ONE morning Betty was hurrying down
Tideshead street to the post-office, and happened
to meet the minister’s girls and Lizzie French,
who were great friends with each other. They
seemed to be unusually confidential and interested
about something.
“We’ve got a secret club
and we’re going to let you belong,” said
Lizzie French. “Where can we go to tell
you about it, and make you take the oath?”
“Come home with me just as soon
as I post this letter,” responded Betty with
great pleasure. “Do you think my front steps
would be a good place?”
“It would be too hot; beside,
we don’t want Mary Beck to see us,” objected
Ellen Grant, who was the most pale and quiet of the
two sisters. They were both pleasant, persistent,
mild-faced girls, who never seemed tired or confused,
and never liked to change their minds or to go out
of their own way. Usually all the other girls
liked to do as they said, and they were accordingly
very much pleased with Betty, apparently because she
hardly ever agreed with them.
“Let’s go to walk, then,” said Betty.
“I’ll tell you what we’ll
do,” Lizzie Grant said in a business-like tone.
“Let’s go down the old road a little way,
toward the river, and sit under the black cherry-tree
on the stone wall; you know how cool it is there in
the morning? I can’t stay but a little while
any way. I am going to help mother.”
Nobody objected and away they went
two by two. Evidently there was serious business
on hand, which could by no means be told lightly or
without some regard to the surroundings.
“Now what is it?” demanded
Betty, when they had seated themselves under the old
black cherry-tree; but neither of the girls took it
upon her to speak first. “I promise never,
never to tell.”
Mary Grant took a thin, square little
book out of her pocket, half of a tiny account book
of the plainest sort, and held it up to Betty so that
she could see the letters S. B. C. on the pale brown
pasteboard cover. It certainly looked very interesting
and mysterious. “We thought that we would
admit another member,” said Mary; “but
it is a very difficult thing to belong, and you must
hold up your right hand and promise on your word of
honor that you will never speak of it to any girl in
Tideshead.”
“I may have to speak of it to
papa. I always tell papa if I am not quite certain
about things. He said a great while ago that it
was the safest way. I mean I am on my honor about
it, that’s all. He never asks me.”
Betty’s cheeks grew red as she spoke, but she
did speak bravely, and the girls were more impressed
than ever by the seriousness of the club.
“I don’t believe that
she will have to tell him, do you, girls?” Lizzie
French insisted. “Any way we want you to
belong, Betty. You be the one to tell her, Mary.”
“It is a society to help us
not to say things about people,” said Mary Grant
solemnly, and Betty Leicester gave a little sigh of
relief. She thought that would be a most worthy
object, though somewhat poky.
“We have made a league that
we will try to break ourselves of speaking harshly
and making fun of people, and of not standing up for
them when others talk scandal. There, you see
this book is ruled into little squares for the days
of the week, a month on a page, and when we get through
a day without saying anything against anybody we can
put a nice little cross in, but when we have broken
the pledge we must mark it with a cipher, and then
when we are just horrid and keep on being cross, we
must black the day all over. Then once a week
we have to show the books to each other and make our
confessions.”
“Wouldn’t it be splendid,
if we could have a whole week of good marks, to wear
a little badge or something?” proposed Lizzie
French.
“Oh Lizzie! we never can, it
will be so hard to get through one single day,”
Betty answered quickly. “I should just love
to belong, though; I am always saying ugly things
and being sorry. What does S. B. C. mean?
How did you ever think of it?”
“The Sin Book Club,” Ellen
Grant explained. “Mary and I heard of one
that our cousin belonged to at boarding-school.
She said that it took weeks and weeks for some of
the members to make one good mark, but after you get
into the habit of it, you find it quite easy.
I will let you take my book to make yours by, if you
will let me have it back to-night. I bought a
little book for Mary and me that was only three cents,
and cut it in two; and Lizzie hasn’t got hers
yet, so you can buy one together and go halves.”
“I’d like to know who
will pay the two cents,” laughed Betty.
“I will, and then you can give me half a one-cent
lead pencil to make change. Papa always has such
a joke about a man in one of Mr. Lowell’s poems
who used to change a board nail for a shingle nail
so as to make the weight come right.”
“No, you give me the pencil,”
said Lizzie, “I lost mine yesterday,” and
the new members became unduly frivolous.
“Now we mustn’t laugh,
girls, because it is a solemn moment,” said Ellen
Grant, though she did not succeed in looking very sober
herself.
Betty was looking at Mary Grant’s
sin book, which had kept the record of two days, both
with bad marks. If Mary had failed, what could
impulsive Betty hope for? it was one of her worst temptations
to make fun or to find petty faults in people.
She did not know what her friends would think of her
as time went on, but she meant to try very hard.
“Just think how lovely it will
be if we learn never to say anything against any one!
Perhaps we ought to make it a big club instead of a
little one,” but one of the girls said that people
would laugh and would be watching them.
“Oughtn’t we to ask Becky
to belong?” It was difficult for Betty to ask
this question, but she feared that her dear friend
and neighbor’s sharp eyes would detect the secret
alliance, and Mary Beck was very hard to console when
she was once roused into displeasure. Somehow
Betty liked the idea of belonging to a club that Mary
Beck did not know about. She was a little ashamed
of this feeling, but there it was! The Grants
and Lizzie refused to have Becky join, at any rate
just now; and so Betty said no more. Perhaps
it would be just as well at first, and she would be
as careful as possible to gain good marks for her friend’s
sake as well as her own. Then the four members
of the S. B. C. came back together into the village,
and if the black cherry-tree heard their secret it
never told. Whom should they meet as they turned
the corner into the main street but Mary Beck herself,
and Betty for one moment felt guilty of great disloyalty.
“We have been to walk a little
way; I met the girls as I was going to the post-office,
and we just went down the old road and sat under the
cherry-tree,” she hastened to explain, but Becky
was in a most friendly mood and joined them with no
suspicion of having been left out of any pleasure.
Betty felt a secret joy in belonging to the club while
Becky did not, and yet she was sorry all the time
for Becky, who had a great pride in being at the front
when anything important was going on. Becky liked
to keep Betty Leicester to herself, and indeed the
two girls were growing more and more fond of each
other, though a touch of jealousy in one and a spirit
of independence and freedom in the other sometimes
blew clouds over their sunny spring sky. Mary
Beck had a way of seeing how people treated her and
rating them accordingly a silly self-compassionate
way of saying that one was good to her, and a surly
suspicion of another who did not pay her an expected
attention, and these traits offended Betty Leicester,
who was not given to putting either herself or other
people under a microscope. There was nothing
morbid about Betty and no sentimentality in her way
of looking at herself. Becky’s sensitiveness
and prejudice were sometimes very tiresome, but they
made nobody half so miserable as they did Becky herself;
the talk she had always heard at home was very narrowing;
a good deal of fruitless talk about small neighborhood
affairs went on continually and had nothing to do
with the real interests of life. It was a house
where there was very little to show for the time that
was spent. Mary Beck and her mother let many
chances for their own usefulness and pleasure slip
by, while they said mournfully that everything would
have been so different if Mary’s father had lived.
Betty Leicester was taught to do the things that ought
to be done.
The Sin Book Club continued to be
a profound secret, and was considered of great value.
Some days passed without a second meeting of the members
for reports, but they gave each other significant looks
and tried very hard to gain the little crosses that
were to mark a good day. Betty was in despair
when evening after evening she had to put down a cipher,
and it was a great humiliation to find how often she
yielded to a temptation to say funny things about
people. To be sure old Mrs. Max was an ugly old
gossip, but Betty need not have confided this opinion
to Serena and Letty as they happened to look out of
the kitchen windows, to see Mrs. Max go by. Betty
had succeeded in being blameless until past six o’clock
that day, and it was the fifth day of trial; lost now,
and black-marked like those that had gone before.
She went back to the garden and sat down in the summer-house
much dejected. The light that came through the
grape and clematis leaves was dim and tinted with
green; it was a little damp there too, and quite like
a sorrowful little hermitage. It is very hard
work trying to cure a fault. Betty did so like
to make people laugh, and she was always seeing what
funny things people looked like; and altogether life
was much soberer if one could no longer say whatever
came into one’s head. She was sure that
all funny personalities did not make people think
the less of their fellows, but it seemed as if most,
and the very funniest, did. Our friend dreaded
the inspection of her sin book, but when the Grants
and Lizzie French showed theirs too in solemn conclave
there was only one good mark for the whole four.
This was Ellen Grant’s, who talked much less
than either of the others and so may have found that
silence cost less effort.
“Even if we never succeed it
will make us more careful,” Lizzie French said,
trying to keep up good courage.
“I keep wishing that Mary Beck
belonged;” urged Betty loyally, but the others
were resolute and insisted, nobody could tell exactly
why, that Becky would spoil it all.
Betty was valiant enough in case of
open war, but she hated heartily as who
does not hate? a chilling atmosphere of
disapproval, in which no good-fellowship can flourish.
Of course the club soon betrayed its common interest,
and because Mary Beck was unobservant for the first
week or two, Betty took little pains to conceal the
fact that she and the Grants had a new interest in
common. Then one day Becky did not come over,
though the white handkerchief was displayed betimes;
and when, as soon as possible, Betty hurried over
to see what the matter was, Becky showed unmistakable
signs of briefness and grumpiness of speech, and declared
that she was busy at home, and evidently did not care
for the news that an old AEolian harp had been discovered
on a high upper shelf and carried to one of the dormer
windows, where it was then wailing. The plaintive
strains of it would have suited Becky’s spirit
and temper of mind excellently. It did not occur
to Betty until she was going home, disappointed, that
the club was beginning to make trouble; then her own
good temper was spoiled for that day, and she was angry
with Becky for thinking that she had no right to be
intimate with anybody else. So serious a disagreement
had never parted them before. Betty Leicester
assured herself that Mary knew she was fond of her
and liked to be with her best, and that ought to be
enough. The AEolian harp was quite forgotten.
Later in the day Betty happened to
look across the street as she was shutting the blinds
in the upper hall, and saw Mary Beck come proudly
down her short front walk with her best hat on and
go stiffly away without a look across. The sight
made her feel misunderstood and lonely; and one minute
later she was just going to shout to Becky when she
remembered that it was a far cry and would wake the
aunts from their afternoon naps. Then she ran
lightly down the wide staircase and all the way to
the gate and called as loud as she could, “Mary!
Mary!” but either Becky was too far away or
would not turn her proud head. There were some
other persons in the street, who looked with surprise
and interest to see where such an eager shout came
from, but Betty Leicester had turned toward the house
again with a heartful of rage and sorrow. It
seemed to be the sudden and unlooked-for end of the
summer’s pleasure. When Aunt Barbara waked
she asked Betty, being somewhat surprised to find
her in the house alone, to go to the other end of the
village to do an errand.
It was good to have something to do
beside growing crosser and crosser, and Betty gladly
hurried away. She hoped that she should meet Becky,
and yet she did not mean to make up too easily, and
when she saw Mrs. Beck watching her out of a front
window she felt certain that Mrs. Beck was cross too.
“Let them get pleased again!” grumbled
Miss Betty Leicester, and Mary Beck herself had not
borne a more forbidding expression. She lingered
a moment at Nelly Foster’s gate, hoping to find
Nelly free, but the noise of the sewing-machine was
plainly to be heard, and Nelly said wistfully that
she could not go out until after tea; then she would
come down to the house for a little while if Betty
would like it, and Betty gladly said yes. Her
heart was shaken as she walked on alone and came to
the oak-tree on the high ridge where Becky had taken
her to see the view and told her that she always called
it their tree, in that first afternoon’s walk.
What could make poor old Becky so untrustful and unkind?
Perhaps after all everything would be right when they
met again; it might be one of Becky’s freaks,
only a little worse than usual. Alas, Mary with
Julia Picknell, who happened to be in the village
that afternoon, came out of one of the stores as the
returning Betty was passing, and Becky looked another
way and pushed by, though Betty had spoken pleasantly
and tried to stop her.
“I don’t care one bit;
you’re rude and hateful, Mary Beck!” said
Betty hotly, at which Julia, mild little friend that
she was, looked frightened and amazed. She had
thought many times how lovely it must be to live in
town and have friendships of a close and intimate kind
with the girls. She pitied Betty Leicester, who
looked as if she could hardly keep from crying; but
the grievous Becky was more grumpy than before.
Serena was walking in the side yard
in her nice plain afternoon dress, and somehow Betty
felt more like seeking comfort from her than from Aunt
Barbara, and was glad to go in at the little gate and
join her kind old friend.
“What’s fell upon you?”
asked Serena, with sincere compassion.
“Mary Beck’s just as disagreeable
as she can be to-day,” responded Betty, regardless
of her sin book. “Serena! I just hate
her, and I hate that horrid best hat of hers with
the feather in it.”
“Oh, no you don’t, sweetin’s;”
Serena protested peacefully. “You’ll
be keepin’ company same’s ever to-morrow.
Now I think of ’t, you’ve been off a good
deal with the Grants and that French girl” (not
a favorite of Serena’s); “I wonder if
that’s all?”
“Yes no” wavered
Betty. “Don’t you tell anybody, but
I do belong to a little club, but Becky doesn’t
really understand, for we’ve kept it very secret
indeed.”
“I want to know,” exclaimed Serena.
“Yes, and it’s for such
a good object. I’ll tell you some time,
perhaps, but we want to cure ourselves of a fault.”
It seemed no harm to tell good old Serena; the compact
had only been that none of the other girls should
know. “We keep a little book, and we can
have a good mark at night if we haven’t said
anything against anybody, but to-day I shall have
such a black one! It makes us careful how we speak;
truly, Serena; but Becky doesn’t know, and she’s
making me feel so badly just because she suspects
something.”
“The tongue is an evil member,”
said Serena. “I don’t know but doing
things is full as bad as sayin’ ’em, though.
I s’pose you ain’t kind of flaunted it
a little speck that you had some secret amon’st
you, to spite Mary?”
“She was stuffy about it and
she had no right to be,” Betty said this at
first hastily, and then added: “I did wish
yesterday that she would ask to belong and find that
for once she couldn’t.”
Serena took Betty’s light hand
in her own work-worn one and held it fast. “Le’s
come and set on the doorstep a spell,” she said;
“I want to tell you something about me an’
a girl I thought everything of when we was young.
“She was real pretty, and we
went together and had our young men not
serious, only kind o’ going together; an’
Cynthy an’ me we had a misunderstandin’
o’ one another and we didn’t speak for
much’s a fortnight an’ said spiteful things.
I was here same’s I be now, an’ your Aunt
Barbara, she was young too, an’ the old lady,
Madam Leicester, she was alive and they all was inquirin’
what had come over me. I used to have a pretty
voice then, and I wouldn’t go to singin’-school
or evenin’ meetin’ nor nothin’.
I set out to leave here an’ my good kind home
an’ go off to Lowell working in the mill, ’t
was when so many did, and girls liked it. Cynthy
lived to the minister’s folks. I’ve
never got over it how ugly spoken I was about that
poor girl, and she used to look kind of beseechin’
at me the two or three times we met, as if she’d
make up if I would, but I wouldn’t. An’
don’t you think, one night her brother come
after her to take her home, up Great Hill way, and
the horse got scared and threw ’em out on the
ice; an’ when they picked Cynthy up she was
just breathin’ an’ that was all, an’
never spoke nor knew nothin’ again. ‘T
was at the foot o’ that hill just this side o’
the Picknells. It give me a fit o’ sickness;
it did so,” said Serena mournfully. “I
can’t bear to think about her never. Oh,
she was one of the prettiest girls you ever saw.
I try to go every summer an’ lay a bunch o’
pink roses on to her grave; she used to like ’em.
I know ‘t was a fault o’ youth an’
hastiness, but I ain’t never forgot it all my
long life. I tell you with a reason. Folks
says it takes two to make a quarrel but only one to
end it. Now you bear that in your mind.”
Betty glanced at old Serena, and saw
two great tears slowly running down her faded cheek.
She was much moved by the sad little story, and Serena’s
pretty friend and the pink roses. She wondered
what the quarrel had been about, but she did not like
to ask, and as Serena still held one hand she put
the other over it, while Serena took the corner of
her afternoon apron to wipe away the tears.
“It’s very hard to be
good, isn’t it, Serena dear?” asked Betty.
“It’s master hard, sweetin’s,”
answered Serena gravely, “master hard;
but it can be done with help.” They sat
there on the shady doorstep for some minutes without
speaking. A robin was chirping loud, as if for
rain, high in one of the elms overhead, and the sun
was getting low. Presently Serena was mindful
of her evening duties and rose to go in, but not before
Betty had put both arms round her and kissed her.
“There, there! somebody’ll
see you,” protested the kind soul, but her face
shone with joy. “Which d’ you want
for your supper, shortcakes or some o’ them
crispy rye ones?” she asked, trying to be very
matter-of-fact. As for Betty, she turned and went
down the yard and out of the carriage gate and straight
across the wide street. She opened the Becks’
front door and saw Becky at the end of the entry trying
to escape to the garden.
“Don’t let’s be
grumpy,” she said in a friendly tone, “I’ve
come over to make up.”
Becky tried to preserve a stern expression,
but somehow there was a warmth at her heart which
suddenly came to the surface in a smile and the two
girls were friends again. That night Betty put
down a black mark, but not without feeling that the
day had ended well in spite of its dark shadows.
“I don’t believe that
we ought to keep the sin books secret,” she told
the members of the club one afternoon when the second
week’s trial was over and there had been four
or five good days for encouragement. “I
don’t wish everybody to know, but now that we
find how much good they do us, we ought to let somebody
else try; only Becky and the Picknells and Nelly Foster.”
But there was no expression of approval.
“Then I’m going to do
this: not tell them about this club, but behave
as if it was something new and start another club.
I could belong to two as well as one, you know.”
“I wouldn’t be such a
copy-cat,” said Lizzie French quickly. “It’s
our secret; we shall be provoked that we ever
asked you,” and with this verdict Betty was
forced to be contented. She felt as if she had
taken most inflexible vows, but there was a pleasing
excitement in such dark mystery. The girls had
to employ much stratagem in order to have their weekly
meetings unsuspected, for Betty was determined not
to make any more trouble among her friends. When
she was first in Tideshead she often felt more enlightened
than her neighbors, as if she had been beyond those
bounds and experiences of every-day life known to the
other girls, but she soon discovered herself to be
single-handed and weak before their force of habit
and prejudice. With all their friendliness and
affection for Betty Leicester they held their own with
great decision, and sometimes she found herself nothing
but a despised minority. This was very good for
her, especially when, as it sometimes happened, she
was quite in the wrong, while if she were right she
became more sure of it and was able to make her reasons
clear.
There were several solemn evening
meetings of the Sin Book Club after this; the favorite
place of assemblage was a shady corner of Lizzie French’s
damp garden, where the records were sorrowfully inspected
by the fleeting light of burnt matches, and gratified
crowds of mosquitoes forced the sessions to be extremely
brief. Whether it was that new interests took
the place of the club, or whether the members thought
best to keep their trials to themselves, no one can
say, but by the middle of August the regular meetings
had ceased. Yet sometimes the little books came
accidentally out of pocket with a member’s handkerchief,
and were not without a good and lasting effect upon
four quick young tongues; perhaps this will be seen
as the story goes on.