CHAPTER IV - NOT AS A CHILD
“I DO not know how that
may be,” said the mother, lifting her head,
and looking through almost blinding tears, into the
face of her friend. “The poet may be right,
and, “Not as a child shall I again behold him,
but the thought brings no comfort. I have lost
my child, and my heart looks eagerly forward to a
reunion with him in heaven; to the blessed hour when
I shall again hold him in my arms.”
“As a babe?”
“Oh, yes. As a darling babe, pure, and
beautiful as a cherub.”
“But would you have him linger in babyhood forever?”
asked the friend.
The mother did not reply.
“Did you expect him always to
remain a child here? Would perpetual infancy
have satisfied your maternal heart? Had you not
already begun to look forward to the period when intellectual
manhood would come with its crowning honors?”
“It is true,” sighed the mother.
“As it would have been here,
so will it be there. Here, the growth of his
body would have been parallel, if I may so speak, with
the growth of his mind. The natural and the visible
would have developed in harmony with the spiritual
and the invisible. Your child would have grown
to manhood intellectually, as well as bodily.
And you would not have had it otherwise. Growth-development-the
going on to perfection, are the laws of life; and
more emphatically so as appertaining to the life of
the human soul. That life, in all its high activities,
burns still in the soul of your lost darling, and
he will grow, in the world of angelic spirits to which
our Father has removed him, up to the full stature
of an angel, a glorified form of intelligence and wisdom.
He cannot linger in feeble babyhood; in the innocence
of simple ignorance; but must advance with the heavenly
cycles of changing and renewing states.”
“And this is all the comfort
you bring to my yearning heart?” said the mother.
“My darling, if all you say be true, is lost
to me forever.”
“He was not yours, but God’s.”
The friend spoke softly, yet with a firm utterance.
“He was mine to love,” replied the bereaved
one.
“And your love would confer
upon its precious object the richest blessings.
Dear friend! Lift your thoughts a little way above
the clouds that sorrow has gathered around your heart,
and let perception come into an atmosphere radiant
with light from the Sun of Truth. Think of your
child as destined to become, in the better world to
which God has removed him, a wise and loving angel.
Picture to your imagination the higher happiness,
springing from higher capacities and higher uses,
which must crown the angelic life. Doing this,
and loving your lost darling, I know that you cannot
ask for him a perpetual babyhood in heaven.”
“I will ask nothing for him
but what ‘Our Father’ pleaseth to give,”
said the mother, in calmer tones. “My love
is selfish, I know. I called that babe mine-mine
in the broadest sense-yet he was God’s,
as every other creature is his-one of the
stones in his living temple-one of the
members of his kingdom. It does not comfort me
in my great sorrow to think that, as a child, I shall
not again behold him, but rays of new light are streaming
into my mind, and I see things in new aspects and
new relations. Out of this deep affliction good
will arise.”
“Just as certainly,” added
the friend, “as that the Sun shines and the
dew falls. It will be better for you, and better
for the child. To both will come a resurrection
into higher and purer life.”