Grace’s exhibition of herself,
in the act of pulling-to the window-curtains, had
been the result of an unfortunate incident in the
house that day-nothing less than the illness
of Grammer Oliver, a woman who had never till now
lain down for such a reason in her life. Like
others to whom unbroken years of health has made the
idea of keeping their bed almost as repugnant as death
itself, she had continued on foot till she literally
fell on the floor; and though she had, as yet, been
scarcely a day off duty, she had sickened into quite
a different personage from the independent Grammer
of the yard and spar-house. Ill as she was,
on one point she was firm. On no account would
she see a doctor; in other words, Fitzpiers.
The room in which Grace had been discerned
was not her own, but the old woman’s.
On the girl’s way to bed she had received a message
from Grammer, to the effect that she would much like
to speak to her that night.
Grace entered, and set the candle
on a low chair beside the bed, so that the profile
of Grammer as she lay cast itself in a keen shadow
upon the whitened wall, her large head being still
further magnified by an enormous turban, which was,
really, her petticoat wound in a wreath round her
temples. Grace put the room a little in order,
and approaching the sick woman, said, “I am
come, Grammer, as you wish. Do let us send for
the doctor before it gets later.”
“I will not have him,” said Grammer Oliver,
decisively.
“Then somebody to sit up with you.”
“Can’t abear it!
No; I wanted to see you, Miss Grace, because ’ch
have something on my mind. Dear Miss Grace,
I took that money of the
doctor, after all!”
“What money?”
“The ten pounds.”
Grace did not quite understand.
“The ten pounds he offered me
for my head, because I’ve a large brain.
I signed a paper when I took the money, not feeling
concerned about it at all. I have not liked
to tell ye that it was really settled with him, because
you showed such horror at the notion. Well, having
thought it over more at length, I wish I hadn’t
done it; and it weighs upon my mind. John South’s
death of fear about the tree makes me think that I
shall die of this....’Ch have been going to ask
him again to let me off, but I hadn’t the face.”
“Why?”
“I’ve spent some of the
money-more’n two pounds o’t.
It do wherrit me terribly; and I shall die o’
the thought of that paper I signed with my holy cross,
as South died of his trouble.”
“If you ask him to burn the
paper he will, I’m sure, and think no more of
it.”
“’Ch have done it once
already, miss. But he laughed cruel like.
’Yours is such a fine brain, Grammer, ’er
said, ’that science couldn’t afford to
lose you. Besides, you’ve taken my money.’...Don’t
let your father know of this, please, on no account
whatever!”
“No, no. I will let you
have the money to return to him.”
Grammer rolled her head negatively
upon the pillow. “Even if I should be well
enough to take it to him, he won’t like it.
Though why he should so particular want to look into
the works of a poor old woman’s head-piece like
mine when there’s so many other folks about,
I don’t know. I know how he’ll answer
me: ‘A lonely person like you, Grammer,’
er woll say. ’What difference is it to
you what becomes of ye when the breath’s out
of your body?’ Oh, it do trouble me! If
you only knew how he do chevy me round the chimmer
in my dreams, you’d pity me. How I could
do it I can’t think! But ’ch
was always so rackless!...If I only had anybody to
plead for me!”
“Mrs. Melbury would, I am sure.”
“Ay; but he wouldn’t hearken
to she! It wants a younger face than hers to
work upon such as he.”
Grace started with comprehension.
“You don’t think he would do it for me?”
she said.
“Oh, wouldn’t he!”
“I couldn’t go to him,
Grammer, on any account. I don’t know him
at all.”
“Ah, if I were a young lady,”
said the artful Grammer, “and could save a poor
old woman’s skellington from a heathen doctor
instead of a Christian grave, I would do it, and be
glad to. But nobody will do anything for a poor
old familiar friend but push her out of the way.”
You are very ungrateful, Grammer,
to say that. But you are ill, I know, and that’s
why you speak so. Now believe me, you are not
going to die yet. Remember you told me yourself
that you meant to keep him waiting many a year.”
“Ay, one can joke when one is
well, even in old age; but in sickness one’s
gayety falters to grief; and that which seemed small
looks large; and the grim far-off seems near.”
Grace’s eyes had tears in them.
“I don’t like to go to him on such an
errand, Grammer,” she said, brokenly. “But
I will, to ease your mind.”
It was with extreme reluctance that
Grace cloaked herself next morning for the undertaking.
She was all the more indisposed to the journey by
reason of Grammer’s allusion to the effect of
a pretty face upon Dr. Fitzpiers; and hence she most
illogically did that which, had the doctor never seen
her, would have operated to stultify the sole motive
of her journey; that is to say, she put on a woollen
veil, which hid all her face except an occasional
spark of her eyes.
Her own wish that nothing should be
known of this strange and grewsome proceeding, no
less than Grammer Oliver’s own desire, led Grace
to take every precaution against being discovered.
She went out by the garden door as the safest way,
all the household having occupations at the other
side. The morning looked forbidding enough when
she stealthily opened it. The battle between
frost and thaw was continuing in mid-air: the
trees dripped on the garden-plots, where no vegetables
would grow for the dripping, though they were planted
year after year with that curious mechanical regularity
of country people in the face of hopelessness; the
moss which covered the once broad gravel terrace was
swamped; and Grace stood irresolute. Then she
thought of poor Grammer, and her dreams of the doctor
running after her, scalpel in hand, and the possibility
of a case so curiously similar to South’s ending
in the same way; thereupon she stepped out into the
drizzle.
The nature of her errand, and Grammer
Oliver’s account of the compact she had made,
lent a fascinating horror to Grace’s conception
of Fitzpiers. She knew that he was a young man;
but her single object in seeking an interview with
him put all considerations of his age and social aspect
from her mind. Standing as she stood, in Grammer
Oliver’s shoes, he was simply a remorseless
Jove of the sciences, who would not have mercy, and
would have sacrifice; a man whom, save for this, she
would have preferred to avoid knowing. But since,
in such a small village, it was improbable that any
long time could pass without their meeting, there
was not much to deplore in her having to meet him now.
But, as need hardly be said, Miss
Melbury’s view of the doctor as a merciless,
unwavering, irresistible scientist was not quite in
accordance with fact. The real Dr. Fitzpiers
w as a man of too many hobbies to show likelihood
of rising to any great eminence in the profession
he had chosen, or even to acquire any wide practice
in the rural district he had marked out as his field
of survey for the present. In the course of
a year his mind was accustomed to pass in a grand
solar sweep through all the zodiacal signs of the intellectual
heaven. Sometimes it was in the Ram, sometimes
in the Bull; one month he would be immersed in alchemy,
another in poesy; one month in the Twins of astrology
and astronomy; then in the Crab of German literature
and metaphysics. In justice to him it must be
stated that he took such studies as were immediately
related to his own profession in turn with the rest,
and it had been in a month of anatomical ardor without
the possibility of a subject that he had proposed
to Grammer Oliver the terms she had mentioned to her
mistress.
As may be inferred from the tone of
his conversation with Winterborne, he had lately plunged
into abstract philosophy with much zest; perhaps his
keenly appreciative, modern, unpractical mind found
this a realm more to his taste than any other.
Though his aims were desultory, Fitzpiers’s
mental constitution was not without its admirable side;
a keen inquirer he honestly was, even if the midnight
rays of his lamp, visible so far through the trees
of Hintock, lighted rank literatures of emotion and
passion as often as, or oftener than, the books and
materiel of science.
But whether he meditated the Muses
or the philosophers, the loneliness of Hintock life
was beginning to tell upon his impressionable nature.
Winter in a solitary house in the country, without
society, is tolerable, nay, even enjoyable and delightful,
given certain conditions, but these are not the conditions
which attach to the life of a professional man who
drops down into such a place by mere accident.
They were present to the lives of Winterborne, Melbury,
and Grace; but not to the doctor’s. They
are old association-an almost exhaustive
biographical or historical acquaintance with every
object, animate and inanimate, within the observer’s
horizon. He must know all about those invisible
ones of the days gone by, whose feet have traversed
the fields which look so gray from his windows; recall
whose creaking plough has turned those sods from time
to time; whose hands planted the trees that form a
crest to the opposite hill; whose horses and hounds
have torn through that underwood; what birds affect
that particular brake; what domestic dramas of love,
jealousy, revenge, or disappointment have been enacted
in the cottages, the mansion, the street, or on the
green. The spot may have beauty, grandeur, salubrity,
convenience; but if it lack memories it will ultimately
pall upon him who settles there without opportunity
of intercourse with his kind.
In such circumstances, maybe, an old
man dreams of an ideal friend, till he throws himself
into the arms of any impostor who chooses to wear
that title on his face. A young man may dream
of an ideal friend likewise, but some humor of the
blood will probably lead him to think rather of an
ideal mistress, and at length the rustle of a woman’s
dress, the sound of her voice, or the transit of her
form across the field of his vision, will enkindle
his soul with a flame that blinds his eyes.
The discovery of the attractive Grace’s
name and family would have been enough in other circumstances
to lead the doctor, if not to put her personality
out of his head, to change the character of his interest
in her. Instead of treasuring her image as a
rarity, he would at most have played with it as a
toy. He was that kind of a man. But situated
here he could not go so far as amative cruelty.
He dismissed all reverential thought about her, but
he could not help taking her seriously.
He went on to imagine the impossible.
So far, indeed, did he go in this futile direction
that, as others are wont to do, he constructed dialogues
and scenes in which Grace had turned out to be the
mistress of Hintock Manor-house, the mysterious Mrs.
Charmond, particularly ready and willing to be wooed
by himself and nobody else. “Well, she
isn’t that,” he said, finally. “But
she’s a very sweet, nice, exceptional girl.”
The next morning he breakfasted alone,
as usual. It was snowing with a fine-flaked
desultoriness just sufficient to make the woodland
gray, without ever achieving whiteness. There
was not a single letter for Fitzpiers, only a medical
circular and a weekly newspaper.
To sit before a large fire on such
mornings, and read, and gradually acquire energy till
the evening came, and then, with lamp alight, and
feeling full of vigor, to pursue some engrossing subject
or other till the small hours, had hitherto been his
practice. But to-day he could not settle into
his chair. That self-contained position he had
lately occupied, in which the only attention demanded
was the concentration of the inner eye, all outer
regard being quite gratuitous, seemed to have been
taken by insidious stratagem, and for the first time
he had an interest outside the house. He walked
from one window to another, and became aware that
the most irksome of solitudes is not the solitude of
remoteness, but that which is just outside desirable
company.
The breakfast hour went by heavily
enough, and the next followed, in the same half-snowy,
half-rainy style, the weather now being the inevitable
relapse which sooner or later succeeds a time too radiant
for the season, such as they had enjoyed in the late
midwinter at Hintock. To people at home there
these changeful tricks had their interests; the strange
mistakes that some of the more sanguine trees had
made in budding before their month, to be incontinently
glued up by frozen thawings now; the similar sanguine
errors of impulsive birds in framing nests that were
now swamped by snow-water, and other such incidents,
prevented any sense of wearisomeness in the minds of
the natives. But these were features of a world
not familiar to Fitzpiers, and the inner visions to
which he had almost exclusively attended having suddenly
failed in their power to absorb him, he felt unutterably
dreary.
He wondered how long Miss Melbury
was going to stay in Hintock. The season was
unpropitious for accidental encounters with her out-of-doors,
and except by accident he saw not how they were to
become acquainted. One thing was clear-any
acquaintance with her could only, with a due regard
to his future, be casual, at most of the nature of
a flirtation; for he had high aims, and they would
some day lead him into other spheres than this.
Thus desultorily thinking he flung
himself down upon the couch, which, as in many draughty
old country houses, was constructed with a hood, being
in fact a legitimate development from the settle.
He tried to read as he reclined, but having sat up
till three o’clock that morning, the book slipped
from his hand and he fell asleep.