It was a week after the garden party.
A persistent rain was drenching the trees in the
garden, and turning the gravel path into miniature
torrents. The atmosphere in the low, panelled
rooms was damp and chilly. Katrine, in a flannel
shirt of her favourite rich blue, was busy with account
books at the centre table. Grizel, in a white
gown, and a red nose, was miserably rubbing her hands
together, and drumming her small feet on the floor.
“Katrine!”
“Yes.”
“I’m cold.”
Katrine glanced over the rim of the grocer’s
book.
“Naturally! Who wouldn’t
be? A muslin gown, this morning! If you’d
an ounce of sense, you’d go upstairs and change
it at once.”
Grizel’s face fell, like that
of a small disappointed child. She shivered,
and her nose looked redder than ever.
“I was hinting,” she sighed softly, “for
a fire.”
“I know that, my dear,
perfectly well, but you are not going to get it.”
“If you were a kind, polite hostess-”
“No, I shouldn’t, because
in an hour’s time the rain will stop, and the
room would be close and stuffy all day. Besides,
we are going out. If you will be quiet for ten
minutes, I shall have finished these books, and we’ll
go out shopping. So you’ll have
to change.”
Grizel stared, a glimmer of interest struggling with
dismay.
“What are you going to buy?”
“Vegetables for dinner, and bacon, and pay the
books.”
“You expect me to walk out in
a torrent for that! I won’t go.
I won’t change my frock either. I’ll
go to bed.”
There was not the least note of offence
in Grizel’s voice. It preserved its deep
note of good-nature, but it sounded obstinate, and
her little face was fierce in its militance.
Katrine, unabashed, went on checking off figures.
“Nonsense. It will do
you good. Rain is good for the complexion.
Your face looks tartan, and your nose is red.”
“I like it red,” said
Grizel serenely. She sat another moment nursing
her cold hands. “And I won’t buy
cabbages either,” she added defiantly.
“It’s no use trying to brace me, for I
won’t be braced. I’ll go
upstairs, and complain to Martin.”
That threat roused Katrine to whole-hearted
attention. She shut the little red book-the
butcher’s book, this time, swept it and its
companions into a neat pile, and sprang to her feet.
“You’ll do nothing of
the sort. Nobody interrupts Martin when he
is at work. We are forbidden even to knock at
the door for anything short of a fire or an earthquake.
It might spoil his work for the whole morning.”
Grizel stared at her thoughtfully.
“That reminds me,” she
soliloquised slowly. “I promised
to help him, and it’s four whole days, and I’ve
never been near! It’s my duty to go at
once, and I’ll tell him my brain can’t
work unless I’m warm. We’ll light
a fire and roast, while you swim home with the cabbage.
Why on earth didn’t I think of that before?”
She smiled into her hostess’s
face with an easy assurance which brought a spark
into the dark blue eyes. Katrine was honestly
trying not to be angry. Before now she had had
experience of Grizel in a perverse mood, and knew
that it was not by force that one could move her from
her purpose. She adopted an air of resignation,
and approached the bell.
“Very well, then, you shall
have your fire, and you can read comfortably beside
it, or write letters, while I’m away. And
I’ll tell Mary to bring you a cup of chocolate.
You are a spoiled baby, Grizel; when you’ve
taken it into your head to do a thing, one might as
well give in first as last.”
“Yes,” agreed Grizel calmly. “I’m
going to Martin.”
She rose in her turn and strolled
towards the door, while Katrine stood helpless, her
hand on the bell.
“Grizel!”
“Yes.”
“Don’t go!”
There was a look on her face, a tone
in her voice, which arrested Grizel’s attention.
Half-way across the room she paused, and studied
her hostess with those eyes which looked so lazy, but
which saw so uncommonly well. There was dread
as well as annoyance on Katrine’s face.
“What will happen if I do? What is it
you are afraid of?”
“He’ll be furious.
Terribly angry.” But in her heart Katrine
knew that this was not her fear. Her fear was
lest Martin should not be angry.
Grizel considered, a slow smile curving her lips.
“But that,” she said,
“would be amusing. Much more amusing than
buying cabbages. I’d like to see Martin
angry!”
She turned and continued her way.
From her position by the bell Katrine could watch
her progress up the staircase, could note the grace
of the slim white form. “Her nose is red!”
chanted the inner voice. “Her nose is
red!” Amongst a medley of disagreeable reflections
the thought appeared to stand out in solitary comfort.
It was hardly more than a week since Grizel had arrived,
eight days to be exact, yet to Katrine standing alone
in the dark old room, it appeared that the whole structure
of life had in that time undergone a radical change.
It was not a change which could be registered in
facts; the days had been spent in ordinary
happenings, tea parties in neighbouring gardens, drives
through the country lanes, small dinner parties, a
day on the river. There was no single incident
on which she could lay a finger and declare that here
or there stood the dividing mark between past and
present. The change was in the air; impalpable
yet real; Katrine’s sensitive nature felt it
in every fibre, inhaled it with every breath.
Behind the peaceful, smiling exterior she divined a
smouldering passion. The atmosphere was flecked
with fire; it flamed beneath the most trivial words,
the most trivial deeds. From an ice-bound solitude
she looked on, understanding with a keenness of vision,
as new as it was bitter. During the last days
her mind had been incessantly occupied reviewing the
past, searching it in the light of the present.
Juliet, Grizel, and herself had been schoolmates
at a French boarding-school. Grizel had accompanied
her on a short visit to the married couple in the
autumn after their marriage. That was the first
time that Martin had seen her, and even in the midst
of his bridegroom’s joy, he had been attracted,
impressed. Then came two long, black years, at
the end of which, taking her courage in both hands,
she had enquired if Martin would object if Grizel
came down for a few days. The mysterious storehouse
of the brain had registered the moment, so that she
could still see her brother’s face before her,
as he lifted it from his book- the young,
drawn face, with the haggard eyes. Something
approaching a light of interest dawned in the wan
depths.
“Grizel Dundas?” he queried
slowly; and after a pause. “Certainly!
Why not? I’d like to see her!”
So Grizel had come. Memory again
registered the fact that it was in response to one
of her sallies that Martin had laughed for the first
time: an honest, wholesome laugh. She had
come again the next year, and had been warmly welcomed.
Then had followed an interval. Lady Griselda’s
health had begun to fail, she was much abroad, and
when at home, disinclined to spare her niece.
It was not until the fifth year of Martin’s
widower-hood that Grizel again visited The Glen, but
since then every six or seven months had brought about
more or less fleeting visits. Questioning herself,
Katrine realised that while at the beginning she herself
had been the one to suggest a fresh invitation, for
the last two years Martin had taken the initiative,
while she, with an instinctive unwillingness, had
sought excuses.
Could it be that subconsciously she
had divined this ending; had known that slowly, surely,
Martin’s heart was passing into Grizel’s
keeping? She had held fiercely to the remembrance
of Juliet; to the ideal of lifelong faithfulness;
held to it the more fiercely as doubt grew, but now
it was no longer doubt, it was certainty. Martin
loved Grizel with the love of a full-grown man, compared
with which that pretty idyll of the past had been
child’s play. And Grizel? Who could
say! That she would not marry while her aunt
lived had for years been an accepted fact, but Lady
Griselda’s days were numbered. In a few
months the question of Grizel’s future position
would be decided, and then- Katrine’s
mind had a flashlight realisation of two alternatives,
Martin refused, despairing, Martin accepted, aglow.
For one black moment of involuntary selfishness,
each seemed equally obnoxious. Then with a stifled
sob, she shut the door, and buried her face in her
hands.
Throughout the silent house travelled
the sound of an imperative rap.
“Who’s there?”
The sharp, impatient voice was enough
to quell the courage of an ordinary intruder.
Grizel chuckled, and knocked once more, a trifle
more loudly than before.
“Who’s-there?”
“Me!”
It was the tiniest of squeaks, and
the irate author, shouting back an imperious “Go
away!” settled himself to his task, but the knock
sounded yet again, and in a fury of impatience he
dashed to the door and stood scowling upon the threshold.
“What the-”
“Devil-” concluded
Grizel calmly, “but it isn’t. It’s
me. Let me in, Martin! It’s a choice
between you and buying cabbages in the rain.
Katrine says so, and I should catch my death of cold.”
But the change in the man’s
face was startling to behold. The scowl had
vanished, had been wiped out of being at the first
swift glance, and with it the fret, and the tire.
The deep-set eyes glowed upon her, the hands stretched
out.
“Grizel! Come in!
Come in! I was just thinking. Wishing-”
Grizel floated past into the forbidden
room, her glance as easily avoiding his as her hands
escaped his grasp. There was nothing curt or
forbidding in the evasion, she seemed simply oblivious
of anything but a friendly warmth of manner; engrossed
in an interested survey of the study itself.
Her eyes roved round the book-lined walls, and rested
brightening upon the old-fashioned hearth. The
fire was laid. In a basket on one side of the
hearth reposed a pile of resined logs. A copper
vase obviously contained coal.
“Martin!” she cried eagerly,
“let’s light up! I’ve been
perished all morning. Katrine says I’m
unsuitably dressed. I am, but I never dress
to suit rooms. I heat them to suit me!
Would you think the room unbearably stuffy if we
had a fire?”
“Not a bit of it! I often
do. Sitting at a desk is chilly work.”
He was already on his knees, posing
logs scientifically over the paper and wood, balancing
small pieces of coal on the top. In an incredibly
short time a cheerful blaze was illuminating the room,
and Grizel, kicking off small brown shoes, was crinkling
her toes before the fire. Martin drew forward
a second chair and seated himself beside her, in apparent
forgetfulness of the papers scattered over the desk.
“What a shame that you should
be so chilled! Why haven’t you had a fire
downstairs?”
“Katrine preferred exercise.
She recommended a flannel shirt, and an expedition
to buy cabbages. British and bracing. Can
you imagine me, Martin, buying cabbages, in
the rain, in a flannel shirt?”
He looked at her; an eloquent glance.
There were two feelings warring in his breast, indignation
against his sister for her callousness and lack of
consideration, and a rush of protective tenderness
towards the sweet martyr so abused, for it is one
of the injustices of life that the woman who smiles
and looks beautiful will always take precedence in
a man’s heart over the assiduous purchaser of
cabbages. For a moment sympathy engrossed Martin’s
mind, then he smiled; a somewhat difficult smile.
“It is hardly your metier!
Still, if it happened that you were in Katrine’s
position; if it came in your day’s work-”
“If the garden were properly
managed you would not need to buy cabbages!
I’d dismiss the gardener!” pronounced
Grizel briskly, and once again a dangerous moment
had come, and gone. She cowered over the fire,
holding out her hands, hitching her shoulders to her
ears. Her nose was still red; if Katrine had
been present she would have told herself that no man
could possibly admire a woman with a red nose, but
Martin had not so much as noticed the fact, and if
he had, would have felt it to be a wonderful and beautiful
thing that Grizel’s nose could be red, like
that of an ordinary mortal. It would have appeared
to him the most endearing of traits.
“I wonder,” he said thoughtfully.
“I wonder Grizel, how you would stand poverty!
Comparative poverty, I mean, of course. You
have never realised the meaning of money. You
have wanted a thing, and it has been yours.
You have not adapted yourself to circumstances, circumstances
have been made to adapt themselves to you.
It is the fashion to decry the power of riches, but
in the case of a woman like yourself, young, and strong,
and beautiful, and sane, it is folly to pretend that
they are not a valuable asset. You have been
happy-”
“Yes!” assented Grizel
thoughtfully. “Yes!” She stared
into the fire, her small face very grave. “I
like money; so much money that one need not have the
thought of it always before one. It would seem
to me debasing to be always considering costs, planning
and contriving. It would hold one’s thoughts
down. And I have never felt burdened by responsibility.
That’s what they say, you know,-the
dear, serious folks,-they call wealth a
burden and responsibility, but I’ve loved to
be able to give and to help. I’ve my own
little way about giving...” (The listener
smiled. When had Grizel not her own way!)
“The public charities must be supported, of
course, that’s mechanical; a mere signing of
cheques, but the interesting part is to get hold of
private cases, and see them through! Will you
be shocked, Martin, when I tell you that my particular
forte is helping people who have failed through-their
own fault! Not misfortune, but drink, gambling,
other things, of which they might have kept free,
but-didn’t! It’s a kind
old world; every one is ready to help the unfortunate,
but when a man has had a chance, and thrown it away,
when it’s `nobody’s fault but his own,’
then,” she shrugged her slight shoulders,
“he goes into outer darkness! People have
`enough to do’ helping those who `deserve it,’
and so I do the other thing! My old Buddy has
never limited me as to money; the only time when she
is annoyed, is when I’ve not spent enough.
I have quite a battalion of lost causes dependent on
me now. It would hurt to give them up.”
There was a moment’s silence, then:
“And have you no idea?”
asked Martin tentatively. “None at all,
whether in the end ?”
Grizel laughed. It was rare
indeed that she was serious for more than a minute
at a time.
“Not-one! Isn’t
it odd? Like a position in a feuilleton.
Never once has the subject been mentioned between
us. I have had, as I said, command of unlimited
money since I left school, but she dreads the idea
of death; it must never be mentioned in her presence,
or anything approximately suggesting it. For
the last few years she has been, of course, increasingly
irresponsible, but before that we lived always as
if the present would last for ever... She has
never even alluded to the time when I should be alone.”
“But surely there must have
been,-I know, Grizel, that there have been
men,-many men!”
“Ah!” cried Grizel deeply,
and chuckled with reminiscent enjoyment. “Just
so. There was one, a bold one, who questioned
her point blank on her intentions. He lived;
he came out of the room alive, but that was as much
as one could say. He got the best dressing down
of his life, but that was all he did get.
And he didn’t trouble me any more.”
“Cur! But they were not all so mercenary?”
“No.” Grizel looked
thoughtful once more. “Certainly not.
I like men. They are nice things; not really
mercenary unless they’re obliged. But
it’s a difficult position to saddle yourself
with a wife who may turn out a colossal heiress,
or on the other hand-a pauper! It
complicates the position, and in one way or other
is pretty well bound to lead to trouble. The
man who would appreciate the one, is bound to object
to t’other, and it’s such a contrary world,
that the t’other it would almost certainly be...
When you are making a choice for life, you ought
to understand where you are. You see, Martin,”
she turned towards him with a smile, “it would
not be fair!”
“And-” he said
hoarsely, “was that the reason why you
never ?”
Grizel put her head on one side, and
stared thoughtfully into the blaze.
“Partly. Mostly.
Yes! And my old Buddy. She won’t
live long, and I owe her so much. But mostly
the idea of playing the game. Most of the men
I have met have positions to maintain, and expect their
wives to lend a hand. They can’t afford
a love marriage, and I’m proud in my own little
way. I shouldn’t like to turn out a disappointment.”
“There are some men who are
old-fashioned enough to prefer to provide for their
own wives, who would dread the fortune even more heartily
than others do the lack of it.”
“There are. I realise
that. Bless their dear hearts! But not
the majority! There’s an heir to a Dukedom
hovering round now, Martin; not compromising himself,
you understand, but by steady attention to business
laying the foundation of a claim. If the old
Buddy died and left me her heir, he’d tell me
that he had forborne to intrude, had valiantly
subdued his impatience, etc., etc., I never
want the money quite so badly as when I imagine that
interview! I’m not spiteful as a rule,
but I shall think fate treats me hardly if I never
have a chance of scorching that young man...
Well! we’ll see !”
“You want then,-you
will be disappointed if you don’t get the money?”
She turned her eyes full upon him,
distended in the widest of stares.
“Well, I should just farther
think I should! T-errifically disappointed!
Squelched. Flum-macked. Laid out flat.
For the hour, that is. I couldn’t go
on being worried, for all the fortunes on earth.
It will be a case of adapting myself to a new sort
of happiness-c’est tout!
That’s easily done.”
The joy of the lover, the keen, appraising
interest of the artist, were both eloquent in Martin’s
glance as he considered her eloquent face.
“Yes! One cannot imagine
Grizel less than happy and content. And yet
to an ordinary nature, your life during these last
years, for all its luxuries, would have seemed a poor
thing. You have made your happiness by managing
to love a very unlovable character. It’s
a big feat, Grizel; a very big feat!”
Grizel rubbed her nose, a slow, thoughtful
rub with a raised forefinger. The homely movement
seemed ridiculously out of character with the ethereal
form and the transparent hand, on which the firelight
woke the gleam of flawless diamonds.
“Can a `feat’ be something
for which you have never tried? I never try
to love any one. Either I love ’em, or-I
don’t bother! Disliking, hating,-it’s
too much trouble! I wipe ’em out...
Same way with things; therefore, as a logical conclusion
nothing remains but what I do like. Therefore,-logical
inference again!-one must be happy, because
there’s nothing to make one un-happy.
Sounds easy enough, doesn’t it?”
Martin’s lip curled.
“I wonder,” he said.
“I wonder what Katrine would say if you propounded
that theory to her? I fancy, poor girl, that
the very opposite of your programme would come nearer
to her outlook on life. She finds it as difficult
to be happy as you do to be miserable. And yet-she’s
had her chance!”
“Martin, she has not!
What chance has she had? Tucked away in this
dark old house, with you shut up in your study all
day, and in your moods all night? My old Buddy
loves me; it’s not an ordinary form of loving
perhaps, but she does! I’m more
to her than the whole world. And I’ve had
my fling... Poor old Katrine has had no love,
and no fling, nothing but duty, and brotherly affection,
and home-made clothes. It’s enough to make
any woman snap. I’m glad she is
discontented. I’ll make her more discontented
still, before I’ve done. She’s pot-bound,
like your stale old ferns, and needs uprooting, and
shaking, and planting in fresh, strong earth.
Then she’ll bloom, and you, poor bat! will
be amazed at what a fine big bloom it is. It
isn’t a sign of greatness, Martin, to blink
in the sun, because one is too lazy too move, and
is content to bask, and be stroked, and lick up cream.
That’s me! Katrine is bigger; it needs
more to fill her life, but she’s only just beginning
to grow. You don’t know, Martin, how sweet
a woman Katrine is going to be!”
Martin smiled; a smile of serene,
unshakable conviction. He knew his sister.
She was a good girl, well meaning, if a little difficult
by nature; he, of all people on earth, would be the
last to deny Katrine’s good points, but-to
compare her with Grizel, to account to her a greatness
of nature above that of the sweetest, kindliest, most
loving of women,-that was a flight of fancy
beyond even his well-trained powers!
“And who,” queried Grizel,
with sudden energy, “is Katrine thinking of,
when she sits smiling into space, and giving silly
answers to obvious questions, and putting horrid sugar
into my tea,-tell me that, if you can!
It is your profession in life to study men and women,
and analyse their thoughts. What do you make
of the mystery of the woman upon your hearth?”
Martin smiled superior.
“There is none. She is
thinking of the grocer, and determining to hurl another
complaint at his head, because he will insist upon
sending us sandy grit, instead of honest West Indian
sugar, or of the butcher, whom she suspects of frozen
meat, or-or of the Y.W., who has left smudges
on the plates... Nothing more romantic, I assure
you.”
“Blind bat of a man! that’s
all you know. I’ll take to novel-writing
myself at this rate. If this is the insight and
inner vision of `one of the most popular of our young
writers’ there’s room for Grizel Dundas!
I have not been in the house a week, but I know two
things-Some one is making love to
Katrine, and-Katrine enjoys the process!
By a process of elucidation I know also that it is
not the doctor with the beard, nor the curate with
the smile, nor the Caldecote squire who rides the
white horse, nor the squeaky person who sings.
It isn’t this neighbourhood which holds the
treasure. She has an air of calmness and detachment
in partaking of your rural joys. Not a flicker
of `Will he come?’ ... Methinks my friend,
he lives afar!”
The smile broadened upon Martin’s
lips. Women, the most sensible of women, had
a way of searching for sentimental reasons for the
most prosaic happenings; it was an interesting trait,
and from the altitude of a man’s sound common-sense,
attractive enough. It pleased him to hear Grizel
imagining love stories with Katrine as heroine, without
foundation as they were.
“Can’t you go a little
further and discover his name and address? It
would be interesting to know.”
“Jim. India,” replied
Grizel with a promptness which startled her hearer
into attention at last. The face which confronted
him was full of triumph, and a malicious delight in
his discomfiture. He stared discomfited, amazed,
subtly aggrieved.
“Jim, India! There
is no Jim! She knows no one there, not
a soul, except Jack Middleton and Dorothea.
What put it into your head to fancy such a thing?
Has she ?”
“There is a Jim, and
the Middletons know him. Dorothea wrote about
some commissions, and Katrine showed me the note-wanting
my advice. There was a reference to one `Jim,’-she’d
forgotten that, quite a colourless reference, but
when I questioned, she blushed!” Grizel
covered her cheeks with her hands, in eloquent gesture.
“Oh, such a blush! I looked away,
but I thought: `Why should one blush at a name?’
and after that I went on thinking. It’s
Jim, India-Martin, you may take my word
for it, though how, and why, and when, I have no more
idea than you have yourself. There’s a
new interest in her life; any one with two eyes can
see that, and she writes huge, huge letters...”
“To Dorothea! She’s
done that for years. I’ve often wondered
what she finds to say.”
Grizel rolled eloquent eyes to the ceiling.
“I have been young,” she
declaimed dramatically, “and now am old, yet
have I never seen a woman staring into space, smirking,
and looking silly, considering how she can best turn
a sentence, to another woman! I tell you that
which I do know and, Martin dear, it’s not disloyalty...
I wouldn’t have breathed a word, if it had not
been for the hope of helping both. Keep your
own eyes open, and act! Katrine’s
conscience is of the good, old-fashioned, Nonconformist
type which urges her on to do the thing she most dislikes,
out of a deluded idea that it must needs be right!
She’s quite capable of playing suttee with her
life. Don’t let her do it!”
“How can I help it? I
know nothing. I am not consulted. I believe
the whole thing is imagination. If there had
been anything real she would surely have confided
in you.”
“Me? I’m the last
person,-the last person in the world-”
The words were spoken on the impulse
of the moment, and apparently regretted as soon as
they were pronounced. Grizel flushed; obviously,
unmistakably, even in the glow of the firelight.
She flushed, and pushing back her chair rose hurriedly
to her feet.
“Whew! That fire!
Katrine was right,-it does get close.
And I believe it is going to clear.-I’ll
go and see.”
“Why are you the last? Why?”
Martin had followed her, was questioning
with a new light in his eyes- eager, curious,
anticipatory. On her way towards the door her
progress was blocked by his tall form.
“Why the last, Grizel?”
he repeated urgently. “Tell me! I
want to know. Why should Katrine ?”
Never before had he seen a trace of
embarrassment break the lazy serenity of Grizel’s
mien. The sight of it, and the possibility of
an intoxicating explanation of her statement, fired
his blood. For the last two years he had been
fighting against this love, fighting it as a forbidden
thing, a thing of which to be ashamed, but lately,
subtly, the mental position had changed. Life
was forcibly pushing him from one standpoint after
another, proving its untenability, sending him forth
to find fresh fields.
“Why should Katrine ?”
he cried, and at that moment the door opened and Katrine
herself stood upon the threshold.
Her face was pale, her eyes grave
and gentle, the picture of her as she appeared at
that moment dwelt in Martin’s mind, and brought
with it a startled recognition of his sister’s
charm, then in a flash, she stiffened; the softness
passed from the eyes, and was replaced by a chilly
scorn. This was a love scene upon which she had
intruded,- Grizel flushed, protesting,
Martin flushed, appealing, and her own name “Katrine”
bandied upon his lip-no doubt to be waved
aside, as an obstacle blocking the way.
It was in a voice icily bereft of
expression that she delivered her message:
“I have just taken a message
for you, Grizel. They have rung up to say that
Lady Griselda is worse. You are wanted at home
at once.”