ONE morning confusion seemed to reign
in the house, and Jemima came in terror, to inform
Maria, “that her master had left it, with a
determination, she was assured (and too many circumstances
corroborated the opinion, to leave a doubt of its
truth) of never returning. I am prepared then,”
said Jemima, “to accompany you in your flight.”
Maria started up, her eyes darting
towards the door, as if afraid that some one should
fasten it on her for ever.
Jemima continued, “I have perhaps
no right now to expect the performance of your promise;
but on you it depends to reconcile me with the human
race.”
“But Darnford!” exclaimed
Maria, mournfully sitting down again, and
crossing her arms “I have no child
to go to, and liberty has lost its sweets.”
“I am much mistaken, if Darnford
is not the cause of my master’s flight his
keepers assure me, that they have promised to confine
him two days longer, and then he will be free you
cannot see him; but they will give a letter to him
the moment he is free. In that inform him
where he may find you in London; fix on some hotel.
Give me your clothes; I will send them out of the
house with mine, and we will slip out at the garden-gate.
Write your letter while I make these arrangements,
but lose no time!”
In an agitation of spirit, not to
be calmed, Maria began to write to Darnford.
She called him by the sacred name of “husband,”
and bade him “hasten to her, to share her fortune,
or she would return to him.” An hotel
in the Adelphi was the place of rendezvous.
The letter was sealed and given in
charge; and with light footsteps, yet terrified at
the sound of them, she descended, scarcely breathing,
and with an indistinct fear that she should never
get out at the garden gate. Jemima went first.
A being, with a visage that would
have suited one possessed by a devil, crossed the
path, and seized Maria by the arm. Maria had no
fear but of being detained “Who are
you? what are you?” for the form was scarcely
human. “If you are made of flesh and blood,”
his ghastly eyes glared on her, “do not stop
me!”
“Woman,” interrupted a
sepulchral voice, “what have I to do with thee?” Still
he grasped her hand, muttering a curse.
“No, no; you have nothing to
do with me,” she exclaimed, “this is a
moment of life and death!”
With supernatural force she broke
from him, and, throwing her arms round Jemima, cried,
“Save me!” The being, from whose grasp
she had loosed herself, took up a stone as they opened
the door, and with a kind of hellish sport threw it
after them. They were out of his reach.
When Maria arrived in town, she drove
to the hotel already fixed on. But she could
not sit still her child was ever before
her; and all that had passed during her confinement,
appeared to be a dream. She went to the house
in the suburbs, where, as she now discovered, her babe
had been sent. The moment she entered, her heart
grew sick; but she wondered not that it had proved
its grave. She made the necessary enquiries, and
the church-yard was pointed out, in which it rested
under a turf. A little frock which the nurse’s
child wore (Maria had made it herself) caught her
eye. The nurse was glad to sell it for half-a-guinea,
and Maria hastened away with the relic, and, reentering
the hackney-coach which waited for her, gazed on it,
till she reached her hotel.
She then waited on the attorney who
had made her uncle’s will, and explained to
him her situation. He readily advanced her some
of the money which still remained in his hands, and
promised to take the whole of the case into consideration.
Maria only wished to be permitted to remain in quiet She
found that several bills, apparently with her signature,
had been presented to her agent, nor was she for a
moment at a loss to guess by whom they had been forged;
yet, equally averse to threaten or intreat, she requested
her friend [the solicitor] to call on Mr. Venables.
He was not to be found at home; but at length his agent,
the attorney, offered a conditional promise to Maria,
to leave her in peace, as long as she behaved with
propriety, if she would give up the notes. Maria
inconsiderately consented Darnford was arrived,
and she wished to be only alive to love; she wished
to forget the anguish she felt whenever she thought
of her child.
They took a ready furnished lodging
together, for she was above disguise; Jemima insisting
on being considered as her house-keeper, and to receive
the customary stipend. On no other terms would
she remain with her friend.
Darnford was indefatigable in tracing
the mysterious circumstances of his confinement.
The cause was simply, that a relation, a very distant
one, to whom he was heir, had died intestate, leaving
a considerable fortune. On the news of Darnford’s
arrival [in England, a person, intrusted with the
management of the property, and who had the writings
in his possession, determining, by one bold stroke,
to strip Darnford of the succession,] had planned
his confinement; and [as soon as he had taken the
measures he judged most conducive to his object, this
ruffian, together with his instrument,] the keeper
of the private mad-house, left the kingdom. Darnford,
who still pursued his enquiries, at last discovered
that they had fixed their place of refuge at Paris.
Maria and he determined therefore,
with the faithful Jemima, to visit that metropolis,
and accordingly were preparing for the journey, when
they were informed that Mr. Venables had commenced
an action against Darnford for seduction and adultery.
The indignation Maria felt cannot be explained; she
repented of the forbearance she had exercised in giving
up the notes. Darnford could not put off his journey,
without risking the loss of his property: Maria
therefore furnished him with money for his expedition;
and determined to remain in London till the termination
of this affair.
She visited some ladies with whom
she had formerly been intimate, but was refused admittance;
and at the opera, or Ranelagh, they could not recollect
her. Among these ladies there were some, not her
most intimate acquaintance, who were generally supposed
to avail themselves of the cloke of marriage, to conceal
a mode of conduct, that would for ever have damned
their fame, had they been innocent, seduced girls.
These particularly stood aloof. Had she
remained with her husband, practicing insincerity,
and neglecting her child to manage an intrigue, she
would still have been visited and respected.
If, instead of openly living with her lover, she could
have condescended to call into play a thousand arts,
which, degrading her own mind, might have allowed the
people who were not deceived, to pretend to be so,
she would have been caressed and treated like an honourable
woman. “And Brutus is an honourable man!”
said Mark-Antony with equal sincerity.
With Darnford she did not taste uninterrupted
felicity; there was a volatility in his manner which
often distressed her; but love gladdened the scene;
besides, he was the most tender, sympathizing creature
in the world. A fondness for the sex often gives
an appearance of humanity to the behaviour of men,
who have small pretensions to the reality; and they
seem to love others, when they are only pursuing their
own gratification. Darnford appeared ever willing
to avail himself of her taste and acquirements, while
she endeavoured to profit by his decision of character,
and to eradicate some of the romantic notions, which
had taken root in her mind, while in adversity she
had brooded over visions of unattainable bliss.
The real affections of life, when
they are allowed to burst forth, are buds pregnant
with joy and all the sweet emotions of the soul; yet
they branch out with wild ease, unlike the artificial
forms of felicity, sketched by an imagination painful
alive. The substantial happiness, which enlarges
and civilizes the mind, may be compared to the pleasure
experienced in roving through nature at large, inhaling
the sweet gale natural to the clime; while the reveries
of a feverish imagination continually sport themselves
in gardens full of aromatic shrubs, which cloy while
they delight, and weaken the sense of pleasure they
gratify. The heaven of fancy, below or beyond
the stars, in this life, or in those ever-smiling
regions surrounded by the unmarked ocean of futurity,
have an insipid uniformity which palls. Poets
have imagined scenes of bliss; but, sencing out sorrow,
all the extatic emotions of the Soul, and even its
grandeur, seem to be equally excluded. We dose
over the unruffled lake, and long to scale the rocks
which fence the happy valley of contentment, though
serpents hiss in the pathless desert, and danger lurks
in the unexplored wiles. Maria found herself more
indulgent as she was happier, and discovered virtues,
in characters she had before disregarded, while chasing
the phantoms of elegance and excellence, which sported
in the meteors that exhale in the marshes of misfortune.
The heart is often shut by romance against social pleasure;
and, fostering a sickly sensibility, grows callous
to the soft touches of humanity.
To part with Darnford was indeed cruel. It
was to feel most painfully alone; but she rejoiced
to think, that she should spare him the care and perplexity
of the suit, and meet him again, all his own.
Marriage, as at present constituted, she considered
as leading to immorality yet, as the odium
of society impedes usefulness, she wished to avow her
affection to Darnford, by becoming his wife according
to established rules; not to be confounded with women
who act from very different motives, though her conduct
would be just the same without the ceremony as with
it, and her expectations from him not less firm.
The being summoned to defend herself from a charge
which she was determined to plead guilty to, was still
galling, as it roused bitter reflections on the situation
of women in society.