The next morning Adeline came early
to her sister’s bed, and woke her. “I
haven’t slept all night — I don’t
see how you could — and I want you
shouldn’t let Mr. Putney send that letter to
Mr. Hilary, just yet. I want to think it over,
first.”
“You want to break your promise?”
asked Suzette, wide awake at the first word.
Adeline began to cry. “I
want to think. It seems such a dreadful thing
to sell the place. And why need you hurry to send
off a letter to Mr. Hilary about it? Won’t
it be time enough, when Mr. Putney has the writings
ready? I think it will look very silly to send
word beforehand. I could see that Mr. Putney
didn’t think it was business-like.”
“You want to break your promise?” Suzette
repeated.
“No, I don’t want
to break my promise. But I do want to do what’s
right; and I want to do what I think is right.
I’m almost sick. I want Elbridge should
stop for the doctor on his way to Mr. Putney’s.”
She broke into a convulsive sobbing. “Oh,
Suzette! Do give me a little more time!
Won’t you? And as soon as I can see it as
you do — ”
They heard the rattling of a key in
the back door of the cottage, and they knew it was
Elbridge coming to make the fire in the kitchen stove,
as he always did against the time his wife should come
to get breakfast. Suzette started up from her
pillow, and pulled Adeline’s face down on her
neck, so as to smother the sound of her sobs.
“Hush! Don’t let him hear! And
I wouldn’t let any one know for the world that
we didn’t agree! You can think it over
all day, if you want; and I’ll stop Mr. Putney
from writing till you think as I do. But
be still, now!”
“Yes, yes! I will,”
Adeline whispered back. “And I won’t
quarrel with you, Sue! I know we shall think
alike in the end. Only, don’t hurry me!
And let Elbridge get the doctor to come. I’m
afraid I’m going to be down sick.”
She crept sighing back to bed, and
after a little while, Suzette came, dressed, to look
after her. “I think I’m going to get
a little sleep, now,” she said. “But
don’t forget to stop Mr. Putney.”
Suzette went out into the thin, sweet
summer morning air, and walked up and down the avenue
between the lodge and the empty mansion. She had
not slept, either; it was from her first drowse that
Adeline had wakened her. But she was young, and
the breath of the cool, southwest wind was a bath
of rest to her fevered senses. She felt herself
grow stronger in it, and she tried to think what she
ought to do. If her purpose of the day before
still seemed so wholly and perfectly just, it seemed
very difficult; and she began to ask herself whether
she had a right to compel Adeline’s consent
to it. She felt the perplexities of the world
where good and evil are often so mixed that when the
problem passes from thoughts to deeds, the judgment
is darkened and the will palsied. Till now the
wrong had always appeared absolutely apart from the
right; for the first time she perceived that a great
right might involve a lesser wrong; and she was daunted.
But she meant to fight out her fight wholly within
herself before she spoke with Adeline again.
That day Matt Hilary came over from
his farm to see Wade, whom he found as before, in
his study at the church, and disposed to talk over
Northwick’s letter. “It’s a
miserable affair; humiliating; heart-sickening.
That poor soul’s juggle with his conscience is
a most pathetic spectacle. I can’t bring
myself to condemn him very fiercely. But while
others may make allowance for him, it’s ruinous
for him to excuse himself. That’s truly
perdition. Don’t you feel that?” Wade
asked.
“Yes, yes,” Matt assented,
with a kind of absence. “But there is something
else I wanted to speak with you about; and I suppose
it’s this letter that’s made it seem rather
urgent now. You know when I asked you once about
Jack Wilmington — ”
Wade shook his head. “There
isn’t the least hope in that direction.
I’m sure there isn’t. If he had cared
anything for the girl, he would have shown it long
ago!”
“I quite agree with you,”
said Matt, “and that isn’t what I mean.
But if it would have been right and well for him to
come forward at such a time, why shouldn’t some
other man, who does love her?” He hurried tremulously
on: “Wade, let me ask you one thing more!
You have seen her so much more than I; and I didn’t
know — Is it possible — Perhaps I
ought to ask if you are at all — if
you care for her?”
“For Miss Northwick? What
an idea? Not the least in the world! Why
do you ask?”
“Because I do!”
said Matt. “I care everything for her.
So much that when I thought of my love for her, I
could not bear that it should be a wrong to any living
soul or that it should be a shadow’s strength
between her and any possible preference. And I
came here with my mind made up that if you thought
Jack Wilmington had still some right to a hearing
from her, I would stand back. If there were any
hopes for him from himself or from her, I should be
a fool not to stand back. And I thought — I
thought that if you, old fellow — But now,
it’s all right — all right — ”
Matt wrung the hand which Wade yielded
him with a dazed air, at first. A great many
things went through Wade’s mind, which he silenced
on their way to his lips. It would not do to
impart to Matt the impressions of a cold and arrogant
nature which the girl had sometimes given him, and
which Matt could not have received in the times of
trouble and sorrow when he had chiefly seen her.
Matt’s confession was a shock; Wade was scarcely
less dismayed by the complications which it suggested;
but he could no more impart his misgivings than his
impressions; he could no more tell Matt that his father
would be embarrassed and compromised by his passion
than he could tell him that he did not think Sue Northwick
was worthy of it. He was in the helpless predicament
that confidants often find themselves in, but his
final perception of his impossibilities enabled him
to return the fervid pressure of Matt’s hand,
and even to utter some of those incoherencies which
serve the purpose when another wishes to do the talking.
“Of course,” said Matt,
“I’m ridiculous, I know that. I haven’t
got anything to found my hopes on but the fact that
there’s nothing in my way to the one insuperable
obstacle: to the fact that she doesn’t and
can’t really care a straw for me. But just
now that seems a mere bagatelle.” He laughed
with a nervous joy, and he kept talking, as he walked
up and down Wade’s study. “I don’t
know that I have the hope of anything; and I don’t
see how I’m to find out whether I have or not,
for the present. You know, Wade,” he went
on, with a simple-hearted sweetness, which Wade found
touching, “I’m twenty-eight years old,
and I don’t believe I’ve ever been in
love before. Little fancies, of course; summer
flirtations; every one has them; but never anything
serious, anything like this. And I could
see, at home, that they would be glad to have had
me married. I rather think my father believes
that a good sensible wife would bring me back to faith
in commercial civilization.” He laughed
out his relish of the notion, but went on, gravely:
“Poor father! This whole business has been
a terrible trial to him.”
Wade wondered at his ability to separate
the thought of Suzette from the thought of her father;
he inferred from his ability to do so that he must
have been thinking of her a great deal, but he asked,
“Isn’t it all rather sudden, Matt?”
Wade put on a sympathetic, yet diplomatic, smile for
the purpose of this question.
“Not for me!” said Matt.
He added, not very consequently, “I suppose it
must have happened to me the first moment I saw her
here that day Louise and I came up about the accident.
I couldn’t truly say that she had ever been
out of my mind a moment since. No, there’s
nothing sudden about it, though I don’t suppose
these things usually take a great deal of time,”
Matt ended, philosophically.
Wade left the dangerous ground he
found himself on. He asked, “And your family,
do they know of your — feeling?”
“Not in the least!” Matt
answered, radiantly. “It will come on them
like a thunder-clap! If it ever comes on them
at all,” he added, despondently.
Wade had his own belief that there
was no cause for despondency in the aspect of the
affair that Matt was looking at. But he could
not offer to share his security with Matt, who continued
to look serious, and said, presently, “I suppose
my father might think it complicated his relation
to the Northwicks’ trouble, and I have thought
that, too. It makes it very difficult. My
father is to be considered. You know, Wade, I
think there are very few men like my father?”
“There are none, Matt!” said Wade.
“I don’t mean he’s
perfect; and I think his ideas are wrong, most of
them. But his conduct is as right as the conduct
of any quick-tempered man ever was in the world.
I know him, and I don’t believe a son ever loved
his father more; and so I want to consider him all
I can.”
“Ah, I know that, my dear fellow!”
“But the question is, how far
can I consider him? There are times,” said
Matt, and he reddened, and laughed consciously, “when
it seems as if I couldn’t consider him at all;
the times when I have some faint hope that she will
listen to me, or won’t think me quite a brute
to speak to her of such a thing at such a moment.
Then there are other times when I think he ought to
be considered to the extreme of giving her up altogether;
but those are the times when I know that I shall never
have her to give up. Then it’s an
easy sacrifice.”
“I understand,” said Wade,
responding with a smile to Matt’s self-satire.
Matt went on, and as he talked he
sometimes walked to Wade’s window and looked
out, sometimes he stopped and confronted him across
his desk. “It’s cowardly, in a way,
not to speak at once — to leave her to suffer
it out to the end alone; but I think that’s what
I owe to my father. No real harm can come to
her from waiting. I risk the unfair chance I might
gain by speaking now when she sorely needs help; but
if ever she came to think she had given herself through
that need — No, it wouldn’t do!
My father can do more for her if he isn’t hampered
by my feeling, and Louise can be her friend — What
do you think, Wade? I’ve tried to puzzle
it out, and this is the conclusion I’ve come
to. Is it rather cold-blooded? I know it
isn’t at all like the lovemaking in the books.
I suppose I ought to go and fling myself at her feet,
in defiance of all the decencies and amenities and
obligations of life, but somehow I can’t bring
myself to do it. I’ve thought it all conscientiously
over, and I think I ought to wait.”
“I think so, too, Matt.
I think your decision is a just man’s, and it’s
a true lover’s, too. It does your heart
as much honor as your head,” and Wade gave him
his hand now, with no mental reservation.
“Do you really think so, Caryl?
That makes me very happy! I was afraid it might
look calculating and self-interested — ”
“You self-interested, Matt!”
“Oh, I know! But is it
considering my duty too much, my love too little?
If I love her, hasn’t she the first claim upon
me, before father and mother, brother and sister,
before all the world?”
“If you are sure she loves you, yes.”
Matt laughed. “Ah, that’s
true; I hadn’t thought of that little condition!
Perhaps it changes the whole situation. Well,
I must go, now. I’ve just run over from
the farm to see you — ”
“I inferred that from your peasant
garb,” said Wade, with a smile at the rough
farm suit Matt had on: his face refined it and
made it look mildly improbable. “Besides,”
said Wade, as if the notion he recurred to were immediately
relevant to Matt’s dress, “unless you are
perfectly sure of yourself beyond any chance of change,
you owe it to her as well as yourself, to take time
before speaking.”
“I am perfectly sure, and I
shall never change,” said Matt, with a shade
of displeasure at the suggestion. “If there
were nothing but that I should not take a moment of
time.” He relented and smiled again, in
adding, “But I have decided now, and I shall
wait. And I’m very much obliged to you,
old fellow, for talking the matter over with me, and
helping me to see it in the right light.”
“Oh, my dear Matt!” said Wade, in deprecation.
“Yes. And oh, by the way!
I’ve got hold of a young fellow that I think
you could do something for, Wade. Do you happen
to remember the article on the defalcation in the
Boston Abstract?”
“Yes, I do remember that.
Didn’t it treat the matter, if I recall it,
very humanely — too humanely, perhaps?”
“Perhaps, from one point of
view, too humanely. Well, it’s the writer
of that article — a young fellow, not twenty-five,
yet as completely at odds with life as any one I ever
saw. He has a great deal of talent, and no health
or money; so he’s toiling feebly for a living
on a daily newspaper, instead of making literature.
He was a reporter up to the time he wrote that article,
but the managing editor is a man who recognizes quality;
he’s fond of Maxwell — that’s
the fellow’s name — and since then
he’s given him a chance in the office, at social
topics. But he hasn’t done very well; the
fact is, the boy’s too literary, and he’s
out of health, and he needs rest and the comfort of
appreciative friendship. I want you to meet him.
I’ve got him up at my place out of the east
winds. You’ll be interested in him as a
type — the artistic type cynicised by the
hard conditions of life — newspaper conditions,
and then economic conditions.”
Matt smiled with satisfaction in what
he felt to be his very successful formulation of Maxwell.
Wade said he should be very glad to
meet him; and if he could be of any use to him he
should be even more glad. But his mind was still
upon Matt’s love affair, and as they wrung each
other’s hands, once more he said, “I think
you’ve decided so wisely, Matt; and justly
and unselfishly.”
“It’s involuntary unselfishness,
if it’s unselfishness at all,” said Matt.
He did not go; Wade stood bareheaded with him at the
outer door of his study. After awhile he said
with embarrassment, “Wade! Do you think
it would seem unfeeling — or out of taste,
at all — if I went to see her at such a time?”
“Why, I can’t imagine
your doing anything out of taste, Matt.”
“Don’t be so smooth, Caryl!
You know what I mean. Louise sent some messages
by me to her. Will you take them, or — ”
“I certainly see no reason why
you shouldn’t deliver Miss Hilary’s messages
yourself.”
“Well, I do,” said Matt. “But
you needn’t be afraid.”