Chitra
No, impossible. To face that
fervent gaze that almost grasps you like clutching
hands of the hungry spirit within; to feel his heart
struggling to break its bounds urging its passionate
cry through the entire body and then
to send him away like a beggar no,
impossible.
Enter Madana
and Vasanta.
Ah, god of love, what fearful
flame is this with which thou hast
enveloped me! I burn, and I burn whatever
I touch.
Madana
I desire to know what happened
last night.
Chitra
At evening I lay down on a grassy bed
strewn with the petals of spring flowers, and
recollected the wonderful praise of my beauty I
had heard from Arjuna; drinking drop by
drop the honey that I had stored during the long
day. The history of my past life like that
of my former existences was forgotten. I felt
like a flower, which has but a few fleeting hours
to listen to all the humming flatteries
and whispered murmurs of the woodlands and then
must lower its eyes from the Sky, bend its head and
at a breath give itself up to the dust without
a cry, thus ending the short story of a perfect
moment that has neither past nor future.
Vasanta
A limitless life of glory can
bloom and spend itself in a
morning.
Madana
Like an endless meaning in the
narrow span of a song.
Chitra
The southern breeze caressed me to
sleep. From the flowering Malati bower
overhead silent kisses dropped over my body.
On my hair, my breast, my feet, each flower chose
a bed to die on. I slept. And, suddenly
in the depth of my sleep, I felt as if some intense
eager look, like tapering fingers of flame, touched
my slumbering body. I started up and saw the
Hermit standing before me. The moon had
moved to the west, peering through the leaves
to espy this wonder of divine art wrought in a fragile
human frame. The air was heavy with perfume;
the silence of the night was vocal with the chirping
of crickets; the reflections of the trees hung
motionless in the lake; and with his staff in
his hand he stood, tall and straight and still, like
a forest tree. It seemed to me that I had,
on opening my eyes, died to all realities of
life and undergone a dream birth into a shadow
land. Shame slipped to my feet like loosened
clothes. I heard his call “Beloved,
my most beloved!” And all my forgotten lives
united as one and responded to it. I said, “Take
me, take all I am!” And I stretched out
my arms to him. The moon set behind the
trees. One curtain of darkness covered all.
Heaven and earth, time and space, pleasure and
pain, death and life merged together in an unbearable
ecstasy. . . . With the first gleam of light,
the first twitter of birds, I rose up and sat leaning
on my left arm. He lay asleep with a vague smile
about his lips like the crescent moon in the
morning. The rosy red glow of the dawn
fell upon his noble forehead. I sighed and stood
up. I drew together the leafy lianas to
screen the streaming sun from his face.
I looked about me and saw the same old earth.
I remembered what I used to be, and ran and ran like
a deer afraid of her own shadow, through the forest
path strewn with shephali flowers. I found
a lonely nook, and sitting down covered my face
with both hands, and tried to weep and cry. But
no tears came to my eyes.
Madana
Alas, thou daughter of mortals!
I stole from the divine Storehouse the fragrant
wine of heaven, filled with it one earthly night
to the brim, and placed it in thy hand to drink
yet still I hear this cry of anguish!
Chitra [bitterly]
Who drank it? The rarest completion
of life’s desire, the first union of love
was proffered to me, but was wrested from my grasp?
This borrowed beauty, this falsehood that enwraps
me, will slip from me taking with it the only
monument of that sweet union, as the petals fall
from an overblown flower; and the woman ashamed of
her naked poverty will sit weeping day and night.
Lord Love, this cursed appearance companions
me like a demon robbing me of all the prizes
of love all the kisses for which my heart
is athirst.
Madana
Alas, how vain thy single night
had been! The barque of joy came
in sight, but the waves would not let it touch
the shore.
Chitra
Heaven came so close to my hand that
I forgot for a moment that it had not reached
me. But when I woke in the morning from my dream
I found that my body had become my own rival.
It is my hateful task to deck her every day,
to send her to my beloved and see her caressed
by him. O god, take back thy boon!
Madana
But if I take it from you how can you
stand before your lover? To snatch away
the cup from his lips when he has scarcely drained
his first draught of pleasure, would not that
be cruel? With what resentful anger he
must regard thee then?
Chitra
That would be better far than this.
I will reveal my true self to him, a nobler
thing than this disguise. If he rejects it, if
he spurns me and breaks my heart, I will bear
even that in silence.
Vasanta
Listen to my advice. When with
the advent of autumn the flowering season is
over then comes the triumph of fruitage. A time
will come of itself when the heat-cloyed bloom of the
body will droop and Arjuna will gladly accept
the abiding fruitful truth in thee. O child,
go back to thy mad festival.