The woman turned from the window at
the sound of footsteps somewhere behind her.
That was her way now. She started at each fresh
sound that suggested anyone approaching. Her
nerves were on edge for some reason she could never
have put into words. She did not fear, yet a curious
nervousness was hers which made her listen acutely
at every footstep, and breathe her relief if the sound
died away without further intrusion upon her privacy.
Presently she turned back to the window
with just such relief. The footstep had passed.
She drew her feet up into the ample seat of the rocking-chair,
and, with her elbow resting upon its arm, heavily
pressed her chin into the palm of her hand, and again
stared at the rampart of mountains beyond.
Nor had all the beauties spread out
before her yearning gaze the least appeal for her.
How should they? Her thoughts were roaming in
a world of her own, and her eyes were occupied in
gazing upon her woman’s pictures as she saw
them in her mind. The wonders of that scene of
natural splendor laid out before her had no power to
penetrate the armor of her preoccupation. All
her mind and heart were stirred and torn by emotions
such as only a woman can understand, only a woman can
feel. The ancient battle of titanic forces, which
had brought into existence that world of stupendous
might upon which her unseeing eyes gazed, was as nothing,
it seemed, to the passionate struggle going on in
her torn heart. To her there was nothing beyond
her own regretful misery, her own dread of the future,
her passionate revulsion at thoughts of the past.
The truth was, she had not yet found
the happiness she had promised herself, that had been
promised to her. She had left behind her all
that life which, when it had been hers, she had hated.
Her passionate nature had drawn her whither its stormy
waves listed. And now that the tempest was passed,
and the driving forces had ceased to urge, leaving
her in a rock-bound pool of reflection, she saw the
enormity of the step she had taken, she realized the
strength of Nature’s tendrils which still bound
her no less surely.
The mild face of Scipio haunted her.
She saw in her remorseful fancy his wondering blue
eyes filled with the stricken look of a man powerless
to resent, powerless to resist. She read into
her thought the feelings of his simple heart which
she had so wantonly crushed. For she knew his
love as only a woman can. She had probed its depth
and found it fathomless fathomless in its
devotion to herself. And now she had thrown him
and his love, the great legitimate love of the father
of her children, headlong out of her life.
A dozen times she bolstered her actions
with the assurance that she did not want his love,
that he was not the man she had ever cared for seriously,
could ever care for. She told herself that the
insignificance of his character, his personality, were
beneath contempt. She desired a man of strength
for her partner, a man who could make himself of some
account in the world which was theirs.
No, she did not want Scipio.
He was useless in the scheme of life, and she did
not wish to have to “mother” her husband.
Far rather would she be the slave of a man whose ruthless
domination extended even to herself. And yet
Scipio’s mild eyes haunted her, and stirred something
in her heart that maddened her, and robbed her of all
satisfaction in the step she had taken.
But this was only a small part of
the cause of her present mood. She had not at
first had the vaguest understanding of the bonds which
really fettered her, holding her fast to the life that
had been hers for so long. Now she knew.
And the knowledge brought with it its bitter cost.
Some forewarning had been hers when she appealed to
her lover for the possession of her children.
But although her mother’s instinct had been
stirred to alarm at parting, she had not, at that
time, experienced the real horror of what she was doing
in abandoning her children.
She was inconsolable now. With
all her mind and heart she was crying out for the
warm, moist pressure of infant lips. Her whole
body yearned for those who were flesh of her flesh,
for the gentle beating hearts to which her body had
given life. They were hers hers, and
of her own action she had put them out of her life.
They were hers, and she was maddened at the thought
that she had left them to another. They were
hers, and yes, she must have them.
Whatever happened, they must be restored to her.
Life would be intolerable without them.
She was in a wholly unreasoning state
of mind. All the mother in her was uppermost,
craving, yearning, panting for her own. For the
time, at least, all else was lost in an overwhelming
regret, and such a power of love for her offspring,
that she had no room for the man who had brought about
the separation.
She was a selfish woman, and had always
craved for the best that life could give her, but
now that her mother-love was truly roused her selfishness
knew no bounds. She had no thought for anybody,
no consideration. She could have none until her
desire was satisfied.
Her tortured heart grew angry against
Scipio. She was driven to fury against James.
What mattered it that her lover had so far fulfilled
all his other promises to her, if he did not procure
the children and return them to her arms? What
mattered it that she was surrounded with luxury uncommon
on the prairie, a luxury she had not known for so
many years?
She had her own rooms, where no one
intruded without her consent. The spacious house
had been ransacked to make them all that she could
desire. All the outlaw’s associates
were herded into the background, lest their presence
should offend her. Even James himself had refrained
from forcing his attentions upon her, lest, in the
first rush of feeling at her breaking with the old
life, they should be unwelcome. His patience
and restraint were wonderful in a man of his peculiar
savagery. And surely it pointed his love for her.
Had it been simply the momentary passion of an untamed
nature, he would have waited for nothing, when once
she had become his possession.
It was a curious anachronism that
she should be the mistress of the situation with such
a man as James. Yet so far she was mistress of
the situation. The question was, how long would
she remain so? It is possible that she had no
understanding of this at first. It is possible
that she would have resented such a question, had it
occurred to her when she first consented to break
away from her old life.
But now it was different. Now
that she began to understand all she had flung away
for this man, when the mother in her was at last fully
aroused, and all her wits were driven headlong to discover
a way by which to satisfy her all-consuming desire
for her children, now the native cunning of the woman
asserted itself. She saw in one revealing flash
her position, she saw where lay her power at the moment,
and she clung to it desperately, determined to play
the man while she could to gain her ends.
Thus it was she was nervous, apprehensive,
every time she thought it likely that her lover was
about to visit her. She dreaded what might transpire.
She dreaded lest her power should be weakened before
she had accomplished her end. It was difficult;
it was nerve-racking. She must keep his love
at fever-heat. It was her one chance.
Again she started. It was the
sound of a fresh footstep beyond the door. She
glanced at the door with half-startled eyes and sat
listening. Then her lips closed decidedly and
a look of purpose crept into her eyes. A moment
later she stood up. She was pale, but full of
purpose.
“Is that you, Jim?” she called.
“Sure,” came the ready response.
The next instant the door was flung open and the man
came in.
His bronzed face was smiling, and
the savage in him was hidden deep down out of sight.
His handsome face was good to look upon, and as the
woman’s eyes surveyed his carefully clad slim
figure she felt a thrill of triumph at the thought
that he was hers at the raising of her finger.
But she faced him without any responsive
smile. She had summoned him with a very definite
purpose in her mind, and no display of anything that
could be interpreted into weakness must be made.
“I want to talk to you,”
she said, pointing at the rocking-chair she had just
vacated.
James glanced at the chair. Then
his eyes turned back to her with a question in them.
Finally he shrugged his shoulders and flung himself
into the seat, and stretched out his long legs luxuriously.
Apparently Jessie had not noticed
the shrug. It would have been better had she
done so. She might then have understood more fully
the man she was dealing with. However, she turned
to the window and spoke with her back to him.
“It’s about things,”
she said a little lamely.
The man’s smile was something
ironical, as his eyes greedily devoured the beauty
of her figure.
“I’m glad,” he said
in a non-committing way. Then, as no reply was
immediately forthcoming, he added, “Get going.”
But Jessie made no answer. She
was thinking hard, and somehow her thoughts had an
uneasy confusion in them. She was trying hard
to find the best way to begin that which she had to
say, but every opening seemed inadequate. She
must not appeal, she must not dictate. She must
adopt some middle course. These things she felt
instinctively.
The man shifted his position and glanced round the
room.
“Kind of snug here,” he
said pleasantly, running his eyes appreciatively over
the simple decorations, the cheap bric-a-brac
which lined the walls and, in a world where all decoration
was chiefly conspicuous by its absence, gave to the
place a suggestion of richness. The red pine
walls looked warm, and the carpeted floor was so unusual
as to give one a feeling of extraordinary refinement.
Then, too, the chairs, scattered about, spoke of a
strain after civilized luxury. The whole ranch-house
had been turned inside out to make Jessie’s quarters
all she could desire them.
“Yes,” he muttered, “it’s
sure snug.” Then his eyes came back to the
woman. “Maybe there’s something I’ve
forgotten. Guess you’ve just got to fix
a name to it.”
Jessie turned instantly. Her
beautiful eyes were shining with a sudden hope, but
her face was pale with a hardly controlled emotion.
“That’s easy,” she
said. “I want my children. I want little
Vada. I I must have her. You
promised I should. If you hadn’t, I should
never have left. I must have her.”
She spoke breathlessly, and broke off with a sort
of nervous jolt.
In the pause that followed James’
expression underwent a subtle change. It was
not that there was any definite movement of a single
muscle. His smile remained, but, somehow, through
it peeped a hard look which had not been there before.
“So you want the
kids,” he said at last, and a curious metallic
quality was in his voice. “Say,” he
added thoughtfully, “you women are queer ones.”
“Maybe we are,” retorted
Jessie. She tried to laugh as she spoke, but
it was a dismal failure. Then she hurried on.
“Yes,” she cried a little shrilly, “it
was part of our bargain, and so far you
have not carried it out.”
“Bargain?” The man’s brows went
up.
“Yes, bargain.”
“I don’t remember a bargain.”
James’ eyes had in them an ominous glitter.
“Then you’ve got a bad memory.”
“I sure haven’t, Jess.
I sure haven’t that. I generally remember
good. And what I remember now is that I promised
you those kids if you needed them. I swore that
you should have ’em. But I made no bargain.
Guess women don’t see things dead right.
This is the first time you’ve spoken to me of
this, and you say I haven’t fulfilled my bargain.
When I refuse to give you them kiddies, it’s
time to take that tone. You want them kids.
Well go on.”
The change in her lover’s manner
warned Jessie that danger lay ahead. In the brief
time she had spent under his roof she had already learned
that, as yet, she had only seen the gentlest side of
the man, and that the other side was always perilously
near the surface.
In the beginning this had been rather
a delight to her to think that she, of all people,
was privileged to bask in the sunny side of a man
who habitually displayed the storm clouds of his fiercer
side to the world in general. But since that
time a change, which she neither knew nor understood,
had come over her, and, instead of rejoicing that he
possessed that harsher nature, she rather feared it,
feared that it might be turned upon her.
It was this change that had helped
to bring her woman’s cunning into play.
It was this change which had brought her her haunting
visions of the old life. It was this change which
had prompted her that she must keep her lover at arm’s
length as yet. It was this change,
had she paused to analyze it, which might have told
her of the hideous mistake she had made. That
the passion which she had believed to be an absorbing
love for the man was merely a passion, a base human
passion, inspired in a weak, discontented woman.
But as yet she understood nothing of this. The
glamour of the man’s personality still had power
to sway her, and she acknowledged it in her next words.
“Don’t be angry, Jim dear,”
she said, with a smile of seductive sweetness which
had immediate effect upon the man. “You
don’t understand us women. We’re
sure unreasonable where our love is concerned.”
Then a flush spread itself slowly
over her handsome face, and passion lit her eyes.
“But I must have my children,”
she broke out suddenly. “One of them, anyhow little
Vada. You you can’t understand
all it means to be away from them. They are mine.
They are part of me. I I feel I could
kill anyone who keeps them from me. You promised,
Jim, you sure did. Get her for me. My little
girl my little Vada.”
The man had risen from his chair and
moved to the window. He sat on the rough sill
facing her. His eyes were hot with passion, too,
but it was passion of a very different sort.
“And if I do?” he questioned subtly.
“If you do?” Jessie’s eyes widened
with a world of cunning simplicity.
“Yes, if I do?” The man’s face was
nearer.
“You’ll have fulfilled your promise.”
Jessie had turned again to the window, and her eyes
were cold.
The man’s brows drew together
sharply, and his dark eyes watched the perfect outline
of her oval cheek. Then he drew a sharp breath,
and biting words leapt to his lips. But he held
them back with a sudden grip that was perilously near
breaking. Jessie’s power was still enormous
with him. But this very power was maddening to
a man of his nature, and the two must not come into
too frequent conflict.
He suddenly laughed, and the woman
turned in alarm at the note that sounded in it.
“Yes,” he said tensely.
“I’ll fulfill my promise. It’ll
amuse me, sure, getting back at that Sufferin’
Creek lay-out. I owe them something for keepin’
back the gold-stages. You shall have Vada, sure.”
He broke off for an instant and drew
nearer. He leant forward, and one arm reached
out to encircle her waist. But with an almost
imperceptible movement the woman stood beyond his reach.
“And and after?”
he questioned, his arm still outstretched to embrace
her.
The woman made no answer.
“And after?”
There was a hot glow in his tone. He waited.
Then he went on.
“Then I’ll have done everything,”
he said “all that a man can do to
make you happy. I’ll have fulfilled all
my promises. I’ll And you?”
he went on, coming close up to her.
This time she did not repulse him.
Instinct told her that she must not. Before all
things she wanted Vada. So his arms closed about
her, and a shower of hot, passionate kisses fell upon
her face, her hair, her lips.
At last she pushed him gently away.
For the moment all the old passion had been stirred,
but now, as she released herself, an odd shiver passed
through her body, and a great relief came to her as
she stood out of his reach. It was the first
real, definite feeling of repulsion she had had, and
as she realized it a sudden fear gripped her heart,
and she longed to rush from his presence. But,
even so, she did not fully understand the change that
was taking place in her. Her predominating thought
was for the possession of little Vada, and she urged
him with all the intensity of her longing.
“You’ll get her for me?”
she cried, with an excitement that transfigured her.
“You will. Oh, Jim, I can never thank you
sufficiently. You are good to me. And when
will you get her now? Oh, Jim, don’t
wait. You must do it now. I want her so badly.
I wonder how you’ll do it. Will you take
her? Or will you ask Zip for her? I I
believe he would give her up. He’s such
a queer fellow. I believe he’d do anything
I asked him. I sure do. How are you going
to get her?”
The man was watching her with all
the fire of his love in his eyes. It was a greedy,
devouring gaze of which Jessie must have been aware
had she only been thinking less of her child.
Nor did he answer at once. Then slowly the passionate
light died out of his eyes, and they became thoughtful.
“Tell me,” the woman urged him.
Suddenly he looked into her face with a cruel grin.
“Sit down, Jess,” he said
sharply, “and write a letter to Zip asking him,
in your best lingo, to let you have your kid.
An’ when you done that I’ll see he gets
it, an’ I’ll see you get the
kid. But make the letter good an’ hot.
Pile up the agony biz. I’ll fix the rest.”
For a moment the woman looked into
his face, now lit with such a cruel grin. Something
in her heart gave her pause. Somehow she felt
that what she was called upon to do was intended to
hurt Zip in some subtle way, and the thought was not
pleasant. She didn’t want to hurt Zip.
She tried in those few seconds to probe this man’s
purpose. But her mind was not equal to the task.
Surely a letter appealing to Zip could not really
hurt him. And she wanted little Vada so much.
It was this last thought that decided her. No,
nothing should stand in her way. She steeled
her heart against her better feelings, but with some
misgivings, and sat down to write.
James watched her. She procured
paper and pen, and he watched her bending over the
table. No detail of her face and figure escaped
his greedy eyes. She was very beautiful, so beautiful
to him that he stirred restlessly, chafing irritably
under the restraint he was putting upon himself.
Again and again he asked himself why he was fool enough
to do as he was doing. She was his. There
was no one to stop him, no one but her.
Ah! There was the trouble.
Such was the man’s temper that nothing could
satisfy him that gave him no difficulty of attaining.
His was the appetite of an epicure in all things.
Everything in its way must be of the best, and to
be of the best to him it must be the most difficult
of achievement.
He waited with what patience he could
until the letter was written. Then he watched
Jessie seal and address it. Then she rose and
stood staring down at the cruel missive. She
knew it was cruel now, for, trading on the knowledge
of the man who was to receive it, she had appealed
through the channel of her woman’s weakness to
all that great spirit which she knew to abide in her
little husband’s heart.
James understood something of what
was passing in her mind. And it pleased him to
think of what he had forced her to do pleased
him as cruelty ever pleases the truly vicious.
At last she held the missive out to him.
“There it is,” she said.
And as his hand closed upon it her own was drawn sharply
away, as though to avoid contact with his.
“Good,” he said, with a peculiar grin.
For a moment the silence remained
unbroken. Then the woman raised appealing eyes
to his face.
“You won’t hurt Zip?”
she said in a voice that would surely have heartened
the object of her solicitude had he heard it.
The man shook his head. His jaws
were set, and his smile was unpleasing.
“Guess any hurtin’ Zip gets’ll be
done by you.”
“Ah, no, no!”
The woman reached out wildly for the
letter, but James had passed swiftly out of the room.