Sarah Hewel ran into the drawing-room
before Lady Mary found courage to put her newly gained
composure to the test, by joining the crowd on the
terrace.
“Oh, Lady Mary, are you there?”
she cried, pausing in her eager passage to the window.
“I thought you would be out-of-doors with the
others!”
“Sarah, my dear!” said Lady Mary, kissing
her.
“I I saw all the
people,” said Sarah, in a breathless, agitated
way, “I heard the news, and I wasn’t sure
whether I ought to come to luncheon all the same or
not; so I slipped in by the side door to see whether
I could find some one to ask quietly. Oh!”
cried Sarah, throwing her arms impetuously round Lady
Mary’s neck, “tell me it isn’t true?”
“My boy has come home,” said Lady Mary.
Sarah turned from red to white, and from white to
red again.
“But they said,” she faltered “they
said he ”
“Yes, my dear,” said Lady
Mary, understanding; and the tears started to her
own eyes. “Peter has lost an arm, but otherwise otherwise,”
she said, in trembling tones, “my boy is safe
and sound.”
Sarah turned away her face and cried.
Lady Mary was touched. “Why,
Sarah!” she said; and she drew the girl down
beside her on the sofa and kissed her softly.
“I am sorry to be so silly,”
said Sarah, recovering herself. “It isn’t
a bit like me, is it?”
“It is like you, I think, to
have a warm heart,” said Lady Mary, “though
you don’t show it to every one; and, after all,
you and Peter are old friends playmates
all your lives.”
“It’s been like a lump
of lead on my heart all these months and years,”
said Sarah, “to think how I scoffed at Peter
in the Christmas holidays before he went to the war,
because my brothers had gone, whilst he stayed at
home. Perhaps that was the reason he went.
I used to lie awake at night sometimes, thinking that
if Peter were killed it would be all my fault.
And now his arm has gone and Tom and Willie
came back safely long ago.” She cried afresh.
“It may not have been that at
all,” said Lady Mary, consolingly. “I
don’t think Peter was a boy to take much notice
of what a goose of a little girl said. He felt
he was a man, and ought to go and his grandfather
was a soldier it is in the blood of the
Setouns to want to fight for their country,”
said Lady Mary, with a smile and a little thrill of
pride; for, after all, if her boy were a Crewys, he
was also a Setoun. “Besides, poor child,
you were so young; you didn’t think; you didn’t
know ”
“You always make excuses for
me,” said Sarah, with subdued enthusiasm; “but
I understand better now what it means to
send an only son away from his mother.”
“The young take responsibility
so lightly,” said Lady Mary. “But
now he has come home, my darling, why, you needn’t
reproach yourself any longer. It is good of you
to care so much for my boy.”
“It it isn’t
only that. Of course, I was always fond of Peter,”
said Sarah; “but even if I had nothing to do
with his going” her voice sounded
incredulous “you know how one feels
over our soldiers coming home and a boy
who has given his right arm for England. It makes
one so choky and yet so proud I can’t
say all I mean but you know ”
“Yes, I know,” said Lady
Mary; and she smiled, but the tears were rolling down
her cheeks.
“And what it must be to you,”
sobbed Sarah, “the day you were to have been
so happy, to see him come back like that!
No wonder you are sad. One feels one could never
do enough to to make it up to him.”
“But I’m far more happy
than sad,” said Lady Mary; and to prove her
words she leant back upon the cushions and cried.
“You’re not,” said
Sarah, kneeling by her; “how can you be, my
darling, sweet Lady Mary? But you must
be happy,” she said; and her odd, deep tones
took a note of coaxing that was hard to resist.
“Think how proud every one will be of him, and
how how all the other mothers will envy
you! You you mustn’t care so
terribly. It it isn’t as if
he had to work for his living. It won’t
make any real difference to his life. And he’ll
let you do everything for him even write
his letters ”
“Oh, Sarah, Sarah, stop!”
said Lady Mary, faintly. “It it
isn’t that.”
“Not that!” said Sarah,
changing her tone. She pounced on the admission
like a cat on a mouse. “Then why do you
cry?”
Lady Mary looked up confused into
the severely inquiring young face.
Sarah’s apple-blossom beauty,
as was to have been expected, had increased a thousand-fold
since her school girl days. She had grown tall
to match the plumpness of her figure, which had not
decreased. Her magnificent hair showed its copper
redness in every variety of curl and twist upon her
white forehead, and against her whiter throat.
She was no longer dressed in blue
cotton. Lady Tintern knew how to give such glorious
colouring its true value. A gauzy, transparent
black flowed over a close-fitting white gown beneath,
and veiled her fair arms and neck. Black
bébé ribbon gathered in coquettishly the folds
which shrouded Sarah’s abundant charms, and a
broad black sash confined her round young waist.
A black chip hat shaded the glowing hair and the face,
“ruddier than the cherry, and whiter than milk;”
and the merry, dark blue eyes had a penthouse of their
own, of drooping lashes, which redeemed the boldness
of their frank and open gaze.
“If it is not that why
do you cry?” she demanded imperiously.
“It’s just happiness,”
said Lady Mary.
Sarah looked wise, and shook her head.
“Oh no,” she quoth. “Those
aren’t happy tears.”
“You’re too old, dear
Sarah, to be an enfant terrible still,”
said Lady Mary; but Sarah was not so easily disarmed.
“I will know! Come, I’m
your godchild, and you always spoil me. He’s
not come back in one of his moods, has he?”
“Who?” cried Lady Mary, colouring.
“Who! Why, who are we talking
of but Peter?” said Sarah, opening her big-pupilled
eyes.
“Oh no, no! He’s changed entirely ”
“Changed!”
“I don’t mean exactly
changed, but he’s he’s grown
so loving and so sweet not that he wasn’t
always loving in his heart, but
“Oh,” cried Sarah, impatiently,
“as if I didn’t know Peter! But if
it wasn’t that which made you so unhappy,
what was it?” She bent puzzled brows upon her
embarrassed hostess.
“Let me go, Sarah; you ask too
much!” said Lady Mary. “Oh no, my
darling, I’m not angry! How could I be angry
with my little loyal Sarah, who’s always loved
me so? It’s only that I can’t bear
to be questioned just now.” She caressed
the girl eagerly, almost apologetically. “I
must have a few moments to recover myself. I’ll
go quietly away into the study anywhere.
Wait for me here, darling, and make some excuse for
me if any one comes. I want to be alone for a
few moments. Peter mustn’t find me crying
again.”
“Yes that’s
all very well,” said Sarah to herself, as the
slight form hurried from the drawing-room into the
dark oak hall beyond. “But why is
she unhappy? There is something else.”
It was Dr. Blundell who found the
answer to Sarah’s riddle.
He had seen the signs of weeping on
Lady Mary’s face as she stumbled over the threshold
of the window into the very arms of John Crewys, and
his feelings were divided between passionate sympathy
with his divinity, and anger with the returned hero,
who had no doubt reduced his mother to this distressful
state. The doctor was blinded by love and misery,
and ready to suspect the whole world of doing injustice
to this lady; though he believed himself to be destitute
of jealousy, and capable of judging Peter with perfect
impartiality.
His fancy leapt far ahead of fact;
and he supposed, not only that Lady Mary must be engaged
to John Crewys, but that she must have confided her
engagement to her son, and that Peter had already forbidden
the banns.
He wandered miserably about the grounds,
within hearing of the rejoicings; and had just made
up his mind that he ought to go and join the speechmakers,
when he perceived John Crewys himself standing next
to Peter, apparently on the best possible terms with
the hero of the day.
The doctor hastened round to the hall,
intending to enter the drawing-room unobserved, and
find out for himself whether Lady Mary had recovered,
or whether John Crewys had heartlessly abandoned her
to her grief.
The brilliant vision Miss Sarah presented,
as she stood, drawn up to her full height, in the
shaded drawing-room, met his anxious gaze as he entered.
“Why, Miss Sarah! Not gone
back to London yet? I thought you only came down
for Whitsuntide.”
“Mamma wasn’t well, so
I am staying on for a few days. I am supposed
to be nursing her,” said Sarah, demurely.
She was a favourite with the doctor,
as she was very well aware, and, in consequence, was
always exceedingly gracious to him.
“Where is Lady Mary?” he asked.
She stole to his side, and put her
finger on her lips, and lowered her voice.
“She went through the hall into
the study. And she’s alone crying.”
“Crying!” said the doctor;
and he made a step towards the open door, but Sarah’s
strong, white hand held him fast.
“Play fair,” she said
reproachfully; “I told you in confidence.
You can’t suppose she wants you to see
her crying.”
“No, no,” said the poor
doctor, “of course not of course not.”
She closed the doors between the rooms.
“Look here, Dr. Blundell, we’ve always
been friends, haven’t we, you and me?”
“Ever since I had the honour
of ushering you into the world you now adorn,”
said the doctor, with an ironical bow.
“Then tell me the truth,”
said Sarah. “Why is she unhappy, to-day
of all days?”
The doctor looked uneasily away from
her. “Perhaps the joy of Peter’s
return has been too much for her,” he suggested.
“Yes,” said Sarah.
“That’s what we’ll tell the other
people. But you and I why, Dr. Blunderbuss,”
she said reproachfully, using the name she had given
him in her saucy childhood, “you know how I’ve
worshipped Lady Mary ever since I was a little girl?”
“Yes, yes, my dear, I know,” said the
doctor.
“You love her too, don’t you?” said
Sarah.
He started. “I I
love Lady Mary! What do you mean?” he said,
almost violently.
“Oh, I didn’t mean that
sort of love,” said Sarah, watching him keenly.
Then she laid her plump hand gently on his shabby sleeve.
“I wouldn’t have said it, if I’d
thought ”
“Thought what?” said the doctor, agitated.
“What I think now,” said Sarah.
He walked up and down in a silence
she was too wise to break. When he looked at
her again, Sarah was leaning against the piano.
She had taken off the picture-hat, and was swinging
it absently to and fro by the black ribbons which
had but now been tied beneath her round, white chin.
She presented a charming picture and it
is possible she knew it as she stood in
that restful pose, with her long lashes pointed downwards
towards her buckled shoes.
The doctor stopped in front of her.
“You are too quick for me, Sarah. You always
were, even as a little girl,” he said. “You’ve
surprised my my poor secret. You can
laugh at the old doctor now, if you like.”
“I don’t feel like laughing,”
said Sarah, simply. “And your secret is
safe with me. I’m honest; you know that.”
“Yes, my dear; I know that.
God bless you!” said the doctor.
“I’m sorry, Dr. Blundell,” said
Sarah, softly.
The deep voice which came from the
full, white chest, and which had once been so unmanageable,
was one of Sarah’s surest weapons now.
When she sang, she counted her victims
by the dozen; when she lowered it, as she lowered
it now, to speak only to one man, every note went
straight to his heart if he had an ear for
music and a heart for love.
When Sarah said, in these dulcet tones,
therefore, that she was sorry for her old friend,
the tears gathered to the doctor’s kind, tired
eyes.
“For me!” he said gratefully.
“Oh, you mustn’t be sorry for me.
She she could hardly be further out of my
reach, you know, if she were an angel in
heaven, instead of being what she is an
angel on earth. It is of her
that I was thinking.”
“I know,” said Sarah;
“but she has been looking so bright and hopeful,
ever since we heard Peter was coming home until
to-day when he has actually come; and that
is what puzzles me.”
“To-day to-day!”
said the doctor, as though to himself. “Yes;
it was to-day I saw her touch happiness timidly, and
come face to face with disappointment.”
“You saw her?”
“Oh, when one loves,”
he said bitterly, “one has intuitions which
serve as well as eyes and ears. You will know
all about it one day, little Sarah.”
“Shall I?” said Sarah.
She turned her face away from the doctor.
“You’ve not been here
very much lately,” he said, “but you’ve
been here long enough to guess her secret, as you you’ve
guessed mine. Eh? You needn’t pretend,
for my sake, to misunderstand me.”
“I wasn’t going to,” said Sarah,
gently.
“John Crewys is the very man
I would have chosen I did choose him,”
said the doctor, looking at her almost fiercely.
It was an odd consolation to him to believe he had
first led John Crewys to interest himself in Lady
Mary. He recognized his rival’s superior
qualifications very fully and humbly. “You
know all about it, Miss Sarah, don’t tell me;
so quick as you are to find out what doesn’t
concern you.”
“I saw that Mr. John
Crewys liked her,” said Sarah,
in a low voice; “but, then, so does everybody.
I wasn’t sure I couldn’t believe
that she ”
“You haven’t watched as
I have,” he groaned; “you haven’t
seen the sparkle come back to her eye, and the colour
to her cheek. You haven’t watched her learning
to laugh and sing and enjoy her innocent days as Nature
bade; since she has dared to be herself. It was
love that taught her an that.”
“Love!” said Sarah.
Her soft, red lips parted; and her
breath quickened with a sudden sensation of mingled
interest, sympathy, and amusement.
“Ay, love,” said the doctor,
half angrily. He detected the deepening of Sarah’s
dimples. “And I am an old fool to talk to
you like this. You children think that love is
reserved for boys and girls, like you and and
Peter.”
“I don’t know what Peter
has to do with it,” said Sarah, pouting.
“I heard Peter explaining to
his tenants just now,” said the doctor, with
a harsh laugh, “that he was going to settle down
here for good and all with his mother;
that nothing was to be changed from his father’s
time. Something in his words would have made me
understand the look on his mother’s face, even
if I hadn’t read it right already.
She will sacrifice her love for John Crewys to her
love for her son; and by the time Peter finds out as
in the course of nature he will find out that
he can do without his mother, her chance of happiness
will be gone for ever.”
Sarah looked a little queerly at the doctor.
“Then the sooner Peter finds
out,” she said slowly, “that he can live
without his mother, the better. Doesn’t
that seem strange?”
“Perhaps,” said the doctor,
heavily. “But life gives us so few opportunities
of a great happiness as we grow older, little Sarah.
The possibilities that once seemed so boundless, lie
in a circle which narrows round us, day by day.
Some day you’ll find that out too.”
There was a sudden outburst of cheering.
Sarah started forward. “Dr.
Blundell,” she said energetically, “you’ve
told me all I wanted to know. She sha’n’t
be unhappy if I can help it.”
“You!” said the doctor,
shrugging his shoulders rather rudely. “I
don’t see what you can do.”
Sarah reddened with lofty indignation.
“It would be very odd if you did,” she
said spitefully; “you’re only a man, when
all is said and done. But if you’ll only
promise not to interfere, I’ll manage it beautifully
all by myself.”
“What will you do?” said
the doctor, inattentively; and his blindness to Sarah’s
charms and her powers made her almost pity such obtuseness.
“I will go and fetch Lady Mary,
for one thing, and cheer her up.”
“Not a word to her!” he
cried, starting up; “remember, I told you in
confidence though why I was such a fool ”
“Am I likely to forget?”
said Sarah; “and you will see one day whether
you were a fool to tell me.” She
said to herself, despairingly, that the stupidity
of mankind was almost past praying for. As the
doctor opened the door for Sarah, Lady Mary herself
walked into the room.
She had removed all traces of tears
from her face, and, though she was still very pale,
she was quite composed, and ready to smile at them
both.
“Were you coming to fetch me?”
she said, taking Sarah’s arm affectionately.
“Dr. Blundell, I am afraid luncheon will be terribly
late. The servants have all gone off their heads
in the confusion, as was to be expected. The
noise and the welcome upset me so that I dared not
go out on the terrace again. Ash has just been
to tell me it’s all over, and that Peter made
a capital speech; quite as good as Mr. John’s,
he said; but that is hardly a compliment to our K.C.,”
she laughed. “I’m afraid Ash is prejudiced.”
“Ash was doing the honours with
all his might,” said the doctor, gruffly; “handing
round cider by the hogshead. Hallo! the speeches
must be really all over,” he said, for, above
vociferous cheering, the strains of the National Anthem
could just be discerned.
Peter came striding across the terrace,
and looked in at the open window.
“Are you better again, mother?”
he called. “Could you come out now?
They’ve done at last, but they’re calling
for you.”
“Yes, yes; I’m quite ready.
I won’t be so silly again,” said Lady
Mary.
But Peter did not listen. “Why ”
he said, and stopped short.
“Surely you haven’t forgotten
Sarah,” said Lady Mary, laughing “your
little playmate Sarah? But perhaps I ought to
say Miss Hewel now.”
“How do you do, Sir Peter?”
said Sarah, in a very stately manner. “I
am very glad to be here to welcome you home.”
Peter, foolishly embarrassed, took
the hand she offered with such gracious composure,
and blushed all over his thin, tanned face.
“I I should hardly have known you,”
he stammered.
“Really?” said Sarah.
“Won’t you,” said
Peter, still looking at her, “join us on the
terrace?”
“The people aren’t calling for me”
said Sarah.
“But it might amuse you,” said Peter,
deferentially.
He put up his eyeglass but
though Sarah’s red lip quivered, she did not
laugh.
“It’s rather jolly, really,”
he said. “They’ve got banners, and
flags, and processions, and things. Won’t
you come?”
“Well I will,”
said Sarah. She accepted his help in descending
the step with the air of a princess. “But
they’ll be so disappointed to see me instead
of your mother.”
“Disappointed to see you!” said
Peter, stupefied.
She stepped forth, laughing, and Peter
followed her closely. John Crewys stood aside
to let them pass. Lady Mary, half amazed and half
amused, realized suddenly that her son had forgotten
he came back to fetch her. She hesitated on the
threshold. More cheers and confused shouting
greeted Peter’s reappearance on the balcony.
He turned and waved to his mother, and the canon came
hurrying over the grass.
“The people are shouting for
Lady Mary; they want Lady Mary,” he cried.
John Crewys looked at her with a smile,
and held out his hand, and she stepped over the sill,
and went away across the terrace garden with him.
The doctor turned his face from the
crowd, and went back alone into the empty room.
“Who doesn’t want
Lady Mary?” he said to himself, forlornly.