I went and comforted him. “Well,
old man,” I said with a cheerful air, “how
do you get on?”
“Robert,” said he, “do
you suppose I would have come here if I had known
what an atrocious humbug you are? Do you imagine
for a moment that my relatives, if I had any, would
have subjected my innocence to such insidious guardianship?
Have you brought me here to destroy my faith, and
pollute my morals, and poison my young life with the
spectacle of your turpitude?”
“You’re improving already,
Jim. When I saw you last you hadn’t any
faith, nor much morals; your youth was away back in
the past, and your strength was dried up like railroad
doughnuts; you were ready to fall with the first leaves
of autumn. Well, since you are here, you can stay
till you see how you like us. What do you think
of Clarice?”
“She has given me no basis on
which to think of her, beyond her looks; they rather
take one’s breath away. You beast, what
do you mean by springing a face like that on me without
warning, after all your humbugging talk last night,
pretending to post me on every one I was to meet?
And I say, do you always stand guard over her when
anybody comes near?”
“Well, you see, you were so
overcome by the first sight of her this morning, that
it seemed no more than fair to let you recover your
breath, as you say, and get used to her by degrees.
But, James, this is unseemly levity on your part.
What have we to do with girls? Let us leave them
to the baser spirits who have use for them. The
world’s a bubble, and the life of man of no
account at all. We have tried it, and it is empty;
hark, it sounds. Vain pomp and glory of it all,
we hate ye. Ye tinsel gauds, ye base embroideries,
ye female fripperies, have but our scorn. What
are flashing eyes, and tossing ringlets, and rosy lips,
and jewelled fingers, to minds like ours? Let
us go off to the Nitrian desert, Jim, away from this
eternal simper, this harrowing routine.”
“You must have been reading
up lately, my boy. I left all that in the woods,
Bob, and came down here in good faith for a change
of air, prepared to learn anything you might have
to teach me. If you’ve got any more traps
and masked batteries, let them loose on me; practice
on me to your heart’s content. You’ve
undertaken to convert me, and I’m here to give
you a chance: a fine old apostle you are.
But I don’t quite understand Miss Elliston’s
position here, Bob.”
“Her position here, or anywhere
else, is that she does about as she pleases, and makes
everybody else do it too, as you will see before your
hair is gray, my learned friend. As I may have
told you, we are her nearest relatives: she is
an orphan.”
“Parents been dead long?”
“About seventeen years. What’s that
got to do with it?”
“O, not much; don’t be
so suspicious. Do you think I’m trying to
play some trick on you, after your model? How
should I, a helpless stranger in a strange land, betrayed
by the friend in whom I trusted? I’m an
orphan myself too. So that Miss Elliston is in
a measure dependent on your kindness?”
“O, don’t fancy that she’s
a poor relation, or anything of that sort. She’s
got more cash than she wants, and loads of friends:
had twenty invitations for the summer. If you
don’t behave to suit her, she’s liable
to go off any day to Bar Harbor, or Saratoga, or the
Yosemite, or Kamtchatka.”
“Very good of her, to stay here with you, then.”
“Well, Mabel is deeply attached
to her; so is Jane, and the children of course.
Her parents and mine were close friends in the country where
I came from, you know. She and I were brought
up together; that is, she was I was mostly
brought up before her appearance on this mundane sphere.
We used to play in the haymow, and fall from the apple
trees together, and all that. O, Clarice is quite
a sister to me a pretty good sister too,
all things considered.”
“And you are quite a brother
to her, as I see. Strange, that it never occurred
to mention her, when you were describing the various
members of your family. Does her mind match her
personal attractions?”
“She’s got as good a head
as you have, old man, or any other male specimen I’ve
struck. I myself meet her on almost equal terms.
O, hang that; I don’t either. This is no
subject for profane jesting. Talk about the inferiority
of women! If the moralists and stump-speakers
had one like her at home, they’d change their
tune. But there are no more like her.”
“You speak warmly, Bob.
To Clarice every virtue under heaven. Beautiful,
brilliant, accomplished, amiable; you are a happy man
to have such an annex to your household even
if she wasn’t worth naming at the start.”
“Amiable who said
she was amiable? Leave that to commonplace women
and plain everyday fellows like me. You can’t
expect that of her sort, Jim. She can be very
nice when she pleases. I suppose she has a heart;
it has never waked up yet. When it does, it will
be a big one. We don’t expect the plebeian
virtues of her.”
“She has a conscience, I hope?
If not, it might be better to go away, and stay away.
You ought not to keep dangerous compounds about the
house, Bob.”
“She won’t explode though
others may. A conscience? I think so.
She couldn’t do a mean thing. She keeps
a promise: she has more sense of justice than
most women. But you can’t apply ordinary
rules to her. She is of the blood royal:
the Princess, we call her. Can’t you see,
Jim? You are man enough to take her measure,
so far as any one can.”
“I see her outside; it is worth
coming here to see, if I were an artist or an aesthete.
She has deigned to show me no more as yet.”
“It is all of a piece:
the rest matches that, as you will see in time.
There is but one Clarice.”
“Bob, you are different from
last night. I believe you are telling the truth
now.”
“She sobers you. When you
have been with her, when you think of her, it is as
if you were in church only a good deal more
so.”
“Very convenient and edifying,
to have such a private chapel in one’s house.
Bob, in this mood I can trust you. Tell me one
thing: why did you never mention her to me?”
“She doesn’t wish me to talk of her to
strangers.”
“And now the prohibition is removed?”
“You are not a stranger now. She knows
you, and you have seen her.”
“Well, you are loyal. Does she appreciate
such fidelity?”
“We are very good friends.
From childhood we have been more together than most
brothers and sisters. More or less, I have always
been to her as I am now. She is used to me.
I do not ask too much of her. Don’t fancy
that I am in her confidence, or any one: she has
a royal reserve. See here, Jim; I am making you
one of the family.”
“I understand. I must ask
you one thing: why did you bring me here, to
expose me to all this?”
“You needed a change, Jim, as
you half owned just now; almost any change would be
for the better. I wanted you to see the world
again: there is in it nothing fairer or richer
than Clarice.”
“You go on as if she were a
saint; and yet you say she’s not.”
“You can answer that yourself,
Jim. She’s far from it: you and I are
not saint-worshippers. But she has it in her
to be a saint, if her attention and her latent force
were turned that way. She can be anything, or
do anything. She hasn’t found her life
yet. She bides her time, and I wait with her.
Her wings will sprout some day. I like her well
enough as she is.”
“Evidently. Do you know,
old man, that you are talking very freely?”
“Am I the first? or do you suppose
I would say all this to any chance comer? You
opened your soul to me in May, as far as you knew it:
you are welcome to see into mine now.”
“There is a difference.
I cared for nothing, and believed in nothing; so my
soul was worth little. Yours is that of a prosperous
and happy man.”
“Externals are not the measure
of the soul, Jim, nor yet creeds. I know a gentleman
when I see him, and so do you. Your soul will
get its food yet, and assume its full stature; you’ve
been trying to starve it partly, that’s all.”
“Do you talk this way to your Princess, Bob?”
“No. She is younger than
we: why should I bore her? You and I are
on equal terms: she and I are not.”
“This humility is very chivalric,
but I don’t quite understand it in you, Bob.”
“You can’t: you’ve
been so long unused to women, and you never knew one
like her. If you had, it would have been too early;
what does a boy of twenty know of himself, or of the
girls he thinks he is in love with, or of the true
relations that should exist between him and them?
Call it quixotic if you like; I don’t mind.
Any gentleman, that is, any spiritual man, has it
in him to be a Quixote. When you come to know
Clarice, you will understand.”
“Do you call yourself and me spiritual men,
Bob?”
“Yes; why not? Spirituality
does not depend on the opinions one chances to hold,
but on the view he takes of his own part in Life, and
on the inherent nature of his soul. We are not
worshippers of mammon, or fashion, or any of the idols
of the tribe. I live in the world, and you out
of it; but that makes little difference. You were
in danger of becoming a dogmatist, but you are too
much of a man for that. We both live to learn,
and we can spend ourselves on an adequate object when
we find it.”
“Bob, if you don’t talk
to her like this, she doesn’t know you as I do.”
“No human being knows another
exactly as a third does. We strike fire at different
points when we do at all, which is seldom and
show different sides of ourselves to such few as can
see at all. She does not care especially for
me: why should she? But she has great penetration more
than you have, far more than I. She sees my follies
and faults as you don’t; she is a sort of a
confessor. At present she is a Sunday-school
teacher, and I am her class.”
“What do you talk of, all the time?”
“It’s not all the time,
by any means. That is as she pleases; just now
it may be a good deal. By and by it may be your
turn: then you’ll know some things you
don’t now. There is nothing I say to her
which the world might not overhear, if the world could
understand it; and nothing that I can repeat.
Jim, I am done: we are up very late.”
“Two things I must say yet,
or ask, old man. You would stand by this girl
against the world; and yet you have charged yourself
with me. It may be idle to formulate remote and
improbable contingencies, but it is in our line.
Would you take her part against me, and be my enemy you
who are my only friend?”
“I would stand by her against
the world, assuredly. I would stand by you against
all the world but her, I think. You two might
quarrel, but neither of you would be wrong: I
know you both, and you don’t know each other.
So I take the risk; it is none. When that time
comes, neither of you will find me wanting.”
“I believe it. The other
thing is this forgive me if I go too far.
Do you know what even intelligent and charitable people
would say of all this? That it was very queer,
very mixed, very dubious.”
“They are not our judges, nor
we theirs. What would they say of your theories,
and your way of life? To be sure, these concern
yourself alone. So is this inwardly my affair;
it binds, it holds no other. Must a man live
in the woods, to form his own ethical code? Here
too one may keep clean hands and a pure heart, and
do his own thinking. Life is very queer, very
mixed, very dubious; I take it as it comes. O,
I see truth here and there in your notions of it,
though it has done well by me. If I find in it
something unique and precious, shall I thrust that
aside, because the statutes have not provided for
such a case? But one thing I can reject, so that
for me it is not: the baser element. Gross
selfishness and vulgar passions are no more in my scheme
than in yours: if their suggestions were to rise,
it would be easy to disown them. The human beasts
who let their lower nature rule, the animals who care
for themselves and call it caring for another, are
not of our society. O yes, in common things one
must get and keep his own the body must
have its food; but one’s private temple is kept
for worship, and owns a different law. It is
not always, nor often, that one can build his shrine
on earth, and enter it every day: when a man has
that exceptional privilege, he must and may keep his
standards high enough to fit. You understand?”
“I do: I am learning.
I knew all this in theory, but supposed it ended there.
And your Princess, you think is of our society?”
“No root of nobleness is lacking
in her; when the season comes, the plants will spring
and the garden bloom. But we cannot expect to
understand her fully; she is of finer clay than we.”
“One thing more, and then I
will let you go. There is more of you than I
thought, my boy. In May I knew you had a heart;
but one who heard you in the woods would have set
you down just for a kindly, practical man of the world.
Last night, and most of the time to-day, you were the
trifler, the incorrigible jester. Why do you belie
yourself so and hide your inmost self from all but
me?”
“Because I’ve got to convert
you, old man. It is a poor instrument that has
but a single string; and David’s harp of solemn
sound would bore me as much as it would other folks,
if I tried to play on it all the time. How many
people would sit out this talk of ours, or read it
if we put it in print? Taken all in all, the
light fantastic measure suits me much better.
To see all sides, we must take all tones. The
varying moods within fit the varying facts without;
to get at truth we must give each its turn. But
in the main it is best to take Life lightly. Your
error was that you were too serious about it:
it’s not worth that. Most things are chiefly
fit to laugh at. The highgrand style will do once
in a way: we’ve worked it too hard now.
Let’s come down to earth. I wanted to show
you that I could do the legitimate drama as well as
you, and yet wear a tall hat and dress for dinner.
See?”
“That’s all very well,
Bob, but I can discriminate between your seriousness
and your farce. Perhaps it is well to mix them,
or to take them as they are mixed for us. You
may be right in that; I’ll think it over.
Yes, I can see now that Heraclitus overdoes it, and
that I used to. Well, my lad, you are a queer
professor of ethics; but I’m not sure you’ve
brought me to the wrong school.”