Nan overslept herself, and was rather
late the next morning; but as she entered the parlor,
with an exclamation of penitence for her tardiness,
she found her little speech was addressed to the empty
walls. A moment after, a shadow crossed the window,
and Phillis came in.
She went up to Nan and kissed her,
and there was a gleam of fun in her eyes.
“Oh, you lazy girl!” she
said; “leaving me all the hard work to do.
Do you know, I have been around to the Library, and
have had it all out with Miss Milner; and in the Steyne
I met the clergyman again, and would you
believe it; he looked quite disappointed because you
were not there!”
“Nonsense!” returned Nan,
sharply. She never liked this sort of joking
speeches: they seemed treasonable to Dick.
“Oh, but he did,” persisted
Phillis, who was a little excited and reckless after
her morning’s work. “He threw me a
disparaging glance, which said, as plainly as possible,
‘Why are you not the other one?’ That
comes from having a sister handsomer than one’s
self.”
“Oh, Phillis! when people always
think you so nice, and when you are so clever!”
Phillis got up and executed a little
courtesy in the prettiest way, and then she sank down
upon her chair in pretended exhaustion.
“What I have been through!
But I have come out of it alive. Confess, now,
there’s a dear, that you could not have done
it!”
“No; indeed,” with an
alarmed air. “Do you really mean to say
that you actually told Miss Milner what we meant to
do?”
“I told her everything.
There, sit down and begin your breakfast, Nan, or
we shall never be ready. I found her alone in
the shop. Thank goodness, that Miss Masham was
not there. I have taken a dislike to that simpering
young person, and would rather make a dress for Mrs.
Squails any day than for her. I told her the truth,
without a bit of disguise. Would you believe
it, the good creature actually cried about it! she
quite upset me too. ’Such young ladies!
dear, dear: one does not often see such,’
she kept saying over and over again. And then
she put out her hand and stroked my dress, and said,
’Such a beautiful fit, too; and to think you
have made it yourself! such a clever young lady!
Oh, dear! whatever will Mr. Drummond and Miss Mattie
say?’ Stupid old thing! as though we cared what
he said!”
“Oh, Phillis! and she cried over it?”
“She did indeed. I am not
exaggerating. Two big round tears rolled down
her cheeks. I could have kissed her for them.
And then she made me sit down in the little room behind
the shop, where she was having her breakfast, and
poured me out a cup of tea and ”
But here Nan interrupted her, and there was a trace
of anxiety in her manner.
“Poured you out a cup of tea!
Miss Milner! And you drank it!”
“Of course I drank it; it was
very good, and I was thirsty.”
But here Nan pounced upon her unexpectedly,
and dragged her to the window.
“Your fun is only make-believe:
there is no true ring about it. Let me see your
eyes. Oh, Phil, Phil! I thought so!
You have been crying, too!”
Phillis looked a little taken aback.
Nan was too sharp for her. She tried to shake
herself free a little pettishly.
“Well, if I choose to make a
fool of myself for once in my life, you need not be
silly about it; the old thing was so upsetting, and and
it was so hard to get it out.” Phillis would
not have told for worlds how utterly she had broken
down over that task of hers; how the stranger’s
sympathy had touched so painful a chord that, before
she knew what she was doing, she had laid her head
down on the counter and was crying like a baby, all
the more that she had so bravely pent up her feelings
all these days that she might not dishearten her sisters.
But, as Nan petted and praised her,
she did tell how good Miss Milner had been to her.
“Fancy a fat old thing like
that having such fine feelings,” she said, with
an attempt to recover her sprightliness. “She
was as good as a mother to me, made me
sit in the easy-chair, and brought me some elder-flower
water to bathe my eyes, and tried to cheer me up by
saying that we should have plenty of work. She
has promised not to tell any one just yet about us;
but when we are really in the Friary she will speak
to people and recommend us: and ”
here Phillis gave a little laugh “we
are to make up a new black silk for her that her brother
has just sent her. Oh, dear, what will mother
say to us, Nan?” And Phillis looked at her in
an alarmed, beseeching way, as though in sore need
of comfort.
Nan looked grave; but there was no
hesitation in her answer:
“I am afraid it is too late
to think of that now, Phil: it has to be done,
and we must just go through with it.”
“You are right, Nanny darling,
we must just go through with it,” agreed Phillis;
and then they went on with their unfinished breakfast,
and after that the business of the day began.
It was late in the evening when they
reached home. Dulce who was at the gate looking
out for them, nearly smothered them with kisses.
“Oh, you dear things! how glad
I am to get you back,” she said, holding them
both. “Have you really only been away since
yesterday morning? It seems a week at least.”
“You ridiculous child! as though
we believe that! But how is mother?”
“Oh, pretty well: but she
will be better now you are back. Do you know,”
eying them both very gravely, “I think it was
a wise thing of you to go away like that? it has shown
me that mother and I could not do without you at all:
we should have pined away in those lodgings; it has
quite reconciled me to the plan,” finished Dulce,
in a loud whisper that reached her mother’s
ears.
“What plan? What are you
talking about, Dulce? and why do you keep your sisters
standing in the hall?” asked Mrs. Challoner,
a little irritably. But her brief nervousness
vanished at the sight of their faces: she wanted
nothing more, she told herself, but to see them round
her, and hear their voices.
She grew quite cheerful when Phillis
told her about the new papers, and how Mrs. Crump
was to clean down the cottage, and how Crump had promised
to mow the grass and paint the greenhouse, and Jack
and Bobbie were to weed the garden-paths.
“It is a perfect wilderness
now, mother: you never saw such a place.”
“Never mind, so that it will
hold us, and that we shall all be together,”
she returned, with a smile. “But Dulce talked
of some plan: you must let me hear it, my dears;
you must not keep me in the dark about anything.
I know we shall all have to work,” continued
the poor lady; “but if we be all together, if
you will promise not to leave me, I think I could
bear anything.”
“Are we to tell her!”
motioned Nan with her lips to Phillis; and as Phillis
nodded, “Yes,” Nan gently and quietly began
unfolding their plan.
But, with all her care and all Phillis’s
promptings, the revelation was a great shock to Mrs.
Challoner; in her weakened state she seemed hardly
able to bear it.
Dulce repented bitterly her incautious
whisper when she saw her sisters’ tired faces,
and their fruitless attempts to soften the effects
of such a blow. For a little while, Mrs. Challoner
seemed on the brink of despair; she would not listen;
she abandoned herself to lamentations; she became
so hysterical at last that Dorothy was summoned from
the kitchen and taken into confidence.
“Mother, you are breaking our
hearts,” Nan said, at last. She was kneeling
at her feet, chafing her hands, and Phillis was fanning
her; but she pushed them both away from her with weak
violence.
“It is I whose heart is breaking!
Why must I live to see such things? Dorothy,
do you know my daughters are going to be dressmakers? my
daughters, who are Challoners, who have
been delicately nurtured, who might hold
up their heads with any one?”
“Dorothy, hold your tongue!”
exclaimed Phillis, peremptorily. “You are
not to speak; this is for us to decide, and no one
else. Mammy, you are making Nan look quite pale:
she is dreadfully tired, and so am I. Why need we
decide anything to-night? Every one is upset and
excited, and when that is the case one can never arrive
at any proper conclusion. Let us talk about it
to-morrow, when we are rested.” And, though
Mrs. Challoner would not allow herself to be comforted,
Nan’s fatigue and paleness were so visible to
her maternal eyes that they were more eloquent than
Phillis’s words.
“I must not think only of myself.
Yes, yes, I will do as you wish. There will be
time enough for this sort of talk to-morrow. Dorothy,
will you help me? The young ladies are tired;
they have had a long journey. No, my dear, no,”
as Dulce pressed forward; “I would rather have
Dorothy.” And, as the old servant gave them
a warning glance, they were obliged to let her have
her way.
“Mammy has never been like this
before,” pouted Dulce, when they were left alone.
“She drives us away from her as though we had
done something purposely to vex her.”
“It is because she cannot bear
the sight of us to-night,” returned Phillis,
solemnly. “It is worse for her than for
us; a mother feels things for her children more than
for herself; it is nature, that is what it is,”
she finished philosophically; “but she will be
better to-morrow.” And after this the miserable
little conclave broke up.
Mrs. Challoner passed a sleepless
night, and her pillow was sown with thorns. To
think of the Challoners falling so low as this!
To think of her pretty Nan, her clever, bright Phillis,
her pet Dulce coming to this; “oh, the pity
of it!” she cried in the dark hours, when vitality
runs lowest, and thoughts seem to flow involuntarily
towards a dark centre.
But with the morning came sunshine,
and her girl’s faces, a little graver
than usual, perhaps, but still full of youth and the
brightness of energy; and the sluggish nightmare of
yesterday’s grief began to fade a little.
“Now, mammy, you are not going
to be naughty to-day!” was Dulce’s
morning salutation as she seated herself on the bed.
Mrs. Challoner smiled faintly:
“Was I very naughty last night, Dulce?”
“Oh, as bad as possible.
You pushed poor Nan and Phillis away, and would not
let any one come near you but that cross old Dorothy,
and you never bade us good-night; but if you promise
to be good, I will forgive you and make it up,”
finished Dulce, with those light butterfly kisses
to which she was addicted.
“Now, Chatterbox, it is my turn,”
interrupted Phillis; and then she began a carefully
concocted little speech, very carefully drawn out to
suit her mother’s sensitive peculiarities.
She went over the old ground patiently
point by point. Mrs. Challoner shuddered at the
idea of letting lodgings.
“I knew you would agree with
us,” returned Phillis, with a convincing nod;
and then she went on to the next clause.
Mrs. Challoner argued a great deal
about the governess scheme. She was quite angry
with Phillis, and seemed to suffer a great deal of
self-reproach, when the girl spoke of their defective
education and lack of accomplishments. Nan had
to come to her sister’s rescue; but the mother
was slow to yield the point:
“I don’t know what you
mean. My girls are not different from other girls.
What would your poor father say if he were alive?
It is cruel to say this to me, when I stinted myself
to give you every possible advantage, and I paid Miss
Martin eighty pounds a year,” she concluded,
tearfully, feeling as though she were the victim of
a fraud.
She was far more easily convinced
that going out as companions would be impracticable
under the circumstances. “Oh, no, that will
never do!” she cried, when the two little rooms
with Dulce were proposed; and after this Phillis found
her task less difficult. She talked her mother
over at last to reluctant acquiescence. “I
never knew how I came to consent,” she said,
afterwards, “but they were too much for me.”
“We cannot starve. I suppose
I must give in to you,” she said, at last; “but
I shall never hold up my head again.” And
she really believed what she said.
“Mother, you must trust us,”
replied Phillis, touched by this victory she had won.
“Do you know what I said to Dulce? Work
cannot degrade us. Though we are dressmakers,
we are still Challoners. Nothing can make us
lose our dignity and self-respect as gentlewomen.”
“Other people will not recognize
it,” returned her mother, with a sigh.
“You will lose caste. No one will visit
you. Among your equals you will be treated as
inferiors. It is this that bows me to the earth
with shame.”
“Mother, how can you talk so?”
cried Nan, in a clear, indignant voice. “What
does it matter if people do not visit us? We must
have a world of our own, and be sufficient for ourselves,
if we can only keep together. Is not that what
you have said to us over and over again? Well,
we shall be together, we shall have each other.
What does the outside world matter to us after all?”
“Oh, you are young; you do not
know what complications may arise,” replied
Mrs. Challoner, with the gloomy forethought of middle
age. She thought she knew the world better than
they, but in reality she was almost as guileless and
ignorant as her daughters. “Until you begin,
you do not know the difficulties that will beset you,”
she went on.
But notwithstanding this foreboding
speech, she was some what comforted by Nan’s
words: “they would be together!” Well,
if Providence chose to inflict this humiliation and
afflictive dispensation on her, it could be borne
as long as she had her children around her.
Nan made one more speech, a somewhat stern
one for her.
“Our trouble will be a furnace
to try our friends. We shall know the true from
the false. Only those who are really worth the
name will be faithful to us.”
Nan was thinking of Dick; but her
mother misunderstood her, and grew alarmed.
“You will not tell the Paines
and the other people about here what you intend to
do, surely? I could not bear that! no, indeed,
I could not bear that!”
“Do not be afraid, dear mother,”
returned Nan, sadly, “we are far too great cowards
to do such a thing, and, after all, there is no need
to put ourselves to needless pain. If the Maynes
were here we might not be able to keep it from them,
perhaps, and so I am thankful they are away.”
Nan said this quite calmly, though
her mother fixed her eyes upon her in a most tenderly
mournful fashion. She had quite forgotten their
Longmead neighbors, but now, as Nan recalled them to
her mind, she remembered Mr. Mayne, and her look had
become compassionate.
“It will be all over with those
poor children,” she thought to herself:
“the father will never allow it, never;
and I cannot wonder at him.” And then her
heart softened to the memory of Dick, whom she had
never thought good enough for Nan, for she remembered
now with a sore pang that her pride was laid low in
the dust, and that she could not hope now that her
daughters would make splendid matches: even Dick
would be above them, though his father had been in
trade, and though he had no grandfather worth mentioning.
A few days after their return from
Hadleigh, there was an other long business interview
with Mr. Trinder, in which every thing was settled.
A tenant had already been found for the cottage.
A young couple, on the eve of their marriage, who
had long been looking for a suitable house in the
neighborhood had closed at once with Mr. Trinder’s
offer, and had taken the lease off their hands.
The gentleman was a cousin of the Paines and, partly
for the convenience of the in-coming tenants, and
partly because the Challoners wished to move as soon
as possible, there was only a delay of a few weeks
before the actual flitting.
It would be impossible to describe
the dismay of the neighborhood when the news was circulated.
Immediately after their return from
Hadleigh, Nan and Phillis took counsel together, and,
summoning up their courage, went from one to another
of their friends and quietly announced their approaching
departure.
“Mother has had losses, and
we are now dreadfully poor, and we are going to leave
Glen Cottage and go down to a small house we have at
Hadleigh,” said Nan, who by virtue of an additional
year of age was spokeswoman on this occasion.
She had fully rehearsed this little speech, which
she intended to say at every house in due rotation.
“We will not disguise the truth; we will let
people know that we are poor, and then they will not
expect impossibilities,” she said, as they walked
down the shady roads towards the Paines’ house, for
the Paines were their most intimate friends and had
a claim to the first confidence.
“I think that will be sufficient;
no one has any right to know more,” she continued,
decidedly, fully determined that no amount of coaxing
and cross-examination should wring from her one unnecessary
word.
But she little knew how difficult
it would be to keep their own counsel. The Paines
were not alone: they very seldom were. Adelaide
Sartoris was there, and the younger Miss Twentyman,
and a young widow, a Mrs. Forbes, who was a distant
connection of Mrs. Paine.
Nan was convinced that they had all
been talking about them, for there was rather an embarrassed
pause as she and Phillis entered the room. Carrie
looked a little confused as she greeted them.
Nan sat down by Mrs. Paine, who was
rather deaf, and in due time made her little speech.
She was rather pale with the effort, and her voice
faltered a little, but every word was heard at the
other end of the room.
“Leave Glen Cottage, my dear?
I can’t have heard you rightly. I am very
deaf, to-day, very. I think I must
have caught cold.” And Mrs. Paine turned
a mild face of perplexity on Nan; but, before she could
reiterate her words, Carrie was on the footstool at
her feet, and Miss Sartoris, with a grave look of
concern on her handsome features, was standing beside
her:
“Oh, Nan! tell us all about
it! Of course we saw something was the matter.
Dulce was so strange that afternoon; and you have all
been keeping yourselves invisible for ever so long.”
“There is very little to tell,”
returned Nan, trying to speak cheerfully. “Mother
has had bad news. Mr. Gardiner is bankrupt, and
all our invested money is gone. Of course we could
not go on living at Glen Cottage. There is some
talk, Carrie, of your cousin, Mr. Ibbetson, coming
to look at it: it will be nice for us if he could
take the lease off our hands, and then we should go
down to the Friary.”
“How I shall hate to see Ralph
there! not but what it will suit him and
Louisa well enough, I dare say. But never mind
him: I want to know all about yourselves,”
continued Carrie, affectionately. “This
is dreadful, Nan! I can hardly believe it.
What are we to do without you? and where is the Friary?
and what is it like? and what will you do with yourselves
when you get there?”
“Yes, indeed, that is what we
want to know,” agreed Miss Sartoris, putting
her delicately-gloved hand on Nan’s shoulder;
and then Sophy Paine joined the little group, and
Mrs. Forbes and Miss Twentyman left off talking to
Phillis, and began listening; with all their might.
Now it was that Nan began to foresee difficulties.
“The Friary is very small,”
she went on, “but it will just hold us and Dorothy.
Dorothy is coming with us, of course. She is old,
but she works better than some of the young ones.
She is a faithful creature ”
But Carrie interrupted her impatiently:
“But, Nan, what will you do
with yourselves? Hadleigh is a nice place, I
believe. Mamma, we must all go down there next
summer, and stay there, you shall come
with us, Adelaide, and then we shall be
able to cheer these poor things up; and Nan, you and
Phillis must come and stay with us. We don’t
mean to give you up like this. What does it matter
about being poor? We are all old friends together.
You shall give us tea at the Friary; and I dare say
there are tennis-grounds at Hadleigh, and we will
have nice times together.”
“Of course we will come and
see you,” added Miss Sartoris, with a friendly
pressure of Nan’s shoulder; but the poor girl
only colored up and looked embarrassed, and then it
was that Phillis, who was watching her opportunity,
struck in:
“You are all very good; but,
Carrie, I don’t believe you understand Nan one
bit. When people lose their money they have to
work. We shall all have to put our shoulder to
the wheel. We would give you tea, of course,
but as for paying visits and playing tennis, it is
only idle girls like yourselves who have time for
that sort of thing. It will be work and not play,
I fear, with us.”
“Oh, Phillis!” exclaimed
poor Carrie, with tears in her eyes, and Miss Sartoris
looked horrified, for she had West-Indian blood in
her veins and was by nature somewhat indolent and
pleasure-loving.
“Do you mean you will have to
be governesses?” she asked, with a touch of
dismay in her voice.
“We shall have to work,”
returned Phillis, vaguely. “When we are
settled at the Friary we must look round us and do
the best we can.” This was felt to be vague
by the whole party; but Phillis’s manner was
so bold and well assured that no one suspected that
anything lay beyond the margin of her speech.
They had not made up their minds, perhaps; Sir Francis
Challoner would assist them; or there were other sources
of help: they must move into the new house first,
and then see what was to be done. It was so plausible,
so sensible, that every one was deceived.
“Of course you cannot decide
in such a hurry: you must have so much to do
just now,” observed Carrie. “You must
write and tell us all your plans, Phillis, and if
there be anything we can do to help you. Mamma,
we might have Mrs. Challoner here while the cottage
is dismantled. Do spare her to us, Nan, and we
will take such care of her!” And they were still
discussing this point, and trying to overrule Nan’s
objections, who knew nothing would induce
her mother to leave them, when other visitors
were announced, and in the confusion they were allowed
to make their escape.