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One night of that autumn, driven by an overmastering impulse, Evelyn Malling set out toward Kensington.  He felt that he must know something more of the matter between Marcus Harding and Henry Chichester.  Stepton still kept silence.  Malling had not approached him.  But why should he not call upon Chichester, an acquaintance, almost a friend?  It was true that he had resolved, having put the affair into Stepton’s hands, to wait.  It had come to this, then, to-night that he could be patient no longer?  As he stood at the corner of Hornton Street, he asked himself that question.  He drew out his watch.  It was already past eleven, an unholy hour for an unannounced visit.  But slowly he turned into Hornton Street, slowly went down that quiet thoroughfare till he was opposite to the windows of the curate’s sitting-room.  A light shone in one of them.  The rest of the house was dark.  Even the fanlight above the small front door displayed no yellow gleam.  No doubt the household had retired to rest and Henry Chichester was sitting up alone.  A rap would probably bring him down to open to his nocturnal visitor.  But now Malling bethought himself seriously of the lateness of the hour, and paced slowly up and down, considering whether to seek speech of the curate or to abandon that idea and return to Cadogan Square.  As in his mental debate he paused once more opposite to the solitary gleam in the first-floor window, an incident occurred which startled him, and gave a new bent to his thoughts.  It was this:  The light in the window was obscured for a moment as if by some solid body passing before it.  Then the window was violently thrown up, the large figure of a man, only vaguely perceived by Malling, appeared at it, and a choking sound dropped out into the night.  The man seemed to be leaning out as if in an effort to fill his lungs with air, or to obtain the relief of the cool night wind for his distracted nerves.  His attitude struck Malling as peculiar and desperate.  Suddenly he moved.  The light showed, and Malling saw for an instant a second figure, small, slight, commanding.  The big man seemed to be sucked back toward the center of the room.  Down came the window; the tranquil gleam of the light shone as before; then abruptly all was dark.

Malling realized at once what was happening in the curate’s lodgings.  As he paused, gazing at the dark house, he knew that the miserable Marcus Harding was within, constrained to endure the observation which, to use his own hideous but poignant phrase, was “eating him away.”  It was he who had appeared at the window, like a tortured being endeavoring to escape into the freedom of the night.  It was Henry Chichester who had followed him, who had drawn him back, who had plunged him into darkness.

The street was deserted.  No policeman passed, regarding him with suspicion, and Mailing went on sentinel duty.  The dark house fascinated him.  More than once a desire came to him to make an effort for the release of Marcus Harding, to cross the street and to hammer brutally at the green door.  He recalled Henry Chichester’s strange sermon, and he felt as if he assisted at the torture of the double, which he himself had imaginatively suggested to the two clergymen in Lady Sophia’s drawing-room.  Ought he not to interrupt such a torture?

Midnight struck, and he had not knocked.  One o’clock struck; he had paced the street, but had never gone out of sight of the curate’s door.  It was nearly two, and Mailing was not far from the High Street end of the thoroughfare when he heard a door bang.  He turned sharply.  A heavy uncertain footstep rang on the pavement.  Out of the darkness emerged a tall figure with bowed head.  As it moved slowly forward once or twice it swayed, and a wavering arm shot out as if seeking for some support.  Malling stood where he was till he saw the broad ghastliness of Marcus Harding’s white face show under the ray of a lamp.  He discerned no eyes.  The eyes of the unhappy man seemed sunken out of recognition in the dreadful whiteness of his countenance.  The gait was that of one who believes himself dogged, and who tries to slink furtively, but who has partly lost control of his bodily powers, and who starts in terror at his own too heavy and sounding footfalls.

This figure went by Malling, and was lost in the lighted emptiness of the High Street.  Malling did not follow it.  Now he had a great desire, born out of his inmost humanity, to speak with Henry Chichester.  He made up his mind to return to the curate’s door:  if he saw a light to knock and ask for admittance; if the window was dark to go on his way.  He retraced his steps, looked up, and saw a light.  Then it was to be.  That man and he were to speak together.  But as he looked, the light was extinguished.  Nevertheless he struck upon the door.

No one answered.  He struck again, then stepped back into the roadway, and looked up at Chichester’s window.  The curate must surely have heard.  Yes, for even as Malling gazed the window moved.  No light appeared.  But after a pause a voice above said: 

“Is that you, Mr. Harding?”

The dim figure of a man was apparent, standing a little back and half concealed by a darkness of drooping curtains.

“It is I Evelyn Malling,” said Malling.

The form at the window started.

“Mr. Malling!” the words came uncertainly.  “What is it?  Has has anything happened to why do you want me at such an hour?”

“I chanced to be in your street and saw your light.  I thought I would give you a hail.”

“Do you mean that you want to come in?”

After a short pause Malling answered, “Yes.”

“I cannot let you in!” the voice above cried out lamentably.

Then the window was shut very softly.

Three days later Malling saw in the papers the news of the complete breakdown of Marcus Harding.  “Nervous prostration,” was the name given by the doctors to his malady, and it was announced that he had been ordered to take a sea voyage, and was preparing to start for Australia with a nurse.

Soon afterward Malling was walking in the afternoon down Pall Mall, wondering deeply what would happen, whether the rector would ever start on that voyage, when he came upon Professor Stepton sidling out of the Athenaeum.

“Heard about Harding?” jerked out the professor.

“Yes.  Has he sailed for Australia?”

“Dead.  Died at half-past three o’clock this morning.”

Malling turned cold.

“Poor fellow!” he said.  “Poor fellow!”

The professor was drawing his plaid shawl round his shoulders.  When it was properly adjusted, he began to walk on.  Malling kept almost mechanically beside him.

“Did you expect this?” Malling asked.

“Well, I knew he was failing.”

“And Chichester?  Have you seen Chichester since his death?”

“No.  Would you like to see him for me?”

Malling was deep in thought and did not answer.

“Do you think?” said the professor, “that Henry Chichester will be greatly affected by this death?”

“Affected?  Do you mean by grief?”

“Yes.”

“I should suppose that to be highly improbable.”

The professor shot a very sharp glance at Malling.

“I’m not sure that I agree with you,” he observed dryly.

“Have you seen him lately?” asked Malling.

“Not quite recently.  But if I had seen him, say, yesterday, I don’t think that would greatly affect my present dubiety.  I should, however, like to set that dubiety at rest.  Are you busy to-day?”

“No.”

“I am.  Will you make a little investigation for me?  Will you go and pay a visit of condolence to Chichester on the death of his rector, and then come round to the White House and report?”

“I will if you wish it.”

“I shall be in after seven.”

“Very well.”

“I dare say you will be surprised,” observed Stepton.  “I see my bus.”

Malling left him imperatively waving his arm, and, turning, walked toward Kensington.

What were his expectations?  He did not know.  Stepton had upset his mind.  As he went on slowly he strove to regain his mental equilibrium.  But he could not decide exactly what Stepton had meant.  He felt inferior to the professor as he turned into Hornton Street.

He did not hesitate, but went at once to the curate’s door and rapped.  No one answered.  He rapped again, and touched the bell, half hoping, even while he did so, that there was no one within to hear.

But an inquiring head appeared in the area, observed, and was sharply withdrawn.  Steps sounded in the passage, and the maid Ellen presented herself, looking somewhat disordered.

“Yes, sir?” she said.

“Is Mr. Chichester at home?”

“He is in, sir, poor gentleman,” replied the maid.  “Did you want to see him?”

“Yes.”

“I’m sure I don’t know whether he will see you, sir.”

“Is he ill?”

“Not to say ill, sir.  But haven’t you heard?”

“What?”

“His poor rector’s gone, sir, what used to come here to visit him so regular.  I never see a gentleman in such a way.  Why, he’s so changed I don’t hardly know him.”

“Have you been here long?” said Mailing, abruptly.

“Only six months, sir.”

The maid began to look rather astonished.

“And so Mr. Chichester is quite altered by his grief?”

“You never did, sir!  He was so firm, wasn’t he, above every one!  Even his rector used to look to him and be guided by him.  And now he’s as gentle and weak almost as a new-born child, as they say.”

Malling thought of Stepton.  Had he looked forward to some such change?

“Perhaps I could console Mr. Chichester in his grief,” he said.  “Will you take him this card and ask if I can see him?  I knew Mr. Harding, too.  I might be of use, possibly.”

“I’ll ask him, sir.  He’s laying down on the bed, I do believe.”

Ellen hurried up-stairs with the card.  It seemed to Malling that she was away for a long time.  At last she returned.

“If you please, sir, Mr. Chichester wants to know if it’s anything important.  He’s feeling very bad, poor gentleman.  But of course if it’s anything important, he wouldn’t for all the world say no.”

“It is important.”

“Then I was to ask you to walk in, sir, please.”

Chichester’s sitting-room was empty when Malling came into it, and the folding-doors between it and the bedroom were shut.  Ellen went away, and Malling heard a faint murmur of voices, and then Ellen’s footstep retreating down the stairs.  Silence followed.  He waited, at first standing.  Then he sat down near the piano.  Not a sound reached him from the bedroom.  On the curate’s table lay a book.  Malling took it up.  The title was “God’s Will be Done.”  The author was a well-known high-church divine, Father Rowton.  To him, then, Henry Chichester betook himself for comfort.  The piano stood open.  On it was music.  Malling looked and saw, “Oh, for the wings, for the wings of a dove!” by Mendelssohn.  The little room seemed full of pious orthodoxy.  Surely its atmosphere was utterly changed since Malling last was in it.  The melody of “Oh, for the wings!” went through his brain.  That the Henry Chichester he had recently known, that cruel searcher after and expounder of truth, that he should be helped by those words, by that melody, in an hour of sorrow!

There was a movement in the bedroom.  The folding-doors opened inward, and the curate appeared.  He was very pale, and looked really ill.  His face had fallen in.  His fair hair was slightly disordered, and his blue eyes were surrounded by red rims.  His expression suggested that he had recently undergone an extremely violent shock, which had shaken badly both body and mind.  He looked dazed.  Coming forward feebly, he held out his hand.

“I believe it is something important,” he said in a gentle, rather wavering voice; “otherwise I am hardly fit, I fear, to be with my kind.  I” He sat down “I have had a terrible shock, Mr. Malling.  You have heard?”

“You mean Mr. Harding’s death?”

“Yes.”

“I have just heard of it.”

“It occurred at half-past three o’clock last night, or, rather, this morning.  He had been declining for a long while.  At the last he just faded out, as it were.  The strange thing is that I knew the exact moment when he entered into rest.”

“You weren’t with him?”

“Oh, no.  I was here, asleep.  But at three o’clock I awoke.  I felt violently agitated.  I can scarcely describe the sensation.  It was as if I was torn, as if mind and body, or spirit and body, were torn, lacerated.  I suffered the greatest conceivable agony.  I tried to cry out, but I could not.  Nor could I move.  Then everything suddenly seemed to fail, all in a moment, and I was at peace.  But it was like the peace of death, I think.  And I was aware I don’t know how that Mr. Harding was dead.  I moved.  I looked at my watch.  It was a minute after half-past three.  I noted down the time.  And this morning I heard.”

“And then?”

“Only then I understood my loss the loss to us all.  Ah, Mr. Mailing, you knew him, but not as I did!  Few or none knew him as I did.  He was the greatest and best of men, full of power, but full of kindness and goodness, too.  He guided me in everything.  I can never tell you how I looked up to him, how I trusted him.  His judgment was extraordinary, his reading of character was unerring.  I do believe he knew me better than I knew myself.  What shall I do without him?”

The curate’s grief was almost as genuine and unself-conscious as a child’s, and Malling felt as if at that moment, like a child, he felt himself adrift in a difficult world.  His gentle, kindly, but not strong face was distorted, but not hardened, by his distress, which seemed begging for sympathy.  And Malling remembered the Henry Chichester he had known some years ago, before the days of St. Joseph’s, the saintly but rather weak man, beloved by every one, but ruling no one.  That man was surely before him, and that man knew not how to play a hypocrite’s part.  Yet Malling felt he must test him.

“His death is very sad,” he replied; “but surely his powers had been on the decline for a long while.”

“His powers, but not his capacity for goodness.  His patience was angelic.  Even when the cruelest blow of all fell upon him, even when his wife whom, God forgive me!  I don’t think some of us can ever forgive even when she deserted him in his hour of need, he never complained.  He knew it was God’s hand upon him, and he submitted.  He has taught me what true patience is.  What I owe to him!  What I owe to him!”

As if distressed beyond measure, the curate got up, almost wringing his thin hands.

“It was he who sacrificed his time for me!” he continued, moving restlessly about the room.  “But I seem to remember I told you.  Didn’t I tell you or was it some one else? how he gave up the hours which should have been hours of repose in order that my will might be strengthened, that I might be developed into a man more worthy to be his coadjutor?  When I think, when I remember ”

His light, tenor voice failed.  Tears stood in his gentle, blue eyes.

“If I am worth anything at all,” he suddenly cried out, “if I have gained any force of character, any power for good at all, I owe it all to my rector’s self-sacrificing endeavors on my behalf of course, through God’s blessing.”

“Then,” said Malling, “you think that Mr. Harding changed you by his influence?”

“He helped me to develop, he brought me on.  Jealousy was unknown to him.  I was a very poor preacher.  He taught me how to hold people’s attention.  When I knew he was near me I sometimes seemed almost inspired.  I was inspired by him.  I preached almost as if out of his mouth.  And now!”

He made a despairing gesture.

“Now it will all be different!” he exclaimed.

And almost involuntarily Malling found himself echoing: 

“Yes, now it will all be different.”

He had seen, he had heard, enough to make his report to the professor, and he resolved to go.  He held out his hand.

“Oh, but,” said Chichester, pressing one hand to his forehead, “I’m so selfish, so forgetful in my great grief!  Surely you said you had come on some matter of importance.”

“It will wait,” said Malling.  “Another day.  Go and rest now.  You need rest.  Any one can see that.”

“Thank you, thank you,” said Chichester, with quivering lips.  “You are very thoughtful, very good.”

Malling took his hand in farewell.  As he did so there was a sharp knock at the front door.  Chichester started violently.

“Oh, I do hope it is no one for me!” he cried out.  “I cannot ”

He opened the door of the sitting-room a little way and listened.  Voices were audible below, Ellen’s voice and another woman’s.

“You, ma’am!  Oh, of course he will see you!”

“Of course.”

“I didn’t know who it was, ma’am.”

“Is it this way?”

“Yes, ma’am.  I’ll show you.  We do feel it, ma’am.  The poor gentleman used to come here so often of nights.”

“Did he?  I didn’t know that.”

Malling recognized the second voice as Lady Sophia’s.  A moment, and she was ushered into the room.  She was dressed in black, but not in widow’s weeds, and wore a veil which she pushed hastily up as she came in almost with a rush.  When she saw Malling, for a moment she looked disconcerted.

“Oh, I thought ” she began.  She stood still.  Chichester said nothing, and did not move.  Malling went toward her.

“I was very much grieved,” he said, “at the news I heard to-day.”

She gave him her hand.  He knew his words were conventional.  How could they be anything else?  But Lady Sophia’s manner in giving him her hand was not conventional.  She stretched it out without even looking at him.  She said nothing.  Her eyes were fixed upon Chichester, who stood on the other side of the little room in a rigid attitude, with his eyes cast down, as if he could not bear to see the woman who had just entered.

“I offer you my sympathy,” Malling added.

“Sympathy!” said Lady Sophia, with a sharp note in her voice suggestive of intense, almost febrile excitement.  “Then didn’t you know?”

She stared at him, turning her head swiftly.

“Know?”

“That I had left him?  Yes, I left him, and now he is dead.  Do you expect me to be sorry?  Well, I am not sorry.  Ah, I see you don’t understand!”

She made a movement toward Chichester.  It was obvious that she was so intensely excited that she had lost the power of self-control.

“Nobody understands me but you!” she cried out to Chichester.  “You knew what he was, you knew what I endured, you know what I must feel now.  Oh, it’s no use pretending.  I’m sick of pretence.  You have taught me to care for absolute truth and only that.  My relations, my friends ah! to-day I have been almost suffocated with hypocrisy!  And now, when I come here ” she flung out her hand toward Mailing “to get away from it all ’grieved,’ ‘my sympathy!’ I can’t bear any more of that.  Tell him!  You tell him!  You’re so strong, so terribly sincere!  One can rest upon your strength when all else fails one!”

She tottered.  For an instant it seemed to Malling that she was going to fall against Chichester’s shoulder; but she caught at a chair, and saved herself.

“Mr. Chichester!” she said, “tell him!  Tell him for me!”

“I have nothing to tell him,” said Chichester, with a sort of mild, almost weak coldness, and wearily.

“Nothing!” She went nearer to him.  “But you don’t welcome me!”

Chichester looked up, but immediately cast down his eyes again.

“I cannot,” he said.  “At this moment I simply cannot.”

An expression of terrified surprise transformed Lady Sophia’s face.  She went close up to Chichester, staring at him.

“Why not?” she asked.

“You must know that.”

She stood still, always staring at him, as if searching for something which she did not find.

“Why not?” she repeated.

“You left him when he needed you most.  You left him to die alone.”

Lady Sophia suddenly turned round to Malling and scrutinized his face, as if demanding from him sympathy in her horrified amazement.  He regarded her calmly, and she turned again to the curate.

“What do you mean?” she said, and her voice had changed.

“That his friends can never be yours”, said Chichester, as if making a great effort, driven to it by some intense feeling.

“You call yourself his friend!” said Lady Sophia.  Her voice vibrated with scorn.

“At any rate, he was mine, my best friend.  And now he has gone forever!”

Lady Sophia drew in her breath.

“You hypocrite!” she said.  “You hypocrite!”

She spoke like one under the influence of an emotion so intense that it could not be gainsaid.

“To pretend you admired him, loved him you!”

“I did admire and love him.”

She seemed to be struck dumb by his quiet manner, by the conviction in his voice.  In a moment she turned round again toward Malling.  Her face had quite changed.  It was working nervously.  The mouth quivered.  She stood for a moment, then suddenly she made for the door.  As she passed Malling, she whispered:  “The strength where is it?  Oh, I’m afraid of him!  I’m afraid of him!”

She disappeared.  Almost immediately Mailing heard the street door shut.

“I I cannot pretend to her,” Chichester said, “even in my own house.”

He seemed greatly moved, almost on the verge of tears.

“I’ll leave you alone,” said Mailing.  “You need to be alone.”

“Thank you!  Thank you!” said Chichester.

And without another word he went into the bedroom, shutting the folding-doors behind him.

At half-past seven that same evening Malling was with Professor Stepton, and made what the professor called his “report.”

“Ah!” said the professor when he had finished.

“Did you expect Chichester to behave like that, to be like that?” asked Mailing.

“I hoped he would.”

“Hoped!  Why?”

“Because it enables me to accept as facts certain things about which I must otherwise have remained in doubt.  Of course I must see Chichester for myself.  But he’ll be just the same, just the same.”

The professor’s eyes shone, and he poked his chin forward.

“The reverend gentlemen of St. Joseph’s have provided me with a basis,” he exclaimed emphatically.

“A basis!  For what?” asked Mailing.

“For future experiments and investigations of a highly interesting nature.  Ruskin was very often wrong, but he was right when he said, in a lucid moment, that every creature is precious.  Well, good-night, Malling.  I must get to work.  I’ll explain everything to you later.”

Almost joyously he shut the door on his friend.  Almost joyously he sat down once more before his writing-table and seized his pen and his note-book.

But he did not begin to write.  His face suddenly changed.  He put his pen down, pushed his note-book away, sat back in his chair, and let his pointed chin drop toward his breast.  And presently he began to mutter to himself.

“A little science!” he muttered.  “A little science sends man far away from God.  A great deal of science brings man back to God.  Which is it now you professor, you?  Which is it now?”