George Henry Harrison, though without
living near kinfolk, had never considered himself
alone in the world. Up to the time when he became
thirty years of age he had always thought himself,
when he thought of the matter at all, as fortunate
in the extent of his friendships. He was acquainted
with a great many people; he had a recognized social
standing, was somewhat cleverer than the average man,
and his instincts, while refined by education and
experience, were decidedly gregarious and toward hearty
companionship. He should have been a happy man,
and had been one, in fact, up to the time when this
trustworthy account begins; but just now, despite
his natural buoyancy of spirit, he did not count himself
among the blessed.
George Henry wanted to be at peace
with all the world, and now there were obstacles in
the way. He did not delight in aggressiveness,
yet certain people were aggressive. In his club which
he felt he must soon abandon he received
from all save a minority of the members a hearty reception,
and in his club he rather enjoyed himself for the hour,
forgetting that conditions were different outside.
On the streets he met men who bowed to him somewhat
stiffly, and met others who recognized him plainly
enough, but who did not bow. The postman brought
daily a bunch of letters, addressed in various forms
of stern commercial handwriting to George Henry Harrison,
but these often lay unopened and neglected on his
desk.
To tell the plain and unpleasant truth,
George Henry Harrison had just become a poor man,
a desperately poor man, and already realized that it
was worse for a young man than an old one to rank among
those who have “seen better days.”
Even after his money had disappeared in what had promised
to be a good investment, he had for a time maintained
his place, because, unfortunately for all concerned,
he had been enabled to get credit; but there is an
end to that sort of thing, and now, with his credit
gone after his money, he felt his particular world
slipping from him. He felt a change in himself,
a certain on-creeping paralysis of his social backbone.
When practicable he avoided certain of his old friends,
for he could see too plainly written on their faces
the fear that he was about to request a trifling loan,
though already his sense of honor, when he considered
his prospects, had forced him to cease asking favors
of the sort. There were faces which he had loved
well which he could not bear to see with the look
of mingled commiseration and annoyance he inspired.
And so it came that at this time George
Henry Harrison was acquainted chiefly with grief with
the wolf at his door. His mail, once blossoming
with messages of good-will and friendliness, became
a desert of duns.
“Why is it,” George Henry
would occasionally ask himself there was
no one else for him to talk to “why
is it that when a man is sure of his meals every day
he has endless invitations to dine out, but that when
those events are matters of uncertainty he gets not
a bidding to the feast?” This question, not
a new one, baffling in its mystery and chilling to
the marrow, George Henry classed with another he had
heard somewhere: “Who is more happy:
the hungry man who can get nothing to eat, or the
rich man with an overladen table who can eat nothing?”
The two problems ran together in his mind, like a
couple of hounds in leash, during many a long night
when he could not shut out from his ears the howling
of the wolf. He often wondered, jeering the while
at his own grotesque fancy, how his neighbors could
sleep with those mournful yet sinister howlings burdening
the air, but he became convinced at last that no one
heard the melancholy solo but himself.
“‘The wolf’s long
howl on Oonalaska’s shore’ is not in it
with that of mine,” said George Henry for
since his coat had become threadbare his language
had deteriorated, and he too frequently used slang “but
I’m thankful that I alone hear my own.
How different the case from what it is when one’s
dog barks o’ nights! Then the owner is the
only one who sleeps within a radius of blocks.
The beasts are decidedly unlike.”
Not suddenly had come all this tribulation
to the man, though the final disappearance of all
he was worth, save some valueless remnants, had been
preceded by two or three heavy losses. Optimistic
in his ventures, he was not naturally a fool.
Ill fortune had come to him without apparent provocation,
as it comes to many another man of intelligence, and
had followed him persistently and ruthlessly when others
less deserving were prospering all about him.
It was not astonishing that he had become a trifle
misanthropic. He found it difficult to recover
from the daze of the moment when he first realized
his situation.
The comprehension of where he stood
first came to George Henry when he had a note to meet,
a note for a sum that would not in the past have seemed
large to him, but one at that time assuming dimensions
of importance. He thought when he had given the
note that he could meet it handily; he had twice succeeded
in renewing it, and now had come to the time when
he must raise a certain sum or be counted among the
wreckage. He had been hopeful, but found himself
on the day of payment without money and without resources.
How many thousands of men who have engaged in our
tigerish dollar struggle have felt the sinking at heart
which came to him then! But he was a man, and
he went to work. Talk about climbing the Alps
or charging a battery! The man who has hurried
about all day with reputation to be sustained, even
at the sacrifice of pride, has suffered more, dared
more and knows more of life’s terrors than any
reckless mountain-climber or any veteran soldier in
existence. George Henry failed at last.
He could not meet his bills.
Reason to himself as he might, the
man was unable to endure his new condition placidly.
He tried to be philosophical. He would stalk about
his room humming from “The Mahogany Tree”:
“Care, like a dun, stands at the
gate.
Let the dog wait!”
and seek to get himself into the spirit
of the words, but his efforts in such direction met
with less than moderate success. “The dog
does wait,” he would mutter. “He’s
there all the time. Besides, he isn’t a
dog: he’s a wolf. What did Thackeray
know about wolves!” And so George Henry brooded,
and was, in consequence, not quite as fit for the fray
as he had been in the past.
To make matters worse, there was a
woman in the case; not that women always make matters
worse when a man is in trouble, but in this instance
the fact that a certain one existed really caused the
circumstances to be more trying. There was a
charming young woman in whom George Henry had taken
more than a casual interest. There was reason
to suppose that the interest was not all his, either,
but there had been no definite engagement. At
the time when financial disaster came to the man, there
had grown up between him and Sylvia Hartley that sort
of understanding which cannot be described, but which
is recognized clearly enough, and which is to the
effect that flowers bring fruit. Now he felt glad,
for her sake, that only the flower season had been
reached. They were yet unpledged. Since
he could not support a wife, he must give up his love.
That was a matter of honor.
The woman was quite worthy of a man’s
love. She was clever and good. She had dark
hair and a wonderfully white skin, and dark, bright
eyes, and when he explained to her that he was a wreck
financially, and said that in consequence he didn’t
feel justified in demanding so much of her attention,
she exhibited in a gentle way a warmth of temperament
which endeared her to him more than ever, while she
argued with him and tried to laugh him out of his
fears. He was tempted sorely, but he loved her
in a sufficiently unselfish way to resist. He
even sought to conceal his depth of feeling under
a disguise of lightness. He admitted that in his
present frame of mind he ought to be with her as much
as possible, as then, if ever, he stood in need of
a sure antidote for the blues, and with a half-hearted
jest he closed the conversation, and after that call
merely kept away from her. It was hard for him,
and as hard for her; but if he had honor, she had
pride. So they drifted apart, each suffering.
Who shall describe with a just portrayal
of its agony the inner life of the reasonably strong
man who feels that he is somehow going down hill in
the world, who becomes convinced that he is a failure,
and who struggles almost hopelessly! George Henry
went down hill, though setting his heels as deeply
as he could. His later plans failed, and there
came a time when his strait was sore indeed the
time when he had not even the money with which to
meet the current expenses of a modest life. To
one vulgar or dishonest this is bad; to one cultivated
and honorable it is far worse. George Henry chanced
to come under the latter classification, and so it
was that to him poverty assumed a phase especially
acute, and affected him both physically and mentally.
His first experience was bitter.
He had never been an extravagant man, but he liked
to be well dressed, and had remained so for a time
after his business plans had failed. He was not
a gormand, but he had continued to live well.
Now, with almost nothing left to live upon, he must
go shabby, and cease to tickle his too fastidious palate.
He must buy nothing new to wear, and must live at
the cheapest of the restaurants. He felt a sort
of Spartan satisfaction when this resolve had been
fairly reached, but no enthusiasm. It required
great resolution on his part when, for the first time,
he entered a restaurant the sign in front of which
bore the more or less alluring legend, “Meals
fifteen cents.”
George Henry loved cleanliness, and
the round table at which he found a seat bore a cloth
dappled in various ways. His sense of smell was
delicate, and here came to him from the kitchen, separated
from the dining-room by only a thin partition, a combination
of odors, partly vegetable, partly flesh and fish,
which gave him a new sensation. A faintness came
upon him, and he envied those eating at other tables.
They had no qualms; upon their faces was the hue of
health, and they were eating as heartily as the creatures
of the field or forest do, and with as little prejudice
against surroundings. George Henry tried to philosophize
again and to be like these people, but he failed.
He noted before him on the table a jar of that abject
stuff called carelessly either “French”
or “German” mustard, stale and crusted,
and remembered that once at a dinner he had declared
that the best test of a gentleman, of one who knew
how to live, was to learn whether he used pure, wholesome
English mustard or one of these mixed abominations.
His ears felt pounding into them a whirlwind of street
talk larded with slang. He ordered sparingly.
He did not like it when the waiter, with a yell, translated
his modest order of fried eggs and coffee into “Fried,
turned,” and “Draw one,” and he liked
it less when the food came and he found the eggs limed
and the coffee muddy. He ate little, and left
the place depressed. “I can’t stand
this,” he muttered, “that’s as sure
as God made little apples.”
His own half-breathed utterance of
this expression startled the man. The simile
he had used was a repetition of what he had just heard
in a conversation between men at an adjoining table
in the restaurant. He had often heard the expression
before, but had certainly never utilized it personally.
“The food must be affecting me already,”
he said bitterly, and then wandered off unconsciously
into an analysis of the metaphor. It puzzled
him. He could not understand why the production
of little apples by the Deity had seemed to the person
who at some time in the past had first used this expression
as an illustration of a circumstance more assured
than the production of big apples by the same power,
or of the evolution of potatoes or any other fruit
or vegetable, big or little. His foolish fancies
in this direction gave him the mental relief he needed.
When he awoke to himself again the restaurant was a
memory, and he, having recovered something of his
tone, resolved to do what could be done that day to
better his fortunes.
Then came work hard and
exceedingly fruitless work in looking for
something to do. Then Nature began paying attention
to George Henry Harrison personally, in a manner which,
however flattering in a general way, did not impress
him pleasantly. His breakfast had been a failure,
and now he was as hungry as the leaner of the two bears
of Palestine which tore forty-two children who made
faces at Elisha. He thought first of a free-lunch
saloon, but he had an objection to using the fork just
laid down by another man. He became less squeamish
later. He was resolved to feast, and that the
banquet should be great. He entered a popular
down-town place and squandered twenty-five cents on
a single meal. The restaurant was scrupulously
clean, the steak was good, the potatoes were mealy,
the coffee wasn’t bad, and there were hot biscuits
and butter. How the man ate! The difference
between fifteen and twenty-five cents is vast when
purchasing a meal in a great city. George Henry
was reasonably content when he rose from the table.
He decided that his self-imposed task was at least
endurable. He had counted on every contingency.
Instinctively, after paying for his food, he strolled
toward the cigar-stand. Half-way there he checked
himself, appalled. Cigars had not been included
in the estimate of his daily needs. Cigars he
recognized as a luxury. He left the place, determined
but physically unhappy. The real test was to
come.
The smoking habit affects different
men in different ways. To some tobacco is a stimulant,
to others a narcotic. The first class can abandon
tobacco more easily than can the second. The man
to whom tobacco is a stimulant becomes sleepy and
dull when he ceases its use, and days ensue before
he brightens up on a normal plane. To the one
who finds it a narcotic, the abandonment of tobacco
means inviting the height of all nervousness.
To George Henry tobacco had been a narcotic, and now
his nerves were set on edge. He had pluck, though,
and irritable and suffering, endured as well as he
could. At length came, as will come eventually
in the case of every healthy man persisting in self-denial,
surcease of much sorrow over tobacco, but in the interval
George Henry had a residence in purgatory, rent free.
And so these incidents
are but illustrative the man forced himself
into a more or less philosophical acceptance of the
new life to which necessity had driven him. If
he did not learn to like it, he at least learned to
accept its deprivations without a constant grimace.
But more than mere physical self-denial
is demanded of the man on the down grade. The
plans of his intellect a failure, he turns finally
to the selling of the labor of his body. This
selling of labor may seem an easy thing, but it is
not so to the man with neither training nor skill
in manual labor of any sort. George Henry soon
learned this lesson, and his heart sank within him.
He had reached the end of things. He had tried
to borrow what he needed, and failed. His economies
had but extended his lease of tolerable life.
Shabby and hungry, he sought a “job”
at anything, avoiding all acquaintances, for his pride
would not allow him to make this sort of an appeal
to them. Daily he looked among strangers for work.
He found none. It was a time of business and
industrial depression, and laborers were idle by thousands.
He envied the men working on the streets relaying the
pavements. They had at least a pittance, and something
to do to distract their minds.
Weeks and months went by. George
Henry now lived and slept in his little office, the
rent of which he had paid some months in advance before
the storms of poverty began to beat upon him.
Here, when not making spasmodic excursions in search
of work, he dreamed and brooded. He wondered
why men came into the feverish, uncertain life of great
cities, anyhow. He thought of the peace of the
country, where he was born; of the hollyhocks and
humming-birds, of the brightness and freedom from
care which was the lot of human beings there.
They had few luxuries or keen enjoyments, but as a
reward for labor the labor always at hand they
had at least a certainty of food and shelter.
There came upon him a great craving to get into the
world of nature and out of all that was cankering
about him, but with the longing came also the remembrance
that even in the blessed home of his youth there was
no place now for him.
One day, after what seemed ages of
this kind of life, a wild fancy took hold of George
Henry’s mind. Out of the wreckage of all
his unprofitable investments one thing remained to
him. He was still a landed proprietor, and he
laughed somewhat bitterly at the thought. He was
the owner of a large tract of gaunt poplar forest,
sixteen hundred acres, in a desolate region of Michigan,
his possessions stretching along the shores of the
lake. An uncle had bought the land for fifty cents
an acre, and had turned it over to George Henry in
settlement of a loan made in his nephew’s more
prosperous days. George Henry had paid the insignificant
taxes regularly, and as his troubles thickened had
tried to sell the vaguely valued property at any price,
but no one wanted it. This land, while it would
not bring him a meal, was his own at least, and he
reasoned that if he could get to it and build a little
cabin upon it, he could live after a fashion.
The queer thought somehow inspirited
him. He would make a desperate effort. He
would get a barrel of pork and a barrel or two of flour
and some potatoes, a gun and an axe; he knew a lake
captain, an old friend, who would readily take him
on his schooner on its next trip and land him on his
possessions. But the pork and the flour and the
other necessaries would cost money; how was he to
get it? The difficulty did not discourage him.
The plan gave him something definite to do. He
resolved to swallow all pride, and make a last appeal
for a loan from some of those he dreaded to meet again.
Surely he could raise among his friends the small
sum he needed, and then he would go into the woods.
Maybe his head and heart would clear there, and he
would some day return to the world like the conventional
giant refreshed with new wine.
It is astonishing how a fixed resolution,
however grotesque, helps a man. The very fact
that in his own mind the die was cast brought a new
recklessness to George Henry. He could look at
things objectively again. He slept well for the
first time in many weeks.
The next morning, when George Henry
awoke, he had abated not one jot of his resolve nor
of his increased courage. The sun seemed brighter
than it had been the day before, and the air had more
oxygen to the cubic foot. He looked at the heap
of unopened letters on his desk letters
he had lacked, for weeks, the moral courage to open and
laughed at his fear of duns. Let the wolf howl!
He would interest himself in the music. He would
be a hero of heroes, and unflinchingly open his letters,
each one a horror in itself to his imagination; but
with all his newly found courage, it required still
an effort for George Henry to approach his desk.
Alone, with set teeth and drooping
eyes, George Henry began his task. It was the
old, old story. Bills of long standing, threats
of suits, letters from collecting agencies, red papers,
blue, cream and straw-colored how he hated
them all! Suddenly he came upon a new letter,
a square, thick, well addressed letter of unmistakable
respectability.
“Can it be an invitation?”
said George Henry, his heart beating. He opened
the sturdy envelope and read the words it had enclosed.
Then he leaned back, very still, in his chair, with
his eyes shut. His heart bled over what he had
suffered. “Had” suffered yes,
that was right, for it was all a thing of the past.
The letter made it clear that he was comparatively
a rich man. That was all.
It was the despised but
not altogether despised, since he had thought of making
it his home poplar land in Michigan.
The poplar supply is limited, and paper-mills have
capacious maws. Prices of raw material had gone
up, and the poplar hunters had found George Henry’s
land the most valuable to them in the region.
A syndicate offered him one hundred dollars an acre
for the tract.
Joy failed to kill George Henry Harrison.
It stunned him somewhat, but he showed wonderful recuperative
powers. As he ate a free-lunch after a five-cent
expenditure that morning, there was something in his
air which would have prevented the most obtuse barkeeper
in the world from commenting upon the quantity consumed.
He was not particularly depressed because his hat
was old and his coat gray at the seams and his shoes
cracked. His demeanor when he called upon an attorney,
a former friend, was quite that of an American gentleman
perfectly at his ease.
Within a few days George Henry Harrison
had deposited to his credit in bank the sum of one
hundred and sixty thousand dollars, minus the slight
cost of certain immediate personal requirements.
Then one morning he stalked over to his little office,
now clean and natty. He leaned back in his chair
again and devoted himself to thinking, the persons
on whom his mind dwelt being his creditors.
The proper title for the brief account
which follows should be The Feast of the Paying of
Bills. Here was a man who had suffered, here was
a man who had come to doubt himself, and who had now
become suddenly and arrogantly independent. His
creditors, he knew, were hopeless. That he had
so few lawsuits to meet was only because those to whom
he owed money had reasoned that the cost of collection
would more than offset the sum gained in the end from
this man, who had, they thought, no real property
behind him. Their attitude had become contemptuous.
Now he stood forth defiant and jaunty.
There is a time in a man’s failing
fortunes when he borrows and gives his note blithely.
He is certain that he can repay it. He runs up
bills as cheerfully, sure that they will easily be
met at the end of thirty days. With George Henry
this now long past period had left its souvenirs,
and the torture they had inflicted upon him has been
partly told.
Now came the sweet and glorious hour of his relief.
It was a wonderful sensation to him.
He marveled that he had so respectfully thought of
the creditors who had dogged him. They were people,
he now said, of whom he should not have thought at
all. He became a magnificently objective reasoner.
But there was work to be done.
George Henry decided that, since there
were certain people to whom he must write, each letter
being accompanied by a check for a certain sum of
money, each letter should appropriately indicate to
its recipient the calm and final opinion of the writer
regarding the general character and reputation of
the person or firm addressed. The human nature
of George Henry asserted itself very strongly just
here. He set forth paper and ink, took up his
pen, and poised his mind for a feast of reason and
flow of soul which should be after the desire of his
innermost heart.
First, George Henry carefully arranged
in the order of their date of incurring a list of
all his debts, great and small not that
he intended to pay them in that order, but where a
creditor had waited long he decided that his delay
in paying should be regarded as in some degree extenuating
and excusing the fierceness of the assaults made upon
a luckless debtor. The creditors chanced to have
had no choice in the matter, but that did not count.
Age hallowed a debt to a certain slight extent.
This arrangement made, George Henry
took up his list of creditors, one hundred and twenty
in all, and made a study of them, as to character,
habits and customs. He knew them very well indeed.
In their intercourse with him, each, he decided, had
laid his soul bare, and each should be treated according
to the revelations so made. There was one man
who had loaned him quite a large sum, and this was
the oldest debt of all, incurred when George Henry
first saw the faint signs of approaching calamity,
but understood them not. This man, a friend, recognizing
the nature of George Henry’s struggle, had never
sought payment had, in fact, when the debtor
had gone to him, apologetically and explaining, objected
to the intrusion and objurgated the caller in violent
language of the lovingly profane sort. He would
have no talk of payment, as things stood. This
claim, not only the oldest but the least annoying,
should, George Henry decided, have the honor of being
“N” that is, it should
be paid first of all. So the list was extended,
a careful analysis being made of the mental and moral
qualities of each creditor as exposed in his monetary
relations with George Henry Harrison. There were
some who had been generous and thoughtful, some who
had been vicious and insulting; and in his examination
George Henry made the discovery that those who had
probably least needed the money due them had been
by no means the most considerate. It seemed almost
as if the reverse rule had obtained. There was
one man in particular, who had practically forced
a small loan upon him when George Henry was still
thought to be well-to-do, who had developed an ingenuity
and insolence in dunning which gave him easy altitude
for meanness and harshness among the lot. He
went down as “N,” the last on the
list.
There were others. There were
the petty tradesmen who in former years had prospered
through George Henry’s patronage, whose large
bills had been paid with unquestioning promptness
until came the slip of his cog in the money-distributing
machine. They had not hesitated a moment.
As the peccaries of Mexico and Central America pursue
blindly their prey, so these small yelpers, Tray,
Blanche and Sweetheart, of the trade world, had bitten
at his heels persistently from the beginning of his
weakness up to the present moment. Toward these
he had no malice. He counted them but as he had
counted his hunting dogs in better days. They
were narrow, but they were reckoned as men; they transacted
business and married the females of their kind, and
bred children prodigally and
after all, against them he had no particular grievance.
They were as they were made and must be. He gathered
a bunch of their bills together, and decided that
they should be classed together, not quite at the
end of the list.
The grade of each individual creditor
fixed, the list was carefully divided into five parts,
twenty in each, of which twenty should receive their
letters and checks one day, twenty the next, and so
on. Then the literature of the occasion began.
The thoughtful debtor who has had
somewhat continuous relations with a creditor can,
supposing he has even a moderate gift, write a very
neat, compact and thought-compelling little letter
to that creditor when he finally settles with him,
if, as in the case of George Henry, the debtor will
have balance enough left after all settlements to make
him easy and independent. George Henry felt the
strength of this proposition as he wrote. In
casual, easily written conversation with his meanest
creditors he rather excelled himself. Of course
he sent abundant interest to everybody, though apologizing
to the gentlemen among the lot for doing so, but telling
them frankly that it would relieve him if they accepted
the proper sum for the use of the money, saying nothing
about it; while of the mean ones he demanded prompt
receipts in full. That was the general tenor
of the notes, but there were certain moderate extravagances
in either direction, if there be such a thing as a
“moderate extravagance.”
To the worst, the most irritating
of his creditors, George Henry indicted his masterpiece.
He admitted his obligation, he expressed his satisfaction
at paying an interest which made it a good investment
for the creditor, and then he entered into a little
disquisition as to the creditor’s manner and
scale of thought and existence, followed by certain
mild suggestions as to improvements which might be
made in the character under observation. He pledged
himself to return at any time the favor extended him,
and promised also never to mention it after it had
been extended. He apologized for the lack of further
and more adequate treatment of the subject, expressing
his conviction that the more delicate shades of meaning
which might be employed after a more extended study
would not be comprehended by the person addressed.
George Henry it is with
regret that it is admitted had a wild hope
that this creditor would become enraged to the point
of making a personal assault on him from this simple
summing up of affairs, because he had an imbedded
desire to lick, or anyway try to lick, this particular
person, could he be provoked into an encounter.
It is as well to say here that his dream was never
gratified. The nagging man is never a fighting
man.
And so the Feast of the Paying of
Bills went on to its conclusion. It was a season
of intense enjoyment for George Henry. When it
was ended, having money, having also a notable gift
as a shot, he fled to the northern woods, where grouse
and deer fell plentifully before him, and then after
a month he returned to enjoy life at ease.
It was upon his return home that George
Henry Harrison, well-to-do and content, learned something
which for a time made him think this probably the
hollowest of all the worlds which swing around the
sun. He came back, vigorous and hopeful of spirit,
with the strength of the woods and of nature in him,
and with open heart and hand ready to greet his fellow-beings,
glad to be one with them. The thing which smote
him was odd. It was that he found himself a stranger
among the fellow-beings he had come to meet.
He found himself still a Selkirk of the world of trade
and traffic and transfer of thought and well-wishing
and strong-doing and of all social life. He was
like a strange bird, like an albatross blown into
unaccustomed seas, alighting upon an island where albatrosses
were unknown.
He found his office as bright and
attractive as urgently and sternly directed servitude
could make it. There were no letters upon his
desk, however, the desk so overburdened in the past.
The desk spoke of loneliness. The new carpet,
without a worn white strip leading from the doorway,
said loneliness. All was loneliness. He could
not understand it.
There was the abomination of clean
and cold desolation in and all about his belongings.
He sat down in the easy-chair before his desk, and
was far, very far, from happy. He leaned back the
chair worked beautifully upon its well-oiled springs and
wondered. He shut his eyes, and tried to place
himself in his position of a month before, and failed.
Why had there been no callers? His own branch
of business was in a laggard way, but of that he made
no account. He thought of Oonalaska, and decided
that there were worse places in the world than on that
shore, even with the drawback of the howlings.
He seemed to be in space.
To sum up all in an explanatory way,
George Henry, having largely lost his grip upon the
world, had voluntarily, being too sensitive, severed
all connections save those he had to maintain with
that portion of the community interested in the paying
of his bills. Now, since he had met all material
obligations, he thought the world would come to him
again unsought. It did not come.
Every one seemed to have gone away
with the wolf. George Henry began trying to determine
what it was that was wrong. The letter-carrier,
a fine fellow, who had called upon him daily in the
past, now never crossed his threshold. Even book
agents and peddlers avoided the place, from long experience
of rebuff. The bill-collectors came no more, of
course; and as George Henry looked back over the past
months of humiliation and agony he suddenly realized
that to these same collectors he had been solely indebted
toward the last of his time of trial for what human
companionship had come to him. His friends, how
easily they had given him up! He thought of poor
old Rip Van Winkle’s plaint, “How soon
we are forgotten when we are gone!” and sarcastically
amended it to “How soon we are forgotten when
we are here!” A few invitations declined, the
ordinary social calls left for some other time, and
he was apparently forgotten. He could not much
blame himself that he had voluntarily severed the
ties. A man cannot dine in comfort with comfortable
friends when his heart is sore over his general inconsequence
in the real world. Play is not play when zest
is not given to it by work and duties. Even his
social evenings with old and true friends he had given
up early in the struggle. He could not overcome
the bitterness of his lot sufficiently to sit easily
among those he most cared for. It is not difficult
sometimes to drop out of life while yet alive.
Yet George Henry realized that possibly he had been
an extended error had been too sensitive.
He thought of his neglect of friends and his generally
stupid performances while under the spell of the wolf,
but he thought also of the excuse he had, and conscience
was half appeased.
So he was alone, the same old Selkirk
or Robinson Crusoe, without a man Friday, without
even a parrot and goats; alone in his once familiar
hotel and his office, in a city where he was distinctly
of the native sort, where he had seen, it seemed to
him, every one of the great “sky-scraping”
buildings rise from foundation-stone to turret, where
he should be one whose passage along the street would
be a series of greetings. He yearned for companionship.
His pulse quickened when he met one of his lately
persecuting bill-collectors on the street and received
from him a friendly recognition of his bow and smile.
He became affable with elevator-men and policemen.
But he was lonely, very lonely.
The days drifted into long weeks,
when one day the mail-carrier, once so regular in
his calls, now almost a stranger, appeared and cast
upon George Henry’s desk a letter returned uncalled
for. The recipient examined it with interest.
It did not require much to excite his interest now.
The returned letter was one which
he had sent enclosing a check to a Dr. Hartley, to
whom he had become indebted for professional services
at one time. He had never received a bill, but
had sent the check at a venture. Its return,
with the postoffice comment, “Moved, left no
address,” startled him. Dr. Hartley was
Her father. George Henry pondered. Was it
a dream or reality, that a few months ago, while he
was almost submerged in his sea of difficulties, he
had read or heard of Dr. Hartley’s death?
He had known the doctor but slightly, well as he had
known his daughter Sylvia, of the dark eyes, but it
seemed impossible that in any state of mind such a
thing as Dr. Hartley’s reported death should
have made no impression upon him. He was aroused
now, almost for the first time, and was really himself
again. The benumbing influence of his face-to-face
fight with poverty and inactivity disappeared.
Sylvia lived again, fresh, vital and strong in her
hold upon him. He was renewed by the purpose
in life which he had allowed to lapse in his desperate
days of defeat. He would find Sylvia. She
might be in sorrow, in trouble; he could not wait,
but leaped out of his office and ran down the long
stairways, too hurried and restless to wait for the
lagging elevator of the great building where he had
suffered so much. The search was longer and more
difficult than the seeker had anticipated. It
required but little effort to learn that Dr. Hartley
had been dead for months, and that his family had
gone away from the roomy house where their home had
been for many years. To learn more was for a time
impossible. He had known little of the family
kinship and connections, and it seemed as if an adverse
fate pursued his attempts to find the hidden links
which bind together the people of a great city.
But George Henry persisted, and his heart grew warm
within him. He hummed an old tune as he walked
quickly along the crowded streets, smiling to himself
when he found himself singing under his breath the
old, old song:
Who is Silvia? What is she
That all swains commend her?
In another quarter of the city, far
removed from her former home and neighbors, George
Henry at last found Sylvia, her mother and a younger
brother, living quietly with the mother’s widowed
sister. During his search for her the image of
the woman he had once hoped might be his wife had
grown larger and dearer in his mind and heart.
He wondered how he had ever given her up, and how
he had lived through so much suffering, and then through
relief from suffering, without the past and present
joy of his life. He wondered if he should find
her changed. He need have had no fears.
He found, when at last he met her, that she had not
changed, unless, it may be, to have become even more
lovable in his eyes. In the moment when he first
saw her now he knew he had found the world again,
that he was no longer a stranger in it, that he was
living in it and a part of it. A sweetheart has
been a tonic since long before knights wore the gloves
of ladies on their crests. Within a week, through
Sylvia, he had almost forgotten that one can get lost,
even as a lost child, in this great, grinding world
of ours, and within a year he and Mrs. George Henry
Harrison were “at home” to their friends.
After a time, when George Henry Harrison
had settled down into steady and appreciative happiness,
and had begun to indulge his fancies in matters apart
from the honeymoon, there appeared upon the wall over
the fireplace in his library a picture which unfailingly
attracted the attention and curiosity of visitors
to that hospitable hearth. The scene represented
was but that upon an island in the Bering Sea, and
there was in the aspect of it something more than the
traditional abomination of desolation, for there was
a touch of bloodthirsty and hungry life. Up away
from the sea arose a stretch of dreary sand, and in
the far distance were hills covered with snow and dotted
with stunted pine, and bleak and forbidding, though
not tenantless. In the foreground, close to the
turbid waters which washed this frozen almost solitude,
a great, gaunt wolf sat with his head uplifted to the
lowering skies, and so well had the artist caught
the creature’s attitude, that looking upon it
one could almost seem to hear the mournful but murderous
howl and gathering cry.
This was only a fancy which George
Henry had that the wolf should hang above
the fireplace and perhaps it needed no such
reminder to make of him the man he proved in helping
those whom he knew the wolf was hunting. His
eye was kindly keen upon his friends, and he was quick
to perceive when one among them had begun to hear
the howlings which had once tormented him so sorely;
he fancied that there was upon the faces of those
who listened often to that mournful music an expression
peculiar to such suffering. And he found such
ways as he could to cheer and comfort those unfortunate
during their days of trial. He was a helpful
man. It is good for a man to have had bad times.