He rode gallantly away to Boston that
afternoon, and ten days later came riding slowly home
again, with the precious manuscript still in his saddle-bag.
“What luck, boy?” asked
Uncle Dan, with a keen glance from under his shaggy
brows, as the young man came into the big kitchen,
where they all sat together when the day’s work
was done.
“Pretty much what you foretold,
sir,” answered Nat, trying to smile bravely
as he took his place beside Ruth on the settle, where
she sat making up cherry-colored breast-knots by the
light of one candle.
“Fools go out to shear and come
home shorn,” muttered Aunt Becky from the chimney-corner,
where she sat reeling yarn and brooding over some
delectable mess that simmered on the coals.
Nat did not hear the flattering remark;
for he was fingering a little packet that silently
told the story of failure in its dog-eared leaves,
torn wrappers, and carelessly knotted string.
“Yes,” he said rapidly,
as if anxious to have a hard task over, “I showed
my poems to sundry gentlemen, as I proposed. One
liked them much, and said they showed good promise
of better things; but added that it was no time for
such matters now, and advised me to lay them by till
I was older. A very courteous and friendly man
this was, and I felt much beholden to him for his
gracious speeches. The second criticized my work
sharply, and showed me how I should mend it. But,
when he was done, I found all the poetry had gone
out of my poor lines, and nothing was left but fine
words; so I thanked him and went away, thinking better
of my poems than when I entered. The third wise
man gave me his opinion very briefly, saying, as he
handed back the book, ‘Put it in the fire.’”
“Nay! but that was too harsh.
They are very pretty verses, Nat, though most of them
are far beyond my poor wits,” said Ruth, trying
to lighten the disappointment that she saw weighed
heavily on her lover’s spirit.
“In the good gentleman’s
study, I had a sight of some of the great poets of
the world, and while he read my verses I got a taste
of Milton, Spenser, and my own Shakespeare’s
noble sonnets. I saw what mine lacked; yet some
of them rang true, so I took heart and trimmed them
up in the fashion my masters set me. Let me read
you one or two, Ruth, while you tie your true lover’s
knots.”
And, eagerly opening the beloved book,
Nat began to read by the dim light of the tallow candle,
blind to the resigned expression Ruth’s face
assumed, deaf to Aunt Becky’s muttered opinion
that “an idle brain is the devil’s workshop,”
and quite unconscious that Uncle Dan spread a checked
handkerchief over his bald pate, ready for a nap.
Absorbed in his delightful task, the young poet went
on reading his most perfect lines, with a face that
brightened blissfully, till, just as he was giving
a love-lay in his tenderest tone, a mild snore checked
his heavenward flight, and brought him back to earth
with a rude shock. He started, paused, and looked
about him, like one suddenly wakened from a happy
dream. Uncle Dan was sound asleep, Aunt Becky
busily counting her tidy skeins, and Ruth, making
a mirror of one of the well-scoured pewter platters
on the dresser, was so absorbed in studying the effect
of the gay breast-knots that she innocently betrayed
her inattention by exclaiming, with a pretty air of
regret,
“And that’s the end?”
“That is the end,” he
answered, gently closing the book which no one cared
to hear, and, hiding his reproachful eyes behind his
hand, he sat silent, till Uncle Dan, roused by the
cessation of the melodious murmur that had soothed
his ear, demanded with kindly bluntness,
“Well, boy, which is it to be,
moonshine or money? I want you to be spry about
decidin’, for things is gittin’ behindhand,
and I cattle’ate to hire if you mean to quit
work.”
“Sakes alive! No man in
his senses would set long on the fence when there’s
a good farm and a smart wife a-waitin’ on one
side and nothin’ but poetry and starvation on
the other!” ejaculated Aunt Becky, briskly clattering
the saucepan-lid, as if to add the savory temptations
of the flesh to those of filthy lucre.
Ruth said nothing, but looked up at
Nat with the one poetic sentiment of her nature shining
in her eyes and touching her with its tender magic,
till it seemed an easy thing to give up liberty for
love. The dandelion chain the child wove round
the boy had changed to a flowery garland now, but
the man never saw the thorns among the roses, and let
the woman fetter him again; for, as he looked at her,
Nat flung the cherished book into the fire with one
hand, and with the other took possession of the only
bribe that could win him from that other love.
“I decide as you would have
me, sir. Not for the sake of the farm you promise
me, but for love of her who shall one day be its happy
mistress, please God.”
“Now that’s sensible and
hearty, and I’m waal pleased, my boy. You
jest buckle to for a year stiddy and let your ink-horn
dry, and we’ll have as harnsome a weddin’
as man could wish, always providin’
Ruth don’t change her mind,” said Uncle
Dan, beaming benignantly at the young pair through
a cloud of tobacco smoke; while Aunt Becky poked the
condemned manuscript deeper into the coals, as if
anxious to exorcise its witchcraft by fire, in the
good old fashion.
But even in Ruth’s arms Nat
cast one longing, loving glance at his first-born
darling on its funeral-pyre; then turned his head resolutely
away, and whispered to the girl,
“Never doubt that I love you,
sweetheart, since for your sake I have given up the
ambition of my life. I don’t regret it,
but be patient with me till I learn to live without
my ‘moonshine,’ as you call it.”
“Sunshine is better, and I’ll
make it for you, if I can. So cheer up, dear
lad, fall to work like a man, and you’ll soon
forget your pretty nonsense,” answered Ruth,
with firm faith in the cure she proposed.
“I’ll try.”
And, folding his wings, Pegasus bent
his neck to the yoke and fell to ploughing.
Nat kept his word and did try manfully,
working early and late, with an energy that delighted
Uncle Dan, made Aunt Becky bestir herself to bleach
her finest webs for the wedding outfit, and caused
Ruth to believe that he had forgotten the “pretty
nonsense;” for the pen lay idle and he gave
all his leisure to her, discussing house-gear and stock
with as deep an interest as herself apparently.
All summer long he toiled like one intent only on
his crops; all winter he cut wood and tended cattle,
as if he had no higher hope than to sell so many cords
and raise likely calves for market.
Outwardly he was a promising young
farmer, with a prosperous future and a notable wife
awaiting him. But deep in the man’s heart
a spark of the divine fire still burned, unquenched
by duty, love, or time. The spirit that made
light in Milton’s darkness, walked with Burns
beside the plough, and lifted Shakespeare higher than
the royal virgin’s hand, sang to Nat in the
airy whisper of the pines, as he labored in the wintry
wood, smiled back at him in every ox-eyed daisy his
scythe laid low along the summer fields, and solaced
him with visions of a fairer future than any buxom
Ruth could paint. It would not leave him, and
he learned too late that it was the life of his life,
a gift that could not be returned, a blessing turned
into a curse; for, though he had burned the little
book, from its ashes rose a flame that consumed him,
since it could find no vent. Even the affection,
for which he had made a costlier sacrifice than he
knew, looked pale and poor beside the loftier loveliness
that dawned upon him in the passionate struggle, ripening
heart and soul to sudden manhood; and the life that
lay before him seemed very bleak and barren when he
returned from playing truant in the enchanted world
Imagination opens to her gifted children.
Ruth vaguely felt the presence of
this dumb despair, dimly saw its shadow in the eyes
that sometimes wore a tragic look, and fancied that
the hand working so faithfully for her was slipping
from her hold, it grew so thin and hot with the inward
fever, which no herb in all her garden could allay.
She vainly tried to rise to his level; but the busy
sparrow could not follow the aspiring lark, singing
at heaven’s gate. It could only chirp its
little lay and build its nest, with no thought beyond
a straw, a worm, and the mate that was to come.
Nat never spoke of the past, and Ruth
dared not, for she grew to feel that he did “regret
it” bitterly, though too generous for a word
of reproach or complaint.
“I’ll make it up to him
when we are married; and he will learn to love the
farm when he has little lads and lasses of his own
to work for,” she often said to herself, as
she watched her lover sit among them, after his day’s
work, listening to their gossip with a pathetic sort
of patience, or, pleading a weariness there was no
need to feign, lie on the old settle, lost in thoughts
that made his face shine like one who talked with
angels.
So the year rolled round, and May
came again. Uncle Dan was well satisfied, Aunt
Becky’s preparations were completed, and Ruth
had not “changed her mind.”
“Settle about the weddin’
as soon as you like, my girl, and I’ll see that
it is a merry one,” said the old man, coming
in from work, as Ruth blew the horn from the back
porch one night at sunset.
“Nat must decide that.
Where is he, Uncle?” asked the girl, looking
out upon the quiet landscape, touched with spring’s
tenderest green.
“Down in the medder, ploughin’.
It’s a toughish bit, and he’ll be late,
I reckon; for he took a long noon-spell, and I give
him a piece of my mind about it, so I’ll venter
to say he won’t touch a bit of victuals till
the last furrow is laid,” answered Uncle Dan,
plodding away to wash his hands at the horse-trough.
“Nay, Uncle, it is his birthday,
and surely he had a right to a little rest, for he
works like a slave, to please us, though far from well,
I’m thinking.” And, waiting for no
reply, Ruth hurried in, filled a tankard with cider,
and tripped away to bring her lover home, singing as
she went, for Nat loved to hear her voice.
Down the green lane toward the river
the happy singer stepped, thinking in what sweet words
she could give the old man’s message. But
the song died on her lips and the smiling eyes grew
wistful suddenly; for, passing by the willow-trees,
she saw the patient oxen standing in the field alone.
“Nat is hunting violets for
me,” she thought, with a throb of pleasure;
for she was jealous of a viewless rival, and valued
every token of fidelity her lover gave her.
But as she drew nearer Ruth frowned;
for Nat lay beside the river, evidently quite forgetful
of scolding, supper, and sweetheart. No, not
of the latter; for a little nosegay of violets lay
ready near the paper on which he seemed to be writing
a song or sonnet to accompany the gift.
Seeing this, the frown faded, as the
girl stole noiselessly across the grass, to peep over
his shoulder, with a soft rebuke for his imprudence
and delay.
Alas for Ruth! One glance at
the placid face, pillowed on his arm, told her that
this birthday was Nat’s last; for the violets
were less white than the cheek they touched, the pencil
had fallen from nerveless fingers, and Death’s
hand had written “Finis” to both life and
lay. With a bitter cry, she gathered the weary
head into her arms, fearing she had come too late
to say good-by. But the eyes that opened were
so tranquil, and the pale lips that answered wore
such a happy smile, she felt that tears would mar
his peace, and hushed her sobs, to listen as he whispered
brokenly, with a glance that brightened as it turned
from the wide field where his last hard day’s
work lay finished, to the quiet river, whose lullaby
was soothing him to sleep.
“Tell Uncle I did not stop till
the job was done, nor break my promise; for the year
is over now, and it was so sweet to write again that
I forgot to go home till it was too late.”
“O Nat, not too late. You
shall work no more, but write all day, without a care.
We have been too hard upon you, and you too patient
with our blindness. Dear lad, forgive us, and
come home to live a happier year than this has been,”
cried Ruth, trying with remorseful tenderness to keep
the delicate spirit that was escaping from her hold,
like the butterfly that died among her roses with
broken wings.
But Nat had no desire to stay; for
he was going home, to feel hunger, thirst,
and weariness no more, to find a love Ruth could not
give, and to change earth’s prose to heaven’s
immortal poetry. Yet he lingered on the threshold
to look back and whisper gently: “It is
better so, sweetheart. There was no place for
me here, and I was homesick for my own friends and
country. I’m going to find them, and I’m
quite content. Forget me and be happy; or remember
me only in the springtime, when the world is loveliest
and my birthday comes. See, this is all I had
to give you; but my heart was in it.”
He tried to lift the unfinished song
and give it to her; but it fluttered down upon his
breast, and the violets dropped after, lying there
unstirred by any breath, for with the words a shadow
deeper than that twilight laid upon the fields stole
over the face on Ruth’s bosom, and all the glory
of the sunset sky could only touch it with a pathetic
peace, as the poet lay asleep beside the river.
He lies there still, the legend says,
under the low green mound, where violets bloom earliest,
where the old willows drop their golden tassels in
the spring, and blackbirds fill the air with their
melodious ecstasy. No song of his lived after
him; no trace of him remains, except that nameless
grave; and few ever heard of one who came and went
like the snow for which they christened him.
Yet it seems as if his gentle ghost still haunted
those sunny meadows, still listened to the enchanted
river, and touched with some mysterious charm the places
that knew him once. For strangers find a soft
attraction in the quiet landscape; lovers seek those
green solitudes to tell the story that is always new;
and poets muse beside the shadowy stream, hearing,
as he heard, a call to live the life that lifts them
highest by unwavering fidelity to the gift Heaven
sends.