One night of that autumn, driven by
an overmastering impulse, Evelyn Malling set out toward
Kensington. He felt that he must know something
more of the matter between Marcus Harding and Henry
Chichester. Stepton still kept silence.
Malling had not approached him. But why should
he not call upon Chichester, an acquaintance, almost
a friend? It was true that he had resolved, having
put the affair into Stepton’s hands, to wait.
It had come to this, then, to-night that he could
be patient no longer? As he stood at the corner
of Hornton Street, he asked himself that question.
He drew out his watch. It was already past eleven,
an unholy hour for an unannounced visit. But
slowly he turned into Hornton Street, slowly went
down that quiet thoroughfare till he was opposite to
the windows of the curate’s sitting-room.
A light shone in one of them. The rest of the
house was dark. Even the fanlight above the small
front door displayed no yellow gleam. No doubt
the household had retired to rest and Henry Chichester
was sitting up alone. A rap would probably bring
him down to open to his nocturnal visitor. But
now Malling bethought himself seriously of the lateness
of the hour, and paced slowly up and down, considering
whether to seek speech of the curate or to abandon
that idea and return to Cadogan Square. As in
his mental debate he paused once more opposite to
the solitary gleam in the first-floor window, an incident
occurred which startled him, and gave a new bent to
his thoughts. It was this: The light in
the window was obscured for a moment as if by some
solid body passing before it. Then the window
was violently thrown up, the large figure of a man,
only vaguely perceived by Malling, appeared at it,
and a choking sound dropped out into the night.
The man seemed to be leaning out as if in an effort
to fill his lungs with air, or to obtain the relief
of the cool night wind for his distracted nerves.
His attitude struck Malling as peculiar and desperate.
Suddenly he moved. The light showed, and Malling
saw for an instant a second figure, small, slight,
commanding. The big man seemed to be sucked back
toward the center of the room. Down came the
window; the tranquil gleam of the light shone as before;
then abruptly all was dark.
Malling realized at once what was
happening in the curate’s lodgings. As
he paused, gazing at the dark house, he knew that the
miserable Marcus Harding was within, constrained to
endure the observation which, to use his own hideous
but poignant phrase, was “eating him away.”
It was he who had appeared at the window, like a tortured
being endeavoring to escape into the freedom of the
night. It was Henry Chichester who had followed
him, who had drawn him back, who had plunged him into
darkness.
The street was deserted. No policeman
passed, regarding him with suspicion, and Mailing
went on sentinel duty. The dark house fascinated
him. More than once a desire came to him to make
an effort for the release of Marcus Harding, to cross
the street and to hammer brutally at the green door.
He recalled Henry Chichester’s strange sermon,
and he felt as if he assisted at the torture of the
double, which he himself had imaginatively suggested
to the two clergymen in Lady Sophia’s drawing-room.
Ought he not to interrupt such a torture?
Midnight struck, and he had not knocked.
One o’clock struck; he had paced the street,
but had never gone out of sight of the curate’s
door. It was nearly two, and Mailing was not
far from the High Street end of the thoroughfare when
he heard a door bang. He turned sharply.
A heavy uncertain footstep rang on the pavement.
Out of the darkness emerged a tall figure with bowed
head. As it moved slowly forward once or twice
it swayed, and a wavering arm shot out as if seeking
for some support. Malling stood where he was
till he saw the broad ghastliness of Marcus Harding’s
white face show under the ray of a lamp. He discerned
no eyes. The eyes of the unhappy man seemed sunken
out of recognition in the dreadful whiteness of his
countenance. The gait was that of one who believes
himself dogged, and who tries to slink furtively, but
who has partly lost control of his bodily powers,
and who starts in terror at his own too heavy and
sounding footfalls.
This figure went by Malling, and was
lost in the lighted emptiness of the High Street.
Malling did not follow it. Now he had a great
desire, born out of his inmost humanity, to speak
with Henry Chichester. He made up his mind to
return to the curate’s door: if he saw a
light to knock and ask for admittance; if the window
was dark to go on his way. He retraced his steps,
looked up, and saw a light. Then it was to be.
That man and he were to speak together. But as
he looked, the light was extinguished. Nevertheless
he struck upon the door.
No one answered. He struck again,
then stepped back into the roadway, and looked up
at Chichester’s window. The curate must
surely have heard. Yes, for even as Malling gazed
the window moved. No light appeared. But
after a pause a voice above said:
“Is that you, Mr. Harding?”
The dim figure of a man was apparent,
standing a little back and half concealed by a darkness
of drooping curtains.
“It is I Evelyn Malling,” said
Malling.
The form at the window started.
“Mr. Malling!” the words
came uncertainly. “What is it? Has has
anything happened to why do you want me
at such an hour?”
“I chanced to be in your street
and saw your light. I thought I would give you
a hail.”
“Do you mean that you want to come in?”
After a short pause Malling answered, “Yes.”
“I cannot let you in!” the voice above
cried out lamentably.
Then the window was shut very softly.
Three days later Malling saw in the
papers the news of the complete breakdown of Marcus
Harding. “Nervous prostration,” was
the name given by the doctors to his malady, and it
was announced that he had been ordered to take a sea
voyage, and was preparing to start for Australia with
a nurse.
Soon afterward Malling was walking
in the afternoon down Pall Mall, wondering deeply
what would happen, whether the rector would ever start
on that voyage, when he came upon Professor Stepton
sidling out of the Athenaeum.
“Heard about Harding?” jerked out the
professor.
“Yes. Has he sailed for Australia?”
“Dead. Died at half-past three o’clock
this morning.”
Malling turned cold.
“Poor fellow!” he said. “Poor
fellow!”
The professor was drawing his plaid
shawl round his shoulders. When it was properly
adjusted, he began to walk on. Malling kept almost
mechanically beside him.
“Did you expect this?” Malling asked.
“Well, I knew he was failing.”
“And Chichester? Have you seen Chichester
since his death?”
“No. Would you like to see him for me?”
Malling was deep in thought and did not answer.
“Do you think?” said the
professor, “that Henry Chichester will be greatly
affected by this death?”
“Affected? Do you mean by grief?”
“Yes.”
“I should suppose that to be highly improbable.”
The professor shot a very sharp glance at Malling.
“I’m not sure that I agree with you,”
he observed dryly.
“Have you seen him lately?” asked Malling.
“Not quite recently. But
if I had seen him, say, yesterday, I don’t think
that would greatly affect my present dubiety.
I should, however, like to set that dubiety at rest.
Are you busy to-day?”
“No.”
“I am. Will you make a
little investigation for me? Will you go and pay
a visit of condolence to Chichester on the death of
his rector, and then come round to the White House
and report?”
“I will if you wish it.”
“I shall be in after seven.”
“Very well.”
“I dare say you will be surprised,” observed
Stepton. “I see my bus.”
Malling left him imperatively waving
his arm, and, turning, walked toward Kensington.
What were his expectations? He
did not know. Stepton had upset his mind.
As he went on slowly he strove to regain his mental
equilibrium. But he could not decide exactly
what Stepton had meant. He felt inferior to the
professor as he turned into Hornton Street.
He did not hesitate, but went at once
to the curate’s door and rapped. No one
answered. He rapped again, and touched the bell,
half hoping, even while he did so, that there was
no one within to hear.
But an inquiring head appeared in
the area, observed, and was sharply withdrawn.
Steps sounded in the passage, and the maid Ellen presented
herself, looking somewhat disordered.
“Yes, sir?” she said.
“Is Mr. Chichester at home?”
“He is in, sir, poor gentleman,”
replied the maid. “Did you want to see
him?”
“Yes.”
“I’m sure I don’t know whether he
will see you, sir.”
“Is he ill?”
“Not to say ill, sir. But haven’t
you heard?”
“What?”
“His poor rector’s gone,
sir, what used to come here to visit him so regular.
I never see a gentleman in such a way. Why, he’s
so changed I don’t hardly know him.”
“Have you been here long?” said Mailing,
abruptly.
“Only six months, sir.”
The maid began to look rather astonished.
“And so Mr. Chichester is quite altered by his
grief?”
“You never did, sir! He
was so firm, wasn’t he, above every one!
Even his rector used to look to him and be guided
by him. And now he’s as gentle and weak
almost as a new-born child, as they say.”
Malling thought of Stepton. Had he looked forward
to some such change?
“Perhaps I could console Mr.
Chichester in his grief,” he said. “Will
you take him this card and ask if I can see him?
I knew Mr. Harding, too. I might be of use, possibly.”
“I’ll ask him, sir. He’s laying
down on the bed, I do believe.”
Ellen hurried up-stairs with the card.
It seemed to Malling that she was away for a long
time. At last she returned.
“If you please, sir, Mr. Chichester
wants to know if it’s anything important.
He’s feeling very bad, poor gentleman. But
of course if it’s anything important, he wouldn’t
for all the world say no.”
“It is important.”
“Then I was to ask you to walk in, sir, please.”
Chichester’s sitting-room was
empty when Malling came into it, and the folding-doors
between it and the bedroom were shut. Ellen went
away, and Malling heard a faint murmur of voices,
and then Ellen’s footstep retreating down the
stairs. Silence followed. He waited, at first
standing. Then he sat down near the piano.
Not a sound reached him from the bedroom. On
the curate’s table lay a book. Malling took
it up. The title was “God’s Will
be Done.” The author was a well-known high-church
divine, Father Rowton. To him, then, Henry Chichester
betook himself for comfort. The piano stood open.
On it was music. Malling looked and saw, “Oh,
for the wings, for the wings of a dove!” by Mendelssohn.
The little room seemed full of pious orthodoxy.
Surely its atmosphere was utterly changed since Malling
last was in it. The melody of “Oh, for the
wings!” went through his brain. That the
Henry Chichester he had recently known, that cruel
searcher after and expounder of truth, that he should
be helped by those words, by that melody, in an hour
of sorrow!
There was a movement in the bedroom.
The folding-doors opened inward, and the curate appeared.
He was very pale, and looked really ill. His
face had fallen in. His fair hair was slightly
disordered, and his blue eyes were surrounded by red
rims. His expression suggested that he had recently
undergone an extremely violent shock, which had shaken
badly both body and mind. He looked dazed.
Coming forward feebly, he held out his hand.
“I believe it is something important,”
he said in a gentle, rather wavering voice; “otherwise I
am hardly fit, I fear, to be with my kind. I” He
sat down “I have had a terrible shock,
Mr. Malling. You have heard?”
“You mean Mr. Harding’s death?”
“Yes.”
“I have just heard of it.”
“It occurred at half-past three
o’clock last night, or, rather, this morning.
He had been declining for a long while. At the
last he just faded out, as it were. The strange
thing is that I knew the exact moment when he entered
into rest.”
“You weren’t with him?”
“Oh, no. I was here, asleep.
But at three o’clock I awoke. I felt violently
agitated. I can scarcely describe the sensation.
It was as if I was torn, as if mind and body, or spirit
and body, were torn, lacerated. I suffered the
greatest conceivable agony. I tried to cry out,
but I could not. Nor could I move. Then everything
suddenly seemed to fail, all in a moment, and I was
at peace. But it was like the peace of death,
I think. And I was aware I don’t
know how that Mr. Harding was dead.
I moved. I looked at my watch. It was a minute
after half-past three. I noted down the time.
And this morning I heard.”
“And then?”
“Only then I understood my loss the
loss to us all. Ah, Mr. Mailing, you knew him,
but not as I did! Few or none knew him as I did.
He was the greatest and best of men, full of power,
but full of kindness and goodness, too. He guided
me in everything. I can never tell you how I
looked up to him, how I trusted him. His judgment
was extraordinary, his reading of character was unerring.
I do believe he knew me better than I knew myself.
What shall I do without him?”
The curate’s grief was almost
as genuine and unself-conscious as a child’s,
and Malling felt as if at that moment, like a child,
he felt himself adrift in a difficult world.
His gentle, kindly, but not strong face was distorted,
but not hardened, by his distress, which seemed begging
for sympathy. And Malling remembered the Henry
Chichester he had known some years ago, before the
days of St. Joseph’s, the saintly but rather
weak man, beloved by every one, but ruling no one.
That man was surely before him, and that man knew
not how to play a hypocrite’s part. Yet
Malling felt he must test him.
“His death is very sad,”
he replied; “but surely his powers had been on
the decline for a long while.”
“His powers, but not his capacity
for goodness. His patience was angelic.
Even when the cruelest blow of all fell upon him, even
when his wife whom, God forgive me!
I don’t think some of us can ever forgive even
when she deserted him in his hour of need, he never
complained. He knew it was God’s hand upon
him, and he submitted. He has taught me what
true patience is. What I owe to him! What
I owe to him!”
As if distressed beyond measure, the
curate got up, almost wringing his thin hands.
“It was he who sacrificed his
time for me!” he continued, moving restlessly
about the room. “But I seem to remember
I told you. Didn’t I tell you or
was it some one else? how he gave up the
hours which should have been hours of repose in order
that my will might be strengthened, that I might be
developed into a man more worthy to be his coadjutor?
When I think, when I remember ”
His light, tenor voice failed.
Tears stood in his gentle, blue eyes.
“If I am worth anything at all,”
he suddenly cried out, “if I have gained any
force of character, any power for good at all, I owe
it all to my rector’s self-sacrificing endeavors
on my behalf of course, through God’s
blessing.”
“Then,” said Malling,
“you think that Mr. Harding changed you by his
influence?”
“He helped me to develop, he
brought me on. Jealousy was unknown to him.
I was a very poor preacher. He taught me how to
hold people’s attention. When I knew he
was near me I sometimes seemed almost inspired.
I was inspired by him. I preached almost as if
out of his mouth. And now!”
He made a despairing gesture.
“Now it will all be different!” he exclaimed.
And almost involuntarily Malling found himself echoing:
“Yes, now it will all be different.”
He had seen, he had heard, enough
to make his report to the professor, and he resolved
to go. He held out his hand.
“Oh, but,” said Chichester,
pressing one hand to his forehead, “I’m
so selfish, so forgetful in my great grief! Surely
you said you had come on some matter of importance.”
“It will wait,” said Malling.
“Another day. Go and rest now. You
need rest. Any one can see that.”
“Thank you, thank you,”
said Chichester, with quivering lips. “You
are very thoughtful, very good.”
Malling took his hand in farewell.
As he did so there was a sharp knock at the front
door. Chichester started violently.
“Oh, I do hope it is no one
for me!” he cried out. “I cannot ”
He opened the door of the sitting-room
a little way and listened. Voices were audible
below, Ellen’s voice and another woman’s.
“You, ma’am! Oh, of course he will
see you!”
“Of course.”
“I didn’t know who it was, ma’am.”
“Is it this way?”
“Yes, ma’am. I’ll
show you. We do feel it, ma’am. The
poor gentleman used to come here so often of nights.”
“Did he? I didn’t know that.”
Malling recognized the second voice
as Lady Sophia’s. A moment, and she was
ushered into the room. She was dressed in black,
but not in widow’s weeds, and wore a veil which
she pushed hastily up as she came in almost with a
rush. When she saw Malling, for a moment she looked
disconcerted.
“Oh, I thought ”
she began. She stood still. Chichester said
nothing, and did not move. Malling went toward
her.
“I was very much grieved,”
he said, “at the news I heard to-day.”
She gave him her hand. He knew
his words were conventional. How could they be
anything else? But Lady Sophia’s manner
in giving him her hand was not conventional.
She stretched it out without even looking at him.
She said nothing. Her eyes were fixed upon Chichester,
who stood on the other side of the little room in
a rigid attitude, with his eyes cast down, as if he
could not bear to see the woman who had just entered.
“I offer you my sympathy,” Malling added.
“Sympathy!” said Lady
Sophia, with a sharp note in her voice suggestive
of intense, almost febrile excitement. “Then
didn’t you know?”
She stared at him, turning her head swiftly.
“Know?”
“That I had left him? Yes,
I left him, and now he is dead. Do you expect
me to be sorry? Well, I am not sorry. Ah,
I see you don’t understand!”
She made a movement toward Chichester.
It was obvious that she was so intensely excited that
she had lost the power of self-control.
“Nobody understands me but you!”
she cried out to Chichester. “You knew
what he was, you knew what I endured, you know what
I must feel now. Oh, it’s no use pretending.
I’m sick of pretence. You have taught me
to care for absolute truth and only that. My relations,
my friends ah! to-day I have been almost
suffocated with hypocrisy! And now, when I come
here ” she flung out her hand toward
Mailing “to get away from it all ’grieved,’
‘my sympathy!’ I can’t bear any more
of that. Tell him! You tell him! You’re
so strong, so terribly sincere! One can rest upon
your strength when all else fails one!”
She tottered. For an instant
it seemed to Malling that she was going to fall against
Chichester’s shoulder; but she caught at a chair,
and saved herself.
“Mr. Chichester!” she said, “tell
him! Tell him for me!”
“I have nothing to tell him,”
said Chichester, with a sort of mild, almost weak
coldness, and wearily.
“Nothing!” She went nearer
to him. “But you don’t
welcome me!”
Chichester looked up, but immediately
cast down his eyes again.
“I cannot,” he said. “At this
moment I simply cannot.”
An expression of terrified surprise
transformed Lady Sophia’s face. She went
close up to Chichester, staring at him.
“Why not?” she asked.
“You must know that.”
She stood still, always staring at
him, as if searching for something which she did not
find.
“Why not?” she repeated.
“You left him when he needed you
most. You left him to die alone.”
Lady Sophia suddenly turned round
to Malling and scrutinized his face, as if demanding
from him sympathy in her horrified amazement.
He regarded her calmly, and she turned again to the
curate.
“What do you mean?” she said, and her
voice had changed.
“That his friends can never
be yours”, said Chichester, as if making a great
effort, driven to it by some intense feeling.
“You call yourself his friend!”
said Lady Sophia. Her voice vibrated with scorn.
“At any rate, he was mine, my
best friend. And now he has gone forever!”
Lady Sophia drew in her breath.
“You hypocrite!” she said. “You
hypocrite!”
She spoke like one under the influence
of an emotion so intense that it could not be gainsaid.
“To pretend you admired him, loved him you!”
“I did admire and love him.”
She seemed to be struck dumb by his
quiet manner, by the conviction in his voice.
In a moment she turned round again toward Malling.
Her face had quite changed. It was working nervously.
The mouth quivered. She stood for a moment, then
suddenly she made for the door. As she passed
Malling, she whispered: “The strength where
is it? Oh, I’m afraid of him! I’m
afraid of him!”
She disappeared. Almost immediately Mailing heard
the street door shut.
“I I cannot pretend to her,”
Chichester said, “even in my own house.”
He seemed greatly moved, almost on the verge of tears.
“I’ll leave you alone,” said Mailing.
“You need to be alone.”
“Thank you! Thank you!” said Chichester.
And without another word he went into
the bedroom, shutting the folding-doors behind him.
At half-past seven that same evening
Malling was with Professor Stepton, and made what
the professor called his “report.”
“Ah!” said the professor when he had finished.
“Did you expect Chichester to
behave like that, to be like that?” asked Mailing.
“I hoped he would.”
“Hoped! Why?”
“Because it enables me to accept
as facts certain things about which I must otherwise
have remained in doubt. Of course I must see Chichester
for myself. But he’ll be just the same,
just the same.”
The professor’s eyes shone, and he poked his
chin forward.
“The reverend gentlemen of St.
Joseph’s have provided me with a basis,”
he exclaimed emphatically.
“A basis! For what?” asked Mailing.
“For future experiments and
investigations of a highly interesting nature.
Ruskin was very often wrong, but he was right when
he said, in a lucid moment, that every creature is
precious. Well, good-night, Malling. I must
get to work. I’ll explain everything to
you later.”
Almost joyously he shut the door on
his friend. Almost joyously he sat down once
more before his writing-table and seized his pen and
his note-book.
But he did not begin to write.
His face suddenly changed. He put his pen down,
pushed his note-book away, sat back in his chair, and
let his pointed chin drop toward his breast.
And presently he began to mutter to himself.
“A little science!” he
muttered. “A little science sends man far
away from God. A great deal of science brings
man back to God. Which is it now you
professor, you? Which is it now?”