Well, no one will deny that Sunday
comes after Saturday; and it was Saturday evening,
when the heavens painted themselves with fire, and
the sun lit up all the house-windows to welcome us
home. Sunday is not usually one of our blandest
days, but we must hope for the best.
“General,” say I, standing
before him, dressed for morning church, after having
previously turned slowly round on the point of my toes,
to favor him with the back view of as delightful a
bonnet, and as airily fresh and fine a muslin gown,
as ever young woman said her prayers in “by-the-by,
do you like my calling you general?”
“At least I understand who you
mean by it,” he says, a little evasively; “which,
after all, is the great thing, is not it?”
“It is my own invention,”
say I, rather proudly; “nobody put it into my
head, and nobody else calls you by it, do they?”
“Not now.”
“Not now?” cry I, surprised; “but
did they ever?”
“Yes,” he says, “for
about a year, most people did; I was general a year
before my brother died.”
“Your brother died?”
cry I, again repeating his words, and arching my eyebrows,
which have not naturally the slightest tendency toward
describing a semicircle. “What! you
had a brother, too, had you? I never knew that
before.”
“Did you think you had
a monopoly of them?” laughing a little.
“So you were not ‘Sir’ always?”
“No more than you are,”
he answers, smiling. “No, I was not born
in the purple; for thirty-seven years of my life I
earned my own bread and rather dry bread
too.”
“You do not say so!” cry I, in some astonishment.
“If I had come here seven years
ago,” he says, taking both my pale yellow hands
in his light gray ones, and looking at me with eyes
which seem darker and deeper than usual under the
shade of the brim of his tall hat “by-the-by,
you would have been a little girl then as
little as Tou Tou ”
“Yes,” interrupt I, breaking
in hastily; “but, indeed, I never was a bit
like her, never. I never had such legs ask
the boys if I had!”
“I did not suppose that you
had,” he answers, bursting into a hearty and
most unfeigned laugh! “but” (growing grave
again), “Nancy, suppose that I had come here
then! I should have had no shooting to offer the
boys no horses to mount Algy no
house worth asking Barbara to ”
“No more you would!” say
I, too much impressed with surprise at this new light
on Sir Roger’s past life to notice the sort of
wistfulness and inquiry that lurks in his last words;
then, after a second, perceiving it: “And
you think,” say I, loosing my hands from his,
and growing as pink as the delicate China rose-bud
that is peeping round the corner of the trellis in
at the window, “that there would not have been
as much inducement then for me to propose to
you, as there was in the present state of things!”
I am laughing awkwardly as I speak;
then, eagerly changing the conversation, and rushing
into another subject: “By-the-by, I had
something to say to you something quite
important before we digressed.”
“Yes?”
“O general!” taking hold
of the lapel of his coat, and looking up at him with
appealing earnestness, “do you know that I have
made up my mind to give him the bag
to-day! it is no use putting off the evil day it
must come, after supper they all
say after supper!”
“Yes?”
“Well, I want you to talk to
him all day, and get him into a good-humor
by then, if you can, that is all!”
“That is all!”
repeats my husband, with the slightest possible ironical
accent. Then we go to church. It is too near
to drive, so we all walk. The church-yard elms
are out in fullest leaf above our heads. There
are so many leaves, and they are so close together,
that they hide the great brown rooks’ nests.
They do not hide the rooks themselves. It would
take a good deal to do that. Dear pleasant-spoken
rooks, talking so loudly and irreverently about their
own secular themes out-cawing the church-bells,
as we pace by, devout and smart, to our prayers.
Last time I walked up this path, it was hidden with
red cloth, and flowers were tumbling under my feet.
Ah! red cloth comes but once in a lifetime. It
is only the queen who lives in an atmosphere of red
cloth and cut flowers.
We are in church now. The service
is in progress. Can it be only five Sundays
ago that I was standing here as I am now, watching
all the little well-known incidents? Father standing
up in frock-coat and spectacles, keeping a sharp lookout
over the top of his prayer-book, to see how
late the servants are. The ill-behaved charity-boys
emulously trying who shall make the hind-legs of his
chair squeak the loudest on the stone floor.
Toothless Jack leering distantly at Barbara from the
side aisle. Something apparently is amusing him.
He is smiling a little. I see his teeth.
They, at least, are new. They were not here
five weeks ago. The little starved curate the
one who tore his gloves into strips loses
his place in the second lesson, and madly plunges at
three different wrong verses in succession, before
he regains the thread of his narrative.
We have come to the sermon. The
text is, “I have married a wife, and therefore
I cannot come.” No sooner is it given out
than Algy, Bobby, and Tou Tou, all look at me and
grin; but father, who has a wily way of establishing
himself in the corner of the pew, so as to have a
bird’s-eye view of all our demeanors, speedily
frowns them down into a preternatural gravity.
Ah, why to-day, of all days, did they laugh?
and why to-day, of all days, did the servants
file noisily in, numerous and out of breath, in the
middle of the psalms? I tremble when I think
of the bag.
Well, who will may laugh again now:
we are out in the sunshine, with the church-yard grass
bowing and swaying in the wind, and the little cloud-shadows
flying across the half-effaced names of the forgotten
dead, who lie under their lichen-grown tombs.
“Did you see his teeth?”
asks Tou Tou, joining me with a leap, almost before
I am outside the church-porch.
“They are not comfortable yet,”
remarks Bobby, gravely, as he walks beside me carrying
my prayer-book. “I could see that:
he was taking them out, and putting them in again,
with his tongue all through the Litany.”
“When once he has secured Barbara,
I expect that they will go back with the box for good
and all eh, Barbara?” say I, laughing,
as I speak; but Barbara is out of ear-shot. She
is lingering behind to shake hands with the curate,
and ask all the poor old people after their diseases.
I never can recollect clearly who has
what. I always apportion the rheumatism
wrongly, but she never does. There she
stands just by the church-gate, with the little sunny
lights running up and down upon her snow-white gown,
shaking each grimy old hand with a kind and friendly
equality.
The day rolls by; afternoon service;
walk round the grounds; early dinner (we always embitter
our lives on Sundays by dining at six, which
does the servants no good, and sours the tempers of
the whole family); then prayers. Prayers are
always immediately followed by that light refection
which we call supper.
As the time approaches, my heart sinks
imperceptibly lower in my system than the place where
it usually resides.
“Be ready, Sister Nancy,
For the time is drawing nigh,”
says Algy, solemnly, putting his arm
round my shoulders, as, the prayer-bell having rung,
we set off for the wonted justicing-room.
“Have a pull at my flask,”
suggests Bobby, seriously; “there is some cognac
left in it since the day we fished the pool. It
would do you all the good in the world, and, if you
took enough, you would feel able to give him
ten bags, or, indeed, throw them at his head
at a pinch.”
“Have you got it?” say
I, faintly, to the general, who at this moment joins
us.
“Yes, here it is.”
“But what will you do with it
meanwhile?” cry I, anxiously; “he
must not see it first.”
“Sit upon it,” suggests Algy, flippantly.
“Hang it round his neck while
he is at prayers,” bursts out Bobby, with the
air of a person who has had an illumination; “you
know he always pretends to have his eyes shut.”
“And at ‘Amen,’
he would awake to find himself famous,” says
Algy, pseudo-pompously.
But this suggestion, although I cannot
help looking upon it as ingenious, I do not adopt.
Prayers on Sunday are a much finer
and larger ceremonial than they are on week-days.
In the first place, instead of a few of the church
prayers quickly pattered, which are ended in five
minutes, we have a whole long sermon, which lasts
twenty. In the second place, the congregation
is so much greater. On week-days it is only the
in-door servants; on Sundays it is the whole staff coachman,
grooms, stablemen. I think myself that it is
more in the nature of a parade, to insure that
none of the establishment are out sweethearting,
than of a religious exercise. Usually I am delighted
when the sermon is ended. Even Barrow or Jeremy
Taylor would sound dull and stale if fired off in a
flat, fierce monotone, without emphasis or modulation.
To-night, at every page that turns, my heart declines
lower and lower down. It is ended now; so is
the short prayer that follows it. We all rise,
and father stands with his hawk-eyes fixed on the
servants, as they march out, counting them.
The upper servants are all right; so are the housemaids,
cookmaids, and lesser scullions. Alas! alas!
there is a helper wanting.
Having listened to and disbelieved
the explanation of his absence, father leads the way
into supper, but the little incident has taken the
bloom off his suavity.
Sir Roger has deposited the bag still
wrapped in its paper coverings on a chair,
in a modest and unobtrusive corner of the dining-room,
ready for presentation. He did this just before
prayers. As we enter the room, father’s
eyes fall on it.
“What is that?”
he cries, pointing with his forefinger, and turning
severely to the boys. “How many times have
I told you that I will not have parcels left about,
littering the whole place? Off with it!”
“If you please, father,”
say I, in a very small and starved voice, “it
is not the boys’, it is mine.”
“Yours, is it?”
with a sudden change of tone, and return to amenity.
“Oh, all right!” (Then, with a little accent
of sudden jocosity) “One of your
foreign purchases, eh?”
We sit round the snowy table, in the
pleasant light of the shaded lamps, eating chicken-salad,
and abasing and rifling the great red pyramids of
strawberries and raspberries, but talking not much.
We young ones never can talk out loud before
father. He has never heard our voices raised
much above a whisper. I do not think he has an
idea what fine, loud, Billingsgate voices his children
really have. He has said grace we
always have a longer, gratefuller grace than
usual on Sundays and has risen to go.
“Now for it!” cries Bobby,
wildly excited, and giving me an awful dig in the
ribs with his elbow.
“Shall I get it?” asks
the general, in an encouraging whisper. “Cheer
up, Nancy! do not look so white! it is all right.”
He rises and fetches it, slips it
quickly out of its coverings, and puts it into my
hand. Father has reached the door, I run after
him.
“Father!” cry I, in a choked and trembling
voice. “Stop!”
He turns with the handle in his grasp, and looks at
me in some surprise.
“Father!” cry I, beginning
again, and holding my gift out nervously toward him,
“here’s here’s here’s
a bag!”
This is my address of presentation.
I hear the boys tittering at the table behind me a
sound which, telling me how ill I am speeding, makes
my confusion tenfold worse. I murmur, helplessly
and indistinctly, something about his never traveling,
and my knowing that fact and having been
always sure that he would hate it and then
I glance helplessly round with a wild idea of flight.
But at the same moment an arm of friendly strength
comes round my shoulders a friendly voice
sounds in my buzzing ears.
“James,” it says, simply
and directly, “she has brought you a present,
and she is afraid that you will not care about it.”
“A present!” echoes
my father, the meaning of the inexplicable object
which has suddenly been thrust into his grasp beginning
to dawn upon him. “Oh, I see! I am
sure, my dear Nancy” with a sort of
embarrassed stiffness that yet means to be gracious “that
I am extremely obliged to you, extremely; and though
I regret that you should have wasted your money on
me yet yet I assure
you, I shall always prize it very highly.”
Then he goes out rather hastily.
I return to the supper-table.
“Shake hands!” cries Algy,
pouring me out a glass of claret. “Now,
perhaps, you have some faint idea of what I
felt when I had to return thanks for the bridesmaids.”
“Nancy!” cries Bobby,
holding out the fruit to which he alludes, and speaking
in a wobbly, quivering voice, with a painfully literal
imitation of my late address, “here’s here’s here’s
a peach!”
But I am burying my face in Sir Roger’s
shoulder, like a shy child.
“I like you!” I
say, creeping up quite close to him. “You
were the only one that came to help me. If it
had not been for you, I should be there still!”