Bridget Cookson slowly signed her
name to the letter she had been writing in the drawing-room
of the boarding-house where she was accustomed to
stay during her visits to town. Then she read
the letter through
’I can’t get back till
the middle or end of next week at least. There’s
been a great deal to do, of one kind or another.
And I’m going down to Woking to-morrow to spend
the week-end with a girl I met here who’s knocked
up in munition-work. Don’t expect me till
you see me. But I daresay I shan’t be later
than Friday.’
Bridget Cookson had never yet arrived
at telling falsehoods for the mere pleasure of it.
On the whole she preferred not to tell them. But
she was well aware that her letter to Nelly contained
a good many, both expressed and implied.
Well, that couldn’t be helped.
She put up her letter, and then proceeded to look
carefully through the contents of her handbag.
Yes, her passport was all right, and her purse with
its supply of notes. Also the letter that she
was to present to the Base Commandant, or the Red Cross
representative at the port of landing. The latter
had been left open for her to read. It was signed
‘Ernest Howson, M.D.,’ and asked that Miss
Bridget Cookson might be sent forward to N, General
Hospital, X Camp, France, as quickly as possible.
There was also another letter addressed
to herself in the same handwriting. She opened
it and glanced through it
’DEAR MISS COOKSON, I
think I have made everything as easy for you as I
can on this side. You won’t have any difficulty.
I’m awfully glad you’re coming. I
myself am much puzzled, and don’t know what to
think. Anyway I am quite clear that my right
course was to communicate with you first.
Everything will depend on what you say.’
The following afternoon, Bridget found
herself, with a large party of V.A.D.’s, and
other persons connected with the Red Cross, on board
a Channel steamer. The day was grey and cold,
and Bridget having tied on her life-belt, and wrapped
herself in her thickest cloak, found a seat in the
shelter of the deck cabins whence the choppy sea, the
destroyer hovering round them, and presently the coast
of France were visible. A secret excitement filled
her. What was she going to see? and what was
she going to do? All round her too were the suggestions
of war, commonplace and familiar by now to half the
nation, but not to Bridget who had done her best to
forget the war. The steamer deck was crowded
with officers returning from leave who were walking
up and down, all of them in life-belts, chatting and
smoking. All eyes were watchful of the sea, and
the destroyer; and the latest submarine gossip passed
from mouth to mouth. The V.A.D.’s with
a few army nurses, kept each other company on the
stern deck. The mild sea gave no one any excuse
for discomfort, and the pleasant-faced rosy girls
in their becoming uniforms, laughed and gossiped with
each other, though not without a good many side glances
towards the khaki figures pacing the deck, many of
them specimens of English youth at its best.
Bridget however took little notice
of them. She was becoming more and more absorbed
in her own problem. She had not in truth made
up her mind how to deal with it, and she admitted
reluctantly that she would have to be guided by circumstance.
Midway across, when the French coast and its lighthouses
were well in view, she took out the same letter which
she had received two days before at the Grasmere post-office,
and again read it through.
’X Camp, 102, General Hospital.
’DEAR MISS COOKSON, I
am writing to you, in the first instance instead
of to Mrs. Sarratt, because I have a vivid remembrance
of what seemed to me your sister’s frail physical
state, when I saw you last May at Rydal. I hope
she is much stronger, but I don’t want to risk
what, if it ended in disappointment, might only be
a terrible strain upon her to no purpose so
I am preparing the way by writing to you.
’The fact is I want you to come
over to France at once. Can you get
away, without alarming your sister, or letting her,
really, know anything about it? It is the merest,
barest chance, but I think there is just a chance,
that a man who is now in hospital here may be
poor George Sarratt only don’t build
upon it yet, please. The case was sent
on here from one of the hospitals near the Belgian
frontier about a month ago, in order that a famous
nerve-specialist, who has joined us here for a time,
might give his opinion on it. It is a most extraordinary
story. I understand from the surgeon who wrote
to our Commandant, that one night, about three months
ago, two men, in German uniforms, were observed from
the British front-line trench, creeping over the No
Man’s Land lying between the lines at a point
somewhere east of Dixmude. One man, who threw
up his hands, was dragging the other, who seemed wounded.
It was thought that they were deserters, and a couple
of men were sent out to bring them in. Just as
they were being helped into our trench, however, one
of them was hit by an enemy sniper and mortally wounded.
Then it was discovered that they were not Germans at
all. The man who had been hit said a few incoherent
things about his wife and children in the Walloon
patois as he lay in the trench, and trying to point
to his companion, uttered the one word “Anglais” that,
everyone swears to and died. No papers
were found on either of them, and when the other man
was questioned, he merely shook his head, with a vacant
look. Various tests were applied to him, but it
was soon clear, both that he was dumb and
deaf from nerve shock, probably and
that he was in a terrible physical state. He
had been severely wounded apparently many
months before in the shoulder and thigh.
The wounds had evidently been shockingly neglected,
and were still septic. The surgeon who examined
him thought that what with exposure, lack of food,
and his injuries, it was hardly probable he would
live more than a few weeks. However, he has lingered
till now, and the specialist I spoke of has just seen
him.
’As to identification marks
there were none. But you’ll hear all about
that when you come. All I can say is that, as
soon as they got the man into hospital, the nurses
and surgeons became convinced that he was English,
and that in addition to his wounds, it was a case of
severe shell-shock acute and long-continued
neurasthenia properly speaking, loss of
memory, and all the rest of it.
’Of course the chances of this
poor fellow being George Sarratt are infinitesimal I
must warn you as to that. How account for the
interval between September 1915 and June 1916 for
his dress, his companion for their getting
through the German lines?
’However, directly I set eyes
on this man, which was the week after I arrived here,
I began to feel puzzled about him. He reminded
me of someone but of whom I couldn’t
remember. Then one afternoon it suddenly flashed
upon me and for the moment I felt almost
sure that I was looking at George Sarratt. Then,
of course, I began to doubt again. I have tried under
the advice of the specialist I spoke of all
kinds of devices for getting into some kind of communication
with him. Sometimes the veil between him and
those about him seems to thin a little, and one makes
attempts hypnotism, suggestion, and so forth.
But so far, quite in vain. He has, however, one
peculiarity which I may mention. His hands are
long and rather powerful. But the little fingers
are both crooked markedly so. I wonder
if you ever noticed Sarratt’s hands? However,
I won’t write more now. You will understand,
I am sure, that I shouldn’t urge you to come,
unless I thought it seriously worth your while.
On the other hand, I cannot bear to excite hopes which
may which probably will come
to nothing. All I can feel certain of is that
it is my duty to write, and I expect that you will
feel that it is your duty to come.
’I send you the address of a
man at the War Office high up in the R.A.M.C. to
whom I have already written. He will, I am sure,
do all he can to help you get out quickly. Whoever
he is, the poor fellow here is very ill.’
The steamer glided up the dock of
the French harbour. The dusk had fallen, but
Bridget was conscious of a misty town dimly sprinkled
with lights, and crowned with a domed church; of chalk
downs, white and ghostly, to right and left; and close
by, of quays crowded with soldiers, motors, and officials.
Carrying her small suit-case, she emerged upon the
quay, and almost immediately was accosted by the official
of the Red Cross who had been told off to look after
her.
’Let me carry your suit-case.
There is a motor here, which will take you to X .
There will be two nurses going with you.’
Up the long hill leading southwards
out of the town, sped the motor, stopping once to
show its pass to the sentries khaki and
grey, on either side of the road, and so on into the
open country, where an autumn mist lay over the uplands,
beneath a faintly starlit sky. Soon it was quite
dark. Bridget listened vaguely to the half-whispered
talk of the nurses opposite, who were young probationers
going back to work after a holiday, full of spirits
and merry gossip about ‘Matron’ and ‘Sister,’
and their favourite surgeons. Bridget was quite
silent. Everything was strange and dreamlike.
Yet she was sharply conscious that she was nearing perhaps some
great experience, some act some decision which
she would have to make for herself, with no one to
advise her. Well, she had never been a great hand
at asking advice. People must decide things for
themselves.
She wondered whether they would let
her see ‘the man’ that same night.
Hardly unless he were worse in
danger. Otherwise, they would be sure to think
it better for her to see him first in daylight.
She too would be glad to have a night’s rest
before the interview. She had a curiously bruised
and battered feeling, as of someone who had been going
through an evil experience.
Pale stretches of what seemed like
water to the right, and across it a lighthouse.
And now to the left, a sudden spectacle of lines of
light in a great semicircle radiating up the side
of a hill.
The nurses exclaimed
‘There’s the Camp! Isn’t it
pretty at night?’
The officer sitting in front beside the driver turned
to ask
‘Where shall I put you down?’
‘Number ’
said both the maidens in concert. The elderly
major in khaki who in peace-time was the
leading doctor of a Shropshire country town could
not help smiling at the two lassies, and their bright
looks.
‘You don’t seem particularly sorry to
come back!’ he said.
‘Oh, we’re tired of holidays,’
said the taller of the two, with a laugh. ‘People
at home think they’re so busy, and –’
‘You think they’re doing nothing?’
‘Well, it don’t seem much,
when you’ve been out here!’ said the girl
more gravely ’and when you know what
there is to do!’
‘Aye, aye,’ said the man
in front. ’We could do with hundreds more
of your sort. Hope you preached to your friends.’
‘We did!’ said both, each
with the same young steady voice.
‘Here we are Stop, please.’
For the motor had turned aside to
climb the hill into the semicircle. On all sides
now were rows of low buildings hospital
huts hospital marquees stores canteens.
Close to the motor, as it came to a stand-still, the
door of a great marquee stood open, and Bridget could
see within, a lighted hospital ward, with rows of beds,
men in scarlet bed-jackets, sitting or lying on them flowers nurses
moving about. The scene was like some bright
and delicate illumination on the dark.
‘I shall have to take you a
bit further on,’ said the major to Bridget,
as the two young nurses waved farewell. ’We’ve
got a room in the hotel for you. And Dr. Howson
will come for you in the morning. He thought
that would be more satisfactory both for you and the
patient than that you should go to the hospital to-night.’
Bridget acquiesced, with a strong
sense of relief. And presently the camp and its
lights were all left behind again, and the motor was
rushing on, first through a dark town, and then through
woods pine woods as far as the
faint remaining light enabled her to see, till dim
shapes of houses, and scattered lamps began again to
appear, and the motor drew up.
‘Well, you’ll find a bed
here, and some food,’ said the major as he handed
her out. ’Can’t promise much.
It’s a funny little place, but they don’t
look after you badly.’
They entered one of the small seaside
hotels of the cheaper sort which abound in French
watering-places, where the walls of the tiny rooms
seem to be made of brown paper, and everyone is living
in their neighbour’s pocket. But a pleasant
young woman came forward to take Bridget’s bag.
‘Mademoiselle Cook Cookson?’
she said interrogatively. ’I have a letter
for Mademoiselle. Du médecin,’
she added, addressing the major.
‘Ah?’ That gentleman put
down Bridget’s bag in the little hall, and stood
attentive. Bridget opened the letter a
very few words and read it with an exclamation.
’DEAR MISS COOKSON, I
am awfully sorry not to meet you to-night, and
at the hospital to-morrow. But I am sent for
to Bailleul. My only brother has been terribly
wounded they think fatally in
a bombing attack last night. I am going up
at once there is no help for it.
One of my colleagues, Dr. Vincent, will take you
to the hospital and will tell me your opinion.
In haste. Yours sincerely,
‘ERNEST HOWSON.’
‘H’m, a great pity!’
said the major, as she handed the note to him.
’Howson has taken a tremendous interest in the
case. But Vincent is next best. Not the
same thing perhaps but still Of
course the whole medical staff here has been interested
in it. It has some extraordinary features.
You I think have had a brother-in-law “missing”
for some time?’
He had piloted her into the bare salle
a manger, where two young officers, with a party
of newly-arrived V.A.D.’s were having dinner,
and where through an open window came in the dull
sound of waves breaking on a sandy shore.
‘My brother-in-law has been
missing since the battle of Loos,’ said Bridget ’more
than a year. We none of us believe that he can
be alive. But of course when Dr. Howson wrote
to me, I came at once.’
‘Has he a wife?’
’Yes, but she is very delicate.
That is why Dr. Howson wrote to me. If there
were any chance of course we must send for
her. But I shall know I shall know
at once.’
‘I suppose you will yes,
I suppose you will,’ mused the major. ’Though
of course a man is terribly aged by such an experience.
He’s English that we’re certain
of. He often seems to understand half
understand a written phrase or word in English.
And he is certainly a man of refinement. All
his personal ways all that is instinctive
and automatic the subliminal consciousness,
so to speak seems to be that of a gentleman.
But it is impossible to get any response out of him,
for anything connected with the war. And yet
we doubt whether there is any actual brain lesion.
So far it seems to be severe functional disturbance which
is neurasthenia aggravated by his wounds
and general state. But the condition is getting
worse steadily. It is very sad, and very touching.
However, you will get it all out of Vincent. You
must have some dinner first. I wish you a good-night.’
And the good man, so stout and broad-shouldered
that he seemed to be bursting out of his khaki, hurried
away. The lady seemed to him curiously hard and
silent ’a forbidding sort of party.’
But then he himself was a person of sentiment, expressing
all the expected feelings in the right places, and
with perfect sincerity.
Bridget took her modest dinner, and
then sat by the window, looking out over a lonely
expanse of sand, towards a moonlit sea. To right
and left were patches of pine wood, and odd little
seaside villas, with fantastic turrets and balconies.
A few figures passed nurses in white head
dresses, and men in khaki. Bridget understood
after talking to the little patronne, that
the name of the place was Paris a la Mer, that there
was a famous golf course near, and that large building,
with a painted front to the right, was once the Casino,
and now a hospital for officers.
It was all like a stage scene, the
sea, the queer little houses, the moonlight, the passing
figures. Only the lights were so few and dim,
and there was no music.
‘Miss Cookson?’
Bridget turned, to see a tall young
surgeon in khaki, tired, pale and dusty, who looked
at her with a frown of worry, a man evidently over-driven,
and with hardly any mind to give to this extra task
that had been put upon him.
‘I’m sorry to be late but
we’ve had an awful rush to-day,’ he said,
as he perfunctorily shook hands. ’There
was some big fighting on the Somme, the night before
last, and the casualty trains have been coming in all
day. I’m only able to get away for five
minutes.
’Well now, Miss Cookson’ he
sat down opposite her, and tried to get his thoughts
into business shape ’first let me
tell you it’s a great misfortune for you that
Howson’s had to go off. I know something
about the case but not nearly as much as
he knows. First of all how old was
your brother-in-law?’
‘About twenty-seven I don’t
know precisely.’
’H’m. Well of course
this man looks much older than that but
the question is what’s he been through?
Was Lieutenant Sarratt fair or dark?’
‘Rather dark. He had brown hair.’
‘Eyes?’
‘I can’t remember precisely,’
said Bridget, after a moment. ’I don’t
notice the colour of people’s eyes. But
I’m sure they were some kind of brown.’
’This man’s are a greenish
grey. Can you recollect anything peculiar about
Lieutenant Sarratt’s hands?’
Again Bridget paused for a second
or two, and then said ’I can’t
remember anything at all peculiar about them.’
The surgeon looked at her closely,
and was struck with the wooden irresponsiveness of
the face, which was however rather handsome, he thought,
than otherwise. No doubt, she was anxious to speak
deliberately, when so much might depend on her evidence
and her opinion. But he had never seen any countenance
more difficult to read.
‘Perhaps you’re not a close observer of
such things?’
‘No, I don’t think I am.’
’H’m that’s
rather a pity. A great deal may turn on them,
in this case.’
Then the face before him woke up a little.
’But I am quite sure I should
know my brother-in-law again, under any circumstances,’
said Bridget, with emphasis.
’Ah, don’t be so sure!
Privation and illness change people terribly.
And this poor fellow has suffered!’ he
shrugged his shoulders expressively. ’Well,
you will see him to-morrow. There is of course
no external evidence to help us whatever. The
unlucky accident that the Englishman’s companion who
was clearly a Belgian peasant, disguised of
that there is no doubt was shot through
the lungs at the very moment that the two men reached
the British line, has wiped out all possible means
of identification unless, of course, the
man himself can be recognised by someone who knew
him. We have had at least a dozen parties relations
of “missing” men much more recent
cases over here already to no
purpose. There is really no clue, unless’ the
speaker rose with a tired smile ’unless
you can supply one, when you see him. But I am
sorry about the fingers. That has always seemed
to me a possible clue. To-morrow then, at eleven?’
Bridget interrupted.
’It is surely most unlikely
that my brother-in-law could have survived all this
time? If he had been a prisoner, we should have
heard of him, long ago. Where could he have been?’
The young man shrugged his shoulders.
’There have been a few cases,
you know of escaped prisoners evading
capture for a long time and finally crossing
the line. But of course it is very unlikely most
unlikely. Well, to-morrow?’ He bowed and
departed.
Bridget made her way to her small
carpetless room, and sat for long with a shawl round
her at the open window. She could imagine the
farm in this moonlight. It was Saturday.
Very likely both Cicely and Sir William were at the
cottage. She seemed to see Nelly, with the white
shawl over her dark head, saying good-night to them
at the farm-gate. That meant that it was all
going forward. Some day, and soon, Nelly
would discover that Farrell was necessary to her that
she couldn’t do without him just
as she had never been able in practical ways to do
without her sister. No, there was nothing in
the way of Nelly’s great future, and the free
development of her Bridget’s own
life, but this sudden and most unwelcome stroke of
fate. If she had to send for Nelly supposing
it really were Sarratt and then if he died Nelly
might never get over it.
It might simply kill her why
not? All the world knew that she was a weakling.
And if it didn’t kill her, it would make it infinitely
less likely that she would marry Farrell in
any reasonable time. Nelly was not like other
people. She was all feelings. Actually to
see George die and in the state that these
doctors described would rack and torture
her. She would never be the same again. The
first shock was bad enough; this might be far worse.
Bridget’s selfishness, in truth, counted on
the same fact as Farrell’s tenderness. ’After
all, what people don’t see, they can’t
feel’ to quite the same degree.
But if Nelly, being Nelly, had seen the piteous thing,
she would turn against Farrell, and think it loyalty
to George to send her rich suitor about his business.
Bridget felt that she could exactly foretell the course
of things. A squalid and melancholy veil dropped
over the future. Poverty, struggle, ill-health
for Nelly poverty, and the starving of all
natural desires and ambitions for herself that
was all there was to look forward to, if the Farrells
were alienated, and the marriage thwarted.
A fierce revolt shook the woman by
the window. She sat on there till the moon dropped
into the sea, and everything was still in the little
echoing hotel. And then though she went to bed
she could not sleep.
After her coffee and roll in the little
salle a manger, which with its bare boards
and little rags of curtains was only meant for summer
guests, and was now, on this first of November, nippingly
cold, Bridget wandered a little on the shore watching
the white dust of the foam as a chill west wind skimmed
it from the incoming waves, then packed her bag, and
waited restlessly for Dr. Vincent. She understood
she was to be allowed, if she wished, two visits in
the hospital, so as to give her an opportunity of
watching the patient she was going to see, without
undue hurry, and would then be motored back to D
in time for the night boat. She was bracing herself
therefore to an experience the details of which she
only dimly foresaw, but which must in any case be excessively
disagreeable. What exactly she was going to do
or say, she didn’t know. How could she,
till the new fact was before her?
Punctually on the stroke of eleven,
a motor arrived in charge of an army driver, and Bridget
set out. They were to pick up Vincent in the town
of X itself and run on to the
Camp. The sun was out by this time, and all the
seaside village, with its gimcrack hotels and villas
flung pell-mell upon the sand, and among the pines,
was sparkling under it. So were the withered
woods, where the dead leaves were flying before the
wind, the old town where Napoleon gathered his legions
for the attack on England, and the wide sandy slopes
beyond it, where the pine woods had perished to make
room for the Camp. The car stopped presently on
the edge of the town. To the left spread a river
estuary, with a spit of land beyond, and lighthouses
upon it, sharp against a pale blue sky. Every
shade of pale yellow, of lilac and pearl, sparkled
in the distance, in the scudding water, the fast flying
westerly clouds, and the sandy inlets among the still
surviving pines.
‘You’re punctuality itself,’
said a man emerging from a building before which a
sentry was pacing ’Now we shall be
there directly.’
The building, so Bridget was informed,
housed the Headquarters of the Base, and from it the
business of the great Camp, whether on its military
or its hospital side, was mainly carried on. And
as they drove towards the Camp her companion, with
the natural pride of the Englishman in his job, told
the marvellous tale of the two preceding years how
the vast hospital city had been reared, and organised the
military camp too the convalescent camp the
transports and the feeding.
’The Boche thought they were
the only organisers in the world! We’ve
taught them better!’ he said, with a laugh in
his pleasant eyes, the whole man of him, so weary
the night before, now fresh and alert in the morning
sunshine.
Bridget listened with an unwilling
attention. This bit of the war seen close at
hand was beginning to suggest to her some new vast
world, of which she was wholly ignorant, where she
was the merest cypher on sufferance. The thought
was disagreeable to her irritable pride, and she thrust
it aside. She had other things to consider.
They drew up outside one of the general
hospitals lined along the Camp road.
‘You’ll find him in a
special ward,’ said Vincent, as he handed her
out. ‘But I’ll take you first to
Sister.’
They entered the first hut, and made
their way past various small rooms, amid busy people
going to and fro. Bridget was aware of the usual
hospital smell of mingled anesthetic and antiseptic,
and presently, her companion laid a hasty hand on
her arm and drew her to one side. A surgeon passed
with a nurse. They entered a room on the right,
and left the door of it a little ajar.
‘The operating theatre,’
said Vincent, with a gesture that shewed her where
to look; and through the open door Bridget saw a white
room beyond, an operating table and a man, a splendid
boy of nineteen or twenty lying on it, with doctors
and nurses standing round. The youth’s
features shewed waxen against the white walls, and
white overalls of the nurses.
‘This way,’ said Vincent.
’Sister, this is Miss Cookson. You remember Dr.
Howson sent for her.’
A shrewd-faced woman of forty in nurse’s
dress looked closely at Bridget.
’We shall be very glad indeed,
Miss Cookson, if you can throw any light on this case.
It is one of the saddest we have here. Will you
follow me, please?’
Bridget found herself passing through
the main ward of the hut, rows of beds on either hand.
She seemed to be morbidly conscious of scores of eyes
upon her, and was glad when she found herself in the
passage beyond the ward.
The Sister opened a door into a tiny
sitting-room, and offered Bridget a chair.
‘They have warned you that this
poor fellow is deaf and dumb?’
‘Yes I had heard that.’
’And his brain is very clouded.
He tries to do all we tell him it is touching
to see him. But his real intelligence seems to
be far away. Then there are the wounds.
Did Dr. Howson tell you about them?’
‘He said there were bad wounds.’
The Sister threw up her hands.
’How he ever managed to do the
walking he must have done to get through the lines
is a mystery to us all. What he must have endured!
The wounds must have been dressed to begin with in
a German field-hospital. Then on his way to Germany,
before the wounds had properly healed that
at least is our theory somewhere near the
Belgian frontier he must have made his escape.
What happened then, of course, during the winter and
spring nobody knows; but when he reached our lines,
the wounds were both in a septic state. There
have been two operations for gangrene since he has
been here. I don’t think he’ll stand
another.’
Bridget lifted her eyes and looked intently at the
speaker
‘You think he’s very ill?’
‘Very ill,’ said the Sister
emphatically. ’If you can identify him,
you must send for his wife at once at
once! Lieutenant Sarratt was, I think, married?’
‘Yes,’ said Bridget. ‘Now may
I see him?’
The Sister looked at her visitor curiously.
She was both puzzled and repelled by Bridget’s
manner, by its lack of spring and cordiality, its
dull suggestion of something reserved and held back.
But perhaps the woman was only shy; and oppressed
by the responsibility of what she had come to do.
The Sister was a very human person, and took tolerant
views of everything that was not German. She
rose, saying gently
’If I may advise you, take time
to watch him, before you form or express any opinion.
We won’t hurry you.’
Bridget followed her guide a few steps
along the corridor. The Sister opened a door,
and stood aside to let Bridget pass in. Then she
came in herself, and beckoned to a young probationer
who was rolling bandages on the further side of the
only bed the room contained. The girl quietly
put down her work and went out.
There was a man lying in the bed,
and Bridget looked at him. Her heart beat so
fast, that she felt for a moment sick and suffocated.
The Sister bent over him tenderly, and put back the
hair, the grey hair which had fallen over his forehead.
At the touch, his eyes opened, and as he saw the Sister’s
face he very faintly smiled. Bridget suddenly
put out a hand and steadied herself by a chair standing
beside the bed. The Sister however saw nothing
but the face on the pillow, and the smile. The
smile was so rare! it was the one sufficient
reward for all his nurses did for him.
‘Now I’ll leave you,’
said the Sister, forbearing to ask any further questions.
’Won’t you sit down there? If you
want anyone, you have only to touch that bell.’
She disappeared. And Bridget
sat down, her eyes on the figure in the bed, and on
the hand outside the sheet. Her own hands were
trembling, as they lay crossed upon her lap.
How grey and thin the hair was how
ghostly the face what suffering in every
line!
Bridget drew closer.
‘George!’ she whispered.
No answer. The man’s eyes
were closed again. He seemed to be asleep.
Bridget looked at his hand intently.
Then she touched it.
The heavy blue-veined eyelids rose
again, as though at the only summons the brain understood.
Bridget bent forward. What colour there had been
in it before ebbed from her sallow face; her lips grew
white. The eyes of the man in the bed met hers first
mechanically without any sign of consciousness;
then was it imagination? or was
there a sudden change of expression a quick
trouble a flickering of the lids? Bridget
shook through every limb. If he recognised her,
if the sight of her brought memory back even
a gleam of it there was an end of everything,
of course. She had only to go to the nearest
telegraph office and send for Nelly.
But the momentary stimulus passed
as she looked the eyes grew vacant again the
lids fell. Bridget drew a long breath. She
raised herself and moved her chair farther away.
Time passed. The window behind
her was open, and the sun came in, and stole over
the bed. The sick man scarcely moved at all.
There was complete silence, except for the tread of
persons in the corridor outside, and certain distant
sounds of musketry and bomb practice from the military
camp half a mile away.
He was dying the man in
the bed. That was plain. Bridget knew the
look of mortal illness. It couldn’t be
long.
She sat there nearly an hour thinking.
At the end of that time she rang the hand-bell near
her.
Sister Agnes appeared at once.
Bridget had risen and confronted her.
‘Well,’ said the Sister
eagerly. But the visitor’s irresponsive
look quenched her hopes at once.
‘I see nothing at all that reminds
me of my brother-in-law,’ said Bridget with
emphasis. ’I am very sorry but
I cannot identify this person as George Sarratt.’
The Sister’s face fell.
‘You don’t even see the general likeness
Dr. Howson thought he saw?’
Bridget turned back with her towards the bed.
‘I see what Dr. Howson meant,’
she said, slowly. ’But there is no real
likeness. My brother-in-law’s face was much
longer. His mouth was quite different. And
his eyes were brown.’
‘Did you see the eyes again? Did he look
at you?’
‘Yes.’
‘And there was no sign of recognition?’
‘No.’
‘Poor dear fellow!’ said
the Sister, stooping over him again. There was
a profound and yearning pity in the gesture. ’I
wish we could have kept him more alive more
awake for you, to see. But there had
to be morphia this morning. He had a dreadful
night. Are you quite sure? Wouldn’t
you like to come back this afternoon, and watch him
again? Sometimes a second time Oh,
and what of the hands? did you notice them?’
And suddenly remembering Dr. Howson’s words,
the Sister pointed to the long, bloodless fingers
lying on the sheet, and to the marked deformity in
each little finger.
‘Yet but George’s
hands were not peculiar in any way.’ Bridget’s
voice, as she spoke, seemed to herself to come from
far away; as though it were that of another person
speaking under compulsion.
’I’m sorry I’m
sorry!’ the Sister repeated.
’It’s so sad for him to be dying here all
alone nobody knowing even who he is when
one thinks how somebody must be grieving and longing
for him.’
‘Have you no other enquiries?’
said Bridget, abruptly, turning to pick up some gloves
she had laid down.
’Oh yes we have had
other visitors and I believe there is a
gentleman coming to-morrow. But nothing that
sounded so promising as your visit. You won’t
come again?’
‘It would be no use,’
said the even, determined voice. ’I will
write to Dr. Howson from London. And I do hope’ for
the first time, the kindly nurse perceived some agitation
in this impressive stranger ’I do
hope that nobody will write to my sister to
Mrs. Sarratt. She is very delicate. Excitement
and disappointment might just kill her. That’s
why I came.’
’And that of course is why Dr.
Howson wrote to you first. Oh I am sure he will
take every care. He’ll be very, very sorry!
You’ll write to him? And of course so shall
I.’
The news that the lady from England
had failed to identify the nameless patient to whom
doctor and nurses had been for weeks giving their most
devoted care spread rapidly, and Bridget before she
left the hospital had to run the gauntlet of a good
many enquiries, at the hands of the various hospital
chiefs. She produced on all those who questioned
her the impression of an unattractive, hard, intelligent
woman whose judgment could probably be trusted.
‘Glad she isn’t my sister-in-law!’
thought Vincent as he turned back from handing her
into the motor which was to take her to the port.
But he did not doubt her verdict, and was only sorry
for ‘old Howson,’ who had been so sure
that something would come of her visit.
The motor took Bridget rapidly back
to D , where she would be in good
time for an afternoon boat. She got some food,
automatically, at a hotel near the quay, and automatically
made her way to the boat when the time came.
A dull sense of something irrevocable, something
horrible, overshadowed her. But the
‘will to conquer’ in her was as iron;
and, as in the Prussian conscience, left no room for
pity or remorse.