Beatrix’s principles extended
even to the point of observing her day at home.
Society was bidden, the next afternoon, to a tea at
Mrs. Stanley’s, and Beatrix was absolutely certain
that none of her friends would cross the intervening
forty blocks in order to look in upon her, going or
coming. In her secret heart, she longed to follow
society; instead, she was sitting in solitude, when
Thayer was announced.
She rose to greet him with a cordial
friendliness, for the past six months had made a great
change in their outward relations. They had liked
each other from the day of Mrs. Stanley’s recital,
and the liking had increased with each subsequent
meeting. During the next few weeks, they had
met often. Lorimer insisted upon going to every
recital at which Thayer was to sing, and under his
guidance Beatrix had gained a fair idea of what went
on behind the scenes. Thayer, meanwhile, had
swiftly assumed his own place in society, and discerning
hostesses generally found it well to put him near
to Beatrix at dinner. Owing to his many evening
engagements, Thayer usually ate but sparingly, so it
was all the more necessary that he should be placed
within range of someone with whom he cared to talk.
He rarely lent himself to the usual run of social
badinage; but retired into his shell whenever it became
the dominant note of the conversation. A man of
his bulk and prominence and potential boredom was
an object of hospitable consideration. He could
always talk to Beatrix, for she never chattered.
Therefore he was generally to be found somewhere within
the conversational radius of Beatrix Dane.
The tea table of Beatrix, moreover,
had become one of the focal points of his New York
life. He liked the cheery, informal atmosphere
of the house whose old-fashioned austerity was tempered
with a dash of modern frivolity; he liked the people
he met there, people too assured of their own social
position to be touchy upon slight points of social
precedence. Most of all, he liked Beatrix Dane,
herself. In the gay, chattering multitude among
whom she moved, her own steadfast quietness stood
out in bold relief, and it answered to certain traits
of his own Puritanism. It was not that she was
dull, or overfreighted with conscience. She frisked
with the others of her kind; but her friskiness was
intermittent and never frivolous. To Beatrix Dane,
pleasure was an interlude, never the sole end and
aim of life. And, on her own side, Beatrix felt
a thorough admiration for the clean-minded, clean-bodied
singer, a thorough reliance upon his judgment and upon
his loyalty to anyone to whom he vouchsafed his friendship.
This had been the relation between
them, on the evening of the concert for the Fresh
Air Fund, a relation whose cordial matter-of-factness
was in no way disturbed by the potent spell of Thayer’s
voice. Beatrix had spent much of her life in
the open air; she was too healthy to be given to self-analysis.
She admitted to herself the wonderful power of Thayer’s
voice, the passionate appeal of certain of his songs;
but she made a curiously sharp distinction between
the man and the voice. The one might be a strong
guiding force in the current of her life; the other
was a rising tide that swept her from her moorings
and left her drifting to and fro over stormy seas.
On the night of the Fresh Air Fund concert, for the
first time in her experience, these two personalities
had become inextricably intermingled. As she had
said, she had never before realized the possibilities
of either Thayer or his voice.
Everything had conspired to produce
the impression. All day long, she had been haunted
by a nervous, nameless dread. The vague hints
and signs of the past months had suddenly gathered
to a nucleus of anxiety and alarm, and, in spite of
her rigid self-control, she had been terrified into
giving the one outcry, partly to satisfy her feminine
need for sympathy, partly with the hope of putting
Lorimer upon his guard. The sympathy had come,
prompt and loving; the warning had been utterly ignored.
Music ought to be taken with fasting
and prayer. Quiet nerves and a full stomach are
deaf to its deepest meaning. To most of the audience,
Honor and Arms stood as a superb piece of vocal
gymnastics; to Beatrix, Thayer was like a live wire,
pulsing with a virile scorn of any but uneven contests,
defiant only of those mightier than himself. To
her mind, he was ready to court heavy odds, bound
to conquer them, one and all; and her own pulses beat
faster in time to the half-barbarous outburst which
ends the great aria. The Gade concerto, instead
of soothing her, had only exasperated her. She
longed to get behind the violinist and the orchestra
and even the composer himself, and goad them into
some tenseness of emotion. But the Slavonic Dance
had set her heart bounding once more, until her very
finger tips tingled with the blood racing through
them, and the clashing cymbals had seemed scarcely
louder than the ringing of her own ears. The rest
had been only the natural sequel; Danny and
Arlt’s failure had led inevitably up to the
finale when Thayer’s eyes, burning with that
new, strange light, had held her own eyes captive
while he had sounded the tragic note which dominates
all human love.
And the finale had not been final,
after all. She had had a vague presentiment that
the cross might be at the end; she had been totally
unprepared to find it pressed to her lips, that selfsame
night.
With a swift excuse, Thayer had hurried
her back into the music-room; but he had not been
able to prevent that one instant when Beatrix had
found herself face to face with a Lorimer she had never
known till then. Though her eyes had betrayed
her horror of the scene, she had kept her voice steady
as she asked Thayer to call her carriage and to say
her farewells to her hostess.
Thayer went with her to her own door.
Neither of them spoke until they stood on the steps;
then Thayer cleared his throat, but even then his
voice was husky.
“It may not be as bad as you
think, Miss Dane,” he said slowly.
As if with a physical effort, she raised her eyes
to his.
“Perhaps not,” she assented; “but
I can think of nothing worse.”
It took Thayer two weeks to gather
together his courage to see her again. He too
had been shaken by the events of the evening.
His Slav blood, kindled by the Dvorak dance, fired
by his anger for Arlt, had blazed up into a fury of
scorn and hatred against the man who would so allow
his own weakness to stab another’s strength.
Lorimer, in Bobby Dane’s cab and under the lash
of Bobby’s energetic tongue, was out of Thayer’s
way; but, as Thayer stood looking down at the face,
whiter than the fluffy white fur of her cloak, he
had felt a momentary longing to take Beatrix into
his arms and, holding her there, to protect her from
Lorimer and from the danger that was threatening her
whole happiness. The moment passed and with it
the longing; but, unknown to himself, it had done
its work. It had broken out the beginning of a
new channel; it had prepared the way for a new trend
of thought.
Bobby Dane told him what had actually
passed between himself and Lorimer on the way home,
what had probably occurred, the next day, between
Lorimer and Beatrix. Thayer waited before calling
until he hoped the memory of what had passed was so
remote that neither he nor Beatrix would think of
it again. Nevertheless, though Beatrix was surrounded
by callers and upon her guard, the eyes of both drooped
before the sudden consciousness of having faced a
crisis side by side.
According to their annual custom,
the Danes went to their cottage at Monomoy, the first
of July, and Lorimer took up his quarters at the hotel,
less than a mile away. Two weeks later, Thayer
and Arlt joined him there. Lorimer had been urgent
for Thayer’s coming, and Thayer, upon thinking
the matter over, could see no valid reason for refusal.
Miss Gannion was on the way to Alaska, that summer,
and, next to her, the Danes were the closest friends
he had made during his first season in New York.
It was only natural that he should arrange his plans
in order to be near them. Moreover, the idle
life on the island sounded attractive, and he was
fully aware of the fact that his constant companionship
would be a strong hold upon Lorimer. All in all,
he decided to go.
He took Arlt with him, on the plea
of requiring an accompanist for the new songs he was
studying. The boy needed the change. The
stress of New York life was wearing upon him; the
consciousness of comparative failure had disheartened
him. He needed the tonic of sea air and of idleness
and of contact with inartistic, care-free humanity.
Furthermore, Thayer felt that he himself might need
the tonic of the simple-hearted affection of the young
German. The world about him was too complex.
There were days when the most conventional of incidents
seemed weighted with a hidden meaning, burdened with
a consciousness of their own future import.
The summer days passed swiftly and
with a certain monotony. During the mornings
while Thayer was practising, Lorimer and Beatrix idled
away the hours together. Later in the day, Thayer
always appeared at Monomoy, sometimes with Lorimer,
sometimes alone. Occasionally Beatrix forsook
them both, and went off for long walks with Arlt or
floated lazily about the harbor with him, leaving
her mother to entertain the young men with garrulous
recollections of her own childhood.
One subject was forever sealed between
Beatrix and Thayer, to one evening’s events
they neither of them ever alluded. Now and then,
at some careless turn of the conversation, one or
the other of them would stealthily raise his eyes
to find the other furtively watching him; and their
eyes would drop apart again swiftly. It was obvious
to Thayer that Beatrix was carrying a heavy care,
that summer. If Lorimer were tardy in appearing,
she was absent and restless; if he came upon her suddenly,
she started; if he talked or laughed more than usual,
she invented an excuse to take him away from the group,
apart from the general conversation. Occasionally,
it was evident to Thayer that she was trying to take
him, himself, off his guard, seeking to make him betray
himself, in case he was sharing in her watchfulness.
Upon such occasions, Thayer’s mental armor became
as impenetrable as a corselet of steel. If he
were keeping guard over Lorimer, amusing him and circumventing
him in a thousand different ways, it was not only
for Lorimer’s sake, but for that of Beatrix
as well, and it was imperative that Beatrix should
never know. The day had passed forever when he
could look into Miss Gannion’s clear eyes and
declare with perfect truthfulness that Beatrix was
nothing in the world to him. He admitted this
to himself; he also admitted that there are an infinite
number of gradations between the opposite poles, nothing
and something. There was no especial need of
deciding which one of them marked his present status.
This Monday afternoon was the first
time he had seen Beatrix since early September.
He had left the others at Monomoy and, in company with
Arlt, had gone back to the city to put himself in
training for some autumn festivals at which he had
been engaged to sing. By the time Beatrix was
back in town once more, he had started upon what was
destined to be a triumphal progress through New England.
To some men, the mere professional success would have
been enough in itself; but Thayer was of too large
calibre to find a steady diet of applause and adjectives,
both in the superlative degree of comparison, either
a satisfactory or a stimulating meal. Often and
often, as he bowed across the footlights preparatory
to shouldering and lugging off his ponderous wreath
of laurels, he would have given all the evening’s
triumph for the sake of one quiet hour upon the Monomoy
beach.
The evening before had been the climax
of his empty successes. It had been Boston’s
first oratorio of the season, and the wreath had been
an unusually ponderous one. It had met him promptly
at the end of his first number, and it had impressed
him as a curious bit of irony, following as it did
upon the closing phrases of Spe modo Vivitur.
Were his crowns to be only the thornless, characterless
ones that went with his profession? He bowed
low, nevertheless, before the storm of applause, set
up his trophy against the steadiest of the music racks
of the second violins, and lost himself so completely
in wondering how Lorimer was holding out without him
that he went through his part in the quartette, three
numbers later, in perfect unconsciousness of the hostile
glances which the soprano had been casting at him
during the Est tibi Laurea. Her flowers
had been carnations, and only two dozen of them, at
that.
The next afternoon, Thayer found himself
in the familiar room, with Beatrix’s hand in
his own.
“Only ten weeks, measured by
time,” he answered her greeting; “but it
seems half a decade since we were killing time on the
beach at Monomoy.”
“Killing crabs, you would better
say,” she returned, with a smile. “I
think you and Sidney must have exterminated the race
for all time.”
“Can you destroy the future
for a race that habitually goes backwards?”
he questioned, with a boyish gayety which she had never
seen in him before. “How is Lorimer?”
No one else but Thayer would have
noted the slight hesitation that punctuated her reply.
“He is well.”
Thayer’s momentary gayety left him, and he glanced
at her sharply.
“And you?” he asked.
“I am always in rude health,
just now the better for having you invade my loneliness.
Do you still take only one lump?” Her tone was
perfectly noncommittal.
“Only one. How does it
happen that I have the good luck to find you alone?”
“Everybody is at Mrs. Stanley’s.
She has captured a new lion, and has bidden the world
to come and inspect her prey.”
Thayer laughed.
“What is he, this time?”
“Not he at all; it is a full-fledged
Japanese princess whose husband does lectures on some
sort of theosophy before all the universities.
Your lustre is totally eclipsed by this new comet.”
There was a short silence; then Beatrix added inconsequently,
“We all of us have been so delighted at your
success, Mr. Thayer.”
He did not take the trouble to discount the fact;
but merely asked,
“How did you know about it?”
“We have followed you in the
papers. Bobby had some, and I think Sidney must
have bought tons of them. He even talked of subscribing
to a clipping bureau. He has read them aloud
to us, every night; and we all have tried to act as
if it were nothing so very unusual to have one of
our friends winning laurels by the wholesale.”
“They were very concrete laurels,
too, Miss Dane,” he returned indifferently,
though his face had lighted at her eager accent.
“Some of the wreaths must have been four feet
across, and I invariably tripped over the ribbons,
when I carried them off the stage. I did wish
they would furnish a dray; garlands are horribly in
the way in a carriage.”
“And then what became of them?”
Thayer shrugged his shoulders.
“Ask the chambermaids along
the route. I don’t mean to be unappreciative;
but not even the most trusting of publics could expect
me to bear my trophies away in my arms, next morning.
I came to wish I could ship them back to the florist,
to be presented to some other baritone, the next night.”
“But you enjoyed the trip?”
“After a fashion. I enjoyed the summer
more, though.”
“There is a certain satisfaction
in dropping off the social harness now and then, and
we were comparatively primitive at Monomoy,”
she assented. “The whole summer would have
been worth while, just for the sake of seeing Mr.
Arlt enjoy it. Has he come back yet?”
“Yes, two days ago. The
trip has meant a good deal to him, and already he
is engaged for two festivals in the spring. I
am hoping that a taste of success will give him more
self-reliance. He needs it, if ever he is to
impose himself upon the dear public. Even the
critics are prone to take a man at his own valuation,
and one of the best American musicians is working
in a corner, to-day, because he finds it a good deal
more interesting to work towards future successes
than to exploit his past ones in the eyes of the world.”
Beatrix smiled, half in assent, half
in amusement at his sudden energy.
“Mr. Arlt will succeed in time;
he is only a boy yet. But, with genius and energy
and his real love for his art, there can be no doubt
of his future.”
“That is as fate may decree,” Thayer answered.
“Or Providence,” she corrected him.
He shook his head.
“Miss Dane, the more I know
of life, I am learning to write fate in capitals,
and to spell Providence with a little p.
Things are pretty well cut out for us.”
She glanced at him with sudden intentness.
“Then I hope the scissors are
sharp, and that Moira carries a steady hand.
We have to put up with our own indécisions; those
of other people are maddening.”
“Doesn’t that depend upon
what the decision finally proves to be?” he
asked.
Her eyes had gone back to the fire,
and her face was very grave.
“No; I would rather know where
I am going. Anything is better than drifting;
it is a comfort to look steadily forward to the best
or to the worst.” Suddenly she roused herself.
“Mr. Thayer, do you realize that it is two months
since I have heard you sing?”
He roused himself quite as suddenly.
In the slight pause which had broken her speech, he
had been making a swift, but futile effort to chart
the future. He knew that Lorimer was drifting
carelessly, thoughtlessly; he also knew that Beatrix
was allowing herself to drift idly in his wake.
And how about himself? And would they all make
the same port in the end? If not, where would
the diverging currents be waiting for them?
His brain was working intently; but
his voice was quite conventional, as he rose.
“I hoped you would ask me.
After a month or two of singing to strangers, I begin
to feel the need of something a little more personal.
Will you have the new songs, or the old?”
“The old, of course,” she answered unhesitatingly.
He improvised for a moment; then he began to sing,
“The hours I spent
with thee, dear heart,
Are as a string of pearls
to me.
I count them over one by ”
Abruptly he stopped singing and struck a dozen resonant
major chords.
“What a disgustingly sentimental
thing that is!” he said sharply. “After
our summer at Monomoy in the sea air, we need an atmosphere
of ozone, not of laughing gas.”
And he played the prelude of Die Beiden Grenadieren.