It was Vesty’s hand that had
wrung mine. Captain Rafe, after he lost
his sons, hardly spoke without drawing his own trembling
hand along his piteous face.
“Notely fell from the mast and
was stunted; they put him in the boat: else he
wouldn’t ‘a’ come and left my Gurd,
I b’lieve.” Tears rolled down his
cheeks.
Vesty spoke to me so softly, as if
her head were turned, or she were wandering in a dream.
“When Gurdon had anything that anybody needed,
and they asked him for it, he always gave it them.
So they asked him for his life and he
gave that!”
Notely, on recovering consciousness,
had been carried to his house at the Neck: by
the next morning they had his mother with him; he was
in a fever.
Would Vesty remember now the promise
she had asked of Mrs. Garrison?
At all events, the sick man babbled
deliriously of past days, had fallen from the rock
once more, and would have Vesty to nurse him:
“where,” asking ever, “is Vesty?”
Mrs. Garrison herself went to her,
pleading his pain and danger. Vesty came.
“Hello! we’re saved! the
Vesty!” cried Notely, whose fever had been plunging
him in cold sea-waves, his voice a feeble echo of its
old gay tone, as he put up his hand to her.
So ashy and sunken was his face, Vesty
took him on her arm as she would her child; he fell
asleep.
“Vesty stops the pain no
one lifts me like Vesty sing, Vesty!”
from pathetic lips and wandering blue eyes that would
die if one recalled them to their sorrow.
“Only stay,” said Mrs.
Garrison. “His life hangs upon it.
Surely you are not afraid to have your child with
me?”
Her heart was full of tenderness for
the girl. “I would die rather than anything
should happen to your child, Vesty,” she cried,
with a sincere impulse.
Vesty lifted those Basin eyes.
“Oh, he is not old enough yet
to understand my worldliness,” said Mrs. Garrison,
with bitter lips.
For, from entrusting the child at
first to her servants, while Vesty was in the sick-room,
Mrs. Garrison had grown to have a jealous care for
him herself. He had taken an occasion, and he
had conquered her.
When she pleased him he dimpled and
gave her, on appeal, an ostentatious kiss, composed
wholly of noise and vanity. When she first displeased
him he had tried conclusions with her by unhesitatingly
administering a slap on the face.
Mrs. Garrison, the select and haughty,
tingling from this direct Basin blow, watched the
flame die out of the baby’s eyes, in astonishment,
not in anger. The blow felt good to her.
Vesty treated her, though unconsciously, from such
a height.
“My darling,” she said
sorrowfully, lifting the child in her arms, “would
you hurt me, when I love you so?”
A bit of sugar sealed the reconciliation:
while he devoured it little Gurdon leaned his head
in tender remorse upon Mrs. Garrison’s neck.
She had handsome eyes for him, full only
of love and longing and he saw strange
tears in them. He never treated her again to
corporeal punishment; while she, on her part, indulged
him fully.
The attachment was so marked between
them that he would, when he was well and had dined,
very cheerfully leave Vesty for her society, to Vesty’s
secret chagrin and Mrs. Garrison’s beating heart
of joy.
“Do you mean to say that you
will take the child back again back to
that squalid home yes, for such it is, Vesty that
you will deprive him of all that might be, and give
him up to a fisherman’s wretched life and dreary
fate?”
“Will you make a better man
of him in the world than his father was?” said
Vesty simply.
“You know that I worship Gurdon
Rafe’s memory,” cried Mrs. Garrison, with
adroit heat. “What do you think would please
him best for his wife and child misery
and cold with an old man who could have a better home
among his own kin, had he not to make the effort to
support you or happiness and warmth and
love, and a great sphere of usefulness, happiness,
and education for his child?”
“You see,” said Vesty,
on the plain Basin path, “in trying to get those
things we might miss the only the greatest thing,
that Gurdon had. I’d rather my boy should
learn to have that, and miss all the others.”
“O my dear! you shall teach
your child, you shall be always with him. I have
some things to remember and regret, Vesty. I
promise you solemnly and I do not break
my word I will not interfere. You
shall teach and guide your child as you will.”
Notely was awake and calling.
“Go to him,” said Mrs.
Garrison, excitement in her eyes; “he will explain
to you, my child.” There was a tenderness,
a hope, a voluptuousness of sweet earthly things in
her manner toward the poor girl now, which all her
life Vesty had missed.
Heart and flesh were weary, and Notely,
who had been the light of her life once, looked up
at her with that weight of sorrow, so much darker
and heavier than her own; so much heavier because it
was dark.
“Help me to bear it!” he said.
She understood all; she laid her head beside him,
sobbing.
“Vesty, you know the doctors
say that I shall live; but now that I am
sane again, I do not know why I should wish to live.”
She put her hand on his. Alas!
in spite of reckless wandering and tragedy, and forsaken
faith and duty, the touch only thrilled him with his
own dreams as of old.
“Listen, Vesty! just
as you used to be my little woman and reason with
me. Ugh! how weak I am! I’m not worth
saving. It is of little consequence, truly;
but, such as it is, it all lies with you. Some
time, Vesty I am speaking of what must be
some time, dearest; and remember, it is often done
in the world, among those who are highest and richest
and socially recognized well, it is a familiar
thing: as soon as it can be well arranged and
that soon, now my wife and I shall be divorced.
We have both wished it, we are unhappy together, it
is a wrong for us to live together. She has been
untrue enough to me, as I to her, but let that pass;
such things are not for your ears to hear, only you
need have no qualms. Grace will be more congenially
wedded within two months after we are parted.
“And then Vesty?
Well, will you not speak to me? Is it to be
life and honor, with your love at last, or despair
and death? You were promised to me once.
In spite of all, you cannot hold yourself your own;
you are mine; the wife God meant for me. O Vesty!
let us blot out the confused past with all its mistakes!
It is killing me will kill me body and
soul if you leave me now. Let me find my lost
home at last: let me rest a little while before
I die!”
His weak and gasping breath warned
her; she stilled his hands, the low lids hiding the
anguish in her eyes.
So there was a way out of it all,
easy, luxurious, convenient for the passions!
And there was a straight Basin way, a high promise
before God and man, that, to the Basin sense, there
was no taking back: Vesty could not see upon
any other road; she shuddered.
But Notely’s wasted, broken life clinging to
her!
“That was never done among the
Basins, Notely. When we are married we promise,
and we hold to it till death. It would never
seem to me that I was your wife, but wicked and false
to you and her always that. I would
rather die!”
“My Vesty, the Basin is a little,
little part of the world, and ignorant of life.
I tell you what is right. You used to have faith
in me so much that, if you would, you might
still believe in me and my ceaseless love for you.
Do you think that I will ever leave you here?
My mother wants you and the child: we will be
happy together at last, with such quiet or such pleasures
as you will. My quarries are turning out wealth
for me it is for you and Gurdon’s
child. Think of Gurdon’s little boy!”
As he spoke, Vesty seemed to see again
a pale face with a great light upon it, turning without
question to its stern duty.
“Notely, Gurdon gave me up,
and the baby that he worshipped; though I clung to
him, he put us by, because, though it was hard, it
was right it was the only way. I
think it is often so between those two, the right
and what we want. I think that love, somehow,
in this world seems to be putting by putting
by what we want.”
Vesty struggled again in her dim way.
“Why need it be?” cried
Notely sharply. He raised himself on the pillows
as if stung; a deep crimson rushed to his cheeks.
“It is,” said Vesty sadly,
quietly “it is. What we want putting
by. Do you think I did not care for you?”
His haggard face turned to her.
“Will not always care for you?
But you will never be a great man till you can put
by what you want, when they stand against each other,
for what is right, though it be hard. Then one
would not only admire and love you; they would trust
you to death’s door, though all the way was
hard.”
Notely had no answer for the tongue-loosed
Basin. Besides, her words had comforted him,
her tears fell on him.
“I do not think,” she
said, with a look and voice of such tenderness, as
though it were her farewell, “that it was all
to us, that I should marry you, or you should marry
me until we could live brave and true,
though we lost one another, and follow the only way
we saw, though it was hard. I do not believe
we should have been happy without that after
a little while.
“I could not love you if you
left your wife and married me. I should never
trust you. I would rather we should both die.
Go back to her and win her with your own love and
kindness, and be true to her, and I shall never lose
my love for you.”
“Do you know what love is?”
said Notely, with clinched teeth, tears springing
from between the wasted fingers pressed against his
eyes. “Do you know what it is to suffer?”
She gave him no flaming retort.
She put her head beside him.
The past came back to him, and her
poor, burdened, self-sacrificing life. Wild
sobs shook his heart. “All lost! all lost!”
he moaned.
“No, only not found yet,”
she said, looking at him through her tears; “all
waiting.”
It was such a simple Basin path, knowing
so few things, but unswerving.
“Not here, I know,” she
said, “for nothing is for long or without loss
and sorrow here. There is always somebody sick
or hurt; and the poplar trees, that the cross was
made from, are always trembling and sighing:
but some time Christ will lay his hand upon them, and
they will be still and blessed again.”