ARCHIBALD MACKIE : CHAPTER III
One little bit of candle, and a few
old school-books, and a mind swelling with big desires
after knowledge, were beside the small window, long
after the midnight hour had struck and the noisy city
was hushed into a comparative calm. It did not
signify that the bowed frame was wearied by a day
of physical toil, or that the aching head pleaded for
“tired nature’s sweet restorer,”
or that a voice from the outer room came often to
his ear, with the petition that he would no longer
rob himself of his needful rest; there were new and
holy impulses that refused to be put aside, and hungerings
and thirstings that must be satisfied, and not until
the candle gave out its last flicker did Archibald
Mackie spare himself the pittance of slumber that was
to prepare him for another toilsome day. Even
in his fitful and nervous sleep was he mentally solving
some abstruse problem, or following out some philosophical
train of reasoning, while all the time in his dreams
the strange lady would urge him onward in his tasks,
smiling upon him with the sweet and gentle face.
Forgetful of the simple hovel and its uncouth accompaniments,
unmindful of the deformed figure, and the tattered
raiment, and the taunts and jeers of an unfeeling multitude,
the poor boy reveled amid visions of knowledge, and
wisdom, and beauty, and love, as happy as if an angel
form were resting where the hideous body lay.
The morning beams struggled feebly
in at the little window as Archie tore himself from
his pillow, again to apply himself to his books.
It was such a wonder to him that he could for so long
a period have cast them away for less satisfying pleasures.
The bright dawn, too, was so filled with peace and
purity, and he had hitherto dozed it off, never thinking
that he had lost the most precious part of his existence.
The air came in so refreshingly upon his brow, and
the open space had not one revolting object to distract
him from hallowed and exalted thoughts. The only
sound that reached him was the slow and measured breathing
of his grandmother through the thin partition, or
the nasal performances of his father from the loft
above. Archie’s room was the one his mother
had occupied ever since his remembrance, and miserable
and empty as it was, to him there was an atmosphere
of the purest delight. All other spots were trivial
and commonplace compared to the one where the maternal
blessing had been pronounced, and the maternal breath
had ceased; and hardened indeed must the heart have
been that could resist his desire that this one sacred
spot might be consecrated alone to him. Here were
the books from which her thin and tremulous fingers
had pointed out to him the rudiments of that knowledge
which his spirit so longed to compass. Here were
gathered the few mementoes of her maidenhood the
trinkets from her early schoolmates, and the love-tokens
from her rough but kind and affectionate husband all
disposed by her own hand, within the tiny cupboard,
that came to be a sealed place to every eye but that
of the child, whose mature mind could take in all their
value. These alone, of all the objects about
him, linked him to the dead mother. To be sure
his fond old grandmother doted on the boy in her childish
and simple way, and his father gave him all the love
of which his nature was capable, but there seemed
to him no connection between the spiritual image that
so continually hovered about his pathway, and the coarse
and material beings who seemed only to live for the
things that give life and support to the body; and
his high communings and yearnings found no sympathy
in either of his well-meaning but obtuse relatives.
To look upon the lad’s occasional bursts of
enthusiasm with a wondering and frightened stare,
was all that the poor old woman could do to show that
she even observed them, and as for the father, it was
quite impossible to beguile him from his old and commonplace
notions. The idea of listening to reading, or
to the explanation of any of the mysteries of science,
formed no part of his mental machinery.
“Book larnin’ll do well
enough for you, Archie, my boy,” he would say;
“but this thing,” holding up his trowel
in a fond sort of way, “has found me a good
living for many a year, and as for amusement, my pipe
keeps my mind off the trouble, so don’t pester
yourself trying to turn me into a new way, child,
the old one suits me better!” It was not well
for the imaginative and sickly youth to be left to
his own wild and untutored fancies; but there was
no help for it now, and he gave himself up to his
studies and his dreams, looking no longer for sympathy
from those around him, but gathering inward strength
and self-dependence with every struggle for the mastery
over his sensitive and morbid nature.
Little, however, as there was in Archie’s
home to aid him in his efforts after a higher attainment,
he was not without a hidden but blessed influence.
His mother’s grave was just without the city,
in the beautiful cemetery, and thither his weary feet
often wandered when he was spared from his labor early
enough, or on the precious Sunday, the day of days,
especially to the poor. Glorious monuments of
the most elaborate workmanship, temples, and majestic
columns, and angel figures, were all nothing to Archie
compared to the simple mound that told him of an undying
love for the lonely and crippled one. No marble
arose there in wonderful grace and beauty, no reclining
seraph imaged the departed saint; but low down, beneath
the green turf was the heart that leaped at the advent
of her first-born son, and the eye that overlooked
the blemish that all other eyes seemed to dwell upon,
and the hand that was laid upon his head in the last
sad moment. Naught else was needed to the few
souls that cared for her memory. Was she not ever
before them in the garb of purity and love! and yet
among the boy’s visions was a sacred spot remote
from the common ground where necessity had placed his
idolized parent, and a slab that should speak of a
son’s gratitude, and shrubs and flowers around
to breathe their sweet odor above the lowly bed.
So long as his mother’s memory was kept fresh
and green within him Archibald Mackie was not cut
off wholly from the companionship and sympathy that
is a need of every nature.