“I see what you mean,”
she said. “I wasn’t sporting in the
first place I wouldn’t live up to
my bargain. That’s made you more apt to
believe that I’ve been acting the same way ever
since. You don’t think I can see anything
through. Well not particularly for
your sake more for my own, I guess I’m
going to see this through, if I die doing it.
I’ll stay and take Pierre’s
place, Francis.”
Francis’s severe young face did not change at
all.
“Very well,” he said.
“But you understand,”
she went on, “that I’m not doing this to
win anything but my own self-respect. And at
the end of the three months, of course, I shall go
back to New York. And you’ll let me go,
and see that I get free.”
“I wouldn’t do anything
else for the world,” said Francis in the same
unmoved voice.
“Very well, then we
understand each other.” She turned to Logan,
who had sprung to his feet and tried to interfere
a couple of times while she talked. “And
please remember that this arrangement does not go
beyond us three,” she said. “I would
prefer that no one else knew how matters stood.”
Logan looked a little baffled.
He was ten years older than either of them, but so
many actual clashing things happening had never come
his way before. His ten years’ advantage
had been spent writing stylistic essays, and such
do not fit one for stepping down into the middle of
a lot of primitive young emotions. He felt suddenly
helpless before these passionate, unjust, emotional
young people. He felt a little forlorn, too,
as if the main currents of things had been sweeping
them by while he stood carefully on the bank, trying
not to get his feet wet. A very genuine emotion
of pity for Marjorie had brought him up here, pity
more mixed with something else than he had been willing
to admit. It was the first thing he had done
for a long, long time that was romantic and unconsidered
and actual. And it appeared that, after all,
he wasn’t needed. Concentration on the
nuances of minor fifteenth-century poets had unfitted
him for being swept on, as these had been, by the
world-currents. They had married each other,
pushed by the mating instinct in the air the
world’s insistence on marriage to balance the
death that had swept it. Now they were struggling
to find their balance against each other, to be decent,
to be fair, to make themselves and each other what
they thought they ought to be. He could see
what they were doing and why much more clearly than
they could themselves. But he couldn’t
be a part of it he had stood aside from
life too long, with his nerves and his passion for
artistic details and pleasures of the intellect.
But he bowed quietly, and smiled a
little. He felt suddenly very tired.
“Certainly it shall go no farther,”
he assured her. “And I owe you an apology
for the trouble which I fear I have ignorantly brought
upon you. If there is anything I can say ”
She shook her head proudly, and Francis,
fronting them both, made a motion of negation, too.
“You must be tired,” he
added to his gesture. “Or would you care
to watch the dancers awhile?”
“No, I thank you,” said
Mr. Logan courteously in his turn. “If
you will tell me of some near-by hotel ”
“There’s only this,”
explained Francis. “But I think your room
is ready by now. Miss O’Mara I’ll
call her will show you to it.”
Peggy, summoned by a signal whistle
from the ballroom, convoyed Logan upstairs with abundant
good-will and much curiosity. She had never
seen any one like him before, and took in his looks
and belongings with the intense and frank absorption
of an Indian. Indeed, as she explained to Marjorie,
whom she met at the foot of the stairs, it was only
by the help of the saints and her own good decency
that she didn’t follow him into his room and
stay there to watch him unpack.
“With the charming, purry voice
he has, and all the little curlicues when he finishes
his words, and the little cane does he never
sleep without it, would you say? and the
little Latin books he reads ”
But here Marjorie pulled her up.
“How on earth do you know he reads little Latin
books?”
Peggy flushed generously.
“Well, if you must know, I gave
one teeny weeny peek through the crack in the door
after I left him, and he was thrown down across his
cot like a long, graceful tomcat or leopard or something,
and he pulled a little green leather book out of his
pocket and went to reading it on the spot. ‘Pervigilium
Veneris,’ its name was. All down the
side.”
Marjorie had heard of it; in fact,
in pursuance of her education Mr. Logan had made her
read several translations of it. It had bored
her a little, but she had read it dutifully, because
she had felt at that time that it would be nice to
be intellectually widened, and because Logan had praised
it so highly.
“Oh, yes, I know,” she said.
“And is it a holy book?” Peggy inquired.
“Just a long Latin poem about
people running around in the woods at night and having
a sort of celebration of Venus’s birthday,”
said Marjorie absently. It occurred to her Logan
would have been worse shocked if he could have heard
her offhand summing-up of his pet poem than he had
been by her attitude about going back to New York with
him. But she had more important things on her
mind than Latin poetry. When Peggy met her she
was on her way to go off and think them out.
“Good-night, Peggy,” she
said. “I’m going to bed. I
have to get up early and go to work.”
Peggy laughed.
“Don’t talk nonsense.
The dance isn’t half over, and everybody’s
crazy to dance with you. You can sleep till
the crack of doom to-morrow, and with not a soul to
stop you.”
Marjorie shook her head, smiling a little.
“No. I’m going over
to the clearing to do the cooking for the men.
I told Francis I would, tonight.”
Peggy made the expected outcry.
“To begin with, I’ll wager
you can’t cook a little bit of a thing
like you, that I could blow away with a breath!
And you’d be all alone there. Mother
won’t do it because she’s afraid of wraiths” Peggy
pronounced it “wraths,” and it was evidently
a quotation from Mrs. O’Mara “and
it would be twice as scary for you. Though, to
be sure, I suppose you’d have Francis.
I suppose that’s your reason, the both of you it
sounds like the bossy sort of plan Francis makes.”
This had not occurred to Marjorie.
But she saw now that the only plausible reason not
the truth that they could give for her taking Pierre’s
job was her desire to see more of her husband.
“Well, it’s natural we
should want to see more of each other,” she
began lamely.
“Oh, I suppose so,” said
Peggy offhandedly, and with one ear pricked toward
the music. “But when my time comes I hope
I won’t be that bad that I drag a poor girl
off to do cooking, so I can see the more of her.”
“You’re getting your sexes
mixed,” said Francis coolly, strolling up behind
the girls. “Peggy, your partner is looking
for you. I’ll take you over after luncheon
to-morrow, Marjorie.”
“Very well,” she said. “Good-night.”
If his heart smote him, as Marjorie’s
little, indomitable figure mounted the stairs, shoulders
back and head high, he made no sign of it. Instead,
in spite of the preponderance of men, he went back
to the dance, and danced straight through till the
end had come.
Marjorie went to bed, as she had said
she would do. She did not go to sleep.
Marjorie, as has been said, was not brave that
is, she could and did do brave things, but she always
did them with her heart in her slippers. She
did not know what the cooking would be, but she was
sure it would be worse than she could imagine, and
too much for her strength. The only comfort
was the recollection that the dear brown cabin was
hers to live in, every moment that she was not at work.
She would have that rest and comfort. There
was the shelf of books chosen for her by the far-off
Francis who was not doubtful of her, and loved her
and dreamed about her, and built a house all around
the vision of her. And there might be times
when she could hurry up a great deal, and lie on the
window-seat and look out at the woodlands and dream.
She finally went to sleep. She
wakened with a start, early, vaguely remembering that
there was a great deal to do. Full remembrance
came as she sprang out of bed and ran down the hall
to her bath. She had to pack, and after luncheon
Francis would carry her off to imprisonment with hard
labor. And why on earth was she doing
it, when she could still go back with Logan?
For a long half hour she struggled with herself,
one minute deciding; to go back, the next deciding
to stay. Finally she faced the thing. She
would see it through, if it killed her. She
would make Francis respect her, if it took six months
instead of three at hard labor. She would take
the wages for the work she had done, and go back home
a free, self-respecting woman.
She dressed herself quickly, and went
down to breakfast, braced to play her part before
the O’Maras. Short as her time with them,
she was fond of them already.
“I think your devotion is a
bit hard on yer wife,” remarked Mrs. O’Mara,
whom Peggy had put in possession of the facts.
“If I were her, I’d value an affection
more that had less o’ dishwashin’ in it!”
“She’s helping me over
a pretty hard place.” Francis said this
calmly. But he flushed in a way that, as Marjorie
knew, meant he was disturbed. “You know
every man counts just now, and labor is cruelly scarce.
I’m doing mine and a day-laborer’s work
besides, now. And the contract has to be finished.”
“Well, of course, there’s
a gown or so for her in it,” said Mrs. O’Mara
comfortably. “And ’tis no more than
a woman should do, to help out her man if he needs
it. Have ye any aprons or work-dresses, me dear,
for if not Peggy and me will make ye some. We’ve
a bolt of stuff.”
“No, and I’d be very glad
if you would,” said Marjorie, feeling the thing
more irrevocable every moment.
“And rest this morning, and
I’ll pack for you,” said Peggy affectionately.
She led Marjorie out to the swing herself, and went
upstairs to pack before she went to help her mother
with the breakfast dishes.
Marjorie was too restless to lie still.
She went out and walked about the place, and came
back and lay down, and so put in the interminable
hours till luncheon. After luncheon Francis appeared
like the messenger of doom he was, put her and a small
bag in the side-car and carried her off to her place
of servitude.
The ride, in spite of all, was pleasant.
For a while neither of them spoke. Then Francis
did.
“I feel as if this was unfair
to you for apparently the O’Maras
think, and I suppose everybody will, that you really
are doing this to show your fondness for me.
I shall have to ask you to let them think so.”
“I have,” she answered curtly.
“You don’t understand.
I I am going to have to stay in the cabin
with you. . . . There is the little upstairs
balcony, I can bunk in that. You know the
one over the door, with the little winding stair leading
up to it. I I’m sorry.”
This was one more thing Marjorie hadn’t
counted on. But after all what did it matter?
She expected to be so deadly tired from the work she
had promised to do that she would never know whether
Francis was in the house at all. And if there
really were bears once in awhile it would really be
better not to be all alone with them.
“Very well,” she said.
She looked hungrily at the thick trees they were
speeding through. She supposed she would never
have time to lie out under a tree, or go hunting for
flowers and new little wood-paths again. She
had read stories of lone, draggled women in logging-camps,
toiling so hard they hadn’t even time to comb
their hair, but always wore it pulled back tight from
their forehead. This wasn’t a logging-camp,
but she supposed there was very little difference.
She was very quiet for awhile.
Francis, turning finally, a little uneasy, found
that she was quietly crying. It happened that
he had never seen her cry before.
“Please, Marjorie!” he
begged in a terrified voice. “Please stop!
Is there anything I can do?”
“You have done everything,”
she said in a little quiet voice that tried not to
break, but did, most movingly, on the last word.
She said nothing more after that.
After awhile she got hold of herself, dried her eyes,
and began to watch the woods desperately again, as
if she would never see them any more. If she
had but known it, she was making Francis suffer as
much as she was suffering herself.
“I’ll bring the rest of
your things over now,” he said, when he had
carried her little bag in and put it on her bed.
He went out and left her alone, in the little wood-walled
bedroom with its high, latticed windows, and Indian
blankets and birch-bark trimmings. She lay on
the bed apathetically awhile, then she began to notice
things a little. There was a kodak on her bureau.
There were snowshoes, too small for a man surely if
you could tell of a thing the size of snowshoes hanging
on the wall. There was a fishing-rod case, with
something hanging near it that she imagined was a
flybook. There was a little trowel, and a graceful
birch-bark basket, as if some one might want to go
out and bring home plants. She got up finally,
her curiosity stronger than her unhappiness, and investigated.
There was dust on everything.
That is, except in one particular. On top of
each article she had noticed was a square, clean place
about the size of an envelope. There had been
a note lying or pinned to each one of the things.
It occurred to Marjorie that a man
who had not noticed the dust might have overlooked
one of the notes; and she commenced a detailed and
careful search. The kodak told no tales, nor
the snowshoes. The fishing-rod was only explanatory
to the extent of being too light and small for a man,
and the basket’s only contents were two pieces
of oilcloth, apparently designed to keep wet plants
from dripping too much.
She rose and tiptoed out into the
living-room. There might be more notes there.
Her spirits had gone up, and she was laughing to herself
a little it felt like exploring Bluebeard’s
castle. She investigated the book case, shaking
out every book. She ran up to the toy balcony
and even pushed out the couch there, noticing for the
first time that the balcony had curtains which could
be drawn. But there was nothing behind couch
or curtains. She put her hands on the little
railing and looked down at the room below her, to
see if she had missed anything. And her eyes
fell on a cupboard which was level with the wall at
one side, and had so escaped her eye heretofore.
Also there was a scrapbasket which might tell tales.
She dashed down the little stair,
and made for the scrapbasket, but Francis was more
thorough than she had thought, and it was empty.
She opened the cupboard and looked in there
was a little flashlight lying near it, and she illuminated
the dark with it. There in the cupboard lay
a banjo.
“Gracious!” breathed Marjorie.
“What a memory!” For she could
play the banjo, and it appeared that she must have
said so to Francis in those first days. “He
must have dashed home and made out lists every night!”
she concluded as she dragged it out. It was unstrung,
but new strings lay near it, coiled in their papers.
And under the papers, so like them that he had forgotten
to destroy it, lay a veritable note.
“It isn’t really from
him to me,” she thought, her heart beating unaccountably
as she sat back on her heels and tore the envelope
open. “It’s from the Francis he thought
he was, to the Marjorie he thought I was.”
But she read it just the same.
“For my dear little girl, if she comes true,”
was the superscription.
“I don’t know whether
you’ll find this first or last, honey.
But it’s for you to play on, sometimes, in the
evenings, sitting on the window-seat with me, or out
on the veranda if you’d rather. But wherever
you sit to play it, I may stay quite close to you,
mayn’t I?”
She was tired and overstrained.
That was probably why she put both arms around the
banjo as if it was somebody that loved her, and cried
on it very much as if it were a baby. And when
she went back to her room to replace things as she
had found them she carried it with her.
She was calmer after that, for some
reason. She had the illogical feeling that some
one had been kind to her. She put her things
away in the drawers, and even had the courage to lay
out for herself the all-enveloping gingham apron,
much shortened, which Mrs. O’Mara had loaned
her till she and Peggy could run up some more.
She supposed Francis would want her to start in with
the cooking that night. So she put on her plainest
dress and easiest shoes, and then, there being nothing
else to do, took the banjo out into the sitting-room
and began to string it. And as she strung she
thought.
She was going to have to be pretty
close to Francis till her term of service was up;
she might as well not fight him. It would make
things easier all round if she didn’t, as long
as she had to keep on friendly terms before people.
The truth was, that she couldn’t
but feel softened to the man who had written that
boyish, loving note. “Even if it wasn’t
to the her he knew now, it was to the Marjorie of
last year, and she was a near relation,” thought
the Marjorie of this year whimsically.
So when Francis came back with the
rest of her baggage he found her on the window-seat
with the banjo in her lap, fingering it softly, and
smiling at him. She could see that he was a little
startled, but he had himself in hand directly, and
came forward, saying, “So you found the banjo.
I got it for you in the first place. Is it any
good?”
“Oh, did you?” inquired
his wife innocently. “Yes, it’s a
very good banjo. Maybe I’ll find time
to play it some day when the housework for the men
is out of the way. What do I do when I begin?
And hadn’t we better go over now?”
“I didn’t expect you to
start till to-morrow,” he explained. “I’ve
taken one of the men off his regular work to attend
to it till then.”
“Oh, that’s kind of you,”
she answered, still friendly and smiling to a degree
that seemed to perplex him. “But perhaps
you could take me over to-night and show me.
I’ll get supper for us two here, if you like,
and afterward we can go over, and you can introduce
me to your men as the new cook. I hope they’ll
like me as well as Pierre.”
He looked at her still as if she were
behaving in a very unexpected way. A tamed Marjorie
was something new in his experience; and tameness
at this juncture was particularly surprising.
Francis was beginning to feel like a brute, which
may have been what his wife intended.
“That’s very kind of you,”
he managed to say. “You’re sure you
are not too tired for any of that?”
“Being tired isn’t going
to count, is it?” she asked, smiling. “No,
I don’t mind doing it. It will be like
playing with a doll-house. You know, I love
this little place.”
In her wicked heart she was thinking,
“He shall miss me oh, if I can keep
my temper and be perfectly lovely for three months
he shall miss me so when I go and get my divorce that
he will want to die!” And she looked
up at him, one hand on the banjo, as if they were the
best friends in the world.
“It isn’t time to get
supper yet, is it?” she pursued. “You
used to like to hear me sing. Don’t you
want to sit down here by me while I see how the banjo
works, just for a little while?”
“No!” said Francis abruptly.
“I have to I have to go and see after
a lot more work.”
He flung out the door, and it crashed
after him. And Marjorie laughed softly and naughtily
to herself over the banjo, and pushed the note that
had dwelt within farther down inside her dress.
“I wish I had the rest!” said she.
“Let me see. The kodak was for both of
us to go out and take pictures together, of course.
The snowshoes that would have had to wait
till winter. The basket and trowel were so we
could plant lots of lovely woodsy things we found
around the cabin, to see if they would take root.
And he must have been going to teach me to fish.
I wonder why he wasn’t going to teach me to
shoot. There must be a rifle somewhere maybe
it hasn’t lost its note, if it was hidden hard
enough. And he remembered how I liked ‘surprises.’
He certainly would have made a good lover if I hadn’t ”
She did not finish. She got
up and hunted for the rifle, which was not to be found.
Then she went into the kitchen and hunted for stores,
and wondered how on earth a balanced menu could be
evolved from cans and dried things exclusively.
But the discovery of a cache of canned vegetables
helped her out, and as she really was a good cook,
and loved cooking, what Francis returned to was not
supper, but a very excellent little dinner.
And his wife had found time, as well, to dress herself
in the most fluffy and useless-looking of rosy summer
frocks, with white slippers. She looked more
fragile and decorative and childish than he had ever
seen her, leaning across the little table talking
brightly to him about her adventures in the discovery
of the things that made up the meal.
An old quotation about “breaking
a butterfly upon a wheel” came to him as she
chattered on, telling him delightedly how she had made
up her mind to surprise him with tomato bisque if
it was her last act, and how she had discovered a
box that was labeled “condensed milk,”
and opened it with infinite pains and a hatchet; and
how after she had nearly killed herself struggling
with it, she had finally opened it, and found that
what it really contained was deviled ham in small,
vivid tins; and how she triumphed over Fate by using
the ham with other things for hors d’oeuvres;
and how she finally found powdered milk in other tins,
and achieved her goal after all.
She was exactly as she would have
been if all had gone well; and it is not to be supposed
that Francis could help feeling it. At first
he was quiet, almost gloomy; but presently, as she
talked gaily on about all the trifles she could think
of domestic trifles all of them, or things
to do with the cabin and its surroundings he
gave himself up to the enjoyment of the hour.
It was as if he said to himself, “I’ll
forget for this little space of time that it isn’t
real.” He looked absorbedly into the little
vivid face at the other side of the table, and once,
before he thought, put out his hand to take her hand
where it lay, little and slim and fragile-looking,
on the table. He drew it back quickly, but not
before Marjorie had seen the instinctive motion.
She smiled at him brilliantly, and
touched him lightly on the shoulder as she passed.
“Come, help me, Francis,”
she said. “This is our house, you know,
and I mustn’t do everything alone. And
then I must hurry over to the other cabin, and look
over my new kingdom, and it would be a shame to do
it after your faithful slaves had gone to bed.
They would have to get up and dress and stand at
attention, wouldn’t they, when they heard your
august footstep?”
She laughed openly at him as she went
into the kitchen, and he followed her and helped her
clear away obediently and smiling.
“And now, we’ll go over,”
she said, when everything was in place again.
“Get me my long blue cape, Francis, please.
It’s hanging against the door in my room.”
He came and wrapped her in it, and
crossed with her the space between the two cabins.
“They’re up yet,” he said, and knocked
on the door.