strong on the close air — but he
had been having a good deal of stomach trouble of late,
and the children made him nervous, and he had gone
out for a walk. Poor May, smiling gallantly over
the difficulties of her life, drew her firstborn to
her knees, brushed back the child’s silky, pale
hair with bony, trembling fingers, and prophesied
that things would be easier when mamma’s girlies
got to work: Evelyn was going to be a dressmaker,
and Marguerite an actress.
“She can say a piece out of
the Third Reader real cute — the children
next door taught her,” said May, but Marguerite
would not be exploited; she dug her blonde head into
her mother’s shoulder in a panic of shyness;
and shortly afterward the Pages went away. Uncle
George gave each child a dime, Julia kissed her little
cousins good-bye, and Emeline felt a sick spasm of
pity and shame as May bade the children thank them,
and thanked them herself. Emeline drew her sister
to the door, and pressed two silver dollars, all she
happened to have with her, into her hand.
“Aw, don’t, Em, you oughtn’t,”
May said, ashamed and turning crimson, but instantly
she took the money. “We’ve had an
awful hard time — or I wouldn’t!”
said she, tears coming to her eyes.
“Oh, that’s all right!”
Emeline said uncomfortably, as she ran down the steps.
Her heart burned with sympathy for poor May, who had
been so pretty and so clever! Emeline could not
understand the change! May had graduated from
High School with honours; she had held a good position
as a bookkeeper in a grocery before her marriage,
but, like Emeline, for the real business of life she
had had no preparation at all. Her own oldest
child could have managed the family finances and catered
to sensitive stomachs with as much system and intelligence
as May.
On the boat Emeline spoke of her little
money gift to her sister, and George roused himself
from a deep study to approve and to reimburse her.
They did not speak again of moving to the country,
and went straight from the boat to a French table
d’hote dinner, where Julia, enchanted at finding
herself warm and near food after the long cold adventures
of the day, stuffed herself on sardines and sour bread,
soup and salad, and shrimps and fried chicken, and
drank tumblers of claret and sugar and ice water.
There were still poker parties occasionally
in the Page flat; Emeline was quite familiar with
poker phraseology now, and if George seemed less pleased
than he had been when she rattled away about hands,
the men who came were highly diverted by it.
Two or three other wives generally joined the party
now; there would be seven or eight players about the
round table.
They all drank as they played, the
room would get very warm, and reek of tobacco and
of whiskey and beer. Sometimes Julia woke up with
a terrified shout, and then, if Emeline were playing,
she would get George, or one of the other men or women,
to go in and quiet the little girl. These games
would not break up until two or three o’clock.
Emeline would be playing excitedly, her face flushed,
her eyes shining, every fibre of her being alert,
when suddenly the life would seem to fade out of the
whole game. An overwhelming ennui would seize
her, a cold, clear-eyed fatigue — the cards
would seem meaningless, a chill would shake her, a
need of yawning. The whole company would be suddenly
likewise affected, the game would break up with a few
brief words, and Emeline, going in with her guests
to help them with hats and wraps, would find herself
utterly silent, too cold and weary for even the most
casual civilities. When the others had gone, she
and George would turn the lights out on the wreckage
of the dining-room, and stagger silently to bed.
Fatigue would follow Emeline well
into the next day after one of these card parties.
If George was going out of town, she would send Julia
off to play with other children in the house, and
lie in bed until noon, getting up now and then to
hold a conversation with some tradesman through a
crack in the door. At one she might sally forth
in her favourite combination of wrapper and coat to
buy cream and rolls, and Julia would be regaled on
sausages, hot cakes, bakery cookies, and coffee, or
come in to find no lunch at all, and that her mother
had gone out for the afternoon.
Emeline had grown more and more infatuated
with the theatre and all that pertained to it.
She went to matinées twice a week, and she and
her group of intimate friends also “went Dutch”
to evening performances whenever it was possible.
Their conversation was spattered with theatrical terms,
and when, as occasionally happened, a real actress
or even a chorus girl from the Tivoli joined their
group, Emeline could hardly contain her eagerness
and her admiration. She loved, when rare chance
offered, to go behind the scenes; she frankly envied
the egotistic, ambitious young theatrical beginners,
so eager to talk of themselves and their talents,
to discuss every detail from grease paint to management.
To poor hungry Emeline it was like a revelation of
another, brighter world.
She would loiter out from the brief
enchantment of “Two True Hearts” into
the foggy dampness of Market Street, at twilight, eagerly
grasping the suggestion of ice-cream sodas, because
it meant a few minutes more with her friends.
Perhaps, sipping the frothy confection, Emeline would
see some of the young actresses going by, just from
the theatre, buttoned into long coats, their faces
still rosy from cold cream; they must rush off for
a light dinner, and be back at the theatre at seven.
At the sight of them a pang always shot through Emeline,
an exquisite agony of jealousy seized her. Oh,
to be so busy, so full of affairs, to move constantly
from one place to another — now dragging a
spangled gown, now gay as a peasant, now gaudily dressed
as a page!
Emeline would finish her soda in silence,
lift the over-dressed Julia from her chair, and start
soberly for home. Julia’s short little legs
ached from the quick walk, yet she hated as much as
her mother the plunge from brightly lighted O’Farrell
Street into their own hall, so large and damp and
dark, so odorous of stale beer and rubber floor covering.
A dim point of gas in a red shade covered with symmetrical
glass blisters usually burned over the stairway, but
the Pages’ apartment was dark, except for a
dull reflected light from the street. Perhaps
Julia and her mother would find George there, with
his coat and shoes off, and his big body flung down
across the bed, asleep. George would wake up
slowly, with much yawning and grumbling, Emeline would
add her gloves and belt to the unspeakable confusion
of the bureau, and Julia would flatten her tired little
back against the curve of an armchair and follow with
heavy, brilliant eyes the argument that always followed.
“Well, we could get some chops — chops
and potatoes — and a can of corn,”
Emeline would grudgingly admit, as she tore off her
tight corsets with a great gasp of relief, and slipped
into her kimono, “or you could get some spaghetti
and some mangoes at the delicatessen — ”
“Oh, God, cut out the delicatessen
stuff!” George invariably said; “me for
the chops, huh, Julie?”
“Or — we could all
go somewhere,” Emeline might submit tentatively.
“Nit,” George would
answer. “Come on, Ju, we’ll go buy
a steak!”
But he was not very well pleased with
his dinner, even when he had his own way. When
he and Julia returned with their purchases Emeline
invariably met them at the top of the stairs.
“We need butter, George, I forgot
to tell you — you’ll have to go back!”
she would say. Julia, tired almost beyond endurance,
still preferred to go with her father.
There was not enough gas heat under
Emeline’s frying pan to cook a steak well; George
growled as he cut it. Emeline jumped up for forgotten
table furnishings; grease splashed on the rumpled
cloth. After the one course the head of the house
would look about hungrily.
“No cheese in the house, I suppose?”
“No — I don’t believe there is.”
“What’s the chances on a salad?”
“Oh, no, George — that
takes lettuce, you know. My goodness!” And
Emeline would put her elbows on the table and yawn,
the rouge showing on her high cheek bones, her eyes
glittering, her dark hair still pressed down where
her hat had lain. “My goodness!” she
would exclaim impatiently, “haven’t you
had enough, George? You had steak, and potatoes,
and corn — why don’t you eat your corn?”
“What’s the chances on
a cup of tea?” George might ask, seizing a half
slice of bread, and doubling an ounce of butter into
it, with his great thumb on the blade of his knife.
“You can have all the tea you
want, but you’ll have to use condensed milk!”
At this George would say “Damn!”
and take himself and his evening paper to the armchair
in the front window. When Emeline would go in,
after a cursory disposition of the dishes, she would
find Julia curled in his arms, and George sourly staring
over the little silky head.
“It’s up to you, and it’s
your job, and it makes me damn sick to come home to
such a dirty pen as this!” George sometimes burst
out. “Look at that — and look
at that — look at that mantel!”
“Well — well — well!”
Emeline would answer sharply, putting the mantel straight,
or commencing to do so with a sort of lazy scorn.
“I can’t do everything!”
“Other men go home to decent
dinners,” George would pursue sullenly; “their
wives aren’t so darn lazy and selfish — ”
Such a start as this always led to
a bitter quarrel, after which Emeline, trembling with
anger, would clear a corner of the cluttered drawing-room
table and take out a shabby pack of cards for solitaire,
and George would put Julia to bed. All her life
Julia Page remembered these scenes and these bedtimes.
Her father sometimes tore the tumbled
bed apart, and made it up again, smoothing the limp
sheets with clumsy fingers, and talking to Julia,
while he worked, of little girls who had brothers and
sisters, and who lived in the country, and hung their
stockings up on Christmas Eve. Emeline pretended
not to notice either father or daughter at these times,
although she could have whisked Julia into bed in half
the time it took George to do it, and was really very
kind to the child when George was not there.
When George asked the little girl
to find her hairbrush, and blundered over the buttons
of her nightgown, Emeline hummed a sprightly air.
She never bore resentment long.
“What say we go out later and
get something to eat, George?” she would ask,
when George tiptoed out of the bedroom and shut the
folding door behind him. But several hours of
discomfort were not to be so lightly dismissed by
George.
“Maybe,” he would briefly
answer. And invariably he presently muttered
something about asking “Cass” for the time,
and so went down to the saloon of “J. Cassidy,”
just underneath his own residence.
Emeline, alone, would brood resentfully
over her cards. That was the way of it:
men could run off to saloons, while she, pretty and
young, and with the love of life still strong in her
veins, might as well be dead and buried! Bored
and lonely, she would creep into bed beside Julia,
after turning the front-room light down to a bead,
and flinging over the “bed lounge,” upon
which George spent the night, the musty sheets and
blankets and the big soggy pillows.
But George, meanwhile, would have
found warmth, brightness, companionship, and good
food. The drink that was his passport to all
these good things was the least of them in his eyes.
George did not care particularly for drink, but he
usually came home the worse for it on these occasions,
and Emeline had a real foundation for her furious
harangues in the morning. She would scold while
she carried him in hot coffee or chopped ice, scold
while she crimped her hair and covered her face with
a liquid bleach, scold as she jerked Julia’s
little bonnet on the child’s lovely mane, and
depart, with a final burst of scolding and a bang
of the door.
One day Emeline came in to find George
at home, ill. She had said good-bye to him only
the day before, for what was supposedly a week, and
was really concerned to find him back so soon, shivering
and mumbling, and apparently unable to get into bed.
Emeline sent Julia flying to a neighbour, made George
as comfortable as she could in the big bed, and listened,
with a conviction as firm as his own, to what he believed
to be parting instructions and messages.
“I’m going, Em,”
said George heavily. “I’m worse now
than I was when I started for home. I wanted
to see you again, baby girl, and Julia, too.
I — I can’t breathe — ”
Julia presently came flying in with
a doctor and with a neighbour, Mrs. Cotter, who had
telephoned to him. The doctor said that George
had a sharp touch of influenza, and Emeline settled
down to nurse him.
George was a bad patient. He
had a great many needs, and he mentioned one after
another in the weighty, serious tone of a person imparting
valuable information.
“Ice — ice,”
said George, moving hot eyes to meet his wife’s
glance as she came in. “And take that extra
blanket off, Emeline, and — no hurry, but
I’ll try the soup again whenever you say — I
seem to feel weak. I must have more air, dear.
Help me sit up, Em, and you can shake these pillows
up again. I think I’m a good deal sicker
man than Allan has any idea — ”
Emeline got very tired of it, especially
as George was much better on the third day, and could
sit up. He developed a stiff neck, which made
him very irritable, and even Julia “got on his
nerves” and was banished for the day to the
company of the cheerful Jewish family who lived on
an upper floor. He sat in an armchair, wrapped
in blankets, his rigid gaze roving a pitifully restricted
perspective of street outside the window, an elaborate
cough occasionally racking him.
Emeline had gotten a fairly tempting
dinner under way. She could cook some things
well, and at five o’clock she came in from the
kitchen with an appetizing tray.
“Gosh, is it dinner time?” asked George.
“After five,” Emeline
said, flitting about the bed-room. Julia had come
home now, sweet and tired, and was silently eating
slice after slice of bread and jelly. Emeline
opened out the bed lounge, spread sheets and blankets
smoothly, and flung a clean little nightgown for Julia
across the foot. Darkness had fallen outside;
she lighted the gas and drew the shades.
“This is comfortable!”
said George. “I wouldn’t mind being
sick now and then at this rate! Come over here
and undress near Pop, Julie. I’ll tell
you what, Em — you call down the air shaft
to Cass, and tell him to send Henny up to make us
a nice little coal fire here. I’ll give
Henny a quarter.”
“She’s gone into the bathroom
to fix her hair and wash her face,” Julia observed,
as Emeline did not answer. A second later the
child jumped up to answer a sharp knock on the door.
To George’s disgust it was Emeline’s
friend, Mrs. Marvin Povey, who came in. Mrs.
Povey was a tightly corseted, coarse-voiced, highly
coloured little blonde, breathless now from running
upstairs. Her sister, Myrtle Montague, was an
ingenue in the little stock company at the Central
Theatre, and Mrs. Povey kept house for her and Mr.
Povey, who spent all his waking hours at the racetrack.
The Poveys’ flat was only a block away from
the Pages’.
George was furious to have this woman,
whom he particularly detested, come in upon him thus
informally, and find him at so great a disadvantage.
His neck was better, but he could not move it very
easily still; he was trapped here in blankets like
a baby; he was acutely conscious of his three days’
beard, of Julia’s bed made up in the middle
of the drawing-room, and of Julia’s self, partly
disrobed, and running about in the general disorder.
“Well, how does the other feller
look?” said Mrs. Povey, laughing good-naturedly.
“You look like you’d broke out of San Quentin,
George, with that face! Hello, darlin’,”
she added, waylaying Julia. “When are you
going to come and be Aunt Mame’s girl, huh?
Going to come home with me to-night?”
“Em!” bellowed George,
with only a sickly smile for the guest. “Em!”
“My God, what is it now?”
said Emeline sweetly, popping in her head. “Oh,
hello, Mame!” she added, coming in. “Where’s
the rest of the girls?”
“They’ve all blew up to
the house with Myrt,” said Mrs. Povey, staring
blankly at Emeline. “But say, ain’t
you going, dear?”
“Wait till I get my dress on,
and we’ll talk it over while I hook up,”
Emeline said, disappearing again. She did not
glance at George.
“Myrt’s in a new show,
and a few of us girls are going to see that she gets
a hand,” Mrs. Povey said. “We’re
going to have supper at my house. Mary will have
some of the boys there.”
“I guess Emeline will have to
wait till the next time,” George said coldly.
“She wouldn’t get much pleasure out of
it, leaving me here as sick as I am!”
“Oh, I don’t know!”
Mrs. Povey half sang, half laughed. “Emeline
likes a good time, like all the rest of us, George,
and it don’t do to keep a pretty girl shut up
all the time!”
“Shut up? She’s never here,”
George growled.
“Well, we’ll see!”
Mrs. Povey hummed contentedly. A moment later
Emeline came in, wrenching the hooks of her best gown
together. She had her hat on, and looked excited
and resolute.
“I forgot I’d promised
to go out with the girls, George,” she began.
“You don’t care, do you? You’ve
had your supper, and all Julia’s got to do is
get into bed.”
George looked balefully from one to
the other. Mrs. Povey chanced a quick little
wink of approval and encouragement at Emeline, and
he saw it.
“A lot you forgot!” he
said harshly to his wife. “You’ve
been getting ready for the last hour. Don’t
either of you think that you’re fooling me — I
see through it! I could lay here and die, and
a lot you’d care! You forgot — ha!”
The blood rushed instantly to Emeline’s
face, she turned upon him her ugliest look, and the
hand with which she was buttoning her glove trembled.
“Now, I’ll tell you something,
Mr. George Page!” said she, in an intense and
passionate tone, “there are things I’d
rather do than set around this house and hear you
tell how sick you are! You think I’m a white
chip in this family, but let me tell you something — there’s
plenty of lovely friends I got who think I’m
a fool to keep it up! I had an offer to go on
the stage, not a month ago, from a manager who didn’t
even know I was married; didn’t I, Mame?
And if it wasn’t for Julie there — ”
“You’ve not got anything
on me, Em,” George said, breathing hard, his
face blood red with anger. “Do you think
that if it wasn’t for this kid, I’d — ”
“Oh, folks — folks!” Mrs. Povey
said, really concerned.
“Well, I don’t care!”
Emeline said, panting. She crossed the floor,
still panting, kissed Julia, and swept from the room.
Mrs. Povey, murmuring some confused farewell, followed
her.
Julia climbed out of her big chair.
Like all children, she was frightened by loud voices
and domestic scenes; she was glad now that the quarrel
was over, and anxious, in a small girl’s fashion,
to blot the recent unpleasantness from her father’s
mind.
She sat on his knee and talked to
him, she sang, she patted his sore neck with sleek,
dirty little fingers. And finally she won him.
George laughed, and entered into her mood. He
thought her a very smart little girl, as indeed she
was. She had a precocious knowledge of the affairs
of her mother’s friends, sordid affairs enough,
and more sordid than ever when retailed by a child’s
fresh mouth. Julia talked of money trouble, of
divorce, of dressmaker’s bills, of diseases;
she repeated insolent things that had been said to
her in the street, and her insolent replies; her rich,
delicious laugh broke out over the memory of the “drunk”
that had been thrown out of Cassidy’s.
George laughed at it all; it sounded
very funny to him, coming from this very small person,
with her round, serious eyes, and her mop of gold.
He asked her what she wanted him to bring her next
time he came home, and Julia said black boots with
white tops and tassels, and made him laugh again.
Thus early did Julia act as a mediator
between her parents, but of this particular occasion
she had no recollection, nor of much that followed
it. Had she been a few years older she might really
have affected a lasting reconciliation between them,
for all that was best in George made him love his
daughter, and Emeline was intensely proud of the child.
As it was, Julia was too young. She might unconsciously
be the means of reuniting them now and then, but she
could not at all grasp the situation, and when she
was not quite seven a decree of divorce, on the ground
of desertion, set both Emeline and George free, after
eight years of married life.
Emeline was too frightened at the
enormity of the thing to be either glad or sorry.
She had never meant to go so far. She had threatened
George with divorce just as George had threatened her,
in the heat of anger, practically since her wedding
day. But the emotion that finally drove Emeline
to a lawyer was not anger, it was just dull rebellion
against the gray, monotonous level of her days.
She was alone when George was away on trips; she was
not less alone when he was in town. He had formed
the habit of joining “the boys” in the
evening; he was surly and noncommittal with his wife,
but Julia, hanging about the lower hall door or playing
with children in the street, always heard a burst of
laughter as he joined his friends; everybody in the
world — except Emeline — liked George!
Poor Emeline — she could
easily have held him! A little tenderness toward
him, a little interest in her home and her child, and
George would have been won again. Had he but
once come home to a contented wife and a clean house,
George’s wavering affection would have been regained.
But Emeline was a loud-mouthed, assertive woman now,
noisily set upon her own way, and filled with a sense
of her own wrongs. She had discussed George too
often with her friends to feel any possible interest
in him except as a means of procuring sympathy.
George bored her now; as a matter of fact, Emeline
had almost decided that she would prefer alimony to
George.
Goaded on by Mrs. Povey, and a young
Mrs. Sunius, affectionately known as Maybelle, Emeline
went to see a lawyer. The lawyer surprised her
by his considerate brevity. Getting a divorce
was a very simple affair, much better done than not.
There were ways to make a man pay his alimony regularly,
and the little girl would stay with her mother, of
course; at her age no other solution was possible.
Emeline felt that she must know how much expense she
would be put to, and was gratified to find that it
would cost her not more than fifty dollars. The
lawyer asked her how soon she could get hold of her
husband.
“Why, he’ll let me know
as soon as he’s in town,” Emeline said
vaguely; “he’ll come home.”
“Come home, eh?” said
the lawyer, with a shrewd look. “He knows
your intentions, of course?”
“He ought to!” said Emeline
with spirit, and she began again: “I don’t
think there’s a person in the world could say
that I’m not a good wife, Mr. Knowles!
I never so much as looked at another man — I
swear to God I never did! And there’s no
other man in the case. If I can have my dolling
little girl, and just live quiet, with a few friends
near me, that’s all I ask! If Mr. Page
had his way, I’d never put foot out of doors;
but mind you, he’d be off with the boys
every night. And that means drink, you know — ”
“Well, well,” the young
lawyer said soothingly, “I guess you’ve
been treated pretty mean, all right.”
Emeline went home to find — somewhat
to her embarrassment — that George had come
in, and was in his happiest mood, and playing with
Julia. Julia had somehow lost her babyish beauty
now; she was thin and lanky, four teeth were missing,
and even her glorious mop of hair seemed what her
mother called “slinky.”
“I landed the Fox order right
over Colton’s head!” said George.
Emeline said: “I wish to
the Lord you’d quit opening that window, leaving
the wind blow through here like a cave!”
“Well, the place smelled like
a Jap’s room!” George retorted, instantly
aggressive.
“We’re going to the Park!” Julia
chanted.
“How d’ye mean you’re
going to the Park?” Emeline asked, as she slammed
down the offending window.
“Well, I thought maybe I’d
take her there; kinder fun walking round and seeing
things, what?” George submitted.
Emeline shrugged. “I don’t care what
you do!”
She sat down before a dresser with
a triple mirror, which had lately been added to the
bedroom furniture, and began to ruffle the coarse
puffs of her black hair with slim, ringed fingers.
“You’ve got something
better to do, of course!” George said.
“Don’t go to a matinee,
Mother!” said Julia, coming to lean coaxingly
against her mother’s arm. Emeline looked
down at the pale, intelligent little face, and gave
the child a sudden kiss.
“Mama isn’t going to a
matinee, doll baby. But papa ain’t as crazy
for her to go to the Park as you are!” she said,
with an oblique and challenging glance at George.
“Oh, come on!” George
urged impatiently. “Only don’t wear
that rotten hat,” he added. “It don’t
look like a respectable woman!”
Emeline’s expression did not
change, but fury seethed within her.
“Don’t wait for me,” she said levelly.
“I’m not going.”
“Well, put the kid’s hat
on then,” George suggested, settling his own
with some care at the mantel mirror.
“Get your hand-embroidered dress
out of your drawer, Julia,” said her mother,
“and the hat Aunt Maybelle gave you!”
“I’m going to Cass’s
to telephone, and I need some cigarettes,” George
announced from the door. “I’ll be
back in five minutes for Julie.”
“Don’t forget to get a
drink while you’re in Cass’s,” Emeline
reminded him, as she flung an embroidered dress over
Julia’s limp little draggled petticoats.
George’s answer was a violent slamming of the
hall door.
Julia’s little face was radiant
as her mother tied on a soiled white straw bonnet
covered with roses, and put a cologne-soaked handkerchief
into the pocket of her blue velvet coat. The little
girl did not have many pleasures; there were very
few children in the neighbourhood, and Julia was not
very strong; she easily caught colds in dark O’Farrell
Street, or in the draughty hall. All winter long
she had been hanging over the coal fire in the front
room, or leaning against the window watching the busy
street below — but today was spring!
Sunlight glorified even the dreary aspect from the
windows above “J. Cassidy’s”
saloon, and the glorious singing freshness of the
breeze, the heavenly warmth of the blue air, had reached
Julia’s little heart.
When she was quite dressed, and was
standing at the window patiently watching for her
father, Emeline came and stood beside her.
“I’ll tell you what!”
said Emeline suddenly. “I’ll go, too!
It’s too grand to be indoors today; we’ll
just go out to the Park and take in the whole show!
And then perhaps papa’ll take us somewhere to
dinner!”
She began swiftly to dress, pinning
on a hat that George liked, and working on long gray
kid gloves as a complement to a gray gown. Then
she came to stand behind Julia again, and both watched
the street.
“I guess he’s waiting
for his change?” suggested Julia, and Emeline
laughed.
“We’ll walk over and take
the Geary Street car,” said she. “We’ll
go right to the fountain, and get dummy seats.
And we could have dinner at the Poodle Dog — ”
“Here he comes!” Julia
cried. And indeed George was to be seen for a
moment, between two friends, standing on the corner.
A long wait ensued. Then steps
came up the stairs. Emeline, followed by Julia,
went to the door. It was not George, but a note
from George, delivered by Henny, of Cassidy’s
saloon.
“Dear Em,” Emeline read,
“a couple of the fellows want me to go to Emeryville,
have dinner at Tony’s, and sit in a little game
afterward. Tell Julie I will take her to the
Park to-morrow — and buy her anything she
wants. George.”
“Thanks, Henny,” Emeline
said, without visible emotion. But Julia’s
lip quivered, and she burst into bitter crying.
Six-years-old knows no tomorrows, and Julia tasted
the bitterness of despair. She cried quietly,
her little body screwed into a big armchair, her face
hidden in the crook of a thin little arm. Emeline
stood it as long as she could, then she slapped and
shook Julia to stop her, and Julia strangled and shrieked
hysterically.
Peace was presently restored, and
Julia was asked if she would like to go see her Auntie
Mame, and assented with a hiccough. So her mottled
little face was wiped with a soggy gray towel, and
her bonnet straightened, and they set out.
Mrs. Povey was so sympathetic that
Emeline stayed with her for dinner, a casual meal
which Myrtle Montague and a sister actress came in
to share. Julia sat with them at table, and stuffed
solemnly on fresh bread and cheese, crab salad and
smoked beef, hot tomato sauce and delicious coffee.
The coffee came to table in a battered tin pot, and
the cream was poured into the cups from the little
dairy bottle, with its metal top, but Julia saw these
things as little as any one else — as little
as she saw the disorderly welter of theatrical effects
in the Poveys’ neglected rooms, the paint on
the women’s faces, the ugly violence and coarseness
of their talk.
But she did see that they were an
impulsive, warm-hearted, generous set. Nobody
ever spoke crossly to her, she was given the freedom
of their rooms, she listened to their chatter, she
was often caught up for embraces heavy with cologne;
they loved to dress her up in preposterous costumes,
and shouted with laughter at the sight of her in Dolly
Varden bonnets, Scotch kilts, or spectacles and wigs.
“Baby doll,” “Lovey,” and
“Honey Babe” were Julia’s names here,
and she was a child hungry for love and eager to earn
it. To-night she ate her supper in that silence
so grateful to grown people, and afterward found some
stage jewellery and played with it until her head
was too heavy to hold up any longer. Then she
went to sleep upon an odorous couch piled deep with
all sorts of odd garments, her feet thrust into a
tangle of lifeless satin pillows, her head upon the
fur lining of some old cape, a banjo prodding her
uncomfortably whenever she stirred.
Julia — all pins and needles — was
presently jerked up into a glare of lights, and tied
into the rose-crowned bonnet, and buttoned into the
velvet coat again. She had not been covered as
she slept, and sneezed and shivered in the cold night
air. Emeline walked along briskly, and Julia
stumbled beside her. The child was in such an
agony of fatigue and chill that every separate step
toward bed was dreaded by this time. She fell
against her mother, as Emeline tore off shoes and stockings,
stretched blundering, blind little arms for her nightgown
sleeves, and sank deliciously against her pillows,
already more than half asleep.
But Emeline sat wide eyed, silent, waiting for George.
George did not come home at all that
night. On the next afternoon — Sunday
afternoon — Julia was playing in the street
with two other small girls. Their game was simple.
The three huddled into the deep doorway that led to
Julia’s home, clinging tight to each other,
laughing and shouting. Then at a given signal
they rushed screaming forth, charged across the street
as if pursued by a thousand furies, and took shelter
in a similar doorway, next to the saloon across the
street. This performance had been repeated, back
and forth, perhaps a dozen times, when Julia found
her father waylaying her.
“Where y’ going?”
asked Julia, noticing that he carried a hand bag.
George sat down on the dirty cement
steps that connected his dwelling with the sidewalk,
and drew Julia between his knees.
“I’ve got to go away, baby,” said
he soberly.
“And ain’t choo going
to take me to the Park — never?”
asked Julia, with a trembling lip.
George freed a lock of her hair that
had gotten caught in her collar, with clumsy, gentle
fingers.
“Mama’s mad at me, and
I’m going away for a while, Babe,” said
he, clearing his throat. “But you be a
good girl, and I’ll come take you to the Park
some day.”
Something in the gravity of his tone impressed Julia.
“But I don’t want you
to go away,” she said tearfully. George
got up hastily.
“Come on, walk with Pop to the
car,” he commanded, and Julia trotted contentedly
beside him to Market Street. There she gave him
a child’s soft, impersonal kiss, staring up
at the buildings opposite as she did so. George
jumped on a cable car, wedged his bag under his knees
as he took a seat on the dummy, and looked back at
the little figure that was moving toward the dingy
opening of O’Farrell Street, and at the spring
sunshine, bright on the child’s hair.