“It was only something that
Jock was saying,” said Lucy, “but, Tom,
I will tell you another time. I wish you had
come in before Lady Randolph went upstairs. I
think she was a little disappointed to have only me.”
“Did she share Jock’s
secret?” Sir Tom said with a keen look of inquiry.
It is perhaps one advantage in the dim light which
fashion delights in, that it is less easy to scrutinise
the secrets of a face.
“We are all a little put wrong
when you do not come in,” said Lucy. The
cunning which weakness finds refuge in when it has
to defend itself came to her aid. “Jock
is shy when you are not here. He thinks he bores
Lady Randolph; and so we ladies are left to our own
devices.”
“Jock must not be so sensitive,”
Sir Tom said; but he was not satisfied. It occurred
to him suddenly (for schoolboys are terrible gossips)
that the boy might have heard something which he had
been repeating to Lucy. Nothing could have been
more unlikely, had he thought of it, than that Jock
should carry tales on such a subject. But we do
not stop to argue out matters when our own self-regard
is in question. He looked at the two with a doubtful
and suspicious eye.
“He will get over it as he grows
older,” said Lucy; but she gave her brother
a look which to Sir Tom seemed one of warning, and
he was irritated by it; he looked from one to another
and he laughed; but not with the genial laugh which
was his best known utterance.
“You are prodigiously on your
guard,” he said. “I suppose you have
your reasons for it. Have you been confiding
the Masons’ secret or something of that awful
character to her, Jock?”
“Why shouldn’t I tell
him?” cried Jock with great impatience.
“What is the use of making all those signs?
It’s nothing of the sort. It’s only
I’ve heard of somebody that is poor-somebody
she ought to know of-the sort of thing
that is meant in father’s will.”
“Oh!” said Sir Tom.
It was the simplest of exclamations, but it meant
much. He was partially relieved that it was not
gossip, but yet more gravely annoyed than if it had
been.
Lucy made haste to interpose.
“I will tell you afterwards,”
she said. “If I made signs, as Jock said,
it was only that I might tell it you, Tom, myself,
when there was more time.”
“I am at no loss for time,”
said Sir Tom, placing himself in the vacant chair.
The others were both standing, as became this accidental
moment before bed-time. And Lucy had been on
thorns to get away, even before her husband appeared.
She had wanted to escape from the discussion even
with Jock. She had wanted to steal into the nursery,
and see that her boy was asleep, to feel his little
forehead with her soft hand, and make sure there was
no fever. To be betrayed into a prolonged and
agitating discussion now was very provoking, very
undesirable; and Lucy had grown rather cowardly and
anxious to push away from her, as far as she could,
everything that did not belong to the moment.
“Tom,” she said, a little
tremulously, “I wish you would put it off till
to-morrow. I am-rather sleepy; it is
nearly eleven o’clock, and I always run in to
see how little Tom is going on. Besides,”
she added, with a little anxiety which was quite fictitious,
“it is keeping Fletcher up -”
“I am not afraid of Fletcher, Lucy.”
“Oh! but I am,” she said.
“I will tell you about it to-morrow. There
is nothing in the least settled, only Jock thought -”
“Settled!” Sir Tom said,
with a curious look. “No, I hope not.”
“Oh! nothing at all settled,”
said Lucy. She stood restlessly, now on one foot
now on the other, eager for flight. She did not
even observe the implied authority in this remark,
at which Jock pricked up his ears with incipient offence.
“And Jock ought to be in bed-oh, yes,
Jock, you ought. I am sure you are not allowed
to sit up so late at school. Come now, there’s
a good boy-and I will just run and see how
baby is.”
She put her hand on her brother’s
arm to take him away with her, but Jock hung back,
and Sir Tom interposed, “Now that I have just
settled myself for a chat, you had better leave Jock
with me at least, Lucy. Run away to your baby,
that is all right. Jock and I will entertain each
other. I respect his youth, you see, and don’t
try to seduce him into a cigar-you should
be thankful to me for that.”
“If I was not in sixth form,”
said Jock sharply, nettled by this indignity, “I
should smoke; but it is bad form when you are high
up in school. In the holidays I don’t mind,”
he added, with careless grandeur, upon which Sir Tom,
mollified, laughed as Lucy felt like himself.
“Off duty, eh?” he said,
“that’s a very fine sentiment, Jock.
You may be sure it’s bad form to do anything
you have promised not to do. You will say that
sounds like a copy-book. Come now, Lucy, are not
you going, little woman? Do you want to have
your share in the moralities?”
For this sudden change had somehow
quenched Lucy’s desire both to inspect the baby
and get to bed. But what could she do? She
looked very earnestly at Jock as she bade him good-night,
but neither could she shake his respect for her husband
by giving him any warning, nor offend her husband
by any appearance of secret intelligence with Jock.
Poor little Lucy went away after this through the
stately rooms and up the grand staircase with a great
tremor in her heart. There could not be a life
more guarded and happy than hers had been-full
of wealth, full of love, not a crumpled rose-leaf
to disturb her comfort. But as she stole along
the dim corridor to the nursery her heart was beating
full of all the terrors that make other hearts to
ache. She was afraid for the child’s life,
which was the worst of all, and looked with a suppressed
yet terrible panic into the dark future which contained
she knew not what for him. And she was afraid
of her husband, the kindest man in the world, not
knowing how he might take the discovery he had just
made, fearing to disclose her mind to him, finding
herself guilty in the mere idea of hiding anything
from him. And she was afraid of Jock, that he
would irritate Sir Tom, or be irritated by him, or
that some wretched breach or quarrel might arise between
these two. Jock was not an ordinary boy; there
was no telling how he might take any reproof that
might be addressed to him-perhaps with the
utmost reasonableness, perhaps with a rapid defiance.
Lady Randolph thus, though no harm had befallen her,
had come into the usual heritage of humanity, and was
as anxious and troubled as most of us are; though
she was so happy and well off. She was on thorns
to know what was passing in the room she had just
left.
This was all that passed. Jock,
standing up against the mantelpiece, looked down somewhat
lowering upon Sir Tom in the easy chair. He expected
to be questioned, and had made up his mind, though
with great indignation at the idea that any one should
find fault with Lucy, to take the whole blame upon
himself. That Lucy should not be free to carry
out her duty as seemed to her best was to Jock intolerable.
He had put his boyish faith in her all his life.
Even since the time, a very early one, when Jock had
felt himself much cleverer than Lucy; even when he
had been obliged to make up his mind that Lucy was
not clever at all-he had still believed
in her. She had a mission in the world which
separated her from other women. Nobody else had
ever had the same thing to do. Many people had
dispensed charities and founded hospitals, but Lucy’s
office in the world was of a different description-and
Jock had faith in her power to do it. To see
her wavering was trouble to him, and the discovery
he had just made of something beneath the surface,
a latent opposition in her husband which she plainly
shrank from encountering, gave the boy a shock from
which it was not easy to recover. He had always
liked Sir Tom; but if - One thing,
however, was apparent, if there was any blame, anything
to find fault with, it was he, Jock, and not Lucy,
that must bear that blame.
“So, Jock, Lucy thinks you should
be in bed. When do they put out your lights at
school? In my time we were up to all manner of
tricks. I remember a certain dark lantern that
was my joy; but that was in old Keate’s time,
you know, who never trusted the fellows. You are
under a better rule now.”
This took away Jock’s breath,
who had been prepared for a sterner interrogation.
He answered with a sudden blush, but with the rallying
of all his forces: “I light them again
sometimes. It’s hard on a fellow, don’t
you think, sir, when he’s not sleepy and has
a lot to do?”
“I never had much experience
of that,” said Sir Tom. “We were always
sleepy, and never did anything in my time. It
was for larking, I’m afraid, that we wanted
light. And so it is seen on me, Jock. You
will be a fellow of your college, whereas I -”
“I don’t think so,”
said Jock generously. “That construe you
gave me, don’t you remember, last half?
MTutor says it is capital. He says he couldn’t
have done it so well. Of course, that is his modest
way,” the boy added, “for everybody knows
there isn’t such another scholar! but that’s
what he says.”
Sir Tom laughed, and a slight suffusion
of colour appeared on his face. He was pleased
with this unexpected applause. At five-and-forty,
after knocking about the world for years, and “never
opening a book,” as people say, to have given
a good “construe” is a feather in one’s
cap. “To be second to your tutor is all
a man has to hope for,” he said, with that mellow
laugh which it was so pleasant to hear. “I
hope I know my place, Jock. We had no such godlike
beings in my time. Old Puck, as we used to call
him, was my tutor. He had a red nose, which was
the chief feature in his character. He looked
upon us all as his natural enemies, and we paid him
back with interest. Did I ever tell of that time
when we were going to Ascot in a cab, four of us,
and he caught sight of the turn-out?”
“I don’t think so,”
said Jock, with a little hesitation. He remembered
every detail of this story, which indeed Sir Tom had
told him perhaps more than once; for in respect to
such legends the best of us repeat ourselves.
Many were the thoughts in the boy’s mind as he
stood against the mantelpiece and looked down upon
the man before him, going over with much relish the
tale of boyish mischief, the delight of the urchins
and the pedagogue’s discomfiture. Sir Tom
threw himself back in his chair with a peal of joyous
laughter.
“Jove! I think I can see
him now with the corners of his mouth all dropped,
and his nose like a beacon,” he cried. Jock
meanwhile looked down upon him very gravely, though
he smiled in courtesy. He was a different manner
of boy from anything Sir Tom could ever have been,
and he wondered, as young creatures will, over the
little world of mystery and knowledge which was shut
up within the elder man. What things he had done
in his life-what places he had seen!
He had lived among savages, and fought his way, and
seen death and life. Jock, only on the threshold,
gazed at him with a curious mixture of awe and wonder
and kind contempt. He would himself rather look
down upon a fellow (he thought) who did that sort
of practical joke now. MTutor would regard such
an individual as a natural curiosity. And yet
here was this man who had seen so much, and done so
much, who ought to have profited by the long results
of time, and grown to such superiority and mental
elevation-here was he, turning back with
delight to the schoolboy’s trick. It filled
Jock with a great and compassionate wonder. But
he was a very civil boy. He was one who could
not bear to hurt a fellow-creature’s feelings,
even those of an old duffer whose recollections were
all of the bygone ages. So he did his best to
laugh. And Sir Tom enjoyed his own joke so much
that he did not know that it was from the lips only
that his young companion’s laugh came. He
got up and patted Jock on the shoulders with the utmost
benevolence when this pastime was done.
“They don’t indulge in
that sort of fooling nowadays,” he said.
“So much the better-though I don’t
know that it did us much harm. Now come along,
let us go to bed, according to my lady’s orders.
We must all, you know, do what Lucy tells us in this
house.”
Jock obeyed, feeling somewhat “shut
up,” as he called it, in a sort of blank of
confused discomfiture. Sir Tom had the best of
it, by whatever means he attained that end. The
boy had intended to offer himself a sacrifice, to
brave anything that an angry man could say to him for
Lucy’s sake, and at the same time to die if necessary
for Lucy’s right to carry out her father’s
will, and accomplish her mission uninterrupted and
untrammelled. When lo, Sir Tom had taken to telling
him schoolboy stories, and sent him to bed with good-humoured
kindness, without leaving him the slightest opening
either to defend Lucy or take blame upon himself.
He was half angry, and humbled in his own esteem, but
there was nothing for it but to submit. Sir Tom
for his part, did not go to bed. He went and
smoked a lonely cigar, and his face lost its genial
smile. The light of it, indeed, disappeared altogether
under a cloud, as he sat gravely over his fire and
puffed the smoke away. He had the air of a man
who had a task to do which was not congenial to him.
“Poor little soul,” he said to himself.
He could not bear to vex her. There was nothing
in the world that he would have grudged to his wife.
Any luxury, any adornment that he could have procured
for her he would have jumped at. But it was his
fate to be compelled to oppose and subdue her instead.
The only thing was to do it quickly and decisively,
since done it must be. If she had been a warrior
worthy of his steel, a woman who would have defended
herself and held her own, it would have been so much
more easy; but it was not without a compunction that
Sir Tom thought of the disproportion of their forces,
of the soft and compliant creature who had never raised
her will against his or done other than accept his
suggestions and respond to his guidance. He remembered
how Lucy had stuck to her colours before her marriage,
and how she had vanquished the unwilling guardians
who regarded what they thought the squandering of
her money with a consternation and fury that were beyond
bounds. He had thought it highly comic at the
time, and even now there passed a gleam of humour
over his face at the recollection. He could not
deny himself a smile when he thought it all over.
She had worsted her guardians, and thrown away her
money triumphantly, and Sir Tom had regarded the whole
as an excellent joke. But the recollection of
this did not discourage him now. He had no thought
that Lucy would stand out against him. It might
vex her, however, dear little woman. No doubt
she and Jock had been making up some fine Quixotic
plans between them, and probably it would be a shock
to her when her husband interfered. He had got
to be so fond of his little wife, and his heart was
so kind, that he could not bear the idea of vexing
Lucy. But still it would have to be done.
He rose up at last, and threw away the end of his
cigar with a look of vexation and trouble. It
was necessary, but it was a nuisance, however.
“If it were done when ’tis done, then ’twere
well it were done quickly,” he said to himself;
then laughed again, as he took his way upstairs, at
the over-significance of the words. He was not
going to murder anybody; only when the moment proved
favourable, for once and only once, seeing it was
inevitable, he had to bring under lawful authority-an
easy task-the gentle little feminine creature
who was his wife.