PART IV. THE ANCIENT PEOPLE III
The faculty of observation was
never highly developed in Thea Kronborg. A great
deal escaped her eye as she passed through the world.
But the things which were for her, she saw; she experienced
them physically and remembered them as if they had
once been a part of herself. The roses she used
to see in the florists’ shops in Chicago were
merely roses. But when she thought of the moonflowers
that grew over Mrs. Tellamantez’s door, it was
as if she had been that vine and had opened up in white
flowers every night. There were memories of light
on the sand hills, of masses of prickly-pear blossoms
she had found in the desert in early childhood, of
the late afternoon sun pouring through the grape leaves
and the mint bed in Mrs. Kohler’s garden, which
she would never lose. These recollections were
a part of her mind and personality. In Chicago
she had got almost nothing that went into her subconscious
self and took root there. But here, in Panther
Canyon, there were again things which seemed destined
for her.
Panther Canyon was the home of innumerable
swallows. They built nests in the wall far above
the hollow groove in which Thea’s own rock chamber
lay. They seldom ventured above the rim of the
canyon, to the flat, wind-swept tableland. Their
world was the blue air-river between the canyon walls.
In that blue gulf the arrow-shaped birds swam all day
long, with only an occasional movement of the wings.
The only sad thing about them was their timidity;
the way in which they lived their lives between the
echoing cliffs and never dared to rise out of the shadow
of the canyon walls. As they swam past her door,
Thea often felt how easy it would be to dream one’s
life out in some cleft in the world.
From the ancient dwelling there came
always a dignified, unobtrusive sadness; now stronger,
now fainter, like the aromatic smell which
the dwarf cedars gave out in the sun, but
always present, a part of the air one breathed.
At night, when Thea dreamed about the canyon, or
in the early morning when she hurried toward it, anticipating
it, her conception of it was of yellow
rocks baking in sunlight, the swallows, the cedar
smell, and that peculiar sadness a voice
out of the past, not very loud, that went on saying
a few simple things to the solitude eternally.
Standing up in her lodge, Thea could
with her thumb nail dislodge flakes of carbon from
the rock roof the cooking-smoke of the Ancient
People. They were that near! A timid, nest-building
folk, like the swallows. How often Thea remembered
Ray Kennedy’s moralizing about the cliff cities.
He used to say that he never felt the hardness of the
human struggle or the sadness of history as he felt
it among those ruins. He used to say, too, that
it made one feel an obligation to do one’s best.
On the first day that Thea climbed the water trail
she began to have intuitions about the women who had
worn the path, and who had spent so great a part of
their lives going up and down it. She found herself
trying to walk as they must have walked, with a feeling
in her feet and knees and loins which she had never
known before, which must have come up to
her out of the accustomed dust of that rocky trail.
She could feel the weight of an Indian baby hanging
to her back as she climbed.
The empty houses, among which she
wandered in the afternoon, the blanketed one in which
she lay all morning, were haunted by certain fears
and desires; feelings about warmth and cold and water
and physical strength. It seemed to Thea that
a certain understanding of those old people came up
to her out of the rock shelf on which she lay; that
certain feelings were transmitted to her, suggestions
that were simple, insistent, and monotonous, like
the beating of Indian drums. They were not expressible
in words, but seemed rather to translate themselves
into attitudes of body, into degrees of muscular tension
or relaxation; the naked strength of youth, sharp
as the sunshafts; the crouching timorousness of age,
the sullenness of women who waited for their captors.
At the first turning of the canyon there was a half-ruined
tower of yellow masonry, a watch-tower upon which the
young men used to entice eagles and snare them with
nets. Sometimes for a whole morning Thea could
see the coppery breast and shoulders of an Indian youth
there against the sky; see him throw the net, and
watch the struggle with the eagle.
Old Henry Biltmer, at the ranch, had
been a great deal among the Pueblo Indians who are
the descendants of the Cliff-Dwellers. After supper
he used to sit and smoke his pipe by the kitchen stove
and talk to Thea about them. He had never found
any one before who was interested in his ruins.
Every Sunday the old man prowled about in the canyon,
and he had come to know a good deal more about it
than he could account for. He had gathered up
a whole chestful of Cliff-Dweller relics which he meant
to take back to Germany with him some day. He
taught Thea how to find things among the ruins:
grinding-stones, and drills and needles made of turkey-bones.
There were fragments of pottery everywhere. Old
Henry explained to her that the Ancient People had
developed masonry and pottery far beyond any other
crafts. After they had made houses for themselves,
the next thing was to house the precious water.
He explained to her how all their customs and ceremonies
and their religion went back to water. The men
provided the food, but water was the care of the women.
The stupid women carried water for most of their lives;
the cleverer ones made the vessels to hold it.
Their pottery was their most direct appeal to water,
the envelope and sheath of the precious element itself.
The strongest Indian need was expressed in those graceful
jars, fashioned slowly by hand, without the aid of
a wheel.
When Thea took her bath at the bottom
of the canyon, in the sunny pool behind the screen
of cottonwoods, she sometimes felt as if the water
must have sovereign qualities, from having been the
object of so much service and desire. That stream
was the only living thing left of the drama that had
been played out in the canyon centuries ago. In
the rapid, restless heart of it, flowing swifter than
the rest, there was a continuity of life that reached
back into the old time. The glittering thread
of current had a kind of lightly worn, loosely knit
personality, graceful and laughing. Thea’s
bath came to have a ceremonial gravity. The atmosphere
of the canyon was ritualistic.
One morning, as she was standing upright
in the pool, splashing water between her shoulder-blades
with a big sponge, something flashed through her mind
that made her draw herself up and stand still until
the water had quite dried upon her flushed skin.
The stream and the broken pottery: what was any
art but an effort to make a sheath, a mould in which
to imprison for a moment the shining, elusive element
which is life itself, life hurrying past
us and running away, too strong to stop, too sweet
to lose? The Indian women had held it in their
jars. In the sculpture she had seen in the Art
Institute, it had been caught in a flash of arrested
motion. In singing, one made a vessel of one’s
throat and nostrils and held it on one’s breath,
caught the stream in a scale of natural intervals.