Then happened that event which in
an hour, as it were, made a man out of a rather foolish
boy. The postman comes twice to our doors during
the day with letters-once for those from
the neighbourhood of Breckonside, once for the mails
that come in from London and all the countries of
the world. Not that there were many of these,
save now and then one or two for my father, about
hams and flour. I used to annex the stamps,
of course-generally from the United States
they were, but once in a while from France.
One dullish December morning, in the
early part of the month, my father got a letter which
seemed to cause him some annoyance. He did not
usually refer to his correspondence. But I was
standing near him-for after all, on account
of certain business reasons, I had not yet gone to
Edinburgh-and I heard him mutter, “I
suppose I had better go to Longtown Tryst, or I may
never see my money. Still, it is a nuisance.
I wish old-
Here he broke off suddenly, and turning
round ordered our man Bob-Bob Kingsman,
to saddle the mare. Then he called out to mother
to put up something for him, for he had to ride to
Longtown, and might be away all day.
“But, father-” she
began.
He waved his hand impatiently.
“It is a money payment,”
he said, “long outstanding, and if I do not
get the man to-day at Longtown Tryst I may say good-bye
to my chance of it.”
He scarcely stayed to get the breakfast
my mother had prepared. He did not answer when
she pressed upon him this or that as “an extry.”
However, along with sundry sandwiches, she slid a small
“neat” flask into the side pocket of his
riding-coat-“in case” as she
said. For this was no habit of my father’s.
After that he called me into the yard
to receive instructions as to various details about
the sending out of the vans, and he gave Bob Kingsman
“what for,” because he had been so long
saddling Dapple.
I can see him now as he rode away.
Though a heavy man he rode well, and in fact never
looked so well as when on horseback. I can remember,
too, that my mother was at an upper window, my bedroom,
in fact, whither she had gone to “put things
in some sort of order.”
My father waved his hand to her, with
a more gracious gesture than I had ever before seen
him use. I answered with my cap. For my
mother, as I think, was so taken aback that she withdrew
into the house, with something of the instinctive
shyness of a girl who peeps at her sweetheart from
behind the curtain.
Perhaps it was as well. She
kept the little love token to herself. It was
hers, to get out of it what dreary comfort she could,
in the terror and suspense of the days that followed.
Longtown, to the Tryst or Fair of
which my father set out, was about fourteen miles
over the moors-quite, indeed, on the other
side of the Cheviots. It had thriven because
it formed a convenient meeting place for Scotch drovers
and cattle rearers with the buyers from the big Midland
towns, and even from London. Little more than
a village in itself, it contained large auction marts
for lamb sales, horse markets, and the general traffic
of an agricultural district. The country folk
went there of a Wednesday, which was its market day.
My father’s road lay plainly enough marked
across the Common, then by Brom Moor and the Drovers’
Slap, a pass through the high, green Cheviots, with
a little brook running over slaty stones at the bottom-ice-crusted
now at the edges, and the water creeping like a slow
black snake between the snow-dusted banks.
We waited up long for my father that
night, mother and I. Bob had gone down to the village-to
do some shopping, he said. But I could easily
have told in what shop to find him-the one
in which they don’t, as a general rule, do up
the goods with string and brown paper.
Then in the slow night, I with a book
and she with her stocking, my mother and I sat and
waited. It would have been nothing very unusual
if father had not returned at all that night.
He sometimes did this, when business kept him at
East Dene or Thorsby. On such occasions his
orders were that we should lock up at eleven and go
quietly to bed. Mother mostly let the maid, Grace
Rigley, go home to her father’s house at the
other end of the village. Indeed, we were always
glad when she did, for it let us have the house to
ourselves, a pleasure which people who keep servants
all the time never know.
We gave father till twelve that night-why,
I do not know-except that the hill road
was an unusual one for him to travel. And what
with the sloughs and quags, the peat-faces and green,
shaking bogs, it was not at all a canny country after
dark.
I had to keep mother up, too.
“Why did he wave his hand to
me this mornin’, Joe?” she said, more than
once; “he didn’t use to do that!”
“Oh, he just saw you at the
window, mother,” I answered her, “and
perhaps he thought you were a bit ‘touched’
at his not fancying his breakfast.”
“No, Joe,” she cried quite
sharply; “me ’touched’-with
him-never! He knew better.”
“Touched” was, of course, our local word
for offended.
Then would mother knit a while, and run again to the
door to listen.
“I thought I heard him!” she said.
“I am nearly sure.”
And there came a kind of white joy
upon her face, curious in such a naturally rosy woman
with cheeks like apples. But it was only some
of the van horses moving restlessly or scraping their
bedding in the stables.
Now our house with its big, bricked
yard, and all the different out-buildings-stores,
coal-sheds, salt-pens, granaries, oil-cake house and
cellars, occupied quite a big quadrangle. At
the corner was Bob McKinstrey’s room, through
which was the only entrance excepting by the big gate.
Bob had two doors, one opening out on a narrow lane,
called Stye Alley, where poor people had kept pigs
before my father and the local authority had made
them clear off.
On the other side, Bob’s room
looked into the yard, so that he could see at night
that all was right. He could also enter the stable
by a little side door, of which he alone had the key-that
is, of course, excepting my father’s master
key, which he always carried about with him.
Now I had locked the big double gate
myself-the one by which the lorries and
vans went and came. I had pushed home the bars.
I had even gone round to see that Bob had closed
his door behind him. The lock was a self-acting
one, but Bob was apt to be careless.
I knew that my father, when he came,
would let himself in by the big yard gate, opening
the right-hand half of it to bring in Dapple.
Well, at twelve o’clock mother
and I went to bed-I to sleep, but with
half my clothes on me, in case father wanted anything
when he should come. For if he did he made no
allowances. Everybody had to be on the jump
to get it.
I don’t think, however, that
mother slept much. Afterwards I heard that she
had never put out her light. It was, I think,
about four o’clock and the moon was setting
when I heard a light shower of stones and sand tinkle
on my window.
I made sure that it was father, though
what he wanted with me I could not imagine.
For he always took a pass key with him, and the extra
bolts of the house door were never shut when he was
out anywhere on business. He never liked any
one to interfere with his comings and goings, you
see. So much so that we none of us durst so much
as ask him when he got back in the morning, for fear
of having our heads snapped off.
It was, however, Bob Kingsman who was below.
“Come down, Joe!” he whispered, “an’
dinna let the mistress hear ye!”
I was at his side, with boots over
my stockinged feet, almost before I could get myself
awake.
“Is it father come home?” I asked sleepily.
Bob said nothing, but led me round
to the stables. And there, nosing the lock of
the inner door, saddled and bridled, stood Dapple,
waiting to be let into her own stall.
“Pass your hand over her,” said Bob.
The mare was warm, the perspiration
and the flecks of foam still upon her. Bob held
up his lantern. The bridle was fastened to a
plaited thong of her mane.
And the plait was the same peculiar
one which my father had remarked in the whip lash
in the mail cart, the morning of the loss of poor Harry
Foster!
By a sort of instinct Bob opened the
stable door, and, just as if nothing had happened,
the mare moved to her place. He was going to
take off the saddle and undo the reins, but I stopped
him. There was a great fear at my heart, for
which after all there did not seem to be any very
definite cause.
Father might have gone up to his room
without awaking anybody. The great door of the
yard was locked. Some one, therefore, must have
unlocked it, let in Dapple, and relocked it.
Who but my father could have done this? At worst
he had met with some accident, and was even then dressing
a wound or reposing himself.
That is what we said, the one to the
other. But I am quite sure that neither of us
believed it, even as the words were leaving our mouths.
Then we heard something that made
us both jump-the voice of my mother.
She was speaking down from her window. I could
see the white frill of her cap.
“Father,” she called out
in a voice in which she never spoke to me. “Is
that you?”
Then in quite another tone, “Who
has left the stable door open?”
“Me, mistress-and Joe!” said
Bob.
“Then there is something wrong! I am coming
down.”
And the next moment we could hear
her, for she had never undressed, descending the stairway.
“What shall we do-quick-what
shall we say?”
Bob Kingsman was never very quick at invention.
“Tell her ‘an accident,’”
I whispered, “we are going to look for him-say
nothing about the yard door having been opened and
shut again.”
For even then I felt that the key of the mystery lay
there.
My mother took it more quietly than
we had hoped. She did not cry out, but to this
day I mind the tremulous light of the candle which
she carried in one shaking hand and sheltered with
the other. It went quavering from her breast
to her face, and then down again till it mixed with
the steady shine of the stable lantern in Bob’s
hand.
She went into the stable and looked
Dapple over carefully, without, however, attempting
to touch anything about the mare’s trappings.
“There will hae been an accident,”
she faltered, her tongue almost refusing its office,
“your faither must have been thrown! We
will all go and seek for him. We will waken
the village.”
“But you are not fit, mother.
Bide here quiet in the house-let others
seek-you are never fit.”
“Who has my right?” she
said, with a suppressed fierceness, very strange in
one so kindly. “I will go out and seek
for my man! No one shall hinder me!”