TRUE! nervous very,
very dreadfully nervous I had been and am; but why
will you say that I am mad? The disease had sharpened
my senses not destroyed not
dulled them. Above all was the sense of hearing
acute. I heard all things in the heaven and in
the earth. I heard many things in hell.
How, then, am I mad? Hearken! and observe how
healthily how calmly I can tell you the
whole story.
It is impossible to say how first
the idea entered my brain; but once conceived, it
haunted me day and night. Object there was none.
Passion there was none. I loved the old man.
He had never wronged me. He had never given me
insult. For his gold I had no desire. I think
it was his eye! yes, it was this! He had the
eye of a vulture a pale blue eye, with
a film over it. Whenever it fell upon me, my blood
ran cold; and so by degrees very gradually I
made up my mind to take the life of the old man, and
thus rid myself of the eye forever.
Now this is the point. You fancy
me mad. Madmen know nothing. But you should
have seen me. You should have seen how wisely
I proceeded with what caution with
what foresight with what dissimulation I
went to work! I was never kinder to the old man
than during the whole week before I killed him.
And every night, about midnight, I turned the latch
of his door and opened it oh so gently!
And then, when I had made an opening sufficient for
my head, I put in a dark lantern, all closed, closed,
that no light shone out, and then I thrust in my head.
Oh, you would have laughed to see how cunningly I
thrust it in! I moved it slowly very,
very slowly, so that I might not disturb the old man’s
sleep. It took me an hour to place my whole head
within the opening so far that I could see him as
he lay upon his bed. Ha! would a madman have
been so wise as this, And then, when my head was well
in the room, I undid the lantern cautiously-oh, so
cautiously cautiously (for the hinges creaked) I
undid it just so much that a single thin ray fell
upon the vulture eye. And this I did for seven
long nights every night just at midnight but
I found the eye always closed; and so it was impossible
to do the work; for it was not the old man who vexed
me, but his Evil Eye. And every morning, when
the day broke, I went boldly into the chamber, and
spoke courageously to him, calling him by name in a
hearty tone, and inquiring how he has passed the night.
So you see he would have been a very profound old
man, indeed, to suspect that every night, just at
twelve, I looked in upon him while he slept.
Upon the eighth night I was more than
usually cautious in opening the door. A watch’s
minute hand moves more quickly than did mine.
Never before that night had I felt the extent of my
own powers of my sagacity. I could
scarcely contain my feelings of triumph. To think
that there I was, opening the door, little by little,
and he not even to dream of my secret deeds or thoughts.
I fairly chuckled at the idea; and perhaps he heard
me; for he moved on the bed suddenly, as if startled.
Now you may think that I drew back but no.
His room was as black as pitch with the thick darkness,
(for the shutters were close fastened, through fear
of robbers,) and so I knew that he could not see the
opening of the door, and I kept pushing it on steadily,
steadily.
I had my head in, and was about to
open the lantern, when my thumb slipped upon the tin
fastening, and the old man sprang up in bed, crying
out “Who’s there?”
I kept quite still and said nothing.
For a whole hour I did not move a muscle, and in the
meantime I did not hear him lie down. He was still
sitting up in the bed listening; just as
I have done, night after night, hearkening to the
death watches in the wall.
Presently I heard a slight groan,
and I knew it was the groan of mortal terror.
It was not a groan of pain or of grief oh,
no! it was the low stifled sound that arises
from the bottom of the soul when overcharged with
awe. I knew the sound well. Many a night,
just at midnight, when all the world slept, it has
welled up from my own bosom, deepening, with its dreadful
echo, the terrors that distracted me. I say I
knew it well. I knew what the old man felt, and
pitied him, although I chuckled at heart. I knew
that he had been lying awake ever since the first slight
noise, when he had turned in the bed. His fears
had been ever since growing upon him. He had
been trying to fancy them causeless, but could not.
He had been saying to himself “It
is nothing but the wind in the chimney it
is only a mouse crossing the floor,” or “It
is merely a cricket which has made a single chirp.”
Yes, he had been trying to comfort himself with these
suppositions: but he had found all in vain.
All in vain; because Death, in approaching him had
stalked with his black shadow before him, and enveloped
the victim. And it was the mournful influence
of the unperceived shadow that caused him to feel although
he neither saw nor heard to feel the presence
of my head within the room.
When I had waited a long time, very
patiently, without hearing him lie down, I resolved
to open a little a very, very little crevice
in the lantern. So I opened it you
cannot imagine how stealthily, stealthily until,
at length a simple dim ray, like the thread of the
spider, shot from out the crevice and fell full upon
the vulture eye.
It was open wide, wide
open and I grew furious as I gazed upon
it. I saw it with perfect distinctness all
a dull blue, with a hideous veil over it that chilled
the very marrow in my bones; but I could see nothing
else of the old man’s face or person: for
I had directed the ray as if by instinct, precisely
upon the damned spot.
And have I not told you that what
you mistake for madness is but over-acuteness of the
sense? now, I say, there came to my ears
a low, dull, quick sound, such as a watch makes when
enveloped in cotton. I knew that sound well,
too. It was the beating of the old man’s
heart. It increased my fury, as the beating of
a drum stimulates the soldier into courage.
But even yet I refrained and kept
still. I scarcely breathed. I held the lantern
motionless. I tried how steadily I could maintain
the ray upon the eve. Meantime the hellish tattoo
of the heart increased. It grew quicker and quicker,
and louder and louder every instant. The old man’s
terror must have been extreme! It grew louder,
I say, louder every moment! do you mark
me well I have told you that I am nervous: so
I am. And now at the dead hour of the night,
amid the dreadful silence of that old house, so strange
a noise as this excited me to uncontrollable terror.
Yet, for some minutes longer I refrained and stood
still. But the beating grew louder, louder!
I thought the heart must burst. And now a new
anxiety seized me the sound would be heard
by a neighbour! The old man’s hour had
come! With a loud yell, I threw open the lantern
and leaped into the room. He shrieked once once
only. In an instant I dragged him to the floor,
and pulled the heavy bed over him. I then smiled
gaily, to find the deed so far done. But, for
many minutes, the heart beat on with a muffled sound.
This, however, did not vex me; it would not be heard
through the wall. At length it ceased. The
old man was dead. I removed the bed and examined
the corpse. Yes, he was stone, stone dead.
I placed my hand upon the heart and held it there many
minutes. There was no pulsation. He was stone
dead. His eye would trouble me no more.
If still you think me mad, you will
think so no longer when I describe the wise precautions
I took for the concealment of the body. The night
waned, and I worked hastily, but in silence. First
of all I dismembered the corpse. I cut off the
head and the arms and the legs.
I then took up three planks from the
flooring of the chamber, and deposited all between
the scantlings. I then replaced the boards so
cleverly, so cunningly, that no human eye not
even his could have detected any thing
wrong. There was nothing to wash out no
stain of any kind no blood-spot whatever.
I had been too wary for that. A tub had caught
all ha! ha!
When I had made an end of these labors,
it was four o’clock still dark as
midnight. As the bell sounded the hour, there
came a knocking at the street door. I went down
to open it with a light heart, for what
had I now to fear? There entered three men, who
introduced themselves, with perfect suavity, as officers
of the police. A shriek had been heard by a neighbour
during the night; suspicion of foul play had been aroused;
information had been lodged at the police office, and
they (the officers) had been deputed to search the
premises.
I smiled, for what had
I to fear? I bade the gentlemen welcome.
The shriek, I said, was my own in a dream. The
old man, I mentioned, was absent in the country.
I took my visitors all over the house. I bade
them search search well. I led them,
at length, to his chamber. I showed them his
treasures, secure, undisturbed. In the enthusiasm
of my confidence, I brought chairs into the room,
and desired them here to rest from their fatigues,
while I myself, in the wild audacity of my perfect
triumph, placed my own seat upon the very spot beneath
which reposed the corpse of the victim.
The officers were satisfied.
My manner had convinced them. I was singularly
at ease. They sat, and while I answered cheerily,
they chatted of familiar things. But, ere long,
I felt myself getting pale and wished them gone.
My head ached, and I fancied a ringing in my ears:
but still they sat and still chatted. The ringing
became more distinct: It continued and
became more distinct: I talked more freely to
get rid of the feeling: but it continued and gained
definiteness until, at length, I found that
the noise was not within my ears.
No doubt I now grew very pale; but
I talked more fluently, and with a heightened voice.
Yet the sound increased and what could I
do? It was a low, dull, quick sound much
such a sound as a watch makes when enveloped in cotton.
I gasped for breath and yet the officers
heard it not. I talked more quickly more
vehemently; but the noise steadily increased.
I arose and argued about trifles, in a high key and
with violent gesticulations; but the noise steadily
increased. Why would they not be gone? I
paced the floor to and fro with heavy strides, as if
excited to fury by the observations of the men but
the noise steadily increased. Oh God! what could
I do? I foamed I raved I
swore! I swung the chair upon which I had been
sitting, and grated it upon the boards, but the noise
arose over all and continually increased. It
grew louder louder louder!
And still the men chatted pleasantly, and smiled.
Was it possible they heard not? Almighty God! no,
no! They heard! they suspected! they
knew! they were making a mockery of my
horror!-this I thought, and this I think. But
anything was better than this agony! Anything
was more tolerable than this derision! I could
bear those hypocritical smiles no longer! I felt
that I must scream or die! and now again! hark!
louder! louder! louder! louder!
“Villains!” I shrieked,
“dissemble no more! I admit the deed! tear
up the planks! here, here! It is the beating
of his hideous heart!”