It would indeed seem so. Men
looking from the windows of the big shops those
great shops where army supplies were manufactured noticed
them with much the same thought, some of them admiringly,
some resentfully, as they chanced to feel about things.
They drove past building after building, buildings
in which hundreds of men toiled on preparations for
a possible war. The throb of those engines, sight
of the perspiring faces, might suggest that rather
large, a trifle extravagant, a bit cumbersome, was
the price for peace. But these girls did not seem
to be thinking of the possible war, or of the men who
earned their bread thwarting it by preparation.
One would suppose them to be just two beautifully
cared for, careless-of-life girls, thinking of what
some man had said at the dance the night before, or
of the texture of the plume on some one’s hat,
or, to get down to the really serious issues of life,
whether or not they could afford that love of a dinner
gown.
They left the main avenue and were
winding in and out of the by-roads, roads which had
all the care of a great park and all the charm of the
deep woods. Here and there were soldiers doing
nothing more warlike than raking grass or repairing
roads. It seemed far removed from the stress
and the struggle, place where the sense of protection
but contributed to the sense of freedom. There
would come occasional glimpses of the river, the beautiful
homes and great factories of the busy, prosperous,
middle-western city opposite. To the other side
was a town, too, a little city of large enterprises;
to either side seethed the questions of steel, and
all those attendant questions of mind and heart whose
pressure grew ever bigger and whose safety valves
seemed tested to their uttermost. To either side
the savage battles of peace, and there in between an
island the peaceful preparations for war.
And in such places, sheltered, detached,
yet offered all she would have from without, had always
lived Katie Jones, a favorite child of the favored
men whom precautions against war offered so serene
a life; surrounded by friends who were likewise removed
from the battles of peace to the peace of possible
war, knowing the social struggle only as it touched
their own detached questions of pay and rank, pleasant
and stupid posts, hospitable and inhospitable commandants.
And into this had rushed a victim
of the battles of peace! From the stony paths
of peace there to the well-kept roads of war!
The irony of it struck Katie anew:
the incongruity of choosing so well-regulated a place
for the performance of so disorderly an act as the
taking of one’s life. Choosing army headquarters
as the place in which to desert from the army of life!
Such an infringement of discipline as seeking self-destruction
in that well-ordered spot where the machinery of destruction
was so peacefully accumulated!
She looked covertly at Ann; she could
do it, for the girl seemed for the most part unconscious
of her. She was leaning back in the comfortably
rounded corner of the stanhope, her hands lax in her
lap, her eyes often closed a tired child
of peace drinking in the peace furnished by the military,
was Ann. It was plain that Ann was one who could
drink things in, could draw beauty to her as something
which was of her, something, too, it seemed, of which
she had been long in need. Could it be that in
the big outside world into which these new wonderings
were sent, world which they seemed to penetrate but
such a little way, there were many who did not find
their own? Might it not be that some of the most
genuine Florentines had never been to Florence?
And because all this was of
Ann, it was banishing the things it could not assimilate.
Those hurt looks, fretted looks, that hard look, already
Kate had come to know them, would come, but always
to go as Ann would swiftly raise her head to get the
song of a bird, or yield her face to the caress of
a soft spring breeze. Katie was grateful to the
benign breezes, rich with the messages of opening
buds, full, tender, restoring, which could blow away
hard memories and bitter visions. Yet those same
breezes had blown yesterday. Why could they not
reach then? What was it had closed the door and
shut in those things that were killing Ann? What
were those things that had filled up and choked Ann’s
poor soul?
From a hundred different paths she
kept approaching it, could not keep away from it.
One read of those things in the papers; they had always
seemed to concern a people apart, to be pitied, but
not understood, much less reached. Overwhelming
that one who had wished to kill one’s self should
be enjoying anything! That a door so tragically
shut should open to so simple a knock! Mere human
voice reach that incomprehensible outermost brink!
Were they not people different, but just people like
one’s self, who had simply fallen down in the
struggle, and only needed some one to help them up,
give them a cool drink and chance for a moment’s
rest? Were the big and the little things so
close? One’s own kind and the other kind
just one kind, after all?
“I love winding roads,”
Katie was saying, after a long silence. “I
suppose the thing so alluring about them is that one
can never be sure just what is around the bend.
When I was a little girl I used to pretend it was
fairies waiting around the next curve, and I have never ”
But she drew in her horse sharply,
for the moment at a loss; for it was not fairies,
but Captain Prescott, riding smilingly toward them,
very handsome on his fine mount.
“It’s one of
our officers,” she said sharply. “I I’ll
have to present him.”
“Oh please please!”
was the girl’s panic-stricken whisper. “Let
me get out! I must! I can’t!”
“You can. You must!”
commanded Katie. And then she had just time for
just an imploring little: “For my sake.”
He had halted beside them and Katie
was saying, with her usual cool gaiety: “You
care for this day, too, do you? We’re fairly
steeped in it. Ann,” not with
the courage to look squarely at her “at
this moment I present your next-door neighbor.
And a very good neighbor he is. We use his telephone
when our telephone is discouraged. We borrow his
books and bridles; we eat his bread and salt, drink
his water and wine especially his wine we
impose on him in every way known to good neighboring.
Yes, to be sure, this is Miss Forrest of whom I told
you last night.”
As the Captain was looking at Ann
and not seeming overpowered with amazement, looking,
on the other hand, as though seeing something rarely
good to look at, Katie had the courage to look too.
And at what she saw her heart swelled quite as the
heart of the mother swells when the child speaks his
piece unstutteringly. Ann was doing it! rising
to the occasion meeting the situation.
Then she had other qualities no less valuable than
looking Florentine. That thing of doing
it was a thing that had always commanded the affectionate
admiration of Katie Jones.
It was not what Ann did so much as
her effective manner of doing nothing. One would
not say she lacked assurance; one would put it the
other way that she seemed shy. It
seemed to Katie she looked for all the world like
a startled bird, and it also seemed that Captain Prescott
particularly admired startled birds.
He turned and rode a little way beside
them, he and Katie assuming conversational responsibilities.
But Ann’s smile warmed her aloofness, and her
very shyness seemed well adjusted to her fragility.
“And just fits in with what I told him!”
gloated Kate. And though she said so little,
for some reason, perhaps because she looked so different,
one got the impression of her having said something
unusual. She had a way of listening which conveyed
the impression she could say things worth listening
to if she chose. One took her on faith.
He said to her at the last, with that
direct boyish smile it seemed could not frighten even
a startled bird: “You think you are going
to like it here?” And Ann replied, slowly, a
tremor in her voice, and a child’s earnestness
and sweetness in it too: “I think it the
most beautiful place I ever saw in all my life.”
At the simple enough words his face
softened strangely. It was with an odd gentleness
he said he hoped they could all have some good times
together.
But, the moment conquered, things
which it had called up swept in. The whole of
it seemed to rush in upon her.
She turned harshly upon Katie.
“This is ridiculous! I’m
going away to-night!”
“We will talk it over this evening,”
replied Kate quietly. “You will wait for
that, won’t you? I have something to suggest.
And in the end you will be at liberty to do exactly
as you think best. Certainly there can be no
question as to that.”
On their way home they encountered
the throng of men from the shops dirty,
greasy, alien. It was not pleasant meeting
the men when one was driving. And yet, though
certainly distasteful, they interested Katie, perhaps
just because they were so different. She wondered
how they lived and what they talked about.
Chancing to look at Ann, she saw that
stranger than the men was the look with which Ann
regarded them. She could not make it out.
But one thing she did see the soft spring
breezes had much yet to do.