Come now over the hills to the westward.
Come to the Hillsdale woods, to the stone house by
the mill, where all the day long there is heard but
one name, the servants breathing it softly and low,
as if she who had borne it were dead, the sister,
dim-eyed now, and paler faced, whispering it oft to
herself, while the lady, so haughty and proud, repeats
it again and again, shuddering as naught but the echoing
walls reply to the heartbroken cry of, “Margaret,
Margaret, where are you now?”
Yes, there was mourning in that household-mourning
for the lost one, the darling, the pet of them all.
Brightly had the sun arisen on that
June morning which brought to them their sorrow, while
the birds in the tall forest trees caroled as gayly
as if no storm-cloud were hovering near. At an
early hour Mr. Carrollton had arisen, thinking, as
he looked forth from his window, “She will tell
me all to-day,” and smiling as he thought how
easy and pleasant would be the task of winning her
back to her olden gayety. Madam Conway, too,
was unusually excited, and very anxiously she listened
for the first sound of Maggie’s footsteps on
the stairs.
“She sleeps late,” she
thought, when breakfast was announced, and taking
her accustomed seat she bade a servant see if Margaret
were ill.
“She is not there,” was
the report the girl brought back.
“Not there!” cried Mr. Carrollton.
“Not there!” repeated
Madam Conway, a shadowy foreboding of evil stealing
over her. “She seldom walks at this early
hour,” she continued; and, rising, she went
herself to Margaret’s room.
Everything was in perfect order, the
bed was undisturbed, the chamber empty; Margaret was
gone, and on the dressing-table lay the fatal letter
telling why she went. At first Madam Conway did
not see it; but it soon caught her eye, and tremblingly
she opened it, reading but the first line, “I
am going away forever.”
Then a loud shriek rang through the
silent room, penetrating to Arthur Carrollton’s
listening ear, and bringing him at once to her side.
With the letter still in her hand, and her face of
a deathly hue, and her eyes flashing with fear, Madam
Conway turned to him as he entered, saying, “Margaret
has gone, left us forever-killed herself
it may be! Read!” And she handed him the
letter, herself bending eagerly forward to hear what
he might say.
But she listened in vain. With
lightning rapidity Arthur Carrollton read what Maggie
had written-read that she, his idol, the
chosen bride of his bosom, was the daughter of a servant,
the grandchild of old Hagar! And for this she
had fled from his presence, fled because she knew
of the mighty pride which now, in the first bitter
moment of his agony, did indeed rise up, a barrier
between himself and the beautiful girl he loved so
well. Had she lain dead before him, dead in all
her youthful beauty, he could have folded her in his
arms, and then buried her from his sight, with a feeling
of perfect happiness compared to that which he now
felt.
“Oh, Maggie, my lost one, can
it be!” he whispered to himself, and pressing
his hand upon his chest, which heaved with strong emotion,
he staggered to a seat, while the perspiration stood
in beaded drops upon his forehead and around his lips.
“What is it, Mr. Carrollton?
’Tis something dreadful, sure,” said Mrs.
Jeffrey, appearing in the door, but Madam Conway motioned
her away, and, tottering to his side, said, “Read
it to me-read.”
The Sound of her voice recalled his
wandering mind, and covering his face with his hands
he moaned in anguish; then, growing suddenly calm,
he snatched up the letter, which had fallen to the
floor, and read it aloud; while Madam Conway, stupefied
with horror, sank at his feet, and clasping her hands
above her head, rocked to and fro, but made no word
of comment. Far down the long ago her thoughts
were straying, and gathering up many bygone scenes
which told her that what she heard was true.
“Yes, ’tis true,”
she groaned; and then, powerless to speak another
word, she laid her head upon a chair, while Mr. Carrollton,
preferring to be alone, sought the solitude of his
own room, where unobserved he could wrestle with his
sorrow and conquer his inborn pride, which whispered
to him that a Carrollton must not wed a bride so far
beneath him.
Only a moment, though, and then the
love he bore for Maggie Miller rolled back upon him
with an overwhelming power, while his better judgment,
with that love, came hand in hand, pleading for the
fair young girl, who, now that he had lost her, seemed
a thousandfold dearer than before. But he had
not lost her; he would find her. She was Maggie
Miller still to him, and though old Hagar’s blood
were in her veins he would not give her up. This
resolution once made, it could not be shaken, and
when half an hour or more was passed he walked with
firm, unfaltering footsteps back to the apartment where
Madam Conway still sat upon the floor, her head resting
upon the chair, and her frame convulsed with grief.
Her struggle had been a terrible one,
and it was not over yet, for with her it was more
than a matter of pride and love. Her daughter’s
rights had been set at naught; a wrong had been done
to the dead; the child who slept beneath the pine
had been neglected; nay, in life, had been, perhaps,
despised for an intruder, for one who had no right
to call her grandmother; and shudderingly she cried,
“Why was it suffered thus to be?” Then
as she thought of white-haired Hagar Warren, she raised
her hand to curse her, but the words died on her lips,
for Hagar’s deed had brought to her much joy;
and now, as she remembered the bounding step, the
merry laugh, the sunny face, and loving words which
had made her later years so happy, she involuntarily
stretched out her arms in empty air, moaning sadly:
“I want her here. I want her now, just
as she used to be.” Then, over the grave
of her buried daughter, over the grave of the sickly
child, whose thin, blue face came up before her just
as it lay in its humble coffin, over the deception
of eighteen years, her heart bounded with one wild,
yearning throb, for every bleeding fiber clung with
a deathlike grasp to her who had been so suddenly
taken from her. “I love her still!”
she cried; “but can I take her back?”
And then commenced the fiercest struggle of all, the
battling of love and pride, the one rebelling against
the child of Hagar Warren, and the other clamoring
loudly that without that child the world to her was
nothing. It was the hour of Madam Conway’s
humiliation, and in bitterness of spirit she groaned:
“That I should come to this! Theo first,
and Margaret, my bright, my beautiful Margaret, next!
Oh, how can I give her up when I loved her best of
all-best of all!”
This was true, for all the deeper,
stronger love of Madam Conway’s nature had gone
forth to the merry, gleeful girl whose graceful, independent
bearing she had so often likened to herself and the
haughty race with which she claimed relationship.
How was this illusion dispelled! Margaret was
not a Conway, nor yet a Davenport. A servant-girl
had been her mother, and of her father there was nothing
known. Madam Conway was one who seldom wept for
grief. She had stood calmly at the bedside of
her dying husband, had buried her only daughter from
her sight, had met with many reverses, and shed for
all no tears, but now they fell like rain upon her
face, burning, blistering as they fell, but bringing
no relief.
“I shall miss her in the morning,”
she cried, “miss her at noon, miss her in the
lonesome nights, miss her everywhere-oh,
Margaret, Margaret, ’tis more than I can bear!
Come back to me now, just as you are. I want
you here-here where the pain is hardest,”
and she clasped her arms tightly over her heaving
bosom. Then her pride returned again, and with
it came thoughts of Arthur Carrollton. He would
scoff at her as weak and sentimental; he would never
take beyond the sea a bride of “Hagarish”
birth; and duty demanded that she too should be firm,
and sanction his decision. “But when he’s
gone,” she whispered, “when he has left
America behind, I’ll find her, if my life is
spared. I’ll find poor Margaret, and see
that she does not want, though I must not take her
back.”
This resolution, however, did not
bring her comfort, and the hands pressed so convulsively
upon her side could not ease her pain. Surely
never before had so dark an hour infolded that haughty
woman, and a prayer that she might die was trembling
on her lips when a footfall echoed along the hall,
and Arthur Carrollton stood before her. His face
was very pale, bearing marks of the storm he had passed
through; but he was calm, and his voice was natural
as he said: “Possibly what we have heard
is false. It may be a vagary of Hagar’s
half-crazed brain.”
For an instant Madam Conway had hoped
so too; but when she reflected, she knew that it was
true. Old Hagar had been very minute in her explanations
to Margaret, who in turn had written exactly what she
had heard, and Madam Conway, when she recalled the
past, could have no doubt that it was true. She
remembered everything, but more distinctly the change
of dress at the time of the baptism. There could
be no mistake. Margaret was not hers, and so
she said to Arthur Carrollton, turning her head away
as if she too were in some way answerable for the
disgrace.
“It matters not,” he replied,
“whose she has been. She is mine now, and
if you feel able we will consult together as to the
surest method of finding her.” A sudden
faintness came over Madam Conway, and, while the expression
of her face changed to one of joyful surprise, she
stammered out: “Can it be I hear aright?
Do I understand you? Are you willing to take
poor Maggie back?”
“I certainly have no other intention,”
he answered. “There was a moment, the memory
of which makes me ashamed, when my pride rebelled;
but it is over now, and though Maggie cannot in reality
be again your child, she can be my wife, and I must
find her.”
“You make me so happy-oh,
so happy!” said Madam Conway. “I feared
you would cast her off, and in that case it would
have been my duty to do so too, though I never loved
a human being as at this moment I love her.”
Mr. Carrollton looked as if he did
not fully comprehend the woman who, loving Margaret
as she said she did, could yet be so dependent upon
his decision; but he made no comment, and when next
he spoke he announced his intention of calling upon
Hagar, who possibly could tell him where Margaret
had gone. “At all events,” said he,
“I may ascertain why the secret, so long kept,
was at this late day divulged. It may be well,”
he continued, “to say nothing to the servants
as yet, save that Maggie has gone. Mrs. Jeffrey,
however, had better be let into the secret at once.
We can trust her, I think.”
Madam Conway bowed, and Mr. Carrollton
left the room, starting immediately for the cottage
by the mine. As he approached the house he saw
the servant who for several weeks had been staying
there, and who now came out to meet him, telling him
that since the night before Hagar had been raving
crazy, talking continually of Maggie, who, she said,
had gone where none would ever find her.
In some anxiety Mr. Carrollton pressed
on, until the cottage door was reached, where for
a moment he stood gazing silently upon the poor woman
before him. Upon the bed, her white hair falling
over her round, bent shoulders, and her large eyes
shining with delirious light, old Hagar sat, waving
back and forth, and talking of Margaret, of Hester,
and “the little foolish child,” who, with
a sneer upon her lip, she said, “was a fair
specimen of the Conway race.”
“Hagar,” said Mr. Carrollton;
and at the sound of that voice Hagar turned toward
him her flashing eyes, then with a scream buried her
head in the bedclothes, saying: “Go away,
Arthur Carrollton! Why are you here? Don’t
you know who I am? Don’t you know what Margaret
is, and don’t you know how proud you are?”
“Hagar,” he said again,
subduing, by a strong effort, the repugnance he felt
at questioning her, “I know all, except where
Margaret has gone, and if on this point you can give
me any information, I shall receive it most thankfully.”
“Gone!” shrieked Hagar,
starting up in bed; “then she has gone.
The play is played out, the performance is ended-and
I have sinned for nothing!”
“Hagar, will you tell me where
Maggie is? I wish to follow her,” said
Mr. Carrollton; and Hagar answered: “Maggie,
Maggie-he said that lovingly enough, but
there’s a catch somewhere. He does not wish
to follow her for any good-and though I
know where she has gone I’ll surely never tell.
I kept one secret nineteen years. I can keep
another as long”; and, folding her arms upon
her chest, she commenced singing, “I know full
well, but I’ll never tell.”
Biting his lips with vexation, Mr.
Carrollton tried first by persuasion, then by flattery,
and lastly by threats, to obtain from her the desired
information, but in vain. Her only answer was,
“I know full well, but I’ll never tell,”
save once, when tossing towards him her long white
hair, she shrieked: “Don’t you see
a resemblance-only hers is black-and
so was mine nineteen years ago-and so was
Hester’s too-glossy and black as
the raven’s wing. The child is like the
mother-the mother was like the grandmother,
and the grandmother is like-me, Hagar Warren.
Do you understand?”
Mr. Carrollton made no answer, and
with a feeling of disappointment walked away, shuddering
as he thought, “And she is Margaret’s
grandmother.”
He found Madam Conway in hysterics
on Margaret’s bed, for she had refused to leave
the room, saying she would die there, or nowhere.
Gradually the reality of her loss had burst upon her,
and now, gasping, choking, and wringing her hands,
she lay upon the pillows, while Mrs. Jeffrey, worked
up to a pitch of great nervous excitement, fidgeted
hither and thither, doing always the wrong thing, fanning
the lady when she did not wish to be fanned, and ceasing
to fan her just when she was “dying for want
of air.”
As yet Mrs. Jeffrey knew nothing definite,
except that something dreadful had happened to Margaret;
but very candidly Mr. Carrollton told her all, bidding
her keep silent on the subject; then, turning to Madam
Conway, he repeated to her the result of his call on
old Hagar.
“The wretch!” gasped Madam
Conway, while Mrs. Jeffrey, running in her fright
from the window to the door, and from the door back
to the window again, exclaimed: “Margaret
not a Conway, nor yet a Davenport, after all!
It is just what I expected. I always knew she
came honestly by those low-bred ways!”
“Jeffrey,” and the voice
of the hysterical woman on the bed was loud and distinct,
as she grasped the arm of the terrified little governess,
who chanced to be within her reach. “Jeffrey,
either leave my house at once, or speak more deferentially
of Miss Miller. You will call her by that name,
too. It matters not to Mr. Carrollton and myself
whose child she has been. She is ours now, and
must be treated with respect. Do you understand
me?”
“Yes, ma’am,” meekly
answered Jeffrey, rubbing her dumpy arm, which bore
the mark of a thumb and finger, and as her services
were not just then required she glided from the room
to drown, if possible, her grievance in the leather-bound
London edition of Baxter!
Meanwhile Madam Conway was consulting
with Mr. Carrollton as to the best mode of finding
Margaret. “She took the cars, of course,”
said Mr. Carrollton, adding that he should go at once
to the depot and ascertain which way she went.
“If I do not return to-night you need not be
alarmed,” he said, as he was leaving the room,
whereupon Madam Conway called him back, bidding him
telegraph for Theo at once, as she must have someone
with her besides that vexatious Jeffrey.
Mr. Carrollton promised compliance
with her request, and then went immediately to the
depot, where he learned that no one had entered the
cars from that place on the previous night, and that
Maggie, if she took the train at all, must have done
so at some other station. This was not unlikely,
and before the day was passed Mr. Carrollton had visited
several different stations, and had talked with the
conductors of the several trains, but all to no purpose;
and, very much disheartened, he returned at nightfall
to the old stone house, where to his surprise he found
both Theo and her husband. The telegram had done
its mission, and feeling anxious to know the worst
George had come up with Theo to spend the night.
It was the first time that Madam Conway had seen him
since her memorable encounter with his mother, for
though Theo had more than once been home, he had never
before accompanied her, and now when Madam Conway
heard his voice in the hall below she groaned afresh.
The sight of his good-humored face, however, and his
kind offer to do whatever he could to find the fugitive,
restored her composure in a measure, and she partially
forgot that he was in any way connected with the blue
umbrella, or the blue umbrella connected with him!
Never in her life had Theo felt very deeply upon any
subject, and now, though she seemed bewildered at what
she heard, she manifested no particular emotion, until
her grandmother, wringing her hands, exclaimed, “You
have no sister now, my child, and I no Margaret!”
Then, indeed, her tears flowed, and when her husband
whispered to her, “We will love poor Maggie all
the same,” she cried aloud, but not quite as
demonstratively as Madam Conway wished; and, in a
very unamiable frame of mind, the old lady accused
her of being selfish and hard-hearted.
At this stage of proceedings Mr. Carrollton
returned, bringing no tidings of Maggie, whereupon
another fit of hysterics ensued, and as Theo behaved
much worse than Mrs. Jeffrey had done, the latter was
finally summoned again to the sickroom, and at last
succeeded in quieting the excited woman. The
next morning George Douglas visited old Hagar, but
he too was unsuccessful, and that afternoon he returned
to Worcester, leaving Theo with her grandmother, who,
though finding fault with whatever she did, refused
to let her go until Margaret was found.
During the remainder of the week Mr.
Carrollton rode through the country, making the most
minute inquiries, and receiving always the same discouraging
answer. Once he thought to advertise, but from
making the affair thus public he instinctively shrank,
and, resolving to spare neither his time, his money,
nor his health, he pursued his weary way alone.
Once, too, Madam Conway spoke of Henry Warner, saying
it was possible Maggie might have gone to him, as she
had thought so much of Rose; but Mr. Carrollton “knew
better.” A discarded lover, he said, was
the last person in the world to whom a young girl like
Margaret would go, particularly as Theo had said that
Henry was now the husband of another.
Still the suggestion haunted him,
and on the Monday following Henry Warner’s first
visit to Worcester, he, too, went down to talk with
Mr. Douglas, asking him if it were possible that Maggie
was in Leominster.
“I know she is not,” said
George, repeating the particulars of his interview
with Henry, who, he said, was at the store on Saturday.
“Once I thought of telling him all,” said
he, “and then, considering the relation which
formerly existed between them, I concluded to keep
silent, especially as he manifested no desire to speak
of her, but appeared, I fancied, quite uneasy when
I casually mentioned Hillsdale.”
Thus was that matter decided, and
while not many miles away Maggie was watching hopelessly
for the coming of Arthur Carrollton, he, with George
Douglas, was devising the best means for finding her,
George generously offering to assist in the search,
and suggesting finally that he should himself go to
New York City, while Mr. Carrollton explored Boston
and its vicinity. It seemed quite probable that
Margaret would seek some of the large cities, as in
her letter she had said she could earn her livelihood
by teaching music; and quite hopeful of success, the
young men parted, Mr. Carrollton going immediately
to Boston, while Mr. Douglas, after a day or two, started
for New York, whither, as the reader will remember,
he had gone at the time of Henry’s last visit
to Worcester.
Here for a time we leave them, Hagar
raving mad, Madam Conway in strong hysterics, Theo
wishing herself anywhere but at Hillsdale, Mrs. Jeffrey
ditto, George Douglas threading the crowded streets
of the noisy city, and Mr. Carrollton in Boston, growing
paler and sadder as day after day passed by, bringing
him no trace of the lost one. Here, I say, we
leave them, while in another chapter we follow the
footsteps of her for whom this search was made.