“I want to know what all this
means about young Wentworth,” said Mr Wodehouse.
“He’s gone off, it appears, in a hurry,
nobody knows where. Well, so they say. To
his brother’s, is it? I couldn’t
know that; but look here-that’s not
all, nor nearly all-they say he meets that
little Rosa at Elsworthy’s every night, and walks
home with her, and all that sort of thing. I
tell you I don’t know-that’s
what people say. You ought to understand all
the rights of it, you two girls. I confess I
thought it was Lucy he was after, for my part-and
a very bad match, too, and one I should never have
given my consent to. And then there is another
fine talk about some fellow he’s got at his
house. What’s the matter, Molly?-she
looks as if she was going to faint.”
“Oh no,” said Miss Wodehouse,
faintly; “and I don’t believe a word about
Rosa Elsworthy,” she said, with sudden impetuosity,
a minute after. “I am sure Mr Wentworth
could vindicate himself whenever he likes. I
daresay the one story is just as true as the other;
but then,” said the gentle elder sister, turning
with anxious looks towards Lucy, “he is proud,
as is natural; and I shouldn’t think he would
enter into explanations if he thought people did not
trust him without them.”
“That is all stuff,” said
Mr Wodehouse; “why should people trust him?
I don’t understand trusting a man in all sorts
of equivocal circumstances, because he’s got
dark eyes, &c., and a handsome face-which
seems your code of morality; but I thought
he was after Lucy-that was my belief-and
I want to know if it’s all off.”
“It never was on, papa,”
said Lucy, in her clearest voice. “I have
been a great deal in the district, you know, and Mr
Wentworth and I could not help meeting each other;
that is all about it: but people must always
have something to talk about in Carlingford. I
hope you don’t think I and Rosa Elsworthy could
go together,” she went on, turning round to him
with a smile. “I don’t think that
would be much of a compliment;” and, saying
this, Lucy went to get her work out of its usual corner,
and sat down opposite to her father, with a wonderfully
composed face. She was so composed, indeed, that
any interested beholder might have been justified
in thinking that the work suffered in consequence,
for it seemed to take nearly all Lucy’s strength
and leisure to keep up that look.
“Oh!” said Mr Wodehouse,
“that’s how it was? Then I wonder
why that confounded puppy came here so constantly?
I don’t like that sort of behaviour. Don’t
you go into the district any more and meet him-that’s
all I’ve got to say.”
“Because of Rosa Elsworthy?”
said Lucy, with a little smile, which did not flicker
naturally, but was apt to get fixed at the corners
of her pretty mouth. “That would never
do, papa. Mr Wentworth’s private concerns
are nothing to us; but, you know, there is a great
work going on in the district, and that can’t
be interfered with,” said the young Sister of
Mercy, looking up at him with a decision which Mr Wodehouse
was aware he could make no stand against. And
when she stopped speaking, Lucy did a little work,
which was for the district too. All this time
she was admitting to herself that she had been much
startled by this news about Rosa Elsworthy,-much
startled. To be sure, it was not like Mr Wentworth,
and very likely it would impair his influence; and
it was natural that any friend taking an interest
in him and the district, should be taken a little
aback by such news. Accordingly, Lucy sat a little
more upright than usual, and was conscious that when
she smiled, as she had just done, the smile did not
glide off again in a natural way, but settled down
into the lines of her face with a kind of spasmodic
tenacity. She could do a great deal in the way
of self-control, but she could not quite command these
refractory muscles. Mr Wodehouse, who was not
particularly penetrating, could not quite make her
out; he saw there was something a little different
from her ordinary look about his favourite child,
but he had not insight enough to enable him to comprehend
what it was.
“And about his man who is staying
at Mrs Hadwin’s?” said the perplexed churchwarden;
“does any one know who the fellow is? I
don’t understand how Wentworth has got into
all this hot water in a moment. Here’s the
Rector in a state of fury,-and his aunts,-and
now here’s this little bit of scandal to crown
all;-and who is this fellow in his house?”
“It must be somebody he has
taken in out of charity,” said Miss Wodehouse,
with tears in her eyes; “I am sure it is somebody
whom he has opened his doors to out of Christian charity
and the goodness of his heart. I don’t
understand how you can all desert him at the first
word. All the years he has been here, you know
there never was a whisper against him; and is it in
reason to think he would go so far wrong all in a
moment?” cried the faithful advocate of the Perpetual
Curate. Her words were addressed to Mr Wodehouse,
but her eyes sought Lucy, who was sitting very upright
doing her work, without any leisure to look round.
Lucy had quite enough to occupy her within herself
at that emergency, and the tearful appeal of her elder
sister had no effect upon her. As for Mr Wodehouse,
he was more and more puzzled how to interpret these
tears in his daughter’s eyes.
“I don’t make it out at
all,” said the perplexed father, getting up to
leave the room. “I hope you weren’t
in love with him, Molly? you ought to have too much
sense for that. A pretty mess he’ll find
when he comes home; but he must get out of it the
best way he can, for I can’t help him,
at least. I don’t mean to have him asked
here any more-you understand, Lucy,”
he said, turning round at the door, with an emphatic
creak of his boots. But Lucy had no mind to be
seduced into any such confession of weakness.
“You are always having everybody
in Carlingford to dinner,” said the young housekeeper,
“and all the clergymen, even that Mr Leeson;
and I don’t see why you should except Mr Wentworth,
papa; he has done nothing wicked, so far as we know.
I daresay he won’t want to bring Rosa Elsworthy
with him; and why shouldn’t he be asked here?”
said Lucy, looking full in his face with her bright
eyes. Mr Wodehouse was entirely discomfited,
and did not know what to say. “I wonder
if you know what you mean yourselves, you women,”
he muttered; and then, with a shrug of his shoulders,
and a hasty “settle it as you please,”
the churchwarden’s boots creaked hastily out
of the room, and out of the house.
After this a dead silence fell upon
the drawing-room and its two occupants. They
did not burst forth into mutual comment upon this last
piece of Carlingford news, as they would have done
under any other circumstances; on the contrary, they
bent over their several occupations with quite an
unusual devotion, not exchanging so much as a look.
Lucy, over her needlework, was the steadiest of the
two; she was still at the same point in her thoughts,
owning to herself that she was startled, and indeed
shocked, by what she had heard-that it was
a great pity for Mr Wentworth; perhaps that it was
not quite what might have been expected of him,-and
then she checked herself, and went back again to her
original acknowledgment. To tell the truth, though
she assured herself that she had nothing to do with
it, a strange sense of having just passed through
an unexpected illness, lay underneath Lucy’s
composure. It was none of her business, to be
sure, but she could not help feeling as if she had
just had a fever, or some other sudden unlooked-for
attack, and that nobody knew of it, and that she must
get well as best she could, without any help from
without.
It was quite half an hour before Miss
Wodehouse got up from the knitting which she had spoiled
utterly, trying to take up the dropped stitches with
her trembling fingers, and dropping others by every
effort she made. The poor lady went wistfully
about the room, wandering from corner to corner, as
if in search of something; at last she took courage
to speak, when she found herself behind her young
sister. “Dear, I am sure it is not true,”
said Miss Wodehouse, suddenly, with a little sob;
and then she came close to Lucy’s chair, and
put her hand timidly upon her sister’s shoulder.
“Think how many good things you two have done
together, dear; and is it likely you are to be parted
like this?” said the injudicious comforter.
It felt rather like another attack of fever to Lucy,
as unexpected as the last.
“Don’t speak so, please,”
said the poor girl, with a momentary shiver.
“It is about Mr Wentworth you mean?” she
went on, after a little, without turning her head.
“I-am sorry, of course. I am
afraid it will do him-harm,” and
then she made a pause, and stumbled over her sewing
with fingers which felt feeble and powerless to the
very tips-all on account of this fever
she had had. “But I don’t know any
reason why you and I should discuss it, Mary,”
she said, getting up in her turn, not quite sure whether
she could stand at this early period of her convalescence,
but resolved to try. “We are both Mr Wentworth’s
friends-and we need not say any harm of
him. I have to get something out of the storeroom
for to-night.”
“But, Lucy,” said the
tender, trembling sister, who did not know how to
be wise and silent, “I trust him, and
you don’t. Oh, my dear, it will
break my heart. I know some part of it is not
true. I know one thing in which he is quite-quite
innocent. Oh, Lucy, my darling, if you distrust
him it will be returning evil for good!” cried
poor Miss Wodehouse, with tears. As for Lucy,
she did not quite know what her sister said.
She only felt that it was cruel to stop her, and look
at her, and talk to her; and there woke up in her
mind a fierce sudden spark of resistance to the intolerable.
“Why do you hold me? I
may have been ill, but I can stand well enough by
myself,” cried Lucy, to her sister’s utter
bewilderment. “That is, I-I
mean, I have other things to attend to,” she
cried, breaking into a few hot tears of mortification
over this self-betrayal; and so went away in a strange
glow and tremble of sudden passion, such as had never
been seen before in that quiet house. She went
direct to the storeroom, as she had said, and got
out what was wanted; and only after that was done
permitted herself to go up to her own room, and turn
the key in her door. Though she was a Sister of
Mercy, and much beloved in Prickett’s Lane,
she was still but one of Eve’s poor petulant
women-children, and had it in her to fly at an intruder
on her suffering, like any other wounded creature.
But she did not make any wild demonstration of her
pain, even when shut up thus in her fortress.
She sat down on the sofa, in a kind of dull heaviness,
looking into vacancy. She was not positively thinking
of Mr Wentworth, or of any one thing in particular.
She was only conscious of a terrible difference somehow
in everything about her-in the air which
choked her breathing, and the light which blinded her
eyes. When she came to herself a little, she
said over and over, half-aloud, that everything was
just the same as it had always been, and that to her
at least nothing had happened; but that declaration,
though made with vehemence, did not alter matters.
The world altogether had sustained a change.
The light that was in it was darkened, and the heart
stilled. All at once, instead of a sweet spontaneous
career, providing for its own wants day by day, life
came to look like something which required such an
amount of courage and patience and endurance as Lucy
had not at hand to support her in the way; and her
heart failed her at the moment when she found this
out.
Notwithstanding, the people who dined
at Mr Wodehouse’s that night thought it a very
agreeable little party, and more than once repeated
the remark, so familiar to most persons in society
in Carlingford-that Wodehouse’s parties
were the pleasantest going, though he himself was
humdrum enough. Two or three of the people present
had heard the gossip about Mr Wentworth, and discussed
it, as was natural, taking different views of the
subject; and poor Miss Wodehouse took up his defence
so warmly, and with such tearful vehemence, that there
were smiles to be seen on several faces. As for
Lucy, she made only a very simple remark on the subject.
She said: “Mr Wentworth is a great friend
of ours, and I think I would rather not hear any gossip
about him.” Of course there were one or
two keen observers who put a subtle meaning to this,
and knew what was signified by her looks and her ways
all the evening; but, most likely, they were altogether
mistaken in their suppositions, for nobody could possibly
watch her so closely as did Miss Wodehouse, who know
no more than the man in the moon, at the close of
the evening, whether her young sister was very wretched
or totally indifferent. The truth was certainly
not to be discovered, for that night at least, in
Lucy’s looks.