When Dick Kearney left his father,
he walked from the house, and not knowing or much
caring in what direction he went, turned into the garden.
It was a wild, neglected sort of spot,
with fruit-trees of great size, long past bearing,
and close underwood in places that barred the passage.
Here and there little patches of cultivation appeared,
sometimes flowering plants, but oftener vegetables.
One long alley, with tall hedges of box, had been
preserved, and led to a little mound planted with laurels
and arbutus, and known as ‘Laurel Hill’;
here a little rustic summer-house had once stood,
and still, though now in ruins, showed where, in former
days, people came to taste the fresh breeze above
the tree-tops, and enjoy the wide range of a view
that stretched to the Slieve-Bloom Mountains, nearly
thirty miles away.
Young Kearney reached this spot, and
sat down to gaze upon a scene every detail of which
was well known to him, but of which he was utterly
unconscious as he looked. ‘I am turned out
to starve,’ cried he aloud, as though there
was a sense of relief in thus proclaiming his sorrow
to the winds. ’I am told to go and work
upon the roads, to live by my daily labour. Treated
like a gentleman until I am bound to that condition
by every tie of feeling and kindred, and then bade
to know myself as an outcast. I have not even
Joe Atlee’s resource I have not imbibed
the instincts of the lower orders, so as to be able
to give them back to them in fiction or in song.
I cannot either idealise rebellion or make treason
tuneful.
’It is not yet a week since
that same Atlee envied me my station as the son and
heir to this place, and owned to me that there was
that in the sense of name and lineage that more than
balanced personal success, and here I am now, a beggar!
I can enlist, however, blessings on the noble career
that ignores character and defies capacity. I
don’t know that I’ll bring much loyalty
to Her Majesty’s cause, but I’ll lend her
the aid of as broad shoulders and tough sinews as
my neighbours.’ And here his voice grew
louder and harsher, and with a ring of defiance in
it. ’And no cutting off the entail, my
Lord Kilgobbin! no escape from that cruel necessity
of an heir! I may carry my musket in the ranks,
but I’ll not surrender my birthright!’
The thought that he had at length
determined on the path he should follow aroused his
courage and made his heart lighter; and then there
was that in the manner he was vindicating his station
and his claim that seemed to savour of heroism.
He began to fancy his comrades regarding him with a
certain deference, and treating him with a respect
that recognised his condition. ’I know
the shame my father will feel when he sees to what
he has driven me. What an offence to his love
of rank and station to behold his son in the coarse
uniform of a private! An only son and heir, too!
I can picture to myself his shock as he reads the
letter in which I shall say good-bye, and then turn
to tell my sister that her brother is a common soldier,
and in this way lost to her for ever!
’And what is it all about?
What terrible things have I done? What entanglements
have I contracted? Where have I forged? Whose
name have I stolen? whose daughter seduced? What
is laid to my charge, beyond that I have lived like
a gentleman, and striven to eat and drink and dress
like one? And I’ll wager my life that for
one who will blame him, there will be ten no,
not ten, fifty to condemn me. I had
a kind, trustful, affectionate father, restricting
himself in scores of ways to give me my education
among the highest class of my contemporaries.
I was largely supplied with means, indulged in every
way, and if I turned my steps towards home, welcomed
with love and affection.’
‘And fearfully spoiled by all
the petting he met with,’ said a soft voice
leaning over his shoulder, while a pair of very liquid
grey eyes gazed into his own.
‘What, Nina! Mademoiselle
Nina, I mean,’ said he, ’have you been
long there?’
’Long enough to hear you make
a very pitiful lamentation over a condition that I,
in my ignorance, used to believe was only a little
short of Paradise.’
‘You fancied that, did you?’
‘Yes, I did so fancy it.’
’Might I be bold enough to ask
from what circumstance, though? I entreat you
to tell me, what belongings of mine, what resources
of luxury or pleasure, what incident of my daily life,
suggested this impression of yours?’
’Perhaps, as a matter of strict
reasoning, I have little to show for my conviction,
but if you ask me why I thought as I did, it was simply
from contrasting your condition with my own, and seeing
that in everything where my lot has gloom and darkness,
if not worse, yours, my ungrateful cousin, was all
sunshine.’
’Let us see a little of this
sunshine, Cousin Nina. Sit down here beside me,
and show me, I pray, some of those bright tints that
I am longing to gaze on.’
‘There’s not room for both of us on that
bench.’
‘Ample room; we shall sit the closer.’
‘No, Cousin Dick; give me your arm and we’ll
take a stroll together.’
‘Which way shall it be?’
‘You shall choose, cousin.’
’If I have the choice, then,
I’ll carry you off, Nina, for I’m thinking
of bidding good-bye to the old house and all within
it.’
‘I don’t think I’ll
consent that far,’ said she, smiling. ’I
have had my experience of what it is to be without
a home, or something very nearly that. I’ll
not willingly recall the sensation. But what has
put such gloomy thoughts in your head? What,
or rather who is driving you to this?’
‘My father, Nina, my father!’
‘This is past my comprehending.’
’I’ll make it very intelligible.
My father, by way of curbing my extravagance, tells
me I must give up all pretension to the life of a
gentleman, and go into an office as a clerk. I
refuse. He insists, and tells me, moreover, a
number of little pleasant traits of my unfitness to
do anything, so that I interrupt him by hinting that
I might possibly break stones on the highway.
He seizes the project with avidity, and offers to
supply me with a hammer for my work. All fact,
on my honour! I am neither adding to nor concealing.
I am relating what occurred little more than an hour
ago, and I have forgotten nothing of the interview.
He, as I said, offers to give me a stone-hammer.
And now I ask you, is it for me to accept this generous
offer, or would it be better to wander over that bog
yonder, and take my chance of a deep pool, or the
bleak world where immersion and death are just as
sure, though a little slower in coming?’
‘Have you told Kate of this?’
’No, I have not seen her.
I don’t know, if I had seen her, that I should
have told her. Kate has so grown to believe all
my father’s caprices to be absolute wisdom,
that even his sudden gusts of passion seem to her like
flashes of a bright intelligence, too quick and too
brilliant for mere reason. She could give me
no comfort nor counsel either.’
‘I am not of your mind,’
said she slowly. ’She has the great gift
of what people so mistakingly call common sense.’
’And she’d recommend me,
perhaps, not to quarrel with my father, and to go
and break the stones.’
‘Were you ever in love, Cousin
Dick?’ asked she, in a tone every accent of
which betokened earnestness and even gravity.
’Perhaps I might say never.
I have spooned or flirted or whatever the name of
it might be, but I was never seriously attached to
one girl, and unable to think of anything but her.
But what has your question to do with this?’
’Everything. If you really
loved a girl that is, if she filled every
corner of your heart, if she was first in every plan
and project of your life, not alone her wishes and
her likings, but her very words and the sound of her
voice if you saw her in everything that
was beautiful, and heard her in every tone that delighted
you if to be moving in the air she breathed
was ecstasy, and that heaven itself without her was
cheerless if ’
’Oh, don’t go on, Nina.
None of these ecstasies could ever be mine. I
have no nature to be moved or moulded in this fashion.
I might be very fond of a girl, but she’d never
drive me mad if she left me for another.’
‘I hope she may, then, if it
be with such false money you would buy her,’
said she fiercely. ‘Do you know,’
added she, after a pause, ’I was almost on the
verge of saying, go and break the stones; the metier
is not much beneath you, after all!’
’This is scarcely civil, mademoiselle;
see what my candour has brought upon me!’
’Be as candid as you like upon
the faults of your nature. Tell every wickedness
that you have done or dreamed of, but don’t own
to cold-heartedness. For that there is
no sympathy!’
‘Let us go back a bit, then,’
said he, ’and let us suppose that I did love
in the same fervent and insane manner you spoke of,
what and how would it help me here?’
’Of course it would. Of
all the ingenuity that plotters talk of, of all the
imagination that poets dream, there is nothing to compare
with love. To gain a plodding subsistence a man
will do much. To win the girl he loves, to make
her his own, he will do everything: he will strive,
and strain, and even starve to win her. Poverty
will have nothing mean if confronted for her, hardship
have no suffering if endured for her sake. With
her before him, all the world shows but one goal;
without her, life is a mere dreary task, and himself
a hired labourer.’
’I confess, after all this,
that I don’t see how breaking stones would be
more palatable to me because some pretty girl that
I was fond of saw me hammering away at my limestone!’
’If you could have loved as
I would wish you to love, your career had never fallen
to this. The heart that loved would have stimulated
the head that thought. Don’t fancy that
people are only better because they are in love, but
they are greater, bolder, brighter, more daring in
danger, and more ready in every emergency. So
wonder-working is the real passion that even in the
base mockery of Love men have risen to genius.
Look what it made Petrarch, and I might say Byron
too, though he never loved worthy of the name.’
’And how came you to know all
this, cousin mine? I’m really curious to
know that.’
’I was reared in Italy, Cousin
Dick, and I have made a deep study of nature through
French novels.’
Now there was a laughing devilry in
her eye as she said this that terribly puzzled the
young fellow, for just at the very moment her enthusiasm
had begun to stir his breast, her merry mockery wafted
it away as with a storm-wind.
‘I wish I knew if you were serious,’ said
he gravely.
‘Just as serious as you were when you spoke
of being ruined.’
’I was so, I pledge my honour.
The conversation I reported to you really took place;
and when you joined me, I was gravely deliberating
with myself whether I should take a header into a
deep pool or enlist as a soldier.’
’Fie, fie! how ignoble all that
is. You don’t know the hundreds of thousands
of things one can do in life. Do you speak French
or Italian?’
‘I can read them, but not freely;
but how are they to help me?’
’You shall see: first of
all, let me be your tutor. We shall take two
hours, three if you like, every morning. Are you
free now from all your college studies?’
‘I can be after Wednesday next.
I ought to go up for my term examination.’
‘Well, do so; but mind, don’t
bring down Mr. Atlee with you.’
‘My chum is no favourite of yours?’
‘That’s as it may be,’
said she haughtily. ’I have only said let
us not have the embarrassment, or, if you like it,
the pleasure of his company. I’ll give
you a list of books to bring down, and my life be on
it, but my course of study will surpass what
you have been doing at Trinity. Is it agreed?’
‘Give me till to-morrow to think of it, Nina.’
’That does not sound like a
very warm acceptance; but be it so: till to-morrow.’
‘Here are some of Kate’s
dogs,’ cried he angrily. ’Down, Fan,
down! I say. I’ll leave you now before
she joins us. Mind, not a word of what I told
you.’
And, without another word, he sprang
over a low fence, and speedily disappeared in the
copse beyond it.
‘Wasn’t that Dick I saw
making his escape?’ cried Kate, as she came up.
‘Yes, we were taking a walk
together, and he left me very abruptly.’
‘I wish I had not spoiled a
tete-a-tete,’ said Kate merrily.
‘It is no great mischief: we can always
renew it.’
‘Dear Nina,’ said the
other caressingly, as she drew her arm around her ’dear,
dear Nina, do not, do not, I beseech you.’
‘Don’t what, child? you must
not speak in riddles.’
’Don’t make that poor
boy in love with you. You yourself told me you
could save him from it if you liked.’
’And so I shall, Kate, if you
don’t dictate or order me. Leave me quite
to myself, and I shall be most merciful.’