And now it happened that the fortunes
of Philip Carey, of no consequence to any but himself,
were affected by the events through which his country
was passing. History was being made, and the process
was so significant that it seemed absurd it should
touch the life of an obscure medical student.
Battle after battle, Magersfontein, Colenso, Spion
Kop, lost on the playing fields of Eton, had humiliated
the nation and dealt the death-blow to the prestige
of the aristocracy and gentry who till then had found
no one seriously to oppose their assertion that they
possessed a natural instinct of government. The
old order was being swept away: history was being
made indeed. Then the colossus put forth his strength,
and, blundering again, at last blundered into the semblance
of victory. Cronje surrendered at Paardeberg,
Ladysmith was relieved, and at the beginning of March
Lord Roberts marched into Bloemfontein.
It was two or three days after the
news of this reached London that Macalister came into
the tavern in Beak Street and announced joyfully that
things were looking brighter on the Stock Exchange.
Peace was in sight, Roberts would march into Pretoria
within a few weeks, and shares were going up already.
There was bound to be a boom.
“Now’s the time to come
in,” he told Philip. “It’s no
good waiting till the public gets on to it. It’s
now or never.”
He had inside information. The
manager of a mine in South Africa had cabled to the
senior partner of his firm that the plant was uninjured.
They would start working again as soon as possible.
It wasn’t a speculation, it was an investment.
To show how good a thing the senior partner thought
it Macalister told Philip that he had bought five hundred
shares for both his sisters: he never put them
into anything that wasn’t as safe as the Bank
of England.
“I’m going to put my shirt on it myself,”
he said.
The shares were two and an eighth
to a quarter. He advised Philip not to be greedy,
but to be satisfied with a ten-shilling rise.
He was buying three hundred for himself and suggested
that Philip should do the same. He would hold
them and sell when he thought fit. Philip had
great faith in him, partly because he was a Scotsman
and therefore by nature cautious, and partly because
he had been right before. He jumped at the suggestion.
“I daresay we shall be able
to sell before the account,” said Macalister,
“but if not, I’ll arrange to carry them
over for you.”
It seemed a capital system to Philip.
You held on till you got your profit, and you never
even had to put your hand in your pocket. He began
to watch the Stock Exchange columns of the paper with
new interest. Next day everything was up a little,
and Macalister wrote to say that he had had to pay
two and a quarter for the shares. He said that
the market was firm. But in a day or two there
was a set-back. The news that came from South
Africa was less reassuring, and Philip with anxiety
saw that his shares had fallen to two; but Macalister
was optimistic, the Boers couldn’t hold out
much longer, and he was willing to bet a top-hat that
Roberts would march into Johannesburg before the middle
of April. At the account Philip had to pay out
nearly forty pounds. It worried him considerably,
but he felt that the only course was to hold on:
in his circumstances the loss was too great for him
to pocket. For two or three weeks nothing happened;
the Boers would not understand that they were beaten
and nothing remained for them but to surrender:
in fact they had one or two small successes, and Philip’s
shares fell half a crown more. It became evident
that the war was not finished. There was a lot
of selling. When Macalister saw Philip he was
pessimistic.
“I’m not sure if the best
thing wouldn’t be to cut the loss. I’ve
been paying out about as much as I want to in differences.”
Philip was sick with anxiety.
He could not sleep at night; he bolted his breakfast,
reduced now to tea and bread and butter, in order to
get over to the club reading-room and see the paper;
sometimes the news was bad, and sometimes there was
no news at all, but when the shares moved it was to
go down. He did not know what to do. If he
sold now he would lose altogether hard on three hundred
and fifty pounds; and that would leave him only eighty
pounds to go on with. He wished with all his heart
that he had never been such a fool as to dabble on
the Stock Exchange, but the only thing was to hold
on; something decisive might happen any day and the
shares would go up; he did not hope now for a profit,
but he wanted to make good his loss. It was his
only chance of finishing his course at the hospital.
The Summer session was beginning in May, and at the
end of it he meant to take the examination in midwifery.
Then he would only have a year more; he reckoned it
out carefully and came to the conclusion that he could
manage it, fees and all, on a hundred and fifty pounds;
but that was the least it could possibly be done on.
Early in April he went to the tavern
in Beak Street anxious to see Macalister. It
eased him a little to discuss the situation with him;
and to realise that numerous people beside himself
were suffering from loss of money made his own trouble
a little less intolerable. But when Philip arrived
no one was there but Hayward, and no sooner had Philip
seated himself than he said:
“I’m sailing for the Cape on Sunday.”
“Are you!” exclaimed Philip.
Hayward was the last person he would
have expected to do anything of the kind. At
the hospital men were going out now in numbers; the
Government was glad to get anyone who was qualified;
and others, going out as troopers, wrote home that
they had been put on hospital work as soon as it was
learned that they were medical students. A wave
of patriotic feeling had swept over the country, and
volunteers were coming from all ranks of society.
“What are you going as?” asked Philip.
“Oh, in the Dorset Yeomanry. I’m
going as a trooper.”
Philip had known Hayward for eight
years. The youthful intimacy which had come from
Philip’s enthusiastic admiration for the man
who could tell him of art and literature had long
since vanished; but habit had taken its place; and
when Hayward was in London they saw one another once
or twice a week. He still talked about books
with a delicate appreciation. Philip was not
yet tolerant, and sometimes Hayward’s conversation
irritated him. He no longer believed implicitly
that nothing in the world was of consequence but art.
He resented Hayward’s contempt for action and
success. Philip, stirring his punch, thought of
his early friendship and his ardent expectation that
Hayward would do great things; it was long since he
had lost all such illusions, and he knew now that Hayward
would never do anything but talk. He found his
three hundred a year more difficult to live on now
that he was thirty-five than he had when he was a
young man; and his clothes, though still made by a
good tailor, were worn a good deal longer than at
one time he would have thought possible. He was
too stout and no artful arrangement of his fair hair
could conceal the fact that he was bald. His
blue eyes were dull and pale. It was not hard
to guess that he drank too much.
“What on earth made you think of going out to
the Cape?” asked Philip.
“Oh, I don’t know, I thought I ought to.”
Philip was silent. He felt rather
silly. He understood that Hayward was being driven
by an uneasiness in his soul which he could not account
for. Some power within him made it seem necessary
to go and fight for his country. It was strange,
since he considered patriotism no more than a prejudice,
and, flattering himself on his cosmopolitanism, he
had looked upon England as a place of exile.
His countrymen in the mass wounded his susceptibilities.
Philip wondered what it was that made people do things
which were so contrary to all their theories of life.
It would have been reasonable for Hayward to stand
aside and watch with a smile while the barbarians
slaughtered one another. It looked as though men
were puppets in the hands of an unknown force, which
drove them to do this and that; and sometimes they
used their reason to justify their actions; and when
this was impossible they did the actions in despite
of reason.
“People are very extraordinary,”
said Philip. “I should never have expected
you to go out as a trooper.”
Hayward smiled, slightly embarrassed, and said nothing.
“I was examined yesterday,”
he remarked at last. “It was worth while
undergoing the gene of it to know that one was perfectly
fit.”
Philip noticed that he still used
a French word in an affected way when an English one
would have served. But just then Macalister came
in.
“I wanted to see you, Carey,”
he said. “My people don’t feel inclined
to hold those shares any more, the market’s
in such an awful state, and they want you to take
them up.”
Philip’s heart sank. He
knew that was impossible. It meant that he must
accept the loss. His pride made him answer calmly.
“I don’t know that I think
that’s worth while. You’d better sell
them.”
“It’s all very fine to
say that, I’m not sure if I can. The market’s
stagnant, there are no buyers.”
“But they’re marked down at one and an
eighth.”
“Oh yes, but that doesn’t mean anything.
You can’t get that for them.”
Philip did not say anything for a
moment. He was trying to collect himself.
“D’you mean to say they’re worth
nothing at all?”
“Oh, I don’t say that.
Of course they’re worth something, but you see,
nobody’s buying them now.”
“Then you must just sell them for what you can
get.”
Macalister looked at Philip narrowly.
He wondered whether he was very hard hit.
“I’m awfully sorry, old
man, but we’re all in the same boat. No
one thought the war was going to hang on this way.
I put you into them, but I was in myself too.”
“It doesn’t matter at
all,” said Philip. “One has to take
one’s chance.”
He moved back to the table from which
he had got up to talk to Macalister. He was dumfounded;
his head suddenly began to ache furiously; but he did
not want them to think him unmanly. He sat on
for an hour. He laughed feverishly at everything
they said. At last he got up to go.
“You take it pretty coolly,”
said Macalister, shaking hands with him. “I
don’t suppose anyone likes losing between three
and four hundred pounds.”
When Philip got back to his shabby
little room he flung himself on his bed, and gave
himself over to his despair. He kept on regretting
his folly bitterly; and though he told himself that
it was absurd to regret for what had happened was
inevitable just because it had happened, he could not
help himself. He was utterly miserable. He
could not sleep. He remembered all the ways he
had wasted money during the last few years. His
head ached dreadfully.
The following evening there came by
the last post the statement of his account. He
examined his pass-book. He found that when he
had paid everything he would have seven pounds left.
Seven pounds! He was thankful he had been able
to pay. It would have been horrible to be obliged
to confess to Macalister that he had not the money.
He was dressing in the eye-department during the summer
session, and he had bought an ophthalmoscope off a
student who had one to sell. He had not paid for
this, but he lacked the courage to tell the student
that he wanted to go back on his bargain. Also
he had to buy certain books. He had about five
pounds to go on with. It lasted him six weeks;
then he wrote to his uncle a letter which he thought
very business-like; he said that owing to the war
he had had grave losses and could not go on with his
studies unless his uncle came to his help. He
suggested that the Vicar should lend him a hundred
and fifty pounds paid over the next eighteen months
in monthly instalments; he would pay interest on this
and promised to refund the capital by degrees when
he began to earn money. He would be qualified
in a year and a half at the latest, and he could be
pretty sure then of getting an assistantship at three
pounds a week. His uncle wrote back that he could
do nothing. It was not fair to ask him to sell
out when everything was at its worst, and the little
he had he felt that his duty to himself made it necessary
for him to keep in case of illness. He ended
the letter with a little homily. He had warned
Philip time after time, and Philip had never paid
any attention to him; he could not honestly say he
was surprised; he had long expected that this would
be the end of Philip’s extravagance and want
of balance. Philip grew hot and cold when he read
this. It had never occurred to him that his uncle
would refuse, and he burst into furious anger; but
this was succeeded by utter blankness: if his
uncle would not help him he could not go on at the
hospital. Panic seized him and, putting aside
his pride, he wrote again to the Vicar of Blackstable,
placing the case before him more urgently; but perhaps
he did not explain himself properly and his uncle
did not realise in what desperate straits he was,
for he answered that he could not change his mind;
Philip was twenty-five and really ought to be earning
his living. When he died Philip would come into
a little, but till then he refused to give him a penny.
Philip felt in the letter the satisfaction of a man
who for many years had disapproved of his courses
and now saw himself justified.