Lucy Crosby was dead. One moment
she was of the quick, moving about the house, glancing
in at David, having Minnie in the kitchen pin and unpin
her veil; and the next she was still and infinitely
mysterious, on her white bed. She had fallen
outside the door of David’s room, and lay there,
her arms still full of fresh bath towels, and a fixed
and intense look in her eyes, as though, outside the
door, she had come face to face with a messenger who
bore surprising news. Doctor Reynolds, running
up the stairs, found her there dead, and closed the
door into David’s room.
But David knew before they told him.
He waited until they had placed her on her bed, had
closed her eyes and drawn a white coverlet over her,
and then he went in alone, and sat down beside her,
and put a hand over her chilling one.
“If you are still here, Lucy,”
he said, “and have not yet gone on, I want you
to carry this with you. We are all right, here.
Everybody is all right. You are not to worry.”
After a time he went back to his room
and got his prayer-book. He could hear Harrison
Miller’s voice soothing Minnie in the lower hall,
and Reynolds at the telephone. He went back into
the quiet chamber, and opening the prayer-book, began
to read aloud.
“Now is Christ risen from the
dead, and become the first fruits of them that slept ”
His voice tightened. He put his
head down on the side of the bed.
He was very docile that day.
He moved obediently from his room for the awful aftermath
of a death, for the sweeping and dusting and clean
curtains, and sat in Dick’s room, not reading,
not even praying, a lonely yet indomitable old figure.
When his friends came, elderly men who creaked in
and tried to reduce their robust voices to a decorous
whisper, he shook hands with them and made brief, courteous
replies. Then he lapsed into silence. They
felt shut off and uncomfortable, and creaked out again.
Only once did he seem shaken.
That was when Elizabeth came swiftly in and put her
arms around him as he sat. He held her close to
him, saying nothing for a long time. Then he
drew a deep breath.
“I was feeling mighty lonely, my dear,”
he said.
He was the better for her visit.
He insisted on dressing that evening, and on being
helped down the stairs. The town, which had seemed
inimical for so long, appeared to him suddenly to
be holding out friendly hands. More than friendly
hands. Loving, tender hands, offering service
and affection and old-time friendship. It moved
about sedately, in dark clothes, and came down the
stairs red-eyed and using pocket-hand-kerchiefs, and
it surrounded him with love and loving kindness.
When they had all gone Harrison Miller
helped him up the stairs to where his tidy bed stood
ready, and the nurse had placed his hot milk on a
stand. But Harrison did not go at once.
“What about word to Dick, David?”
he inquired awkwardly, “I’ve called up
Bassett, but he’s away. And I don’t
know that Dick ought to come back anyhow. If
the police are on the job at all they’ll be on
the lookout now. They’ll know he may try
to come.”
David looked away. Just how much
he wanted Dick, to tide him over these bad hours,
only David knew. But he could not have him.
He stared at the glass of hot milk.
“I guess I can fight this out
alone, Harrison,” he said. “And Lucy
will understand.”
He did not sleep much that night.
Once or twice he got up and tip-toed across the hall
into Lucy’s room and looked at her. She
was as white as her pillow, and quite serene.
Her hands, always a little rough and twisted with
service, were smooth and rested.
“You know why he can’t
come, Lucy,” he said once. “It doesn’t
mean that he doesn’t care. You have to
remember that.” His sublime faith that she
heard and understood, not the Lucy on the bed but the
Lucy who had not yet gone on to the blessed company
of heaven, carried him back to his bed, comforted
and reassured.
He was up and about his room early.
The odor of baking muffins and frying ham came up
the stair-well, and the sound of Mike vigorously polishing
the floor in the hall. Mixed with the odor of
cooking and of floor wax was the scent of flowers
from Lucy’s room, and Mrs. Sayre’s machine
stopped at the door while the chauffeur delivered a
great mass of roses.
David went carefully down the stairs
and into his office, and there, at his long deserted
desk, commenced a letter to Dick.
He was sitting there when Dick came up the street...
The thought that he was going home
had upheld Dick through the days that followed Bassett’s
departure for the West. He knew that it would
be a fight, that not easily does a man step out of
life and into it again, but after his days of inaction
he stood ready to fight. For David, for Lucy,
and, if it was not too late, for Elizabeth. When
Bassett’s wire came from Norada, “All
clear,” he set out for Haverly, more nearly happy
than for months. The very rhythm of the train
sang: “Going home; going home.”
At the Haverly station the agent stopped,
stared at him and then nodded gravely. There
was something restrained in his greeting, like the
voices in the old house the night before, and Dick
felt a chill of apprehension. He never thought
of Lucy, but David... The flowers and ribbon
at the door were his first intimation, and still it
was David he thought of. He went cold and bitter,
standing on the freshly washed pavement, staring at
them. It was all too late. David! David!
He went into the house slowly, and
the heavy scent of flowers greeted him. The hall
was empty, and automatically he pushed open the door
to David’s office and went in. David was
at the desk writing. David was alive. Thank
God and thank God, David was alive.
“David!” he said brokenly.
“Dear old David!” And was suddenly shaken
with dry, terrible sobbing.
There was a great deal to do, and
Dick was grateful for it. But first, like David,
he went in and sat by Lucy’s bed alone and talked
to her. Not aloud, as David did, but still with
that same queer conviction that she heard. He
told her he was free, and that she need not worry about
David, that he was there now to look after him; and
he asked her, if she could, to help him with Elizabeth.
Then he kissed her and went out.
He met Elizabeth that day. She
had come to the house, and after her custom now went
up, unwarned, to David’s room. She found
David there and Harrison Miller, and it
was a moment before she realized it Dick
by the mantel. He was greatly changed. She
saw that. But she had no feeling of pity, nor
even of undue surprise. She felt nothing at all.
It gave her a curious, almost hard little sense of
triumph to see that he had gone pale. She marched
up to him and held out her hand, mindful of the eyes
on her.
“I’m so very sorry, Dick,”
she said. “You have a sad home-coming.”
Then she withdrew her hand, still
calm, and turned to David.
“Mother sent over some things.
I’ll give them to Minnie,” she said, her
voice clear and steady. She went out, and they
heard her descending the stairs.
She was puzzled to find out that her
knees almost gave way on the staircase, for she felt
calm and without any emotion whatever. And she
finished her errand, so collected and poised that the
two or three women who had come in to help stared
after her as she departed.
“Do you suppose she’s seen him?”
“She was in David’s room. She must
have.”
Mindful of Mike, they withdrew into
Lucy’s sitting-room and closed the door, there
to surmise and to wonder. Did he know she was
engaged to Wallie Sayre? Would she break her
engagement now or not? Did Dick for a moment
think that he could do as he had done, go away and
jilt a girl, and come back to be received as though
nothing had happened? Because, if he did...
To Dick Elizabeth’s greeting
had been a distinct shock. He had not known just
what he had expected; certainly he had not hoped to
pick things up where he had dropped them. But
there was a hard friendliness in it that was like
a slap in the face. He had meant at least to fight
to win back with her, but he saw now that there would
not even be a fight. She was not angry or hurt.
The barrier was more hopeless than that.
David, watching him, waited until
Harrison had gone, and went directly to the subject.
“Have you ever stopped to think
what these last months have meant to Elizabeth?
Her own worries, and always this infernal town, talking,
talking. The child’s pride’s been
hurt, as well as her heart.”
“I thought I’d better
not go into that until after until later,”
he explained. “The other thing was wrong.
I knew it the moment I saw Beverly and I didn’t
go back again. What was the use? But you
saw her face, David. I think she doesn’t
even care enough to hate me.”
“She’s cared enough to engage herself
to Wallace Sayre!”
After one astounded glance Dick laughed bitterly.
“That looks as though she cared!”
he said. He had gone very white. After a
time, as David sat silent and thoughtful, he said:
“After all, what right had I to expect anything
else? When you think that, a few days ago, I
was actually shaken at the thought of seeing another
woman, you can hardly blame her.”
“She waited a long time.”
Later Dick made what was a difficult confession under
the circumstances.
“I know now I think
I knew all along, but the other thing was like that
craving for liquor I told you about I know
now that she has always been the one woman. You’ll
understand that, perhaps, but she wouldn’t.
I would crawl on my knees to make her believe it, but
it’s too late. Everything’s too late,”
he added.
Before the hour for the services he
went in again and sat by Lucy’s bed, but she
who had given him wise counsel so many times before
lay in her majestic peace, surrounded by flowers and
infinitely removed. Yet she gave him something.
Something of her own peace. Once more, as on the
night she had stood at the kitchen door and watched
him disappear in the darkness, there came the tug
of the old familiar things, the home sense. Not
only David now, but the house. The faded carpet
on the stairs, the old self-rocker Lucy had loved,
the creaking faucets in the bathroom, Mike and Minnie,
the laboratory, united in their shabby strength,
they were home to him. They had come back, never
to be lost again. Home.
Then, little by little, they carried
their claim further. They were not only home.
They were the setting of a dream, long forgotten but
now vivid in his mind, and a refuge from the dreary
present. That dream had seen Elizabeth enshrined
among the old familiar things; the old house was to
be a sanctuary for her and for him. From it and
from her in the dream he was to go out in the morning;
to it and to her he was to come home at night, after
he had done a man’s work.
The dream faded. Before him rose
her face of the morning, impassive and cool; her eyes,
not hostile but indifferent. She had taken herself
out of his life, had turned her youth to youth, and
forgotten him. He understood and accepted it.
He saw himself as he must have looked to her, old
and worn, scarred from the last months, infinitely
changed. And she was young. Heavens, how
young she was!...
Lucy was buried the next afternoon.
It was raining, and the quiet procession followed
Dick and the others who carried her light body under
grotesquely bobbing umbrellas. Then he and David,
and Minnie and Mike, went back to the house, quiet
with that strange emptiness that follows a death,
the unconscious listening for a voice that will not
speak again, for a familiar footfall. David had
not gone upstairs. He sat in Lucy’s sitting-room,
in his old frock coat and black tie, with a knitted
afghan across his knees. His throat looked withered
in his loose collar. And there for the first
time they discussed the future.
“You’re giving up a great
deal, Dick,” David said. “I’m
proud of you, and like you I think the money’s
best where it is. But this is a prejudiced town,
and they think you’ve treated Elizabeth badly.
If you don’t intend to tell the story ”
“Never,” Dick announced,
firmly. “Judson Clark is dead.”
He smiled at David with something of his old humor.
“I told Bassett to put up a monument if he wanted
to. But you’re right about one thing.
They’re not ready to take me back. I’ve
seen it a dozen times in the last two days.”
“I never gave up a fight yet.” David’s
voice was grim.
“On the other hand, I don’t
want to make it uncomfortable for her. We are
bound to meet. I’m putting my own feeling
aside. It doesn’t matter except
of course to me. What I thought was We
might go into the city. Reynolds would buy the
house. He’s going to be married.”
But he found himself up against the
stone wall of David’s opposition. He was
too old to be uprooted. He liked to be able to
find his way around in the dark. He was almost
childish about it, and perhaps a trifle terrified.
But it was his final argument that won Dick over.
“I thought you’d found
out there’s nothing in running away from trouble.”
Dick straightened.
“You’re right,” he said. “We’ll
stay here and fight it out together.”
He helped David up the stairs to where
the nurse stood waiting, and then went on into his
own bedroom. He surveyed it for the first time
since his return with a sense of permanency and intimacy.
Here, from now on, was to center his life. From
this bed he would rise in the morning, to go back
to it at night. From this room he would go out
to fight for place again, and for the old faith in
him, for confiding eyes and the clasp of friendly
hands.
He sat down by the window and with
the feeling of dismissing them forever retraced slowly
and painfully the last few months; the night on the
mountains, and Bassett asleep by the fire; the man
from the cabin caught under the tree, with his face
looking up, strangely twisted, from among the branches;
dawn in the alfalfa field, and the long night tramp;
the boy who had recognized him in Chicago; David in
his old walnut bed, shrivelled and dauntless; and
his own going out into the night, with Lucy in the
kitchen doorway, Elizabeth and Wallace Sayre on the
verandah, and himself across the street under the trees;
Beverly, and the illumination of his freedom from
the old bonds; Gregory, glib and debonair, telling
his lying story, and later on, flying to safety.
His half-brother!
All that, and now this quiet room,
with David asleep beyond the wall and Minnie moving
heavily in the kitchen below, setting her bread to
rise. It was anti-climacteric, ridiculous, wonderful.
Then he thought of Elizabeth, and it became terrible.
After Reynolds came up he put on a
dressing-gown and went down the stairs. The office
was changed and looked strange and unfamiliar.
But when he opened the door and went into the laboratory
nothing had been altered there. It was as though
he had left it yesterday; the microscope screwed to
its stand, the sterilizer gleaming and ready.
It was as though it had waited for him.
He was content. He would fight
and he would work. That was all a man needed,
a good fight, and work for his hands and brain.
A man could live without love if he had work.
He sat down on the stool and groaned.