It was not long before Jimbo realised
that the House, and everything connected with it,
spelt for him one message, and one only a
message of fear. From the first day of his imprisonment
the forces of his whole being shaped themselves without
further ado into one intense, single, concentrated
desire to escape.
Freedom, escape into the world beyond
that terrible high wall, was his only object, and
Miss Lake, the governess, as its symbol, was his only
hope. He asked a lot of questions and listened
to a lot of answers, but all he really cared about
was how he was going to escape, and when. All
her other explanations were tedious, and he only half-listened
to them. His faith in her was absolute, his patience
unbounded; she had come to save him, and he knew that
before long she would accomplish her end. He
felt a blind and perfect confidence. But, meanwhile,
his fear of the House, and his horror for the secret
Being who meant to keep him prisoner till at length
he became one of the troop of Frightened Children,
increased by leaps and bounds.
Presently the trap-door creaked again,
and the governess reappeared; in her hand was a small
white jug and a soup plate.
“Thin gruel and skim milk,”
she explained, pouring out a substance like paste
into the soup plate, and handing him a big wooden spoon.
But Jimbo’s hunger had somehow vanished.
“It wasn’t real hunger,”
she told him, “but only a sort of memory of
being hungry. They’re trying to feed your
broken body now in the night-nursery, and so you feel
a sort of ghostly hunger here even though you’re
out of the body.”
“It’s easily satisfied,
at any rate,” he said, looking at the paste in
the soup plate.
“No one actually eats or drinks here ”
“But I’m solid,” he said, “am
I not?”
“People always think they’re
solid everywhere,” she laughed. “It’s
only a question of degree; solidity here means
a different thing to solidity there.”
“I can get thinner though, can’t
I?” he asked, thinking of her remark about escape
being easier the lighter he grew.
She assured him there would be no
difficulty about that, and after replying evasively
to a lot more questions, she gathered up the dishes
and once more disappeared through the trap-door.
Jimbo watched her going down the ladder
into the black gulf below, and wondered greatly where
she went to and what she did down there; but on these
points the governess had refused to satisfy his curiosity,
and every time she appeared or disappeared the atmosphere
of mystery came and went with her.
As he stared, wondering, a sound suddenly
made itself heard behind him, and on turning quickly
round he saw to his great surprise that the door into
the passage was open. This was more than he could
resist, and in another minute, with mingled feelings
of dread and delight, he was out in the passage.
When he was first brought to the house,
two hours before, it had been too dark to see properly,
but now the sun was high in the heavens, and the light
still increasing. He crept cautiously to the head
of the stairs and peered over into the well of the
house. It was still too dark to make things out
clearly; but, as he looked, he thought something moved
among the shadows below, and for a moment his heart
stood still with fear. A large grey face seemed
to be staring up at him out of the gloom. He
clutched the banisters and felt as if he hardly had
strength enough in his legs to get back to the room
he had just left; but almost immediately the terror
passed, for he saw that the face resolved itself into
the mingling of light and shadow, and the features,
after all, were of his own creation. He went
on slowly and stealthily down the staircase.
It was certainly an empty house.
There were no carpets; the passages were cold and
draughty; the paper curled from the damp walls, leaving
ugly discoloured patches about; cobwebs hung in many
places from the ceiling, the windows were more or
less broken, and all were coated so thickly with dirt
that the rain had traced little furrows from top to
bottom. Shadows hung about everywhere, and Jimbo
thought every minute he saw moving figures; but the
figures always resolved themselves into nothing when
he looked closely.
He began to wonder how far it was
safe to go, and why the governess had arranged for
the door to be opened for he felt sure it
was she who had done this, and that it was all right
for him to come out. Fright, she had said, was
never about in the daylight. But, at the same
time, something warned him to be ready at a moment’s
notice to turn and dash up the stairs again to the
room where he was at least comparatively safe.
So he moved along very quietly and
very cautiously. He passed many rooms with the
doors open all empty and silent; some of
them had tables and chairs, but no sign of occupation;
the grates were black and empty, the walls blank,
the windows unshuttered. Everywhere was only silence
and shadows; there was no sign of the frightened children,
or of where they lived; no trace of another staircase
leading to the region where the governess went when
she disappeared down the ladder through the trap-door only
hushed, listening, cold silence, and shadows that seemed
for ever shifting from place to place as he moved past
them. This illusion of people peering at him
from corners, and behind doors just ajar, was very
strong; yet whenever he turned his head to face them,
lo, they were gone, and the shadows rushed in to fill
their places.
The spell of the Empty House was weaving
itself slowly and surely about his heart.
Yet he went on pluckily, full of a
dreadful curiosity, continuing his search, and at
length, after passing through another gloomy passage,
he was in the act of crossing the threshold of an
open door leading out into the courtyard, when he
stopped short and clutched the door-posts with both
hands.
Some one had laughed!
He turned, trying to look in every
direction at once, but there was no sign of any living
being. Yet the sound was close beside him; he
could still hear it ringing in his ears a
mocking sort of laugh, in a harsh, guttural voice.
The blood froze in his veins, and he hardly knew which
way to turn, when another voice sounded, and his terror
disappeared as if by magic.
It was Miss Lake’s voice calling
to him over the banisters at the top of the house,
and its tone was so cheerful that all his courage came
back in a twinkling.
“Go out into the yard,”
she called, “and play in the sunshine. But
don’t stay too long.”
Jimbo answered “All right”
in a rather feeble little voice, and went on down
the passage and out into the yard.
The June sunshine lay hot and still
over the paved court, and he looked up into the blue
sky overhead. As he looked at the high wall that
closed it in on three sides, he realised more than
ever that he was caught in a monstrous trap from which
there could be no ordinary means of escape. He
could never climb over such a wall even with a ladder.
He walked out a little way and noticed the rank weeds
growing in patches in the corners; decay and neglect
left everywhere their dismal signs; the yard, in spite
of the sunlight, seemed as gloomy and cheerless as
the house itself.
In one corner stood several little
white upright stones, each about three feet high;
there seemed to be some writing on them, and he was
in the act of going nearer to inspect, when a window
opened and he heard some one calling to him in a loud,
excited whisper:
“Hst! Come in, Jimbo, at once. Quick!
Run for your life!”
He glanced up, quaking with fear,
and saw the governess leaning out of the open window.
At another window, a little beyond her, he thought
a number of white little faces pressed against the
glass, but he had no time to look more closely, for
something in Miss Lake’s voice made him turn
and run into the house and up the stairs as though
Fright himself were close at his heels. He flew
up the three flights, and found the governess coming
out on the top landing to meet him. She caught
him in her arms and dashed back into the room, as
if there was not a moment to be lost, slamming the
door behind her.
“How in the world did you get
out?” she gasped, breathless as himself almost,
and pale with alarm. “Another second and
He’d have had you !”
“I found the door open ”
“He opened it on purpose,”
she whispered, looking quickly round the room.
“He meant you to go out.”
“But you called to me to play
in the yard,” he said. “I heard you.
So of course I thought it was safe.”
“No,” she declared, “I
never called to you. That wasn’t my voice.
That was one of his tricks. I only this minute
found the door open and you gone. Oh, Jimbo,
that was a narrow escape; you must never go out of
this room till till I tell you. And
never believe any of these voices you hear you’ll
hear lots of them, saying all sorts of things but
unless you see me, don’t believe it’s
my voice.”
Jimbo promised. He was very frightened;
but she would not tell him any more, saying it would
only make it more difficult to escape if he knew too
much in advance. He told her about the laugh,
and the gravestones, and the faces at the other window,
but she would not tell him what he wanted to know,
and at last he gave up asking. A very deep impression
had been made on his mind, however, and he began to
realise, more than he had hitherto done, the horror
of his prison and the power of his dreadful keeper.
But when he began to look about him
again, he noticed that there was a new thing in the
room. The governess had left him, and was bending
over it. She was doing something very busily
indeed. He asked her what it was.
“I’m making your bed,” she said.
It was, indeed, a bed, and he felt
as he looked at it that there was something very familiar
and friendly about the yellow framework and the little
brass knobs.
“I brought it up just now,”
she explained. “But it’s not for sleeping
in. It’s only for you to lie down on, and
also partly to deceive Him.”
“Why not for sleeping?”
“There’s no sleeping at all here,”
she went on calmly.
“Why not?”
“You can’t sleep out of your body,”
she laughed.
“Why not?” he asked again.
“Your body goes to sleep, but you don’t,”
she explained.
“Oh, I see.” His head was whirling.
“And my body my real body ”
“Is lying asleep unconscious
they call it in the night-nursery at home.
It’s sound asleep. That’s why you’re
here. It can’t wake up till you go back
to it, and you can’t go back to it till you escape even
if it’s ready for you before then. The
bed is only for you to rest on, for you can rest
though you can’t sleep.”
Jimbo stared blankly at the governess
for some minutes. He was debating something in
his mind, something very important, and just then it
was his Older Self, and not the child, that was uppermost.
Apparently it was soon decided, for he walked sedately
up to her and said very gravely, with her serious
eyes fixed on his face, “Miss Lake, are you really
Miss Lake?”
“Of course I am.”
“You’re not a trick of His, like the voices,
I mean?”
“No, Jimbo, I am really Miss
Lake, the discharged governess who frightened you.”
There was profound anxiety in every word.
Jimbo waited a minute, still looking
steadily into her eyes. Then he put out his hand
cautiously and touched her. He rose a little on
tiptoe to be on a level with her face, taking a fold
of her cloak in each hand. The soul-knowledge
was in his eyes just then, not the mere curiosity of
the child.
“And are you dead?”
he asked, sinking his voice to a whisper.
For a moment the woman’s eyes
wavered. She turned white and tried to move away;
but the boy seized her hand and peered more closely
into her face.
“I mean, if we escape and I
get back into my body,” he whispered, “will
you get back into yours too?”
The governess made no reply, and shifted
uneasily on her feet. But the boy would not let
her go.
“Please answer,” he urged, still in a
whisper.
“Jimbo, what funny questions
you ask!” she said at last, in a husky voice,
but trying to smile.
“But I want to know,”
he said. “I must know. I believe you
are giving up everything just to save me everything;
and I don’t want to be saved unless you come
too. Tell me!”
The colour came back to her cheeks
a little, and her eyes grew moist. Again she
tried to slip past him, but he prevented her.
“You must tell me,” he
urged; “I would rather stay here with you than
escape back into my body and leave you behind.”
Jimbo knew it was his Older Self speaking the
freed spirit rather than the broken body but
he felt the strain was very great; he could not keep
it up much longer; any minute he might slip back into
the child again, and lose interest, and be unequal
to the task he now saw so clearly before him.
“Quick!” he cried in a
louder voice. “Tell me! You are giving
up everything to save me, aren’t you? And
if I escape you will be left alone quick,
answer me! Oh, be quick, I’m slipping back ”
Already he felt his thoughts becoming
confused again, as the spirit merged back into the
child; in another minute the boy would usurp the older
self.
“You see,” began the governess
at length, speaking very gently and sadly, “I
am bound to make amends whatever happens. I must
atone ”
But already he found it hard to follow.
“Atone,” he asked, “what
does ‘atone’ mean?” He moved
back a step, and glanced about the room. The
moment of concentration had passed without bearing
fruit; his thoughts began to wander again like a child’s.
“Anyhow, we shall escape together when the chance
comes, shan’t we?” he said.
“Yes, darling, we shall,”
she said in a broken voice. “And if you
do what I tell you, it will come very soon, I hope.”
She drew him towards her and kissed him, and though
he didn’t respond very heartily, he felt he
liked it, and was sure that she was good, and meant
to do the best possible for him.
Jimbo asked nothing more for some
time; he turned to the bed where he found a mattress
and a blanket, but no sheets, and sat down on the edge
and waited. The governess was standing by the
window looking out; her back was turned to him.
He heard an occasional deep sigh come from her, but
he was too busy now with his own sensations to trouble
much about her. Looking past her he saw the sea
of green leaves dancing lazily in the sunshine.
Something seemed to beckon him from beyond the high
wall, and he longed to go out and play in the shade
of the elms and hawthorns; for the horror of the Empty
House was closing in upon him steadily but surely,
and he longed for escape into a bright, unhaunted atmosphere,
more than anything else in the whole world.
His thoughts ran on and on in this
vein, till presently he noticed that the governess
was moving about the room. She crossed over and
tried first one door and then the other; both were
fastened. Next she lifted the trap-door and peered
down into the black hole below. That, too, apparently
was satisfactory. Then she came over to the bedside
on tiptoe.
“Jimbo, I’ve got something
very important to ask you,” she began.
“All right,” he said, full of curiosity.
“You must answer me very exactly. Everything
depends on it.”
“I will.”
She took another long look round the
room, and then, in a still lower whisper, bent over
him, and asked:
“Have you any pain?”
“Where?” he asked, remembering to be exact.
“Anywhere.”
He thought a moment.
“None, thank you.”
“None at all anywhere?” she
insisted.
“None at all anywhere,” he
said with decision.
She seemed disappointed.
“Never mind; it’s a little
soon yet, perhaps,” she said. “We
must have patience. It will come in time.”
“But I don’t want any pain,” he
said, rather ruefully.
“You can’t escape till it comes.”
“I don’t understand a
bit what you mean.” He began to feel alarmed
at the notion of escape and pain going together.
“You’ll understand later,
though,” she said soothingly, “and it won’t
hurt very much. The sooner the pain comes,
the sooner we can try to escape. Nowhere can
there be escape without it.”
And with that she left him, disappearing
without another word into the hole below the trap,
and leaving him, disconsolate yet excited, alone in
the room.