Archie had been persuaded to remain
until the following evening, and to take the night
mail up to London. “You know you always
sleep so soundly in a railway-carriage,” his
mother had said, with her eyes full of pleading.
“Perhaps so; but all the same
it is dreary work to be shunted on to a platform in
the middle of the night, and to have to find your way
across London to catch a Sussex train.”
But, in spite of his grumbling he had remained.
For once it was difficult to tear himself away from
that happy family party.
But all through that night he scarcely
closed his eyes, but sat staring at the swinging-lamp
and his drowsy fellow-passengers, or out into the
blank wall of darkness, too wide awake and full of
thought to lose himself in his usual placid slumbers.
The fortunes of the Drummond family seemed rising
a little, he thought, with pleasure. How alert
and full of energy his father had seemed when he had
parted from him at the station! he had lost that subdued
despondent look that had grown on him of late.
Even his shoulders were a little less bowed, as though
the burden did not press quite so heavily.
“All this makes a great difference
to me, Archie,” he had said, as they had walked
to and fro on the platform. “Two such wealthy
sons-in-law ought to satisfy any father’s ambition.
I can hardly believe yet that my little Mattie whom
her sisters always called ’the old maid’ should
have secured such a prize. If it had been Grace,
now, one need not have wondered so much.”
“You may leave Grace out of
your reckoning,” returned Archie, smiling assent
to this, “and consider you have three out of
your seven daughters provided for, for Grace will
always be my care. Whatever happens in the future,
I think I can promise as much as that.”
“Ay, ay! I remember when
she was a little thing she always called herself Archie’s
wife. Well, well, the mother must bring on Clara
now: it would be a shame to separate you two.
Look, there is your train, my boy! Jump in, and
God bless you! You will come down to the wedding
of course, and bring Grace.”
“Archie’s wife.”
It was these two words that were keeping him so wide
awake in the rushing darkness. A dusky flush mounted
to the young man’s forehead as he pondered over
them.
He knew himself better now. Only
a few weeks, scarcely more than a fortnight, had passed
since Grace had given him that hint; but each day
since then had done the work of years. Caught
at the rebound indeed, and that so securely and strongly
that the man’s heart could never waver from
its fixed purpose again.
Now it was that he wondered at his
blindness; that he began to question with a perfect
anguish of doubt whether he should be too late; whether
his vacillation and that useless dream of his would
hinder the fulfilment of what was now his dearest hope.
Would he ever bring her to believe
that he had never really loved before, not,
at least, as he could love now? Would he ever
dare to tell her so, when she had known and understood
that first stray fancy of his for Nan’s sweet
face?
Now, as day after day he visited the
cottage and talked apart with her mother, his eyes
would follow Phillis wistfully. Once the girl
had looked up from her work and caught that long,
watchful glance; and then she had grown suddenly very
pale, and a pained expression crossed her face, as
though she had been troubled.
Since that night when the young vicar
had stood bare-headed on the snowy steps, and had
told Phillis laughingly that one day she would find
out for herself that all men were masterful, and she
had run down the steps flashing back that disdainful
look at him, he had felt there was a change in her
manner to him.
They had been such good friends of
late; it had become a habit with him to turn to Phillis
when he wanted sympathy. A silent, scarcely perceptible
understanding had seemed to draw them together; but
in one moment, at a word, a mere light jest of his
that meant nothing, the girl had become all at once
reserved, frozen up, impenetrable even to friendship.
In vain he strove to win her back
to her old merry talk. Her frank recklessness
of speech seemed over for the present. In his
presence she was almost always silent, not
with any awkwardness of embarrassment, but with a
certain maidenly reserve of bearing, as though she
had marked out a particular line of conduct for herself.
When Grace was in the room, things
were better: Phillis could not be otherwise than
affectionate to her chosen friend. And when they
were alone together, all Phillis’s bright playfulness
seemed to return; but nothing would induce her to
cross the threshold of the vicarage.
The evening after his return from
Leeds, Archie, as usual, dropped in at the Friary;
but this time he brought Grace with him. They
were all gathered in the work-room, which had now
become their favorite resort. On some pretext
or other, the lamp had not been brought in; but they
were all sitting round the fire, chatting in an idle
desultory way.
Phillis was half hidden behind her
mother’s chair: perhaps this was the reason
why her voice had its old merry chord. She had
welcomed Archie rather gravely, hardly
turning her face to him as she spoke; but as soon
as she was in her corner again, she took up the thread
of their talk in her usual frank way. But it
was Grace that she addressed.
“Poor dear Harry! We have
all been laughing a little at the notion of Alcides
being in love. Somehow, it seems so droll that
Mattie should turn out his Deianeira; but, after all,
I think he has shown very good sense in his choice.
Mattie will wear well.”
“You seem to agree with the
‘Vicar of Wakefield,’ Miss Challoner,”
observed Archie, rather amused at this temperate praise.
“Did not that excellent man choose his wife
for the same reason that she choose her wedding-dress,
with a view to durability?”
“Oh, there is a vast amount
of wisdom in all that,” returned Phillis, with
mock solemnity; for she did not mind what nonsense
she talked in the darkness. “If life had
nothing but fair-weather days, it might be excusable
for a man to choose his wife for mere beauty; but when
one thinks of fogs and east-winds, and smoky chimneys,
and all such minor evils, they may need something
a little more sustaining than a pink complexion.
At least,” catching herself up, and hurrying
on as though the real meaning of her words only just
occurred to her, “though Mattie may not be beautiful
outwardly, she is just the right sort of person for
a regular east-windy day. Not even a smoky chimney
and a fog together will put her out of temper.”
“I will recollect your advice
when the time comes,” replied Archie rather
audaciously at this, as he laughed and stroked his
beard.
It pleased him to see the old fun
brimming over again, fresh and sparkling; but, as
he answered her in the same vein of pleasantry, she
colored up in her dark corner and shrank back into
herself, and all the rest of the evening he could
hardly win a smile from her.
“My dear, I think Mr. Drummond
comes very often,” Mrs. Challoner said to her
eldest daughter that night. “He is very
gentlemanly, and a most excellent young man:
but I begin to be afraid what these visits mean.”
But Nan only laughed at this.
“Poor mother!” she said,
stroking her face. “Don’t you wish
you had us all safe at Glen Cottage again? There
are so few young men at Oldfield.”
“I cannot bear young men,”
was the somewhat irritable answer. “What
is the use of having children, when just when they
grow up to be a comfort to you, every one tries to
deprive you of them? Dick has robbed me of you,” and
here Mrs. Challoner grew tearful, “and
Dulce is always with the Middletons; and I am not
at all sure that Captain Middleton is not beginning
to admire her.”
“Neither am I,” observed
Nan, a little gravely; for, though they seldom talked
of such things among themselves, “son Hammond’s”
attentions were decidedly conspicuous, and Dulce was
looking as shy and pretty as possible.
No; she could not give her mother
any comfort there, for the solemn-faced young officer
was clearly bent on mischief. Indeed, both father
and son were making much of the little girl. But
as regarded Mr. Drummond there could be no question
of his intentions. The growing earnestness, the
long wistful looks, were not lost on Nan who knew all
such signs by experience. It was easy to understand
the young vicar: it was Phillis who baffled her.
They had never had any secrets between
them. From their very childhood, Nan had shared
Phillis’s every thought. But once or twice
when she had tried to approach the subject in the gentlest
manner, Phillis had started away like a restive colt,
and had answered her almost with sharpness:
“Nonsense, Nannie! What
is it to me if Mr. Drummond comes a dozen times a
day?” arching her long neck in the proudest way,
but her throat contracting a little over the uttered
falsehood; for she knew, none better, what these visits
were to her. “Do you think I should take
the trouble to investigate his motives? Don’t
you know, Nan,” in her sweet whimsical voice,
“that the masculine mind loves to conjugate
the verb ‘to amuse’? Mr. Drummond
is evidently bored by his own company; but there!
the vagaries of men are innumerable. One might
as well question the ebbing tide as inquire of these
young divinities the reason of all their eccentric
actions. He comes because we amuse him, and we
like to see him because he amuses us: and when
he bores us, we can tell him so, which is better than
Canute and the waves, after all.” And of
course, after this, Nan was compelled to drop the
subject.
But she watched Phillis anxiously;
for she saw that the girl was restless and ill at
ease. The thoughtful gray eyes had a shadow in
them. The bright spirits were quenched, and only
kindled by a great effort; and, as the time for their
leaving the Friary grew closer day by day, until the
last week approached, she flagged more, and the shadow
grew deeper.
“If he would only speak and
end all this suspense!” thought Nan, who knew
nothing of the real state of things, and imagined that
Mr. Drummond had cared for Phillis from the first.
They had already commenced their packing.
Sir Harry was back in his hotel, solacing himself
with his cousin’s company, and writing brief
letters to his homely little bride-elect, when one
fine afternoon he met them and Grace just starting
for the shore.
This was their programme on most afternoons,
and of course they had not gone far before Captain
Middleton and his father and sister joined them; and
a little later on, just as they were entering the town,
they overtook Mr. Drummond.
Phillis nodded to him in a friendly
manner, and then walked on with Grace, taking no further
notice; but when they were on the shore, admiring
the fine sunset effect, Grace quietly dropped her arm
and slipped away to join the others. Phillis
stood motionless: her eyes were riveted on the
grand expanse of sky and ocean. “It is so
like life,” she said at last, not seeing who
stood beside her, while all the others were walking
on in groups of twos and threes, Dulce close to the
colonel, as usual. “Do you see those little
boats, Grace? one is sailing so smoothly in the sunlight,
and the other scarcely stirring in the shadow, brightness
to some, you see, and shade to others; and beyond,
that clear line of light, like the promise of eternity.”
“Don’t you think it lies
within most people’s power to make their own
lives happier?” returned Archie so quietly to
this that she scarcely started. “The sunshine
and shade are more evenly balanced than we know.
To be sure, there are some lives like that day that
is neither clear nor dark, gray, monotonous
lives, with few breaks and pleasures in them.
But perhaps even that question may be happily solved
when one looks out a little farther to the light beyond.”
“Yes, if one does not grow tired
of waiting for the answer,” she said, a little
dreamily. “There is so much that cannot
be clear here.” And then she roused with
a little difficulty from her abstraction, and looked
around her. The others had all gone on: they
were standing alone on the shingly beach, just above
a little strip of yellow sand, only they
two. Was it for this reason that her eyes grew
wide and troubled, and she moved away rather hurriedly?
But he still kept close to her, talking quietly as
he did so.
“Do you remember this place?”
he said: “it reminds me of a picture I
once saw. I think it was ‘Atalanta’s
Race,’ only there was no Paris. It was
just such as scene as this: there was the dark
breakwater, and the long line of surf breaking on
the shore, and the sun was shining on the water; and
there was a girl running with her head erect, and
she scarcely seemed to touch the ground, and she stopped
just here,” resting his hand on the black, shiny
timber.
“Do not,” she answered,
in a low voice, “do not recall that day:
it stings me even now to remember it.”
And as the words “Bravo Atalanta!”
recurred to her memory, the hot blush of shame mounted
to her face.
“I have no need to recall it,”
he returned, still more quietly, for her discomposure
was great, “for I have never forgotten it.
Yes, this is the place, not where I first saw you,
but where I first began to know you. Phillis,
that knowledge is becoming everything to me now!”
“Do not,” she said, again,
but she could hardly bring out the words. But
how wonderful it was to hear her name pronounced like
that! “The others have gone on: we
must join them.”
“May I not tell you what I think
about you first?” he asked, very gently.
“Not now, not yet,”
she almost whispered; and now he saw that she was
very pale, and her eyes were full of tears. “I
could not bear it yet.” And then, as she
moved farther away from him, he could see how great
was her agitation.
It was a proof of his love and earnestness
that he suffered the girl to leave him in this way,
that he did not again rejoin her until they were close
to the others. In spite of his impatience and
his many faults, he was generous enough to understand
her without another word. She had not repelled
him; she had not silenced him entirely; she had not
listened to him and then answered him with scorn.
On the contrary, her manner had been soft and subdued,
more winning than he had ever known it; and yet she
had refused to hearken to his suit. “Not
now, not yet,” she had said, and he
could see that her lip quivered, and her beautiful
eyes were full of tears. It was too soon, that
was what she meant; too soon for him to speak and
for her to listen. She owed it to her own dignity
that his affection should be put to greater proof
than that. She must not be so lightly won; she
must not stoop down from her maidenly pride and nobleness
at his first words because she had grown to care for
him. “It must not be so, however much the
denial may cost me,” Phillis had said to herself.
But as she joined the others, and came to Nan’s
side, she could scarcely steady her voice or raise
her eyes, for fear their shy consciousness would betray
her. “At last,” and “at last!” that
was the refrain that was ringing so joyously in her
heart. Well, and one day he should tell her what
he would.
She thought she had silenced him entirely,
but she forgot that men were masterful and had cunning
ways of their own to compass their ends. Archie
had recovered his courage; he had still a word to say,
and he meant to say it; and just before the close of
the walk, as they were in the darkest part of the
Braidwood Road, just where the trees meet overhead,
before one reaches the vicarage, Phillis found him
again at her side.
“When may I hope that you will
listen?” he said. “I am not a patient
man: you must remember that, and not make it too
hard for me. I should wish to know how soon I
may come.”
“Spring is very beautiful in
the country,” she answered, almost too confused
by this unexpected address to know what she was saying.
“I think May is my favorite month, when the
hawthorns are out.”
“Thank you, I will come in May.”
And then Phillis woke up to the perception of what
she had said. “Oh, no, I did not meant that,”
she began, incoherently; but this time it was Archie
who moved away, with a smile on his face and a certain
vivid brightness in his eyes, and her stammered words
were lost in the darkness.
The whole week was much occupied by
paying farewell visits. On the last afternoon
Phillis went down to the White House to say good-bye.
It was one of Magdalene’s bad days; but the unquiet
hour had passed, and left her, as usual, weak and
subdued. Her husband was sitting beside her:
as Phillis entered he rose with a smile on his lips.
“That is right, Miss Challoner!” he said,
heartily. “Magdalene always looks better
the moment she hears your voice. Barby is unfortunately
out, but I can leave her happily with you.”
“Is he not good?” exclaimed
his wife, as soon as he had left them. “He
has been sitting with me all the afternoon, my poor
Herbert, trying to curb his restlessness, because
he knows how much worse I am without him. Am
I not a trying wife to him? and yet he says he could
not do without me. There, it has passed:
let us talk of something else. And so you are
going to leave us?” drawing the fresh face down
to hers, that she might kiss it again.
“Yes, to-morrow!” trying to stifle a sigh.
“There are some of us that will
not know what to do without you. If I am not
very much mistaken, there is one person who ”
but here the girl laid her hand hurriedly on her lips.
“What! I am not to say that? Well,
I will try to be good. But all the same this is
not good-bye. Tell your mother from me that she
will not have her girls for long. Captain Middleton
has lost his heart, and is bent on making that pretty
little sister of yours lose hers to; and as for you,
Phillis ” but here Phillis
stooped, and silenced her this time by a kiss.
“Ah, well!” continued
Magdalene, after a moment’s silence, as she
looked tenderly into the fair face before her; “so
you have finished your little bit of play-work, and
are going back into your young-ladyhood again?”
“It was not play-work!”
returned Phillis, indignantly: “you say
that to provoke me. Do you know,” she went
on, earnestly, “that if we should have had to
work all our lives as dressmakers, Nan and I would
have done it, and never given in. We were making
quite a fine business of it. We had more orders
then we could execute; and you call that play?
Confess, now, that you repent of that phrase!”
“Oh, I was only teasing you,”
returned Magdalene, smiling. “I know how
brave you were, and how terribly in earnest. Yes,
Phillis, you are right; nothing would have daunted
you; you would have worked without complaint all your
life long, but for that red-haired Alcides of yours.”
“Dear Harry! how much we owe to him!”
exclaimed Phillis.
“No, dear, you will owe your
happiness to yourself, the happiness,”
as the girl looked at her in surprise, “that
is coming to you and Dulce. It was because you
were not like other girls because you were
brave, self-reliant gentlewomen, afraid of nothing
but dishonor; not fearful of small indignities, or
of other people’s opinions, but just taking
up the work that lay to your hands, and going through
with it that you have won his heart:
and, seeing this, how could he help loving you as
he does?” But to this Phillis made no answer.
The next day was rather trying to
them all. Phillis’s cheerfulness was a
little forced, and for some time after they had left
the Friary with Grace and Archie waving
their farewells from the road she was very
silent.
But no sooner had they crossed the
threshold of Glen Cottage than their girlhood asserted
itself. The sight of the bright snug rooms, with
their new furniture, the conservatory, with its floral
treasures, and Sir Harry’s cheery welcome, as
he stood in the porch with Mrs. Mayne, was too much
even for Phillis’s equanimity. In a few
minutes their laughing faces were peering out of every
window and into every cupboard.
“Oh, the dear, beautiful home!
Isn’t it lovely of Harry to bring us back!”
cried Phillis, oblivious of everything at that moment
but her mother’s satisfied face.
In a few days they had settled down
into their old life. It was too early for tennis
while snowdrops and crocuses were peeping out of the
garden borders. But in the afternoon friends dropped
in in the old way, and gathered round the Challoner
tea-table; and very soon for Easter fell
early that year Dick showed himself among
them, and then, indeed, Nan’s cup of happiness
was full.
But as April passed on Phillis began
to grow a little silent again; and it became a habit
with her to coax Laddie to take long walks with her,
when Nan and Dulce were otherwise engaged. The
exercise seemed to quiet her restlessness; and the
spring sights and sounds, the budding hedgerows, and
the twittering of the birds as they built their nests,
and the fresh leafy green, unsoiled by summer heat
and dust, seemed to refresh her flagging spirits.
It was the 1st of May, when one afternoon
she called to Laddie, who was lying drowsily in the
sunny porch. Nan, who was busily engaged in training
the creeper round the pillars of the veranda, looked
up in a little surprise:
“Are you going out again, Phil?
And neither Dulce nor I can come with you. Mrs.
Mayne has some friends coming to five-o’clock
tea, and she wants us to go over for an hour.
It is so dull for you, dear, always to walk alone.”
“Oh no; I shall not be dull,
Nannie,” returned Phillis, with an unsteady
smile, for her spirits were a little fluctuating that
afternoon. “I am restless, and want a good
walk: so I shall just go to Sandy Lane, and be
back in time to make tea for mother.” And
then she waved her hand, and whistled to Laddie as
she unlatched the little gate. It was a long
walk. But, as usual, the quiet and the sweet air
refreshed her, and by the time she reached Sandy Lane
her eyes were brilliant with exercise, and a pretty
pink tinge of color was in her cheeks. It is
May-day, the 1st of May. I wonder how
soon he will come, she thought, as she leaned on the
little gate where poor Dick had leaned that day.
There were footsteps approaching,
but they made no sound over the sandy ruts. A
tall man, with a fair beard and a clerical felt hat,
was walking quickly up the road that leads from Oldfield;
and as he walked his eyes were scanning the path before
him, as though he were looking for some one.
At the sight of the girl leaning against the gate his
face brightened, and he slackened his steps a little,
that he might not startle her. She was looking
out across the country with a far-off, dreamy expression,
and did not turn her head as he approached. It
was Laddie who saw him first, and jumped up with a
joyous bark to welcome him; and then she looked round,
and for a moment her eyes grew wide and misty, for
she thought it was a continuation of her dream.
“Laddie saw me first,”
he said, stepping up quietly to her side, for
he still feared to startle her, and his
voice was very gentle. “Phillis, you must
not look so surprised! Surely you expected me?
It is the 1st of May!”
“Oh, I knew that,” she
said; and then she turned away from him. But he
had not dropped her hand, but was holding it very quietly
and firmly. “But I could not tell the day;
and ”
“Did you think I should wait
an hour beyond the time you fixed?” he answered,
very calmly. “May is your favorite month;
and what could be more beautiful than May-day for
the purpose I have in hand! Phillis, you will
not go back from your promise now? You said you
would listen to me in May.”
There was no answer to this; but,
as Archie looked in her face, he read no repulse there.
And so, in that quiet lane, with Laddie lying at their
feet, he told all he had to tell.
“Are you sure you can trust
me now, Phillis?” he asked, rather wistfully,
when he had finished. “You know what I am,
dear a man with many faults.”
“Yes; now and forever,”
she answered, without a moment’s hesitation.
“I am not afraid I never should have
been afraid to trust you, I have faults of my own:
so why should I wish you to be perfect? I care
for you as you are; you will believe that?”
for there was almost a sad humility in his face as
he pleaded with her that went to her heart.
“Oh, yes; I believe what you
tell me. You are truth itself, my darling, the
bravest and truest woman I have ever met. You
do not know how happy you have made me, or how different
my life will be when I have you by my side. Phillis,
do you know how glad Grace will be about this?”
“Will she?” returned Phillis,
shyly. They were walking homeward now, hand in
hand toward the sunset, so, at least, it
seemed to the girl. No one was in sight, only
the quiet country round them bathed in the evening
light, and they two alone. “Archie!”
she exclaimed, suddenly, and her beautiful eyes grew
wistful all at once, “you will not let this
make any difference to Grace? She loves you so;
and you are all she has at present. You must
never let me stand between you two. I am not
so selfish as that.”
“You could not be selfish if
you tried, dearest. How I wish Grace could have
heard you! No; you are right. We must not
let her suffer from our happiness. But, Phillis,
you know who must come first now.” And
then, as she smiled in full understanding, he put her
hand upon his arm, and held it there. His promised
wife, Archie’s wife! Ah, the
Drummond star was rising now in earnest! His life
lay before him, like the road they were now entering,
white and untrodden and bathed in the sunlight.
What if some clouds should come, and some shadows fall,
if they might tread it together to the end? And
so, growing silent with happiness, they walked home
through the sunset, till the spring dusk and the village
lights saw them standing together on the threshold
of Glen Cottage, and the dear faces and loving voices
of home closed around them and bade them welcome.