The White Mulberry Tree - CHAPTER VII
When Frank Shabata got home that night,
he found Emil’s mare in his stable. Such
an impertinence amazed him. Like everybody else,
Frank had had an exciting day. Since noon he had
been drinking too much, and he was in a bad temper.
He talked bitterly to himself while he put his own
horse away, and as he went up the path and saw that
the house was dark he felt an added sense of injury.
He approached quietly and listened on the doorstep.
Hearing nothing, he opened the kitchen door and went
softly from one room to another. Then he went
through the house again, upstairs and down, with no
better result. He sat down on the bottom step
of the box stairway and tried to get his wits together.
In that unnatural quiet there was no sound but his
own heavy breathing. Suddenly an owl began to
hoot out in the fields. Frank lifted his head.
An idea flashed into his mind, and his sense of injury
and outrage grew. He went into his bedroom and
took his murderous 405 Winchester from the closet.
When Frank took up his gun and walked
out of the house, he had not the faintest purpose
of doing anything with it. He did not believe
that he had any real grievance. But it gratified
him to feel like a desperate man. He had got
into the habit of seeing himself always in desperate
straits. His unhappy temperament was like a cage;
he could never get out of it; and he felt that other
people, his wife in particular, must have put him
there. It had never more than dimly occurred
to Frank that he made his own unhappiness. Though
he took up his gun with dark projects in his mind,
he would have been paralyzed with fright had he known
that there was the slightest probability of his ever
carrying any of them out.
Frank went slowly down to the orchard
gate, stopped and stood for a moment lost in thought.
He retraced his steps and looked through the barn
and the hayloft. Then he went out to the road,
where he took the foot-path along the outside of the
orchard hedge. The hedge was twice as tall as
Frank himself, and so dense that one could see through
it only by peering closely between the leaves.
He could see the empty path a long way in the moonlight.
His mind traveled ahead to the stile, which he always
thought of as haunted by Emil Bergson. But why
had he left his horse?
At the wheatfield corner, where the
orchard hedge ended and the path led across the pasture
to the Bergsons’, Frank stopped. In the
warm, breathless night air he heard a murmuring sound,
perfectly inarticulate, as low as the sound of water
coming from a spring, where there is no fall, and
where there are no stones to fret it. Frank strained
his ears. It ceased. He held his breath and
began to tremble. Resting the butt of his gun
on the ground, he parted the mulberry leaves softly
with his fingers and peered through the hedge at the
dark figures on the grass, in the shadow of the mulberry
tree. It seemed to him that they must feel his
eyes, that they must hear him breathing. But
they did not. Frank, who had always wanted to
see things blacker than they were, for once wanted
to believe less than he saw. The woman lying in
the shadow might so easily be one of the Bergsons’
farm-girls.... Again the murmur, like water welling
out of the ground. This time he heard it more
distinctly, and his blood was quicker than his brain.
He began to act, just as a man who falls into the fire
begins to act. The gun sprang to his shoulder,
he sighted mechanically and fired three times without
stopping, stopped without knowing why. Either
he shut his eyes or he had vertigo. He did not
see anything while he was firing. He thought
he heard a cry simultaneous with the second report,
but he was not sure. He peered again through
the hedge, at the two dark figures under the tree.
They had fallen a little apart from each other, and
were perfectly still No, not quite; in
a white patch of light, where the moon shone through
the branches, a man’s hand was plucking spasmodically
at the grass.
Suddenly the woman stirred and uttered
a cry, then another, and another. She was living!
She was dragging herself toward the hedge! Frank
dropped his gun and ran back along the path, shaking,
stumbling, gasping. He had never imagined such
horror. The cries followed him. They grew
fainter and thicker, as if she were choking.
He dropped on his knees beside the hedge and crouched
like a rabbit, listening; fainter, fainter; a sound
like a whine; again a moan another silence.
Frank scrambled to his feet and ran on, groaning and
praying. From habit he went toward the house,
where he was used to being soothed when he had worked
himself into a frenzy, but at the sight of the black,
open door, he started back. He knew that he had
murdered somebody, that a woman was bleeding and moaning
in the orchard, but he had not realized before that
it was his wife. The gate stared him in the face.
He threw his hands over his head. Which way to
turn? He lifted his tormented face and looked
at the sky. “Holy Mother of God, not to
suffer! She was a good girl not to
suffer!”
Frank had been wont to see himself
in dramatic situations; but now, when he stood by
the windmill, in the bright space between the barn
and the house, facing his own black doorway, he did
not see himself at all. He stood like the hare
when the dogs are approaching from all sides.
And he ran like a hare, back and forth about that
moonlit space, before he could make up his mind to
go into the dark stable for a horse. The thought
of going into a doorway was terrible to him.
He caught Emil’s horse by the bit and led it
out. He could not have buckled a bridle on his
own. After two or three attempts, he lifted himself
into the saddle and started for Hanover. If he
could catch the one o’clock train, he had money
enough to get as far as Omaha.
While he was thinking dully of this
in some less sensitized part of his brain, his acuter
faculties were going over and over the cries he had
heard in the orchard. Terror was the only thing
that kept him from going back to her, terror that
she might still be she, that she might still be suffering.
A woman, mutilated and bleeding in his orchard it
was because it was a woman that he was so afraid.
It was inconceivable that he should have hurt a woman.
He would rather be eaten by wild beasts than see her
move on the ground as she had moved in the orchard.
Why had she been so careless? She knew he was
like a crazy man when he was angry. She had more
than once taken that gun away from him and held it,
when he was angry with other people. Once it had
gone off while they were struggling over it.
She was never afraid. But, when she knew him,
why hadn’t she been more careful? Didn’t
she have all summer before her to love Emil Bergson
in, without taking such chances? Probably she
had met the Smirka boy, too, down there in the orchard.
He didn’t care. She could have met all the
men on the Divide there, and welcome, if only she
hadn’t brought this horror on him.
There was a wrench in Frank’s
mind. He did not honestly believe that of her.
He knew that he was doing her wrong. He stopped
his horse to admit this to himself the more directly,
to think it out the more clearly. He knew that
he was to blame. For three years he had been
trying to break her spirit. She had a way of making
the best of things that seemed to him a sentimental
affectation. He wanted his wife to resent that
he was wasting his best years among these stupid and
unappreciative people; but she had seemed to find the
people quite good enough. If he ever got rich
he meant to buy her pretty clothes and take her to
California in a Pullman car, and treat her like a
lady; but in the mean time he wanted her to feel that
life was as ugly and as unjust as he felt it.
He had tried to make her life ugly. He had refused
to share any of the little pleasures she was so plucky
about making for herself. She could be gay about
the least thing in the world; but she must be gay!
When she first came to him, her faith in him, her
adoration Frank struck the mare with his
fist. Why had Marie made him do this thing; why
had she brought this upon him? He was overwhelmed
by sickening misfortune. All at once he heard
her cries again he had forgotten for a moment.
“Maria,” he sobbed aloud, “Maria!”
When Frank was halfway to Hanover,
the motion of his horse brought on a violent attack
of nausea. After it had passed, he rode on again,
but he could think of nothing except his physical weakness
and his desire to be comforted by his wife. He
wanted to get into his own bed. Had his wife
been at home, he would have turned and gone back to
her meekly enough.