IT was nearly an hour past noon when
Mr. Pendril left the house. Miss Garth sat down
again at the table alone, and tried to face the necessity
which the event of the morning now forced on her.
Her mind was not equal to the effort.
She tried to lessen the strain on it to
lose the sense of her own position to escape
from her thoughts for a few minutes only. After
a little, she opened Mr. Vanstone’s letter,
and mechanically set herself to read it through once
more.
One by one, the last words of the
dead man fastened themselves more and more firmly
on her attention. The unrelieved solitude, the
unbroken silence, helped their influence on her mind
and opened it to those very impressions of past and
present which she was most anxious to shun. As
she reached the melancholy lines which closed the letter,
she found herself insensibly, almost unconsciously,
at first tracing the fatal chain of events,
link by link backward, until she reached its beginning
in the contemplated marriage between Magdalen and Francis
Clare.
That marriage had taken Mr. Vanstone
to his old friend, with the confession on his lips
which would otherwise never have escaped them.
Thence came the discovery which had sent him home to
summon the lawyer to the house. That summons,
again, had produced the inevitable acceleration of
the Saturday’s journey to Friday; the Friday
of the fatal accident, the Friday when he went to
his death. From his death followed the second
bereavement which had made the house desolate; the
helpless position of the daughters whose prosperous
future had been his dearest care; the revelation of
the secret which had overwhelmed her that morning;
the disclosure, more terrible still, which she now
stood committed to make to the orphan sisters.
For the first time she saw the whole sequence of events saw
it as plainly as the cloudless blue of the sky and
the green glow of the trees in the sunlight outside.
How when could she tell
them? Who could approach them with the disclosure
of their own illegitimacy before their father and mother
had been dead a week? Who could speak the dreadful
words, while the first tears were wet on their cheeks,
while the first pang of separation was at its keenest
in their hearts, while the memory of the funeral was
not a day old yet? Not their last friend left;
not the faithful woman whose heart bled for them.
No! silence for the present time, at all risks merciful
silence, for many days to come!
She left the room, with the will and
the letter in her hand with the natural,
human pity at her heart which sealed her lips and shut
her eyes resolutely to the future. In the hall
she stopped and listened. Not a sound was audible.
She softly ascended the stairs, on her way to her
own room, and passed the door of Norah’s bed-chamber.
Voices inside, the voices of the two sisters, caught
her ear. After a moment’s consideration,
she checked herself, turned back, and quickly descended
the stairs again. Both Norah and Magdalen knew
of the interview between Mr. Pendril and herself;
she had felt it her duty to show them his letter making
the appointment. Could she excite their suspicion
by locking herself up from them in her room as soon
as the lawyer had left the house? Her hand trembled
on the banister; she felt that her face might betray
her. The self-forgetful fortitude, which had never
failed her until that day, had been tried once too
often had been tasked beyond its powers
at last.
At the hall door she reflected for
a moment again, and went into the garden; directing
her steps to a rustic bench and table placed out of
sight of the house among the trees. In past times
she had often sat there, with Mrs. Vanstone on one
side, with Norah on the other, with Magdalen and the
dogs romping on the grass. Alone she sat there
now the will and the letter which she dared
not trust out of her own possession, laid on the table her
head bowed over them; her face hidden in her hands.
Alone she sat there and tried to rouse her sinking
courage.
Doubts thronged on her of the dark
days to come; dread beset her of the hidden danger
which her own silence toward Norah and Magdalen might
store up in the near future. The accident of a
moment might suddenly reveal the truth. Mr. Pendril
might write, might personally address himself to the
sisters, in the natural conviction that she had enlightened
them. Complications might gather round them at
a moment’s notice; unforeseen necessities might
arise for immediately leaving the house. She
saw all these perils and still the cruel
courage to face the worst, and speak, was as far from
her as ever. Ere long the thickening conflict
of her thoughts forced its way outward for relief,
in words and actions. She raised her head and
beat her hand helplessly on the table.
“God help me, what am I to do?”
she broke out. “How am I to tell them?”
“There is no need to tell them,”
said a voice behind her. “They know it
already.”
She started to her feet and looked
round. It was Magdalen who stood before her Magdalen
who had spoken those words.
Yes, there was the graceful figure,
in its mourning garments, standing out tall and black
and motionless against the leafy background. There
was Magdalen herself, with a changeless stillness on
her white face; with an icy resignation in her steady
gray eyes.
“We know it already,”
she repeated, in clear, measured tones. “Mr.
Vanstone’s daughters are Nobody’s Children;
and the law leaves them helpless at their uncle’s
mercy.”
So, without a tear on her cheeks,
without a faltering tone in her voice, she repeated
the lawyer’s own words, exactly as he had spoken
them. Miss Garth staggered back a step and caught
at the bench to support herself. Her head swam;
she closed her eyes in a momentary faintness.
When they opened again, Magdalen’s arm was supporting
her, Magdalen’s breath fanned her cheek, Magdalen’s
cold lips kissed her. She drew back from the
kiss; the touch of the girl’s lips thrilled her
with terror.
As soon as she could speak she put
the inevitable question. “You heard us,”
she said. “Where?”
“Under the open window.”
“All the time?”
“From beginning to end.”
She had listened this girl
of eighteen, in the first week of her orphanage, had
listened to the whole terrible revelation, word by
word, as it fell from the lawyer’s lips; and
had never once betrayed herself! From first to
last, the only movements which had escaped her had
been movements guarded enough and slight enough to
be mistaken for the passage of the summer breeze through
the leaves!
“Don’t try to speak yet,”
she said, in softer and gentler tones. “Don’t
look at me with those doubting eyes. What wrong
have I done? When Mr. Pendril wished to speak
to you about Norah and me, his letter gave us our
choice to be present at the interview, or to keep away.
If my elder sister decided to keep away, how could
I come? How could I hear my own story except
as I did? My listening has done no harm.
It has done good it has saved you the distress
of speaking to us. You have suffered enough for
us already; it is time we learned to suffer for ourselves.
I have learned. And Norah is learning.”
“Norah!”
“Yes. I have done all I could to spare
you. I have told Norah.”
She had told Norah! Was this
girl, whose courage had faced the terrible necessity
from which a woman old enough to be her mother had
recoiled, the girl Miss Garth had brought up? the
girl whose nature she had believed to be as well known
to her as her own?
“Magdalen!” she cried out, passionately,
“you frighten me!”
Magdalen only sighed, and turned wearily away.
“Try not to think worse of me
than I deserve,” she said. “I can’t
cry. My heart is numbed.”
She moved away slowly over the grass.
Miss Garth watched the tall black figure gliding away
alone until it was lost among the trees. While
it was in sight she could think of nothing else.
The moment it was gone, she thought of Norah.
For the first time in her experience of the sisters
her heart led her instinctively to the elder of the
two.
Norah was still in her own room.
She was sitting on the couch by the window, with her
mother’s old music-book the keepsake
which Mrs. Vanstone had found in her husband’s
study on the day of her husband’s death spread
open on her lap. She looked up from it with such
quiet sorrow, and pointed with such ready kindness
to the vacant place at her side, that Miss Garth doubted
for the moment whether Magdalen had spoken the truth.
“See,” said Norah, simply, turning to the
first leaf in the music-book “my
mother’s name written in it, and some verses
to my father on the next page. We may keep this
for ourselves, if we keep nothing else.”
She put her arm round Miss Garth’s neck, and
a faint tinge of color stole over her cheeks.
“I see anxious thoughts in your face,”
she whispered. “Are you anxious about me?
Are you doubting whether I have heard it? I have
heard the whole truth. I might have felt it bitterly,
later; it is too soon to feel it now. You have
seen Magdalen? She went out to find you where
did you leave her?”
“In the garden. I couldn’t
speak to her; I couldn’t look at her. Magdalen
has frightened me.”
Norah rose hurriedly; rose, startled
and distressed by Miss Garth’s reply.
“Don’t think ill of Magdalen,”
she said. “Magdalen suffers in secret more
than I do. Try not to grieve over what you have
heard about us this morning. Does it matter who
we are, or what we keep or lose? What loss is
there for us after the loss of our father and mother?
Oh, Miss Garth, there is the only bitterness!
What did we remember of them when we laid them in
the grave yesterday? Nothing but the love they
gave us the love we must never hope for
again. What else can we remember to-day?
What change can the world, and the world’s cruel
laws make in our memory of the kindest father,
the kindest mother, that children ever had!”
She stopped: struggled with her rising grief;
and quietly, resolutely, kept it down. “Will
you wait here,” she said, “while I go
and bring Magdalen back? Magdalen was always your
favorite: I want her to be your favorite still.”
She laid the music-book gently on Miss Garth’s
lap and left the room.
“Magdalen was always your favorite.”
Tenderly as they had been spoken,
those words fell reproachfully on Miss Garth’s
ear. For the first time in the long companionship
of her pupils and herself a doubt whether she, and
all those about her, had not been fatally mistaken
in their relative estimate of the sisters, now forced
itself on her mind.
She had studied the natures of her
two pupils in the daily intimacy of twelve years.
Those natures, which she believed herself to have sounded
through all their depths, had been suddenly tried in
the sharp ordeal of affliction. How had they
come out from the test? As her previous experience
had prepared her to see them? No: in flat
contradiction to it.
What did such a result as this imply?
Thoughts came to her, as she asked
herself that question, which have startled and saddened
us all.
Does there exist in every human being,
beneath that outward and visible character which is
shaped into form by the social influences surrounding
us, an inward, invisible disposition, which is part
of ourselves, which education may indirectly modify,
but can never hope to change? Is the philosophy
which denies this and asserts that we are born with
dispositions like blank sheets of paper a philosophy
which has failed to remark that we are not born with
blank faces a philosophy which has never
compared together two infants of a few days old, and
has never observed that those infants are not born
with blank tempers for mothers and nurses to fill
up at will? Are there, infinitely varying with
each individual, inbred forces of Good and Evil in
all of us, deep down below the reach of mortal encouragement
and mortal repression hidden Good and hidden
Evil, both alike at the mercy of the liberating opportunity
and the sufficient temptation? Within these earthly
limits, is earthly Circumstance ever the key; and
can no human vigilance warn us beforehand of the forces
imprisoned in ourselves which that key may unlock?
For the first time, thoughts such
as these rose darkly as shadowy and terrible
possibilities in Miss Garth’s mind.
For the first time, she associated those possibilities
with the past conduct and characters, with the future
lives and fortunes of the orphan sisters.
Searching, as in a glass darkly, into
the two natures, she felt her way, doubt by doubt,
from one possible truth to another. It might be
that the upper surface of their characters was all
that she had, thus far, plainly seen in Norah and
Magdalen. It might be that the unalluring secrecy
and reserve of one sister, the all-attractive openness
and high spirits of the other, were more or less referable,
in each case, to those physical causes which work
toward the production of moral results. It might
be, that under the surface so formed a surface
which there had been nothing, hitherto, in the happy,
prosperous, uneventful lives of the sisters to disturb forces
of inborn and inbred disposition had remained concealed,
which the shock of the first serious calamity in their
lives had now thrown up into view. Was this so?
Was the promise of the future shining with prophetic
light through the surface-shadow of Norah’s
reserve, and darkening with prophetic gloom, under
the surface-glitter of Magdalen’s bright spirits?
If the life of the elder sister was destined henceforth
to be the ripening ground of the undeveloped Good
that was in her-was the life of the younger doomed
to be the battle-field of mortal conflict with the
roused forces of Evil in herself?
On the brink of that terrible conclusion,
Miss Garth shrank back in dismay. Her heart was
the heart of a true woman. It accepted the conviction
which raised Norah higher in her love: it rejected
the doubt which threatened to place Magdalen lower.
She rose and paced the room impatiently; she recoiled
with an angry suddenness from the whole train of thought
in which her mind had been engaged but the moment before.
What if there were dangerous elements in the strength
of Magdalen’s character was it not
her duty to help the girl against herself? How
had she performed that duty? She had let herself
be governed by first fears and first impressions;
she had never waited to consider whether Magdalen’s
openly acknowledged action of that morning might not
imply a self-sacrificing fortitude, which promised,
in after-life, the noblest and the most enduring results.
She had let Norah go and speak those words of tender
remonstrance, which she should first have spoken herself.
“Oh!” she thought, bitterly, “how
long I have lived in the world, and how little I have
known of my own weakness and wickedness until to-day!”
The door of the room opened.
Norah came in, as she had gone out, alone.
“Do you remember leaving anything
on the little table by the garden-seat?” she
asked, quietly.
Before Miss Garth could answer the
question, she held out her father’s will and
her father’s letter.
“Magdalen came back after you
went away,” she said, “and found these
last relics. She heard Mr. Pendril say they were
her legacy and mine. When I went into the garden
she was reading the letter. There was no need
for me to speak to her; our father had spoken to her
from his grave. See how she has listened to him!”
She pointed to the letter. The
traces of heavy tear-drops lay thick over the last
lines of the dead man’s writing.
“Her tears,” said Norah, softly.
Miss Garth’s head drooped low
over the mute revelation of Magdalen’s return
to her better self.
“Oh, never doubt her again!”
pleaded Norah. “We are alone now we
have our hard way through the world to walk on as
patiently as we can. If Magdalen ever falters
and turns back, help her for the love of old times;
help her against herself.”
“With all my heart and strength as
God shall judge me, with the devotion of my whole
life!” In those fervent words Miss Garth answered.
She took the hand which Norah held out to her, and
put it, in sorrow and humility, to her lips.
“Oh, my love, forgive me! I have been miserably
blind I have never valued you as I ought!”
Norah gently checked her before she
could say more; gently whispered, “Come with
me into the garden come, and help Magdalen
to look patiently to the future.”
The future! Who could see the
faintest glimmer of it? Who could see anything
but the ill-omened figure of Michael Vanstone, posted
darkly on the verge of the present time and
closing all the prospect that lay beyond him?