PART IV. THE ANCIENT PEOPLE I
The San Francisco Mountain lies
in Northern Arizona, above Flagstaff, and its blue
slopes and snowy summit entice the eye for a hundred
miles across the desert. About its base lie the
pine forests of the Navajos, where the great
red-trunked trees live out their peaceful centuries
in that sparkling air. The Piñóns and scrub
begin only where the forest ends, where the country
breaks into open, stony clearings and the surface
of the earth cracks into deep canyons. The great
pines stand at a considerable distance from each other.
Each tree grows alone, murmurs alone, thinks alone.
They do not intrude upon each other. The Navajos
are not much in the habit of giving or of asking help.
Their language is not a communicative one, and they
never attempt an interchange of personality in speech.
Over their forests there is the same inexorable reserve.
Each tree has its exalted power to bear.
That was the first thing Thea Kronborg
felt about the forest, as she drove through it one
May morning in Henry Biltmer’s democrat wagon and
it was the first great forest she had ever seen.
She had got off the train at Flagstaff that morning,
rolled off into the high, chill air when all the pines
on the mountain were fired by sunrise, so that she
seemed to fall from sleep directly into the forest.
Old Biltmer followed a faint wagon
trail which ran southeast, and which, as they traveled,
continually dipped lower, falling away from the high
plateau on the slope of which Flagstaff sits.
The white peak of the mountain, the snow gorges above
the timber, now disappeared from time to time as the
road dropped and dropped, and the forest closed behind
the wagon. More than the mountain disappeared
as the forest closed thus. Thea seemed to be
taking very little through the wood with her.
The personality of which she was so tired seemed to
let go of her. The high, sparkling air drank
it up like blotting-paper. It was lost in the
thrilling blue of the new sky and the song of the thin
wind in the Piñóns. The old, fretted lines
which marked one off, which defined her, made
her Thea Kronborg, Bowers’s accompanist, a soprano
with a faulty middle voice, were all erased.
So far she had failed. Her two
years in Chicago had not resulted in anything.
She had failed with Harsanyi, and she had made no great
progress with her voice. She had come to believe
that whatever Bowers had taught her was of secondary
importance, and that in the essential things she had
made no advance. Her student life closed behind
her, like the forest, and she doubted whether she
could go back to it if she tried. Probably she
would teach music in little country towns all her
life. Failure was not so tragic as she would have
supposed; she was tired enough not to care.
She was getting back to the earliest
sources of gladness that she could remember.
She had loved the sun, and the brilliant solitudes
of sand and sun, long before these other things had
come along to fasten themselves upon her and torment
her. That night, when she clambered into her big
German feather bed, she felt completely released from
the enslaving desire to get on in the world.
Darkness had once again the sweet wonder that it had
in childhood.