The Caruthers family took their departure
from Appledore.
“Well, we have had to fight
for it, but we have saved Tom,” Julia remarked
to Mr. Lenox, standing by the guards and looking back
at the Islands as the steamer bore them away.
“Saved! ”
“Yes!” she said decidedly, “we
have saved him.”
“It’s a responsibility,”
said the gentleman, shrugging his shoulders.
“I am not clear that you have not ‘saved’
Tom from a better thing than he’ll ever find
again.”
“Perhaps you’d
like her!” said Miss Julia sharply. “How
ridiculous all you men are about a pretty face!”
The remaining days of her stay in
Appledore Lois roved about to her heart’s content.
And yet I will not say that her enjoyment of rocks
and waves was just what it had been at her first arrival.
The island seemed empty, somehow. Appledore is
lovely in September and October; and Lois sat on the
rocks and watched the play of the waves, and delighted
herself in the changing colours of sea, and sky, and
clouds, and gathered wild-flowers, and picked up shells;
but there was somehow very present to her the vision
of a fair, kindly, handsome face, and eyes that sought
hers eagerly, and hands that were ready gladly with
any little service that there was room to render.
She was no longer troubled by a group of people dogging
her footsteps; and she found now that there had been,
however inopportune, a little excitement in that.
It was very well they were gone, she acknowledged;
for Mr. Caruthers might have come to like her
too well, and that would have been inconvenient; and
yet it is so pleasant to be liked! Upon the sober
humdrum of Lois’s every day home life, Tom Caruthers
was like a bit of brilliant embroidery; and we know
how involuntarily the eyes seek out such a spot of
colour, and how they return to it. Yes, life at
home was exceedingly pleasant, but it was a picture
in grey; this was a dash of blue and gold. It
had better be grey, Lois said to herself; life is not
glitter. And yet, a little bit of glitter on the
greys and browns is so delightful. Well, it was
gone. There was small hope now that anything
so brilliant would ever illuminate her quiet course
again. Lois sat on the rocks and looked at the
sea, and thought about it. If they, Tom and his
friends, had not come to Appledore at all, her visit
would have been most delightful; nay, it had been
most delightful, whether or no; but this
and her New York experience had given Lois a new standard
by which to measure life and men. From one point
of view, it is true, the new lost in comparison with
the old. Tom and his people were not “religious.”
They knew nothing of what made her own life so sweet;
they had not her prospects or joys in looking on towards
the far future, nor her strength and security in view
of the trials and vicissitudes of earth and time.
She had the best of it; as she joyfully confessed to
herself, seeing the glorious breaking waves and watching
the play of light on them, and recalling Cowper’s
words
“My Father made them all!”
But there remained another aspect
of the matter which raised other feelings in the girl’s
mind. The difference in education. Those
people could speak French, and Mr. Caruthers could
speak Spanish, and Mr. Lenox spoke German. Whether
well or ill, Lois did not know; but in any case, how
many doors, in literature and in life, stood open to
them; which were closed and locked doors to her!
And we all know, that ever since Bluebeard’s
time I might go back further, and say, ever
since Eve’s time Eve’s daughters
have been unable to stand before a closed door without
the wish to open it. The impulse, partly for good,
partly for evil, is incontestable. Lois fairly
longed to know what Tom and his sister knew in the
fields of learning. And there were other fields.
There was a certain light, graceful, inimitable habit
of the world and of society; familiarity with all
the pretty and refined ways and uses of the more refined
portions of society; knowledge and practice of proprieties,
as the above-mentioned classes of the world recognize
them; which all seemed to Lois greatly desirable and
becoming. Nay, the said “proprieties”
and so forth were not always of the most important
kind; Miss Caruthers could be what Lois considered
coolly rude, upon occasion; and her mother could be
carelessly impolite; and Mr. Lenox could be wanting
in the delicate regard which a gentleman should show
to a lady; “I suppose,” thought Lois, “he
did not think I would know any better.”
In these things, these essential things, some of the
farmers of Shampuashuh and their wives were the peers
at least, if not the superiors, of these fine ladies
and gentlemen. But in lesser things! These
people knew how to walk gracefully, sit gracefully,
eat gracefully. Their manner and address in all
the little details of life, had the ease, and polish,
and charm which comes of use, and habit, and confidence.
The way Mr. Lenox and Tom would give help to a lady
in getting over the rough rocks of Appledore; the
deference with which they would attend to her comfort
and provide for her pleasure; the grace of a bow,
the good breeding of a smile; the ease of action which
comes from trained physical and practised mental nature;
these and a great deal more, even the details of dress
and equipment which are only possible to those who
know how, and which are instantly seen to be excellent
and becoming, even by those who do not know how; all
this had appealed mightily to Lois’s nature,
and raised in her longings and regrets more or less
vague, but very real. All that, she would like
to have. She wanted the familiarity with books,
and also the familiarity with the world, which some
people had; the secure a plomb and the easy
facility of manner which are so imposing and so attractive
to a girl like Lois. She felt that to these people
life was richer, larger, wider than to her; its riches
more at command; the standpoint higher from which
to take a view of the world; the facility greater which
could get from the world what it had to give.
And it was a closed door before which Lois stood.
Truly on her side of the door there was very much
that she had and they had not; she knew that, and did
not fail to recognize it and appreciate it. What
was the Lord’s beautiful creation to them? a
place to kill time in, and get rid of it as fast as
possible. The ocean, to them, was little but a
great bath-tub; or a very inconvenient separating
medium, which prevented them from going constantly
to Paris and Rome. To judge by all that appeared,
the sky had no colours for them, and the wind no voices,
and the flowers no speech. And as for the Bible,
and the hopes and joys which take their source there,
they knew no more of it so than if they had
been Mahometans. They took no additional pleasure
in the things of the natural world, because those
things were made by a Hand that they loved. Poor
people! and Lois knew they were poor; and yet she
said to herself, and also truly, that the possession
of her knowledge would not be lessened by the possession
of theirs. And a little pensiveness mingled
for a few days with her enjoyment of Appledore.
Meanwhile Mrs. Wishart was getting well.
“So they have all gone!”
she said, a day or two after the Caruthers party had
taken themselves away.
“Yes, and Appledore seems, you
can’t think how lonely,” said Lois.
She had just come in from a ramble.
“You saw a great deal of them, dear?”
“Quite a good deal. Did
you ever see such bright pimpernel? Isn’t
it lovely?”
“I don’t understand how Tom could get
away.”
“I believe he did not want to go.”
“Why didn’t you keep him?”
“I!” said Lois with an
astonished start. “Why should I keep him,
Mrs. Wishart?”
“Because he likes you so much.”
“Does he?” said Lois a little bitterly.
“Yes! Don’t you like him? How
do you like him, Lois?”
“He is nice, Mrs. Wishart.
But if you ask me, I do not think he has enough strength
of character.”
“If Tom has let them carry him
off against his will, he is rather weak.”
Lois made no answer. Had he?
and had they done it? A vague notion of what
might be the truth of the whole transaction floated
in and out of her mind, and made her indignant.
Whatever one’s private views of the danger may
be, I think no one likes to be taken care of in this
fashion. Of course Tom Caruthers was and could
be nothing to her, Lois said to herself; and of course
she could be nothing to him; but that his friends
should fear the contrary and take measures to prevent
it, stirred her most disagreeably. Yes; if things
had gone so, then Tom certainly was weak; and
it vexed her that he should be weak. Very inconsistent,
when it would have occasioned her so much trouble if
he had been strong! But when is human nature
consistent? Altogether this visit to Appledore,
the pleasure of which began so spicily, left rather
a flat taste upon her tongue; and she was vexed at
that.
There was another person who probably
thought Tom weak, and who was curious to know how
he had come out of this trial of strength with his
relations; but Mr. Dillwyn had wandered off to a distance,
and it was not till a month later that he saw any
of the Caruthers. By that time they were settled
in their town quarters for the winter, and there one
evening he called upon them. He found only Julia
and her mother.
“By the way,” said he,
when the talk had rambled on for a while, “how
did you get on at the Isles of Shoals?”
“We had an awful time,”
said Julia. “You cannot conceive of anything
so slow.”
“How long did you stay?”
“O, ages! We were there
four or five weeks. Imagine, if you can.
Nothing but sea and rocks, and no company!”
“No company! What kept you there?”
“O, Tom!”
“What kept Tom?”
“Mrs. Wishart got sick, you
see, and couldn’t get away, poor soul! and that
made her stay so long.”
“And you had to stay too, to nurse her?”
“No, nothing of that. Miss
Lothrop was there, and she did the nursing; and then
a ridiculous aunt of hers came to help her.”
“You staid for sympathy?”
“Don’t be absurd, Philip!
You know we were kept by Tom. We could not get
him away.”
“What made Tom want to stay?”
“O, that girl.”
“How did you get him away at last?”
“Just because we stuck to him.
No other way. He would undoubtedly have made
a fool of himself with that girl he was
just ready to do it but we never left him
a chance. George and I, and mother, we surrounded
him,” said Julia, laughing; “we kept close
by him; we never left them alone. Tom got enough
of it at last, and agreed, very melancholy, to come
away. He is dreadfully in the blues yet.”
“You have a good deal to answer for, Julia.”
“Now, don’t, Philip!
That’s what George says. It is too
absurd. Just because she has a pretty face.
All you men are bewitched by pretty faces.”
“She has a good manner, too.”
“Manner? She has no manner
at all; and she don’t know anything, out of
her garden. We have saved Tom from a great danger.
It would be a terrible thing, perfectly terrible,
to have him marry a girl who is not a lady, nor even
an educated woman.”
“You think you could not have made a lady of
her?”
“Mamma, do hear Philip! isn’t
he too bad? Just because that girl has a little
beauty. I wonder what there is in beauty, it turns
all your heads! Mamma, do you hear Mr. Dillwyn?
he wishes we had let Tom have his head and marry that
little gardening girl.”
“Indeed I do not,” said
Philip seriously. “I am very glad you succeeded
in preventing it But allow me to ask if you are sure
you have succeeded? Is it quite certain
Tom will not have his head after all? He may
cheat you yet.”
“O no! He’s very
melancholy, but he has given it up. If he don’t,
we’ll take him abroad in the spring. I
think he has given it up. His being melancholy
looks like it.”
“True. I’ll sound him when I get
a chance.”
The chance offered itself very soon;
for Tom came in, and when Dillwyn left the house,
Tom went to walk with him. They sauntered along
Fifth Avenue, which was pretty full of people still,
enjoying the mild air and beautiful starlight.
“Tom, what did you do at the
Isles of Shoals?” Mr. Dillwyn asked suddenly.
“Did a lot of fishing. Capital trolling.”
“All your fishing done on the high seas, eh?”
“All my successful fishing.”
“What was the matter? Not a faint heart?”
“No. It’s disgusting,
the whole thing!” Tom broke out with hearty
emphasis.
“You don’t like to talk about it?
I’ll spare you, if you say so.”
“I don’t care what you
do to me,” said Tom; “and I have no objection
to talk about it to you.”
Nevertheless he stopped.
“Have you changed your mind?”
“I shouldn’t change my mind, if I lived
to be as old as Methuselah!”
“That’s right. Well, then, the
thing is going on?”
“It isn’t going on! and I suppose
it never will!”
“Had the lady any objection? I cannot believe
that.”
“I don’t know,”
said Tom, with a big sigh. “I almost think
she hadn’t; but I never could find that out.”
“What hindered you, old fellow?”
“My blessed relations.
Julia and mother made such a row. I wouldn’t
have minded the row neither; for a man must marry to
please himself and not his mother; and I believe no
man ever yet married to please his sister; but, Philip,
they didn’t give me a minute. I could never
join her anywhere, but Julia would be round the next
corner; or else George would be there before me.
George must put his oar in; and between them they
kept it up.”
“And you think she liked you?”
Tom was silent a while.
“Well,” said he at last,
“I won’t swear; for you never know where
a woman is till you’ve got her; but if she didn’t,
all I have to say is, signs aren’t good for
anything.”
It was Philip now who was silent, for several minutes.
“What’s going to be the upshot of it?”
“O, I suppose I shall go abroad
with Julia and George in the spring, and end by taking
an orthodox wife some day; somebody with blue blood,
and pretension, and nothing else. My people will
be happy, and the family name will be safe.”
“And what will become of her?”
“O, she’s all right.
She won’t break her heart about me. She
isn’t that sort of girl,” Tom Caruthers
said gloomily. “Do you know, I admire her
immensely, Philip! I believe she’s good
enough for anything. Maybe she’s too good.
That’s what her aunt hinted.”
“Her aunt! Who’s she?”
“She’s a sort of a snapping
turtle. A good sort of woman, too. I took
counsel with her, do you know, when I found it was
no use for me to try to see Lois. I asked her
if she would stand my friend. She was as sharp
as a fish-hook, and about as ugly a customer; and she
as good as told me to go about my business.”
“Did she give reasons for such advice?”
“O yes! She saw through
Julia and mother as well as I did; and she spoke as
any friend of Lois would, who had a little pride about
her. I can’t blame her.”
Silence fell again, and lasted while
the two young men walked the length of several blocks.
Then Mr. Dillwyn began again.
“Tom, there ought to be no more
shilly-shallying about this matter.”
“No more! Yes, you’re
right. I ought to have settled it long ago, before
Julia and mother got hold of it. That’s
where I made a mistake.”
“And you think it too late?”
Tom hesitated. “It’s
too late. I’ve lost my time. She
has given me up, and mother and Julia have set their
hearts that I should give her up. I am not a
match for them. Is a man ever a match for a woman,
do you think, Dillwyn, if she takes something seriously
in hand?”
“Will you go to Europe next spring?”
“Perhaps. I suppose so.”
“If you do, perhaps I will join
the party that is, if you will all let
me.”
So the conversation went over into another channel.