In spite of much internal rebellion,
Charlie held fast to his resolution, and Aunt Clara,
finding all persuasions vain, gave in and in a state
of chronic indignation against the world in general
and Rose in particular, prepared to accompany him.
The poor girl had a hard time of it and, but for her
uncle, would have fared still worse. He was a
sort of shield upon which Mrs. Clara’s lamentations,
reproaches, and irate glances fell unavailingly instead
of wounding the heart against which they were aimed.
The days passed very quickly now,
for everyone seemed anxious to have the parting over
and preparations went on rapidly. The big house
was made ready to shut up for a year at least, comforts
for the long voyage laid in, and farewell visits paid.
The general activity and excitement rendered it impossible
for Charlie to lead the life of an artistic hermit
any longer and he fell into a restless condition which
caused Rose to long for the departure of the Rajah
when she felt that he would be safe, for these farewell
festivities were dangerous to one who was just learning
to say “no.”
“Half the month safely gone.
If we can only get well over these last weeks, a great
weight will be off my mind,” thought Rose as
she went down one wild, wet morning toward the end
of February.
Opening the study door to greet her
uncle, she exclaimed, “Why, Archie!” then
paused upon the threshold, transfixed by fear, for
in her cousin’s white face she read the tidings
of some great affliction.
“Hush! Don’t be frightened.
Come in and I’ll tell you,” he whispered,
putting down the bottle he had just taken from the
doctor’s medicine closet.
Rose understood and obeyed, for Aunt
Plenty was poorly with her rheumatism and depended
on her morning doze.
“What is it?” she said,
looking about the room with a shiver, as if expecting
to see again what she saw there New Year’s night.
Archie was alone, however, and, drawing her toward
the closet, answered with an evident effort to be
quite calm and steady “Charlie is hurt!
Uncle wants more ether and the wide bandages in some
drawer or other. He told me, but I forget.
You keep this place in order find them for me.
Quick!”
Before he had done, Rose was at the
drawer, turning over the bandages with hands that
trembled as they searched.
“All narrow! I must make
some. Can you wait?” And, catching up a
piece of old linen, she tore it into wide strips,
adding, in the same quick tone, as she began to roll
them, “Now, tell me.”
“I can wait those are not needed
just yet. I didn’t mean anyone should know,
you least of all,” began Archie, smoothing out
the strips as they lay across the table and evidently
surprised at the girl’s nerve and skill.
“I can bear it make haste! Is he much hurt?”
“I’m afraid he is.
Uncle looks sober, and the poor boy suffers so, I
couldn’t stay,” answered Archie, turning
still whiter about the lips that never had so hard
a tale to tell before.
“You see, he went to town last
evening to meet the man who is going to buy Brutus.”
“And Brutus did it? I knew
he would!” cried Rose, dropping her work to
wring her hands, as if she guessed the ending of the
story now.
“Yes, and if he wasn’t
shot already I’d do it myself with pleasure,
for he’s done his best to kill Charlie,”
muttered Charlie’s mate with a grim look, then
gave a great sigh and added with averted face, “I
shouldn’t blame the brute, it wasn’t his
fault. He needed a firm hand and ”
He stopped there, but Rose said quickly: “Go
on. I must know.”
“Charlie met some of his old
cronies, quite by accident; there was a dinner party,
and they made him go, just for a good-bye, they said.
He couldn’t refuse, and it was too much for
him. He would come home alone in the storm, though
they tried to keep him, as he wasn’t fit.
Down by the new bridge that high embankment, you know
the wind had put the lantern out he forgot or something
scared Brutus, and all went down together.”
Archie had spoken fast and brokenly
but Rose understood and at the last word hid her face
with a little moan, as if she saw it all.
“Drink this and never mind the
rest,” he said, dashing into the next room and
coming back with a glass of water, longing to be done
and away, for this sort of pain seemed almost as bad
as that he had left.
Rose drank, but held his arm tightly,
as he would have turned away, saying in a tone of
command he could not disobey: “Don’t
keep anything back tell me the worst at once.”
“We knew nothing of it,”
he went on obediently. “Aunt Clara thought
he was with me, and no one found him till early this
morning. A workman recognized him and he was
brought home, dead they thought. I came for Uncle
an hour ago. Charlie is conscious now, but awfully
hurt, and I’m afraid from the way Mac and Uncle
looked at one another that Oh! Think of it, Rose!
Crushed and helpless, alone in the rain all night,
and I never knew, I never knew!”
With that, poor Archie broke down
entirely and, flinging himself into a chair, laid
his face on the table, sobbing like a girl. Rose
had never seen a man cry before, and it was so unlike
a woman’s gentler grief that it moved her very
much. Putting by her own anguish, she tried to
comfort his and, going to him, lifted up his head
and made him lean on her, for in such hours as this
women are the stronger. It was a very little to
do, but it did comfort Archie, for the poor fellow
felt as if fate was very hard upon him just then,
and in this faithful bosom he could pour his brief
but pathetic plaint.
“Phebe’s gone, and now
if Charlie’s taken, I don’t see how I can
bear it!”
“Phebe will come back, dear,
and let us hope poor Charlie isn’t going to
be taken yet. Such things always seem worst at
first, I’ve heard people say, so cheer up and
hope for the best,” answered Rose, seeking for
some comfortable words to say and finding very few.
They took effect, however, for Archie
did cheer up like a man. Wiping away the tears
which he so seldom shed that they did not know where
to go, he got up, gave himself a little shake, and
said with a long breath, as if he had been underwater:
“Now I’m all right, thank you. I couldn’t
help it the shock of being waked suddenly to find the
dear old fellow in such a pitiful state upset me.
I ought to go are these ready?”
“In a minute. Tell Uncle
to send for me if I can be of any use. Oh, poor
Aunt Clara! How does she bear it?”
“Almost distracted. I took
Mother to her, and she will do all that anybody can.
Heaven only knows what Aunt will do if ”
“And only heaven can help her,”
added Rose as Archie stopped at the words he could
not utter. “Now take them, and let me know
often.”
“You brave little soul, I will.”
And Archie went away through the rain with his sad
burden, wondering how Rose could be so calm when the
beloved Prince might be dying.
A long dark day followed, with nothing
to break its melancholy monotony except the bulletins
that came from hour to hour reporting little change
either for better or for worse. Rose broke the
news gently to Aunt Plenty and set herself to the
task of keeping up the old lady’s spirits, for,
being helpless, the good soul felt as if everything
would go wrong without her. At dusk she fell
asleep, and Rose went down to order lights and fire
in the parlor, with tea ready to serve at any moment,
for she felt sure some of the men would come and that
a cheerful greeting and creature comforts would suit
them better than tears, darkness, and desolation.
Presently Mac arrived, saying the
instant he entered the room: “More comfortable,
Cousin.”
“Thank heaven!” cried
Rose, unclasping her hands. Then seeing how worn
out, wet, and weary Mac looked as he came into the
light, she added in a tone that was a cordial in itself,
“Poor boy, how tired you are! Come here,
and let me make you comfortable.”
“I was going home to freshen
up a bit, for I must be back in an hour. Mother
took my place, so I could be spared, and came off,
as Uncle refused to stir.”
“Don’t go home, for if
Aunty isn’t there it will be very dismal.
Step into Uncle’s room and refresh, then come
back and I’ll give you your tea. Let me,
let me! I can’t help in any other way, and
I must do something, this waiting is so dreadful.”
Her last words betrayed how much suspense
was trying her, and Mac yielded at once, glad to comfort
and be comforted. When he came back, looking
much revived, a tempting little tea table stood before
the fire and Rose went to meet him, saying with a
faint smile, as she liberally bedewed him with the
contents of a cologne flask: “I can’t
bear the smell of ether it suggests such dreadful
things.”
“What curious creatures women
are! Archie told us you bore the news like a
hero, and now you turn pale at a whiff of bad air.
I can’t explain it,” mused Mac as he meekly
endured the fragrant shower bath.
“Neither can I, but I’ve
been imagining horrors all day and made myself nervous.
Don’t let us talk about it, but come and have
some tea.”
“That’s another queer
thing. Tea is your panacea for all human ills
yet there isn’t any nourishment in it. I’d
rather have a glass of milk, thank you,” said
Mac, taking an easy chair and stretching his feet to
the fire.
She brought it to him and made him
eat something; then, as he shut his eyes wearily,
she went away to the piano and, having no heart to
sing, played softly till he seemed asleep. But
at the stroke of six he was up and ready to be off
again.
“He gave me that. Take
it with you and put some on his hair. He likes
it, and I do so want to help a little,” she said,
slipping the pretty flagon into his pocket with such
a wistful look Mac never thought of smiling at this
very feminine request.
“I’ll tell him. Is
there anything else I can do for you, Cousin?”
he asked, holding the cold hand that had been serving
him so helpfully.
“Only this if there is any sudden
change, promise to send for me, no matter at what
hour it is. I must say ‘good-bye’”.
“I will come for you. But,
Rose, I am sure you may sleep in peace tonight, and
I hope to have good news for you in the morning.”
“Bless you for that! Come
early, and let me see him soon. I will be very
good, and I know it will not do him any harm.”
“No fear of that. The first
thing he said when he could speak was ’Tell
Rose carefully,’ and as I came away he guessed
where I was going and tried to kiss his hand in the
old way, you know.”
Mac thought it would cheer her to
hear that Charlie remembered her, but the sudden thought
that she might never see the familiar little gesture
anymore was the last drop that made her full heart
overflow, and Mac saw the “hero” of the
morning sink down at his feet in a passion of tears
that frightened him. He took her to the sofa and
tried to comfort her, but as soon as the bitter sobbing
quieted she looked up and said quite steadily, great
drops rolling down her cheeks the while: “Let
me cry it is what I need, and I shall be all the better
for it by and by. Go to Charlie now and tell
him I said with all my heart, ‘Good night!’?
“I will!” And Mac trudged
away, marveling in his turn at the curiously blended
strength and weakness of womankind.
That was the longest night Rose ever
spent, but joy came in the morning with the early
message: “He is better. You are to
come by and by.” Then Aunt Plenty forgot
her lumbago and arose; Aunt Myra, who had come to
have a social croak, took off her black bonnet as if
it would not be needed at present, and the girl made
ready to go and say “Welcome back,” not
the hard “Good-bye.”
It seemed very long to wait, for no
summons came till afternoon, then her uncle arrived,
and at the first sight of his face Rose began to tremble.
“I came for my little girl myself,
because we must go back at once,” he said as
she hurried toward him hat in hand.
“I’m ready, sir.”
But her hands shook as she tried to tie the ribbons,
and her eyes never left the face that was full of tender
pity for her.
He took her quickly into the carriage
and, as they rolled away, said with the quiet directness
which soothes such agitation better than any sympathetic
demonstration: “Charlie is worse. I
feared it when the pain went so suddenly this morning,
but the chief injuries are internal and one can never
tell what the chances are. He insists that he
is better, but he will soon begin to fail, I fear,
become unconscious, and slip away without more suffering.
This is the time for you to see him, for he has set
his heart on it, and nothing can hurt him now.
My child, it is very hard, but we must help each other
bear it.”
Rose tried to say, “Yes, Uncle”
bravely, but the words would not come, and she could
only slip her hand into his with a look of mute submission.
He laid her head on his shoulder and went on talking
so quietly that anyone who did not see how worn and
haggard his face had grown with two days and a night
of sharp anxiety might have thought him cold.
“Jessie has gone home to rest,
and Jane is with poor Clara, who has dropped asleep
at last. I’ve sent for Steve and the other
boys. There will be time for them later, but
he so begged to see you now, I thought it best to
come while this temporary strength keeps him up.
I have told him how it is, but he will not believe
me. If he asks you, answer honestly and try to
fit him a little for this sudden ending of so many
hopes.”
“How soon, Uncle?”
“A few hours, probably.
This tranquil moment is yours make the most of it
and, when we can do no more for him, we’ll comfort
one another.”
Mac met them in the hall, but Rose
hardly saw him. She was conscious only of the
task before her and, when her uncle led her to the
door, she said quietly, “Let me go in alone,
please.”
Archie, who had been hanging over
the bed, slipped away into the inner room as she appeared,
and Rose found Charlie waiting for her with such a
happy face, she could not believe what she had heard
and found it easy to say almost cheerfully as she
took his eager hand in both of hers: “Dear
Charlie, I’m so glad you sent for me. I
longed to come, but waited till you were better.
You surely are?” she added, as a second glance
showed to her the indescribable change which had come
upon the face which at first seemed to have both light
and color in it.
“Uncle says not, but I think
he is mistaken, because the agony is all gone, and
except for this odd sinking now and then, I don’t
feel so much amiss,” he answered feebly but
with something of the old lightness in his voice.
“You will hardly be able to
sail in the Rajah, I fear, but you won’t mind
waiting a little while we nurse you,” said poor
Rose, trying to talk on quietly, with her heart growing
heavier every minute.
“I shall go if I’m carried!
I’ll keep that promise, though it costs me my
life. Oh, Rose! You know? They’ve
told you?” And, with a sudden memory of what
brought him there, he hid his face in the pillow.
“You broke no promise, for I
would not let you make one, you remember. Forget
all that, and let us talk about the better time that
may be coming for you.”
“Always so generous, so kind!”
he murmured, with her hand against his feverish cheek;
then, looking up, he went on in a tone so humbly contrite
it made her eyes fill with slow, hot tears.
“I tried to flee temptation
I tried to say ‘no,’ but I am so pitiably
weak, I couldn’t. You must despise me.
But don’t give me up entirely, for if I live,
I’ll do better. I’ll go away to Father
and begin again.”
Rose tried to keep back the bitter
drops, but they would fall, to hear him still speak
hopefully when there was no hope. Something in
the mute anguish of her face seemed to tell him what
she could not speak, and a quick change came over
him as he grasped her hand tighter, saying in a sharp
whisper: “Have I really got to die, Rose?”
Her only answer was to kneel down
and put her arms about him, as if she tried to keep
death away a little longer. He believed it then,
and lay so still, she looked up in a moment, fearing
she knew not what.
But Charlie bore it manfully, for
he had the courage which can face a great danger bravely,
though not the strength to fight a bosom sin and conquer
it. His eyes were fixed, as if trying to look
into the unseen world whither he was going, and his
lips firmly set that no word of complaint should spoil
the proof he meant to give that, though he had not
known how to live, he did know how to die. It
seemed to Rose as if for one brief instant she saw
the man that might have been if early training had
taught him how to rule himself; and the first words
he uttered with a long sigh, as his eye came back
to her, showed that he felt the failure and owned
it with pathetic candor.
“Better so, perhaps; better
go before I bring any more sorrow to you and shame
to myself. I’d like to stay a little longer
and try to redeem the past; it seems so wasted now,
but if I can’t, don’t grieve, Rose.
I’m no loss to anyone, and perhaps it is too
late to mend.”
“Oh, don’t say that!
No one will find your place among us we never can
forget how much we loved you, and you must believe
how freely we forgive as we would be forgiven,”
cried Rose, steadied by the pale despair that had
fallen on Charlie’s face with those bitter words.
“‘Forgive us our trespasses!’
Yes, I should say that. Rose, I’m not ready,
it is so sudden. What can I do?” he whispered,
clinging to her as if he had no anchor except the
creature whom he loved so much.
“Uncle will tell you I am not
good enough I can only pray for you.” And
she moved as if to call in the help so sorely needed.
“No, no, not yet! Stay
by me, darling read something there, in Grandfather’s
old book, some prayer for such as I. It will do me
more good from you than any minister alive.”
She got the venerable book given to
Charlie because he bore the good man’s name
and, turning to the “Prayer for the Dying,”
read it brokenly while the voice beside her echoed
now and then some word that reproved or comforted.
“The testimony of a good conscience.”
“By the sadness of his countenance may his heart
be made better.” “Christian patience
and fortitude.” “Leave the world
in peace.” “Amen.”
There was silence for a little; then
Rose, seeing how wan he looked, said softly, “Shall
I call Uncle now?”
“If you will. But first
don’t smile at my foolishness, dear I want my
little heart. They took it off please give it
back and let me keep it always,” he answered
with the old fondness strong as ever, even when he
could show it only by holding fast the childish trinket
which she found and had given him the old agate heart
with the faded ribbon. “Put it on, and
never let them take it off,” he said, and when
she asked if there was anything else she could do
for him, he tried to stretch out his arms to her with
a look which asked for more.
She kissed him very tenderly on lips
and forehead, tried to say “good-bye,”
but could not speak, and groped her way to the door.
Turning for a last look, Charlie’s hopeful spirit
rose for a moment, as if anxious to send her away
more cheerful, and he said with a shadow of the old
blithe smile, a feeble attempt at the familiar farewell
gesture: “Till tomorrow, Rose.”
Alas for Charlie! His tomorrow
never came, and when she saw him next, he lay there
looking so serene and noble, it seemed as if it must
be well with him, for all the pain was past; temptation
ended; doubt and fear, hope and love, could no more
stir his quiet heart, and in solemn truth he had gone
to meet his Father, and begin again.